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2016-01-31 at 10:12 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionYou know that feeling when someone youlove treats youlike shit, shits all over you and verbally abuses you all because mentally cant hold the discussion they want right then because the night before you got abused and mistreated and shit all over again? Hoe can you hold a fucking serious conversation discussing important details about your life and future solely through texting? Am I stupid for feeling that way? §m£ÂgØL is seriously schizophrenic. If he were honest with a phychologist, Im 100% sure he would be diagnosed. Im constantly accused of trying to get child support despite another man listed as the father on the birth certificate and fuck... why havent I by now if I could? Im told I dont love nor care about him despite getting two jobs to try and make a life with us work together and sent him a nearly whole script of klonopin he asked for and promised not to abuse- he abused them the first day in his possession. I almost called up and had the package stopped because he went off in left field and was a space cadet on kpins he paid 5$ a piece from his 'friend' but he begged me not to do that with promises he wouldnt abuse them nomatter what- notto mention, I sent them with a goodie bag of other drugs he might find useful, shit to help him, mostly non-recreational, but still, I was worried about him. I sent a whole scriptof propranolol 80mg because hes got heart problems and chest pain that gets really bad sometimes. I sent some flexeril (yes I know, sucky ass muscle relaxer) because he hurt his back a while ago and thought if it happened again hed have something for it, along with naproxen for the same reason. I sent antinausea (zofan) medicine because hes been sick alot recently and throwing up a bunch. I sent psudophedrine because he has bad sinus issues alot, and a bottle of 400 benadryl forthe same reason. This was all packed with his christmas gifts I bought him. He wouldnt let me send them sooner because over amonth ago Imailed 10 kpins andnthey didnt make it- just sealed in an evelope. Obviously some postal worker got them but he kept accusing me of trying to get him arrested because Imailed them to him. Tomight I was called a piece of shit, a user, a manipulator, emotionally immature, berrated on my 'zoo animals', and otherwise used as an emotionalpunching bag despite me saying 'I cannot take beingnhurt again tonight, I cant have this discussion tonight, I am stillnhirting from what you did to me last night we need to talk during the day, when you arent as liableto have your mentalshit be as bad and we need to talk'. I was told hes scared totalk to me and the only reason he briefly spoketo me the day before on the phone was because he took a bunch of benzos. Ive been begging for over amonth now to talk about our issues but even earlier today he refused. Its always an excuse either hisfamily is home (yep, hes gotta hide everything from them because god forbid they see him on the phone with someone) or he emotionally cant handle talking- tonight I couldnt, but there is a double standard, I have to be able totalk anytimethe mood strikes him to have a serious conversation. Ive been told so many times Ive done nothing- I got a job because I needed to. No, not really. I spent almost as much getting rides in december as I made. I sold the horse trailer is the only reason I survived. I kept going towork for the long term asset ofhaving a job once I got my truck fixed. Soon after that seasonaljob ended I had another within the week and just this week the other place called me back and Ill be working there too. I dont get child support from my exhusband. I dont get cash assistance. Im trying to better my life as a singleparent with zero emotional support, zero family and §m£ÂgØLbeing the only closefriend I have. Hes complained aboutmy house which, yeah, its a run down trailer- these jobs Im working were gonna get us toanbetter place to live. Hes complained aboutmy animals, but hes known I made a vow to them that I willnot break. Idont get rid ofmy animals, they are the only family Ive got and have been there for me when everyone else in life has failed me. I need helpfixing tje fence forthem, they eat about 20$ a week in dog food. He asked me back when my husband left if Id come to live with him and his parents- the same parents who had him sent to rehab for finding weed, the same ones who believed he raped a familymember, the same parents he cant even talk to because they are such judgemental pricks, but god forbid you say that (I dont know these people, Im going off what hes said and yes hes called them judgemental pricks before), but he will gladly callmy dogs, my family mutts, pieces of shit, and me scum, and a bad mother almost on a weekly basis. Hes threatened to call DCF several times, once because I was going to go whore myself out even though the night before was simply 'I dontlook down on the profession but you and I cant be together if you do that'. This is why I got a real job, a job that kills me physcially rather than sucking a few dicks and taking money for sex. Then its 'you had to get a job', no, Ihad to get a real job to be with you and not have DCF called on me, I could be making good money with very little effort and spending most the time with my son. Now hes with god knows what babysitters and Im working my assoff tonfix our lives and make it something we both want. Constantly Im torn down and and he already has made his mind up that we cant work or we cant compromise though he refuses to have a verbal discussion. The other night he shat on me because Icompromised tonlet him put his last name on myson just tonhave him go off on why that would 'kill his culture' and all this shit. My sons last name is neither mine nor my Exhusbands it was a pet namemy dad called me all through life and ment a lotto me. This man is terrified Im going after him for child supoort yet wants the last name of my son changed to his and tells me 'its a deal breaker' if he has to shares his last name with the one I gave him. Hes never even acted as a father to my child or met him, but I 'insulted' him. Im posting all this because I hurt and I hurt really bad. Im not going to be posting again. Im going to be dead by the time anyone reads this. I hope that sad little man gets help. He needs it bad and all I ever tried to do was help him, love him, be there for him and show him affection. i may have made bad choices in the past, and done some terriblethings but I was turning my life around and getting ny shit straight. I was trying to be a better person. I was trying to make alife that was worthwhile. ive been treated like such shit though and worst of all, I took it. I know youll read this eventually, §m£ÂgØL. Im sorry I couldnt help you. Im sorry shit was this fucked up, but I still love you and care about you. Im sorry my try wasnt good enough. Flush those fucking kpins because they will destroy you.
