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Posts by hydromorphone

  1. hydromorphone victim of incest [insincerely conduce my paisley]
    I mean... This is a good start to ending prohibition on drugs, however... Why would you, knowing that people STILL are going to inject, provide them with an oral pill form? Why not just provide the shit straight up, ready to IV as one would find in a hospital? It'd sterile, clean, and well... You'd have less issues in the event of a miss causing abcesses from unsanitary water, cookers and the like which could occur. If done how I suggested, all one would need to worry about is a clean rig and property prepping the skin prior to injection...

    Also, if people had this all available (cheap, clean drugs, ready to IV, prepped sterile) I'd think that just providing long term users safe ports or PICC lines to inject (you'd be using safe clean sterile drugs manufactured for the purpose of IVing... Then it just falls to the user to properly and sanitarily inject the drug into the line as one would if in a hospital- proper cleanliness procedures being taught obviously... That would be the way to go to avoid users of destroying their cardiovascular system with misses, over use of veins, and abcesses forming from said misses etc.

    I had a resident doctor at Hopkins whom took a shine to me, have this very discussion... He agreed. There is a large number of users who's only real issue with using is the legality factor, not being able to get employment due to legality factors, being made criminals just for being a users, etc.. when it'd just make more sense to let them live and let live, do their shit, and promote them doing as safely as possible.

    Also, while I don't condone stealing to take care of a habit, getting rid of the artificial inflation of drugs would help a lot in terms of crime with users... Typically people don't need to steal to maintain an alcohol addiction because well... Beer and liquor are pretty cheap... It'd ruin the cartels too.. cutting them off at the balls. A lot less crime would exist due to legalization.

    Also I am very much in support of people being responsible for what the fuck they do. That's one reason a lot of addicts don't want legalization lol. They like to blame their fuck ups and shit decisions on their addiction rather than themselves.
  2. hydromorphone victim of incest [insincerely conduce my paisley]
    Originally posted by Technologist Yeah, sound like they use pentobarbital. Says it shuts down the system in about 2 mins.

    I gave my dog loads of morphine prior and he would likely have ODed anyway. I was so scared of him having pain as his lungs ceased to function...I was going to pain management and buying pills for my dog for 2 years prior to his death.wehad my horse vet come to the house to do it so he (a 200lb neopolitan mastiff) would be comfortable as possible.took him out back so he could enjoy being high in the sunshine on a cool day one last time. He barely could walk this day. It was definitely time.


    I'm grieved badly for a.long time... I still do. I miss him dearly. My dad who was against marriage said that if I ever met a man that loved me as much as that dog to marry him. Lol
  3. hydromorphone victim of incest [insincerely conduce my paisley]
    Buy drugs. Doesn't Amazon still sell T-PAIN? I think they used to as a super overpriced supliment or something. Maybe I'm wrong but I think I remember seeing something there.

    Lol IDK. Buy shit you need. Or save it for when you do need something.
  4. hydromorphone victim of incest [insincerely conduce my paisley]
    Was it suicide? Or did he like kill himself by autoerotic affixiation like in the movie world's greatest dad? I think sploo was like that kid to be honest, that's how I saw him anyway. Just curious. I honestly don't care about that sack of shit. Happy he's dead honestly and I can't say that about many people being serious. I'd just like to know how he did it for the lulz because I'm sure there would be some in his dying.

    I would never bother the family but confirmation would be nice. I honestly feel bad for them. They dealt with so much shit from their shit bag son. It's probably a relief to them deep down that he's gone if it's true.
  5. hydromorphone victim of incest [insincerely conduce my paisley]
    Originally posted by Sudo I wish things didn't happen how they happened but they already happened

    What happened?
  6. hydromorphone victim of incest [insincerely conduce my paisley]
    Yeah my buddy who ironicly moved close to me from the same state I left where I originally met him have me one of those.

    I'm pretty stoned right now and haven't been in forever.

    Miss these kinds of days sometimes. Dude who gave it to me was my partner in stealinga public bench while stoned.
  7. hydromorphone victim of incest [insincerely conduce my paisley]
    Originally posted by the man who put it in my hood she tries to play off being a homeless junkie as some romantic healthy lifestyle where she manages her pain and has chill times with homeless people doing bum things but it's all bullshit. It's pretty obvious she sells her ass it's the only way she would be able to make hundreds of dollars a day, be fat and do drugs 24/7

    Literally bragging about being a prostitute and having HIV.

    Lol I Did prostitute at one time. I nolonger do that nor do I have to. A simple cardboard sign I write on with a sharpie makes me plenty enough. I am grateful to my regulars.

