I choose opiates for pain. If I wasnt in pain, I probanly would never touch them. My addiction comes from seeking relief enough so I can get out of bed in the morning and carry on my life.
Yes, I remember the dhl box thing too. I ordered like a 1000 boxes to my then boyfirends grandmothers house... a few other people too. It was funny to get calls telling how in their disbelief this dhl guy just left a fuckton of boxes on their porch. i recall someone making funiture and inviting the dhl guy in their garage and got a pic of him sitting on their recently constructed dhl box couch.
Sophie, I recall you making a case against circumcison a while back, Im on a phone and too tired to bother, but if you can, would you please be sokind as to link them now? Idid a fuckton of research before my son was born (I didnt even know I was going to have a son until he was born) and what I discovered was really fucked. It honestly should be banned just like for female circumcisions. Id never let some fucktard doctor harm my son like that. So unless you got a better case than 'I want my sons penis to look like my mutilated penis' shut the fuck up.
How is his conception or even lesbians raising him have anything to do with it? This common medical procedure is an elective procedure which has no real bebefits and has all sorts of side effects and risks. It is more likey for a child to die from circumcision than there ever needing to be circimcised in the first place- should be pretty simple math for most people to follow and say 'hey.. I wont risk fucking up my child for life or hell, possibly killing him for imaginary, false cases for circumcision. Ill let my child make this choice later in life when hes old enough to make an informed decision on an elective surgery that is mutilating his body'.
He would stand a higher chance of dying from the proceedure than every needing to be circumcised in his life so.. no. There is also a shitload of other reasons not to, but for that alone, why would I jepordize my sons life for how his dick looks? Pretty selfish thing if you ask me.
2016-04-06 at 8:45 PM UTC
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Galileo was a disinfo agent?
Oh, dude! HAHAHAHA are you serious? Fucking 'stars that lost their flame and fell down' thats priceless shit right there. My 10 month old son has a better comprehension of how shit works than you. if you even for a moment so much as consider this shit to possibly be legit, fuck, youre retarded. I knew you were a dumbass fuckhead, but shit, I wasnt expecting this from you.
Yeah, I did have a heart attack. As for head trauma right up prior to the heart attack, I tripped coming in my house after days of not sleeping and driving back from down south and slammed into the railing going to my porch. It stunned me for a minute and my head was ringing for hours after. This was over a month ago, though. My head finally seemed to clear up for the most part, but at times it seems fuzzy. I couldnt recall this other coworkers name Id worked with when she was right in front of me, though she had thoroughly pissed me off, so maybe that was it- also I hadnt had sleep before that shift so I was tired then too. Ive been hit in the head a lot in my life, I have no doubt I have something wrong due to it. Ive bee hit so hard Ive seizured before. But as for recent head trauma, the railing incident is the only thing thats happened. ive not been prone to migraines and this whole fuzzy headed feeling, feeling drugged is a whole new thing. Its not been so bad lately, but it comes and goes now, but the nausea has been fairly constant. Hoping it clears up fully soon.
About a week ago or so, when the migraine first occured, I felt really nausous getting off work, came home, was up for a while, went to sleep and slept for fucking ever (my day off) woke up like 12-13 hours latwr and my head was throbbing. Was outta weed (smoked in the morning) so I caaled my coworker at work, then called the one off work and met up with her at another coworkers house and pickrd up a dime at 1am. Smoked a blunt with her, and 3 other coworkers and was gonna go to the laundrymat thats open 24/7 since I had work the next night. I was too stoned and my nausea wasnt as bad but I still felt fucky. My head at this point was just tender and I fell asleep as soon as I got home. Woke up early and went and di my shit but my head was and still has been fuzzy since. That night I literally felt like I was drugged with a tranquilizer, I was so fucky. This 'almost a headache but not quite' has been for about a week and it comes and goes into a migraine. I feel fuzzy in the head and justtnot right and its been for a week or so. I wish I just fucking felt better. Gos this sucks.