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2016-01-20 at 12:40 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionUmm... firat mistake you made there is that I dont have the equipment to be your 'bro'. Secondly, I was refering to the collective. If your not a fag, you sure as fuck surround yourself on this forum in deep seeded faggotry (which is lulzy tbh). As for liking §m£ÂgØL.. he spent a month at my house, had a threesome with me and him got me pregnant and came back while I was still pregnant and stayed for a while... we are good friends, so yeah, Id say I like §m£ÂgØL. Malice, yeah I did have several occaisions of being really drunk and with this older woman (she was pretty, fairly thin and was 29 when I was 17). The instance youre recalling of was when my ex's brother fucked me with her. I was really fucked, mixed way too much benzos with liquor. It was bad. Honestly, it all was preasured. Ahe was my sugar momma and when I was in a bad plsce she showed me love I was desparate for. That was a weird time i my life. If anytjing she was very against me getting back with my now Ex husband. I still talk to her fromtimeto timeshe was a fullblownalcoholic back then. Now she just smokes pot. Shit we did allsorts of crazy shit in the day. There is a song by Gnarles Barkely- crazy. That song sums up that period in mylife.
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2016-01-19 at 7:29 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionYou know, I was just thinking, ya'll are the most faggiest faggots I know and my new coworker is openly gay. Hell, even I have got more pussy in my life than some of ya'll.
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2016-01-09 at 11:23 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionLast year my dad died today, around 12:30 n the morning, I was the first in, screaming at my dad, trying to get him to respond and I made the 911 call because his mother was an idiot. I was 5 months pregnant with cops sitting out front waiting for the funeral home to arrive. I was sick, dry heaving, trying to get a couple hits in so I wouldnt be puking and sick. I was crying my eyes out, hearing my dad's voice in my head and §m£ÂgØL called and talked to me for a while. Its pretty fucked up to see whats happened in a years time without my dad. I miss him dearly and think of him everyday. A lady I work with, I could tell was withdrawaling. Sure enough shes at the pharmacy getting her subutex. she didnt have enough money and they wouldnt sell her what she could afford so inmy dads honor I spotted her the money, because thats what my dad would have done. Yay for someone to buy my kpins from me and a roxi connection.
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2016-01-08 at 10:23 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionSploo, Ive heard dying animals that didnt sound as bad as that. §m£ÂgØL, stop being a faggot, nobody thinks its cute. Reject, my birthday is on the 16th of February. PoC... lmfao, my question is how the fuck do you find a prostitute who can just shit on demand in the first place? As for my jerb, its pretty cool. Everyone is a pothead. The one server who gave me a ride home today, she is on subutex. I pegged her in WDs my first day (stomach ache, needed to go to the pharmacy to get her script.. just I could tell she was withdrawaling) and shes on subutex. She can get roxis and used to shoot. Shes not happy about being on the subutex. She also wants to buy my kpins. She lives near me and is gonna be good for rides to work/home. Ive found the drug hub of the county I live in. Also there is a girl getting fired today, she was a no call, no show like every week (dont know how people cant even bother to call, if I no call, no show, thats essentially me quitting) so thatll be more hours for me. Also, this other server used to live down south where I am from and is best friends with the daughter of this old couple I am good friends with down there- Small world. So far this job is pretty cool.