    I eat well because of them, I'm out of pain because of them, and I've made friends because of them. I don't often do shit with other homeless besides when I cross paths with them and give them what food I can't eat or help someone here and there. I am grateful for the help.

    I live a rather simple life, but for me it's enough. I go to the aquarium almost everyday (year pass and I can bring a guest so I sometimes surprise someone by taking them). I chill at Starbucks and enjoy downtown sometimes. I get up early and go to bed early.

    I am happy, at least for the moment. Sometimes it's hard but I manage.

    Believe what you want, I don't have a reason to lie. I've disclosed when I have prostituted. Why would I suddenly lie and say I don't if I did? Even when I got shit, I still was honest. Truth is, is I don't prostitute. I turn down a lot of dates everyday when asked. I could if I wanted but what I do is much easier and I do well enoughndoing that. I make roughly 100-130 a day. During December inwasnpushing 200 most days, and still continue to but I know it'll drop off soon that's why I save money.
  8. hydromorphone victim of incest [insincerely conduce my paisley]
    I am not a racist. Many of my friends (most, actually- dude, I live in Baltimore... White folks are the minority) are either black or Hispanic. There are a lot of Hispanics who live in Fells Point, surprisingly enough, however there are Hispanics spread all over too, just Fells has many more than most areas. I'm just sick of Gollum's near stalkerish bullshit.


    I am genuinely happy. I don't post much here for this, exactly. What's the point in socializing and sharing experiences when 90% of you want to shit all over anything good I have to say, and some of you tells out right lies like Bill Krozby. I never asked him for money. It was when I was during a hard time and ask YOU ALL for help in a thread (thank you, Aldra for trying, and a few others I know who would have helped had they been able). I only talked to him because I felt bad his daughter died. I bet it's a lie now too.

    I do not sympathize or would help anyone harm a child.

    If you want to believe I'm this aweful person, then go ahead. You'll never know what gollum really is because he lies so much or refuses to disclose. I know what he is though and he's far worse than what I am, and he's a huge pussy on top of it. I fucking never harassed or threatened that piece of shit either.

    My life may be different,and difficult sometimes, but I'm happy. I have medical care, I have a therapist. I go to regular appointments, and I have a routine which I believe helps my mental state a lot. Hey, maybe tomorrow things will change... I hope not, but it could... Ill deal with that when it comes and just appreciate the now.

    I wish those whom aren't complete brainwashed sheep that'd believe the likes of Bill Krozby and Gollum to have a wonderful holiday season and happy New year. Narc, Sophie, HTS & scron, Aldra, Lanny and fuck I'm probably forgetting a few more but you know who you are... Have a wonderful new year and be safe. Don't drink and drive.

    With love, peace and hope,
    hydro
  9. hydromorphone victim of incest [insincerely conduce my paisley]
    Oh and as for the spic comment- I've got no reason to just go around and call random people spics or other insults.

    You... You're just a fuckhead spic.
  10. hydromorphone victim of incest [insincerely conduce my paisley]
    Originally posted by MexicanMasterRace I know how you are, and how you never publicize your misery to others. I know what your real life is like. Probably groaning in pain each morning when you get out of your tent. Sleeping on hard surfaces. Eating garbage food.

    How ironic that you want to go to Mexico to get your port but still call me a spic.

    Please, please, PLEASE go down to Mexico and start calling them spics. I'll give you some advice. When you meet your healthcare provider, call them a mamamhuevo.

    Well, from even just recent history, I seem to publicize my misery, my pain, my suffering lol.

    You have ZERO clue what my life is like, and well... Remember too I know how you, and your kin are. I know all about the fakeness, and blatant disrespect for everything that didn't fit in their ideals of normalcy. Sad really. I know all about your fakeness and almost like sociopathic behaviors too.

    I don't think I've ever said "I'm happy" before like this. I don't think I've ever been this positive. I am genuine in saying it too.

    I sleep on a very comfortable air mattress. In the summer I had a hammock and OMG best thing ever for my back. I stay plenty warm. I even can cook when I feel up to it.

    My pain is more under control. I really attribute my happiness to that and this routine I have. It's not perfect but it gives me the reason to get up, and direction to aim for.

    Maybe it won't last, I don't know, but I'm cherishing it while I have it. I'm happy, at least for today.
  11. hydromorphone victim of incest [insincerely conduce my paisley]
    Originally posted by Bill Krozby lol OP has a picc line

    I wish I still did.

