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2021-09-29 at 4:08 PM UTC in Amputation: dominate arm above elbow
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2021-09-29 at 4:06 PM UTC in Amputation: dominate arm above elbow
Originally posted by Sophie Hell yeah Hydro. I appreciate that, to be honest it would suck if you died. It's your decision, but i'd hope that sentiment at least gives you a little pause before going somewhere you can't come back from.
Despite you being the last one here I’d likely ever meet irl I KNOW you’d most certainly be the best and funnest with you and your gf if I ever did meet you both irl fuck what anyone else says you’re like one of the best people here -
2021-09-29 at 3:59 PM UTC in Amputation: dominate arm above elbow
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2021-09-29 at 3:58 PM UTC in Amputation: dominate arm above elbow
Originally posted by Sophie I agree suicide is grim if anything. The word Hydro is looking for is deliverance. It's confabulated with grace due to Christianity.
You’re good soph. I always like your posts and admire your passion for computer linguistic skills and all that fun stuff
Interestingly the quandary seems to be does she want to be saved by not being saved. A rock and a hard place, a gunshot or a sharp blade, does the thought of death exhilarate and elevate your heart rate? I don't know what to say. I'm a little bit drunk anyway. Fuck it, let's just pray that God will take your pain away.
Hey. there's a poem for you Hydro i hope you like it, i'm a little drunk so i can't tell if this is appropriate or not. -
2021-09-29 at 3:54 PM UTC in poland can be a strange place sometimes
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2021-09-29 at 3:52 PM UTC in poland can be a strange place sometimesThis German waitress I worked with as a teenager would always be drinking from her customers glasses before serving lol I do think it happens more than we’d like to admit however if I witnessed it I’d be pissed and definitely say something
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2021-09-29 at 3:49 PM UTC in poland can be a strange place sometimes
Originally posted by Wariat maybe i didnt notice it right as I looked at him and he grabbed his own and just had it in the same area or next to mine or something. its still hard to believe he would do that.
Why did you accept it? Like... I’m pretty easy going but even I’d draw the line at some barista bitch drinking my 5$ coffee I paid good money for -
2021-09-29 at 3:44 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get off that bus edition
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2021-09-29 at 3:16 PM UTC in poland can be a strange place sometimesAre you afraid of catching covid?
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2021-09-29 at 3:14 PM UTC in Amputation: dominate arm above elbow
Originally posted by Jiggaboo_Johnson Suicide isn't "gracefully bowing out" It's a cowardly quitters move…gracefully bowing out is dying of old age when you've lived your life in a way that contributed to the society you live in and leave your loved ones with fond memories.
I have no loved ones who are still alive. I have to disagree but hey you can feel anyway you want
Everyday is a new start etc regardless of if you have already pissed all the past days down the shitter. -
2021-09-29 at 2:58 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get off that bus editionWhy not rape him? Men can be raped too faggots
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2021-09-29 at 2:47 PM UTC in Amputation: dominate arm above elbow
Originally posted by General Butt.Naked Dawg at a certain point youre just tired. Shortan arm with i fection coursing through your body qualifies,i think, Which is not to say you cant cind purpose even acter all that painful bullshit. Buti get it. Amd anyone whos been that low gets it. At a certain point its not even a mopey thing its just prudent. I literally prayed so many times to overdose in ky sleep, I didnt want to have to make a decision or be dramatic or draw it out. I just wanted to pass out high and never wake up. To stop shaming my friends and family. Idki think hydro has some fedeeming qualities but its up to her to decide whether shes got it in her to fight back and make something of this mess, or whether to gracefully bow out of the game. Underdog stories are always the best. Thats one way i kept myself going. And im a huge loser but i have so much pride in the shit i got through. I hinestly think i wouldve had more luck climbing everst than getting sober for my first many years
You hit the nail on the head.
I’m so tired so fucking tired of being so fucking tired
I so want to gracefully bow out like malice
You have those dreams/wishes/desires too? God I pray often to never wake up again it’s horrible
I too love all underdogs and I gues I’ve always been in myself but it’s so fucking exhausting
AND NO FUCKER IM NOT TAKING THE BLOOD IM NOT A VAMPIRE
I’m getting 12mgs PO dilaudid and 2mgs IV every 4 hours and 20mgs PO oxycodone every 6 yet I’m still shitting my brains out despite not eating for a week I think I have internal bleeding like wtf
Funniest conversation with ladies who did my piccc line just now they are awesome cocaine, marijuana discussion and then looking up my maggot pictures from my records lol that made me feeel a tad bit better.... or maybe that’s just the drugs
Going for MRI soon waiting for my Ativan even though I warned them of paradoxical effects it can have on me... I’ve considered refusing but wonder if this time maybe I’ll sleep and since I haven’t slept in a loooooong time... that’s be nice -
2021-09-29 at 3:10 AM UTC in Amputation: dominate arm above elbowI don’t want to be saved
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2021-09-29 at 3:10 AM UTC in Amputation: dominate arm above elbowI don’t accept blood on matter of principle
That and I’ve had bad reactions in the past from blood products so that’s another reason
I don’t claim to know better than the doctors, I just don’t want to be here in the first place
I’m enabled by nobody but myself . I make my own money I buy my own drugs I’ve been high and dry since I’ve been here -
2021-09-29 at 12:52 AM UTC in Amputation: dominate arm above elbow
Originally posted by Sophie Accept the blood Hydro. What's wrong with A+? If anything you're gonna get O- since it's the universal donor type.
I’d rather not. You’re right, I just mentioned A+ because that’s my blood type (and most common if I’m not mistaken?), but if I can’t survive with my own blood I’d rather not at all. -
2021-09-29 at 12:03 AM UTC in Amputation: dominate arm above elbowI’d post a pic if the cam worked and I could bear removing the bandage. It’s been 5 days and I just keep adding shit to stop it from leaking. The smell is something else that’s for sure
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2021-09-28 at 11:56 PM UTC in Amputation: dominate arm above elbowBtw I want a hook
I’m also getting my bones back which I may fashion into a weapon on my nub -
2021-09-28 at 11:54 PM UTC in Amputation: dominate arm above elbowMy good friend chino thinks like a lot of you.
I don’t know how he does it
Hell I’m why he nearly lost his hand last year and why I refuse to shoot people up or let them touch my shoot up kit or me for that matter
I only help my other friend because we have same infections . I’m too toxic to even have another person have contact with me lmfao ain’t that some shit? -
2021-09-28 at 11:15 PM UTC in Amputation: dominate arm above elbow
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2021-09-28 at 11:11 PM UTC in Amputation: dominate arm above elbow
Originally posted by the man who put it in my hood Have you found comfort in God Christ Jesus? Maybe that will help you
In the words of my father “I’m gonna shoot god in the face”
Originally posted by DontTellEm Kinda agree. Because ur not strong enough to handle pain. It won’t kill you. U have to feel it. You’ve not felt it for so long , it’s unimaginable….but u can do it. Lord have mercy u are losing limbs rather than just stopping.
Lol I feel it everyday. Opiates haven’t rid me of pain rather just made it bareable to function. I don’t want to be strong. I’ve been septic more times than I can count... I only agreed to amputations (if they ever can get around to doing it) is to stop the pain. Infected bones hurt... a lot. I should be dead but for some fucked reason I’m not. We kill animals suffering like this... why do we make our own kind suffer like this?