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2016-01-06 at 11:23 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionAlso, happy birthday, faggot! My 27th birthday will be next month- not really looking forward to it though. Maybe this year Ill join the cool peopleclub adn die at 27, that be kinda awesome except I got a baby now.
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2016-01-06 at 11:19 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
Tomorrow is my 26th birthday. I'm trying to get a new job at a nursing home. Get bent, faggots.
I see how it is.
I seriously thought I mentioned you. Sorry. You were on mymind though. Come here, nigger, you need a hug. Good luck on your quest for a new job. I just got anew one after my seasonal one let me go. It was for the best. Soon Im going to be making way more money doing something I halfway enjoy. Got a job at a diner, sorta like IHOP right off the interatate as a waitress. You shpuld give me a call or shoot mw a text sometime, Ill PM youmy # aince its changed since we last spoke. -
2016-01-04 at 8:40 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionI got the server job. Almost as informal as my last serving job at ihop. Called yesterday, manager told me to come down in the morning, so I did. Asked me right off the bad what size shirt I needed nd asked me to write my info down on a napkin. I start tomorrow at 7am-2pm. Got my uniform, and now Im trying to find a babysitter and a ride to work tomorrow. Hopefully it works out. cant wait to be making tips again, hopefully Ill do alright in this one horse town.
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2016-01-04 at 1:27 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionNah, but it did occur to me to find this guy so I can return the favor of kindness when Ive got shit going better for myself. I like sending peopleshit. When I was 9-10 I hand a penpal in Hong Kong and for Halloween, I sent her like a metric fuckton of candy. They dont celebrate halloween over there like we do in the states so she was surprised as shit and she brought it all into school for her class, which everyone wanted in on this dressing up and getting free candy shit. Im lucky I had a dad who was cool enough to suggest sending her shit like that and actually pony up the money tosend it. It probably cost 30-40$ not on top of the shit we mailed which was the good name brand stuff (my dad would never sned our buy people shitty candy- that was like a code he lived by). If I did manage to get this guys info, id probably wire him some money to help him out when I get shit going. Ive got an interview soon. its a serving job so wish me luck. Also found a new babysitter, hopefully she works out and I dont have to kill her.
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2016-01-04 at 5:59 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionHad the coolest shit happen today. After placing an order for tobacco my balance wasnt right and instead of having 4$ and some change, ther was a 1$ and change. So I call my AMEX prepaid card to see whats up. This Indian call center worker answers, goes through my balance with me.. I explain, Ive got an interview tomorrow and was counting on that 4$ for gas, and how sorry I was to be pestering them over a few $$. He says to me 'look, youre obviously having a hard time.. this is what Im gonna do, Im gonna put 15$ in your account to help you out' I am like holy fuck. 'I thank him and say how he has literally saved my ass, jow my husband had left me a few months back, stole all my money and how I just got this job interview tomorrow and how I was going to have to go pawn stuff tomorrow for a baby sitter and hoe much this 15$ really ment to me. He said 'you know what.. fuck it (yes exact words), Im going to put in 25$. I hope it helps, dont worry about gas money, worry about getting this job, I wish you the best of luck with and I will be praying for you. Dont worry, we will meet again, and just focus on this job.' The last part was kinda creepy but lol I was so fucking blown away. This really is gonna help me. Ive got some indian dude at a call center in india whos done me better than these awful faggots around here and fuck, hes even gonna pray to his elephant headed God for me! And mind you, this is just a fucking prepaid AMEX debit card lol. Im fucking so grateful to this guy. I hope he doesnt get in trouble.
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2016-01-03 at 8:15 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
Let's take count here how many of you woke up with a boner this morning? Show of hands?
*raises hand*
I woke up with my shorts soaked in blood, and Nine (my chocolate lab) was licking his hard dick next to me, does this count? It was a boner, it was with me in bed... not mine, but it was there with me in all its boning glory. -
2016-01-03 at 5:50 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionIm in a rather positive emotional mood right now and I just wanted to say (yes, I know Im being a faggot right now, especially to you less than happy people here) but I appreciate a lot of you in this land of misfits. I dont have a family (besides my baby and the dogs), and very few friends irl (the only one I can honestly say is a irl friend I met here and is the whole reason I have a baby). Thank you, Lanny for allowing us to continue for this community (what is left) to continue. Thank you, countBlah, POC, HSA, crazy mike, even Midnight Sun (though hes not been here to post) for your support, kindness, and help in the past- I havent forgotten it, and it ment a lot to me. Thank you, Malice, for your words of wisdom, advice and suggestions, I could be suffering with chronic pain all through this shit if not for your suggestion of T-PAIN and besides that there are many things youve helped me with, and made life better not just for me, but for my dad before he passed and advice for my baby (hes still on the royal jelly and doing great). things may be tough but having a place here has truely made a big difference with people who can not only relate, but have a similar view on the world.