    I'm seriously considering getting a port either done by someone on the side, or taking a trip to Mexico. That'd be the ticket.

    I wouldn't really need new rigs, if I had a PICC. Just syringes. Insulin needles for right now though.

    Glad the fag spic gets some humor from my happiness. Its just jealousy. I can be happy like this, yet he can't be happy in his life, which should be miles above mine.

    I've learned a lot, I've grown, and well... I'm just gonna cherish each day.
  12. hydromorphone victim of incest [insincerely conduce my paisley]
    I live by myself, deep in the woods, in a tent. It's a safe and secure spot, and hard to access, if you don't know the way, which is heavily concealed.

    I have a propane heater, plenty of 1lb tanks, which I can refill with my 15lb tanks (2 of them, and I just use an adaptor hose on the big tank when I'm here and use the little tanks for when I'm panhandling so it's easy to carry/tote along. Just becareful of some hoses, especially felible ones as they are manufactured with an oil to make them felible... It leeches into the heater lines and clogs it up, rendering your heater useless. You sometimes can pull it apart and blow out the oil, and best is to use a compressor to blow the oil out. Put it back together and it runs fine. Sometimes the pilot light assembly needs replacing, which is maybe once a season with heavy use (done a lot of camping with these bitches waaaay before I ever was homeless, hence why I am well informed on this wonderful thingie madoodle.

    I can happily say I've never once stayed in a shithole shelter, which often has lice and bed/body bugs which infest clothing too. (I've seen the results on other homeless folks though).I also am not handing over my knives.

    I gotmmy setup good for winter, and I don't need their help.

    Hey I'm happy. That's the ultimate goal, right? To be happy? My pain is well managed at this point, albeit some times I have little set backs where I take a hard fall, or twist my knee, which has me take an extra dose or two once in a blue moon but I'm never without dope. I'm over 3 days ahead. I meet all sorts of cool people everyday. Some help me, others, I help them... I'm grateful. I'm excited to get up and see my people eveeyday. I look forward to seeing my cool cats who look out for me when I go to cop.

    Got stoned tonight for the first time in a long time. Having a good time. Going to bed soon as I get up insanely early to begin my day.

    Hey, I'm grateful to be alive and having good days. Tomorrow isn't promised, not is it promised to be a great day, but I'm thankful for the ones I get.

    Hope y'all had a good Christmas. Happy New year incase I'm too busy to say so.
  13. hydromorphone victim of incest [insincerely conduce my paisley]
    It's funny to think that when I was living in a home and had sommuch that I was at my worst mentally.

    Seriously... Try homelessness even if just for a week. It could always be worse. I see kindness and generosity everyday. I am blessed everyday, enough so that a lot of days I can help and bless others... completely changing their entire day. It's touching, really.

    I don't know what happened... But once I fell into the right groove... I just got better at least in the head.

    I wish you the best. I hope you choose living. If I can help somehow, message me.
  14. hydromorphone victim of incest [insincerely conduce my paisley]
    I use a Mr. buddy propane heater and it works great. I buy 1lb tanks in the camping department of Walmart, home Depot, Lowe's ,and ACE hardware. I'm sure some other stores sell it especially if they specialize in outdoor shit (i.e. bass pro shop, and other smaller "bait" shops, or hunting/camping related stores, and definitely near state and private camping locations, I've seen small convenience stores sell it when located near shit like that).

    It keeps me warm as fuck and when I panhandle I take it with me to keepmmy hands and ass from freezing on those cold as fuck mornings. It also makes me a lot more money since people KNOW I'm likely gonna spend it on propane, which I do. had a guy give me a 15lb tank and hose along with a brand new dolly to move it around when I gotta fill it. Cool as shit.

    I also have an adaptor so I can fill the small tanks and not have to constantly buy the 1lb tanks. It's best to get them chilled with small bottle being colder than the big tank but it'll still fill it 3/4 if it's not chilled. all you dojisnhave the adaptor and put tank upside down, screw on small tank... 45 to 60 seconds and VOILA! You got a small tank filled. You can do it about 10 times with a tank before the seal gets fucked. Saves a lot of money that way too.

    Best of luck staying warm. I'm lucky and blessed that I am for pretty cheap. Best gift anyone can give me is propane honestly lol. They're just heavy to carry back to camp- I go about once Week on the bus to Walmart to get them though so it could be worse. Some bus drivers are assholes when I got it with me though. LMFAO it was a fucking nightmare to get the big tank and dolly back that one time. Thank God for some understanding and kind bus drivers especially since they had hardly anyone on that particular bus. God bless them. It was a bitch.
  15. hydromorphone victim of incest [insincerely conduce my paisley]
    ... if ya really want it.

