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2018-04-11 at 2:52 PM UTC in What happens when we die?
Originally posted by aldra that honestly sounds horrible.
we're just rebooted and reformatted to make the same mistakes, over and over again…
maybe this is what hell is.
Yeah, tell me about it. I might believe this shit, but I don't endorse it, its not a comfort. My father was the same way. He said when he died he was going to shoot god in the face for this fucked up system. That always makes me laugh though. I wanted to commission a huge oil painting of my dad shooting god in the face. That'd be super cool to hang in the living room as a memorial to my dad imo. -
2018-04-11 at 11:23 AM UTC in What happens when we die?
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2018-04-11 at 11:14 AM UTC in What is the worst reaction to psychedelic drugs you've ever seen?
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2018-04-11 at 9:38 AM UTC in J.R.R. Tolkien
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2018-04-11 at 3:01 AM UTC in Trump’s Long Time Attorney Raided MondayIf totse did one thing for me it was to teach me why jedis suck.
While at the hospital 1337 was in around here I stole menorah candles right out of their jedi faggot menorah. I had to use some of them to cook shots for him when my lighters died... So thankfully I hate jedis enough to do that to begin with. Fucking nigger jedis... -
2018-04-11 at 2:52 AM UTC in Social Things...
Originally posted by Fox Paws . Also I’ll do it if I’m trying to flush out a mole/snitch. Make sure certain people hear certain things and see where it ends up.. etc.
I've garnered a lot of valuable information doing shit like this.
Sorta along lines of keep your friends close and your enemies closer. Sometimes you have to give a little to get the real prize of info. -
2018-04-11 at 2:21 AM UTC in i am behaving like human garbage
Originally posted by greenplastic i don't know, it was all fucked up and hard to interpret
but i mean even if she's not IV'ing it it still applies
What would the difference if I were on methadone? Or if I was schizophrenic like §m£ÂgØL the shitton of antipsychotics I'd be on? Just because some drugs have indications not to take them during pregnancy doesn't mean that's the case for every person. I shouldn't be taking my betablocker either, but that's what keeps my aortic aneurysm from rupturing. There are indications for use person to person. -
2018-04-11 at 2:13 AM UTC in Malice suicide thread
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2018-04-11 at 2:11 AM UTC in What happens when we die?
Originally posted by GasTheKikesRaceWarNow Correct. The energy focus is key. Ritual takes many firms, but it is just a summoning of energy. The most important thing is that that energy has to be carefully directed. The field is full of frauds and phonies, but a skilled energy worker can have enormous power.
Very true. We after all are just energy when everything else boils away. Its all on how you use it.
I was told when I was younger I was born with a blue veil. Which, so I'm told can make me more adept to such things, or more open to the paranormal... Which... I definitely have had my fair share of paranormal events. Not always good either. I've had a lot of negative attach to me in my youth that has followed me around... I just stubbornly tell my current poltergiest to fuck off and suck my nonexistent dick. This thing has physically written on dry erase boards, moved shit and left bloody lines down my back... I live seeing a lot of shadow people (never while on meth funnily enough). I hate those niggers... They are part if it. They don't phase me anymore, none of it does. -
2018-04-11 at 1:12 AM UTC in i am behaving like human garbage
Originally posted by Fox Paws Did a medical doctor tell you the best option would be to continue taking it? Or was that just like your opinion? Cuz it sounds like you wouldn’t stop even if it was best for the baby. As long as it makes your pain better.
If it was I would. I talked to §m£ÂgØL about getting off it in my first pregnancy even and at that time he thought it to be best course of action then.
I wasnt epileptic then either. I almost surely would miscarry since the seizures get a lot worse and more frequent when I don't have it.
I don't trust american doctors on this one being first off its a drug almost nobody is even aware exists muchless knows about to any meaningful degree. If I were a heroin addict, theyd be just fine with giving methadone. So this is what I've tried to balance. I would do whatever is best, but feel this is appropriate for now. Even if this were just pain, high levels of cortisol aren't good for a developing brain either so that has to be weighed too. -
2018-04-11 at 1:05 AM UTC in i am behaving like human garbageFcke up trying I edit on my phone.
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2018-04-11 at 1:04 AM UTC in i am behaving like human garbage
Originally posted by Fox Paws So what are you taking right now?
I don't deny I smoke pot (for nausea which I have hyermisis gravdium again- I feel its better than low dose anti-psychotics IMO). I take T-PAIN for my chronic pain which I have for years and years. I felt it was better BUT have I DONT SHOOT IT.to continue on it than risk miscarriage from discontinuing. I would have never planned a pregnancy and been on this shit, but risk vs. Reward I believe this is best option since I've already been on it for like 6 years and I can't function without something for my pain either. Not to mention I'm epileptic. I was put on keppra into my pregnancy but have since discontinued for it not helping to a significant degree and risk it would have for my baby. They convinced me to even go in it because being a fall risk and it endangering my baby but if its not helping then no point. -
2018-04-11 at 12:50 AM UTC in What happens when we die?