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2016-01-01 at 7:55 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionI heard 3 full autos tonight. People were bringing out the big boys tonight. There is a state trooper anout. 1500-2000 ft up the road. I know he hears this shit too. Nobody calls the cops ever around here. Gunfire, even full auto gunfire from time to time is so common around here nobody ever things to call. Fuck, just a couple weeks ago, I pulled a gun on a mexican who tried to get in my house. I went out back after he ran off and discharged it to spook him off further. We used to euthanize animals that way too and we would do it day or night- whenever it needed doing. Youd have no problem shooting your AR-10 in my neck of the woods, even during the day on a non holiday and not have the cops called.
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2016-01-01 at 5:13 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionHappy New Year. It sounds like war outside. These cheap rednecks decided to buy ammo instead of fireworks this year also many are playing with their christmas presents. I contributed to the ambience of war and fired off a shot for my dad. Any year we didnt buy fireworks, he would always go out and fire atleast one shot off. The first time I fired a firearm, was my .22 rifle whenI was 7. It was in a densely populated suburb with 2 warehouses on eitherside of our dead end 8 house street. Itechoed like a motherfucker.
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2015-12-31 at 7:55 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionMalice, I cant change all that now and as for giving into my 'biological clock' I never wanted kids, it was my husband who did. Surely, I was stupid for equating the abortion I was drug to, into why my husband treated me like shit, because thats around the time everything as far as our relationship began its deterioration. I was promised so fucking much if I gave him a baby and being in this hell of a live I was desparate for things to get better. When §m£ÂgØL came along I was under the impression I was infertile, based on my own problems I founs out about and that we hadnt used protection in years at that point and he had got me pregnant once before. He had a twisted testicle which i believe I mentioned in passing before which resulted in an ER visit but it was determined everything was fine, it was just residual pain and had untwisted itself. Obviously, I was wrong, it wasnt me that had the fertility issue. Not that any of this makes it better, I was stupid, and Imnot trying to justify or prove Im not an idiot, I clearly am, but I want you to see exactly how allbthis unfolded and thst its not as simple as 'biological clock' bullshit. My grandmother got pregnant out of wedlock in the 60's and was catholic in a baptist majority. She got married and was with the same man, my grandfather until he died of brain cancer. she didnt ever want any other kids because she couldnt hsndle the one she had, and like her, I feel the same way , also unlike her I have zero familial help raising this baby. If for one reason I dont ever wanr another child it would be for my son who is now currently in this world. He gets 100% of my love, attention, money toward whatever he needs, and being a second generation only-child, I can say I enjpyes not having a sibling, my dad was my best friend growing up and likebhe has now, my dogs were my siblings. Just like my dad did, I refer to them as brother/sister to him. My baby most certainly will remain an only child. While this was all a huge clusterfuck, in someways its whats kept me alive and trying to do the right thing. I called as a last resort this crazy bitch I know and she took me and also gave me about 20lbs of fresh greens, rutabegas, radishes, onions and lettuces her and her husband grew. Im actually making baby food with it tonight. Shit could be worse. I could be really fucked in a lot worse of ways, but I do have this child to continue striving for a better life. Without him its very unlikely I would and very unlikely I would have left my exhusband- I nolonger could tolerate this shit life, if not for my sake, for this baby. All I saw was him trwating my baby as he treatwd me and while I may tolerate the abuse and neglect, Id be damned if I did for my baby. this child is tje first real sign of light at the end of the tunnel, because I cant give up on him, cant give up on stuggling for this baby to have the life he deserves.