Malice, you got any idea what would cause reoccuring migraines? Ive had one and since felt like Im on the verge of one, if it doesnt just go to full blown brain throbbing- nausea- Ive felt sick for days now. Havent ate a whole lot because of it and have gone several days without eating. Almost reminds me of being pregnant since I did a few times get migraines during it and was nauseous for the most part all the way threw. Im not, Im sure of it since Ive not had sex since my husband left (way before actually. Ive felt terrible for days now.
I go to my doctor every 3 months and get 60 klonopins a month, could have gone with xanax but.. kpins are better for me and most people I know. I dont even take them, never since going have I. I sell them. I originally got them to help §m£ÂgØL out.
Better question: how many times have you done a drug thats been up someone's ass? Probably a lot for most of the drug user population here. Its just better to not know.
Kreepy- I agree IVing most drugs is the ROA of choice but consider this: most cocaine is snorted, most dealers selling cocaine cut their product with stuff thats fine to snort.. but shooting? I had a person I knew who masturbated from shooting cocaine because he IVed it and it was cut with tylenol- that shit will kill you IVing it, that why you dont IV percs even if you do a cold water extraction. The coke Ive been doing has been coworkers stash, they just been generous with me and hey.. snorting a line is quick, no mess and done... I IV all opiate pills though and as long as youre clean about it, use alcohol swabs before and after, use silver sulfadine so you dont get track marks, use clean needles every time, especially using sharp needles (track marks are usually caused by dull needles FYI) all will be good in the neighborhood. I hesitate to shoot cocaine for the reason I mentioned.. probably shpuldnt be doing it in the first place but hey wtf.. I agree, smoking coke is a huge waste, the bioavailability isnt there- I distinctly remember a arguement and correcting my exhusbands brother a decade ago over this when he thought I was straight edge, and before I ever tried it even.. thwy only thing he could come back with was because Id never done it before so I couldnt know *rolls eyes* and he was brainwashed into seeing needles as taboo, like most retards.
Circumcision is fucked to do to an infant against their will. My son was not circumcised. The one bitch whore doctor went on bitching that he didnt get his vitaminK shot since he was born at home (Im against the perservitives, not the vitamin in the shot, plus I left the placenta attached for 12 hours, he got all his blood from that so really, not a high risk, most risk of becoming anemic is from the cord being cut prematurely and circumcisions) so after this hour long speach, just to be informed by the maternity ward he was over 7 days, this didnt need one was then said 'oh, well, lets get him circumcised' as she went on why I should. I almost killed this bitch and informed her all the reasons why NOT to (poor breast feeding, incredible pain, the risk of dying because of the proceedure a higher risk than ever needing to be circumcised in his entire life.. you know common sense shit doctors should know... and then she just went on about his risk of anemia and bleeding to death for an hour.. now wants to preform a proceedure that is totally elective that will cause him to bleed.. what fucking sense is that? No fucking cunts are gonna lay their dirty fucking hands on my baby and hurt him like that. If he chooses later in life to be circumcised, thatll be his choice, but fuck doing somethinglike that for no good reason to an infant.
Went to work last night, got there and I was the only person to show up for my shift, both other coworkers were no call, no shows and it was a holy clusterfuck in there. Day shift cook comes in, his GF was working second shift, she stayed and we smoked a few blunts and did lines of coke all night to celebrate easter, he even brought a bottle of vodka but I didnt partake of that. Ended up getting paid to run to the store and dick off for a while to get cooking spray so we could make waffles, and at about 3am I drove my coworker to walmart and loaded up on discounted easter candy and bought my baby this cool looking easter stormtrooper thats bigger than he is and stands up- everything was discounted after midnight and all my shopping was done on the clock while it was slower than fuck. My job is pretty cool, I must say, it certainly has its perks. Havent even spent a dime onall the drugs Ive been doing, probably shouldnt be doing them, but fuck it...