Originally posted by GasTheKikesRaceWarNow Also you do not just imagine entities, they do have an existence external to your mind, though the name and the relationship varies.
It also depends on the person. Some people pray and their prayers have enormous power. Spirituality is not just made up, and not just a mental illness, no matter what they say.
Prayer or whatever... It harnessing energy, manipulating it. Like people who preform spells. All that is, the items, the ritual, is just a way it helps some people focus energy. Some people need nothing, others need elaborate incantations, silver goblets, virgin blood, etc. But that's down to the individual and how well they can manipulate the energy around them for their ends. Its not even so much WHO you pray to either, though they can decide to contribute or help focus energy for said purpose... Just the belief sometimes is enough. -
2018-04-11 at 12:43 AM UTC in What happens when we die?
Originally posted by GasTheKikesRaceWarNow You're supposed to have a tribe, a family that doesn't betray you and looks out for you at those times when you aren't looking out for yourself. People aren't made to be alone. Think how in a dark wood you feel so much safer when you have someone else with you.
Granted, and I do to some extent, but when it all boils down you're all you got to look out for yourself in the end.
I struggle with trust especially placing it in the hands of a deity or people.
Feeling safe doesn't equate to being safe so while its nice to feel the comfort of others, I don't fool myself in thinking that their presence will keep me safe.
In dark times, when some weird, paranormal shit was happening which had me freaked, I asked for intuition from Plantesi if she could grant that during that rather fucky event... But I won't depend upon it. -
2018-04-10 at 10:13 PM UTC in What was the last bug you found in your home?
Originally posted by Zanick Just a few weeks ago, I almost walked directly into a spider hanging from a thread in my doorway. As always, I carefully lifted him by the web and relocated him to the other side of the room, where he wouldn't be bothered.
I try to do shit like that too, assuming they don't pose a risk to myself, my son, or pets. We had black widows in florida. I'd kill those when found but they hide pretty well anyway.
I last seen a moth. I shooed him outside. -
2018-04-10 at 9:44 PM UTC in i am behaving like human garbage
Originally posted by gumbo >doesn't hurt people
>smokes weed and shoots T-PAIN while pregnant
I'm not shooting T-PAIN. I have months before there was even a question of me being pregnant, but that was due to issues I had keeping my meds down for a short while. 1337 was the one shooting it, and thankfully he at least listened to me and started using PEG with it to sav his veins. -
2018-04-10 at 9:40 PM UTC in Malice suicide thread
Originally posted by Malice Honestly sploo, do you really think you're ever going to have any effect on whether I decide to commit suicide?
I doubt any one person especially will effect you either way, but I hope you don't. I truly hope you find satisfaction and happiness in life, enough to make it worth living for you. You're a broken person like the rest of us, but I really think deep down you're a good person and it saddens me you struggle to enjoy life, but if dying is your only option then well... I hope the suffering ends if there is no alternative. -
2018-04-10 at 6:48 PM UTC in What happens when we die?
Originally posted by BeigeWarlock Just have faith and trust..and to be at your best..nJesus was a very loving Rabbi which most Rabbi's were not.. Jesus just basically stated to chill and not fear death not evil pestering demonds for the rod and staff shall protect.
As I walk through the valley in the shadow of death I fear no evil for I am the baddest motherfucker in the whole fucking valley. That's how I trust- no one. I take care of myself and my own soul if that even exists. -
2018-04-10 at 6:45 PM UTC in What happens when we die?
Originally posted by GasTheKikesRaceWarNow I found this interesting. It sounds close to traditional European beliefs and Hinduism.
I have my own personal experiences that I cant really 'prove' to others happened or is real for why I believe this way, nor do I care to prove anything to anyone other than to just do good to one another which will make things better for us all.
I definitely found Hinduism to be a significant influence and something that stood out as bearing some truth from an early age.
I accept that maybe the entity I communicate with might just be a part of my subconscious, though there have been things that have happened, others have witnessed I can't explain so... Either way, I'm not gonna push my 'imaginary friend' on others like §m£ÂgØL might champion to do.
Who punishes an otherwise good person for lack of belief? Seems only an evil entity would do that. Earn followers through threats, and scare tactics. That doesn't sound so good and morally I couldn't follow or submit to such a being. -
2018-04-10 at 6:29 PM UTC in i am behaving like human garbage
Originally posted by GasTheKikesRaceWarNow You hate hydro because she is a white woman who rejected you because of your race. #NOWAG
He just hates the fact I moved on and despite all the hardships I've endured, I've made it to the other side and am still kicking.
I might be a whore but I'm honest. I don't hurt people, and all my deals have been square.