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2015-12-29 at 5:32 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionFucking cunts. The girl who fucked up my son's dick called the other day and apologized- christmas day her stepdad attacked her, cops were called he was arrested and dcf was involved because the kids live there. Anyway, I asked her if she would be going to town anytime soon. She said yeah, tomorrow, I asked if I could go with her ao I could put money on my prepaid electric account- if not Im going to be without power in the next few days. She said sure, Ill get you innthe morning ans then made sure to ask if I had gas money (which is kind og fucked if youre going town anyway, Id never ask gas money if I had gas or it wasnt out of my way, she goes right by my house to town, her detour would be a whole 300fet), I say yes. So waiting around, ready with the baby, she doesnt call and its getting near noon ans she said hed be going before then so I call her 'yeah, im not in a good mood, Im not going anywhwr except my friends house, ill take you some other time in a week or 2’... I explain about the electricity ans she says 'oh give me the money and Ill put it on your account, she lives right near there in town' well, I have to get money off my prepaid AMEX card my check was deposited on and that involves going to walmart, buying something and returning it with the recipt, all because the faggots at the electric company dont take AMEX and to ise an ATM costs me 5$, not including the ATMS own fees. 'Ohh... gah, give me time to think about it' all shitty like. This is the same girl I gave 100$ worth of christmas gifts to 2 years agobwhen she had nothing, her family had abandoned her and she was 7 months pregnant and she didnt have any money to buy her son gifts. Ive also helped her in other ways too when I was better off. The worst part is, is shes going right whee I need to go, fuck, she could drop me off at the library and Id wait til she goes home from her friends if that was the problem. Im really tight for money, I have enough to keep the power on, because my freezer thawed with all my food and the babies milk Im going to have to pawn something to replace his milk, Imm be managing on whats in the other freezer and some dry goods, and I need to get tires for the teuck and called the DMV today and found out its gonna be like 400$ for title and registration. Fuck my life.
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2015-12-29 at 1:13 AM UTC in my friend is retarded- help me explain child supportLanny, yeah, its like common law marriage (not a thing in Florida, but was in Maryland where I grew up). Different states set different time periods, in Maryland I believe it was 7 years, though I may be wrong. It also requires the woman to use the guys last name I believe, or something like that. Common law marriage isnt even recognized by states that dont have it themselves, such as Florida. Anyway, its just retarded. I dont even like the idea of the state dealing with marriage anyway, its religious thing and separation of church and state and all that jazz.
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2015-12-29 at 12:58 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionJust applied for a server position at a shitty resturant. Wish to fuck this town had an IHOP, I made bank working there. Protip: if you have something cool to converse with customers about such as a clydesdale, macaw or other oddity, keep a pic in your order book. That shit earned me a lot of extra tips. Had one regular who love my clydesdale and would tip me 5$ and another 5$ for 'my baby' toget carrots. Also at the time we had a ponderosa lemon tree that produced grapefruit sized lemons. When wed get fruit Id bring them in to serve to customers and theyd be fucking wowed by these giant lemons.
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2015-12-28 at 12:55 AM UTC in my friend is retarded- help me explain child supportOkay, a friend of mine is being super retarded on this topic. He is under the impression that simply moving in with a woman who has a child will result in him having to pay child support if she files for it against him even though there is another man on the birth certificate as the father. He claims 'that is the risk of moving in with a woman with a child'. Its so fucking stupidly retarded. You dont pay child support for a kid that isnt yours just because you live with a woman with a child. He claims that 'this happens all the time' shit like this has never happened, the only thing close Ive heard about is a married couple where the woman cheats, the husband signs the birth certificate and finds out later the child isnt his. That does happen, but we are cover a woman with a child who jas another man listed as the father on the bieth certificate- simply living together, even acting as a father to this child will not result in court ordered financial obligation to the man living with the woman, the father on the birth certificate will be the one obligated until that kid is 18. Also where the fuck dis my friend get this piece of retarded nonsense? Is there some bogus bullshit out there I am missing or is this simple nigger wivetales? Shit if this was the case howmany niggers would be paying child support for kids that arent theirs? A fuckton. Itd be a inner city epidemic. Nigger fathers would be knocking out other niggers, dragging them over to their babymommas house, keep them roofied for a week and file for child support to get their ass off the hook and babymommas would be man hunting for a guy with lots of money to kidnap and do this to. Helpme explain how fucking wrong this is tomy friend, please.
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2015-12-27 at 4:40 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition^ this, but the only problem is is he goes over there to their houses. I could stick it in a toy or his basket with his stuff though. Honestly though, my seasonal shit is over, I was told I wouldnt be kept on like she saidbbecause her boss told her not to. no more babysitters, not for a while, Ill have a vehicle soon, so when I get another job, Ill do a good screen on anyone who watches him from now on.