Ive done more blow in the last month than all of the 5 years Ive lived up here and its not half bad blow either- even been given baggies, still hanging on to two small bags... wtf and all this after aheart attack.. meh, irony. Oh well, if Im gonna die atleast I should have a little fun before I kick the bucket and its not like Ive spend a single dime on any of it. This gay guy at my work keeps getting me to dobumpswith him tonight and my day shift cook always tries to hook me up whenhe covers a night shift. thought I was gonna die the other day after getting geeked, threw up, cold clammy, arm went numb and a shit load of chest pain- ate a bunch of propranolol and slept it off. tonight I actually feel pretty good and cant say Ive felt this good in a long time. Waiting on this bitch to show up with more blow or a blunt... I do have a pretty cool job if I do say so myself. Ive spent no money on all the drugs Ive been doing save for those morphines I picked up dirt cheap.
2016-03-27 at 4:02 AM UTC
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I forgot how fun
Didnt occur to me it was spring break until I went to the spring and everyone and their mother was there- usually its dead or just a few potheads hanging around drinking and smoking. Gonna go next week when nobody is there- baby needs to catch back up on his swim lessons. He swims like a little fish. Picked up a dimebag and my friend got paranoid with the people there so we went toanother, still too many people.. hopefully next week works out better. Might eventake themto the beach and finally spread my dads ashes. Hes been sitting in a cardboard box forever now.
I shot morphine tonight- only wish I had enough to drift off into that painless never waking bliss. I wanna get some dilly soon and really be oncloud nine.unfortunately they are expensive and hard to come by... so I doubt Ill be doing that anytime soon. Picked up a bunch of 30mg morphines for 15$ so Ive just been saving themfor the intense chest pain when it comes on or really bad bavk pain like Ive had all day. Did some blow yesterday a coworker gave me and thought I was gonna die. I didnt shoot up then, I was so sick, clammy and my chest wasnkilling me- I just ate a few propranol, so hereIam.
I cant do a pregnancy again. This baby is one and done. Ill probably be dead in a few months anyway.
I really hate the fact that Im losing my son. I just cant do it, especially as my health is so fucked. I love that child, and never, ever have hurt or done that baby wrong. Do I smoke pot occaisonally? Yeah. Do I dabble with other drugs once in a blue moon? Sure do. Am I physically dependent on a drug that helps legit chronic pain? Yes. I dont blow money trying to get high. I havent bought weed in forever, or any drug save for T-PAIN. §m£ÂgØL said I didnt quit smoking during my pregnancy which is a lie, I quit for the bulk of my pregnancy and the ecig did help despite me telling him not to get it for me. I picked back up when my dad died and quit again before he was born. My child was not born under weight- under weight babies are deemed to be under 5lbs 13oz., my child was 6lbs 7oz. At birth (my dad was into gemology- I have a shitton of accurate scales around my house that weigh up to 30lbs.). My child was born healthy and has been very healthy even when Ive gotten sickand hes been around others whove been sick- his immune system is kick ass. Besides two ear infections hes been 100% healthy. My child was rolling over back and forth at a month old. He was crawling by 3 months. Right now hes 10 months old and has a vocabulary of 10 words and eats unblended solids. So, whats wrong with my baby?
I dont see where the retelling changes- there was a lot of things I didnt mention prior. Ive accepted what I did was wrong to him- it was, and I never, ever agreed I pulled a gun twice, I did once with my ex and once with him. I dont expect, nor what §m£ÂgØLs support, nor have I ever. I was working my ass off to try to make shit right for us both, not so I could just sit on my ass for him to take care of us. Ive pulled my weight for over a decade and if I wasnt working, I was in college and most of that I was doing the rawmilk gig while in school too. Im not a lazy person, not by a long shot. The longest out of work Ive been was after my son and even then I was trying to go back to school then but lost my ride, my books and even my sons carseat and work shoes during my grandmothers bullshit. Ive never expected to be 'taken care of' by anybody, I just like anyone in my situation needed some help. most single mothers have family they can depend on for childcare or even just the occaisional break- Ive had none of that up until the beginning of this month. Just found out literally an hour ago Ive got to go back for my son because they dont want to go through the drama of getting him off the certificate and adopting, so Im leaving in the morning after work to go pick him up. Ohwell.. I tried. I just need to get that fucker off the certificate and then I can go drop him off with DCF and all will be well.