    I'm having a pretty awesome Christmas. I have a day pack o' the goodie good dope pills, a few bags of new needles, some reefer (rarely smoke anymore but it was a Christmas present), and blunt wraps. Even got a lot of other people gifts, and cards. I made a ton of money. I gave out a fuckload of cards to those who helped me survive, and I was able to save a few other people's asses who are less fortunate than I am.

    I'm grateful. I'm happy.

    Merry Christmas,1337. love ya always. Praying for you always, especially today.

    I'm gonna be going to look at Christmas display lights now with friends. Hope y'all have a good Christmas.

    Merry Christmas, Narc. Love ya, bro.
  16. hydromorphone victim of incest [insincerely conduce my paisley]
    Be glad you don't have ass cancer. Seriously, my mother has/had a tumor growing out her ass with 95% blockage. Took forever for someone to say hey bitch needs a colostomy. Now she shits in a bag on her side.

    It's fucked and disgusting. Meh, she has done a lot in her life to deserve what she's got, but she seems to be dealing with it alright. They think it's growing back now. This is after a shit load of radiation and chemo treatment. Meh... It is what it is.

    Good luck with your treatment. I personally wouldn't be doing it. Not saying you shouldn't, just me and my feelings on it. It's something everyone needs to choose for themselves. I'll be praying for you. Best wishes, my dear.
  17. hydromorphone victim of incest [insincerely conduce my paisley]
    Oh, and Merry Christmas, happy Holidays to all you cool cats, and Happy New year I'm the event I'm out living my life, actually happy for the most part. I may stop in to say Hi, but I'm usually too occupied with other shit.

    Take care, y'all.
  18. hydromorphone victim of incest [insincerely conduce my paisley]
    Originally posted by Octavian

    Some good reads for over the Xmas period.

    I've been reading all sorts of shit. The libraries around here have books that are 25 to 50cents each. I usually grab something and read it when I panhandle or on the bus or in the coffee shops when I'm charging my shit and drinking my thousandth coffee or tea (fee refills are awesome).

    I forget the name of it as I've some given it away for someone else to read but I had one book about Alice in wonderland, where it was real, and Alice instead of wandering into wonderland was princess and her parents who ruled were murdered. She somehow found her way to the real world and the hatter (last name was 'Madagen' I believe), and was her body guard who lost her and attempted to find her by visiting hat shops all over Europe. He had cool weapons and his hat was a cool weapon. She had to use her imagination to defeat her Aunt Red, who's murdered her parents and sorta made wonderland like north korea. It was interesting and pretty cool I thought.
  19. hydromorphone victim of incest [insincerely conduce my paisley]
    Originally posted by WellHung I'll join him, and we will gang rape u, hydro. If u resist, I'll throw sulfuric acid in ur face

    LMFAO yeah, right,buddy. You'd be walking into the most prepared, ready to fuck you up permanently for life/kill you bitch you've ever seen.

    I've had people try. They don't walk away. I may be disabled, but I'm not vulnerable like many in my situation are. I've also got LE on my side too. I'm just a really nice person. As nice as I can be I can be just as evil... And I'm an exceptionally nice person, really super nice.

    I'm stronger for the streets, not weaker, and I have made a lot of friends who have already proven their worth as back up/coming to my aid when they've seen me going apeshit on a nigger who's made the mistake of trying to fuck with me.

    I'd like to see you try. I'd take pleasure in pounding you into the ground, and crying to the cops about how I had no choice. You're especially fucked if you have any kind of weapon on you. I've handled 3 big niggers on my own before my bro joined in to my aid after seeing me fighting like a tiger. Almost got him by accident when I was in the moment kicking ass, taking names later. I bite, I fight dirty. Don't underestimate what I'll pull out of my coat, or be hiding/getting rid of when the cops show up.

    Also, I don't sleep on the streets. I'm safe where I sleep at night. You couldn't find me if you tried anyway. Only a select few know my location and have been shown.

    Good luck. Not sure why you'd want to be so sickly sexually violent. It's sad really. I pity you all who want to even fantasize about such sick behavior. I guess because you can't get pussy any other way. poor baby dick fucks. Even in joke it's sick. Grow up, you baby dick fucks. learn how to get pussy the right way.
  20. hydromorphone victim of incest [insincerely conduce my paisley]
    Originally posted by the man who put it in my hood i want to rape hydro

    Go ahead and try, you'll have your dick torn off like the last idiot who tried.
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