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2016-06-21 at 1:10 AM UTC in Moving, finally- fuck FloridaFinancially the better part of this is sorted out and why I am going- pan handling is an option and I have a way to bail us out if all else fails. I appreciate you giving some appliable advice. Yeah, I am gonna have to either have some work done on my vehicle before I go or just sell her and get something a little more dependable and roomy, which is pretty nuch already taken care of depending on what I choose to do. You mentioned a cellphone plan incase of emergency, which with any vehicle going this far is certainly possible- I just got a nail in my tire and had to plug it- shit happens. im currently with verizon, and where I live is literally a line, just past ny house you get zero recption with other carriers and as faras Ive been with verizon (since I dont get service most the places Ive lived without verizon), what donyou recommend out on the west coast?
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2016-06-21 at 12:58 AM UTC in The grand canyon is really bigYeah, arial maps are pretty bitchin, Ive got stoned a lot and just browsed over and seen some interesting shit thatd be cool to see irl. I doubt we will end up at the grand canyon but that woukd be cool to see when we head west. pikes peak in colorado isnt so cool on an arial map but it is beautiful to see out from it., Ibelieve you can see 5 states from it or somethiny like that. It was cool and hopefully my son and friends will get to see it with me soon.
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2016-06-21 at 12:50 AM UTC in I have to drink one more time so I can quit drinking.Sobriety is for faggots. You arent living unless you are taking 2+grams of T-PAIN and/or the equivanlent in good ass opiates, have a bowl or two of weed to smoke everyday, and do a few lines of blow every few hours at your place of employment along with your coworkers passing around blunts. Ill be missing that at my job I just left... ah, just dont miss the good things until they are gone.
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2016-06-21 at 12:35 AM UTC in Moving, finally- fuck FloridaBill Krozby is full of shit. The only truth here is that yeah, §m£ÂgØL lost his virginity in a threesome with my exhusband and I (he didnt get fucked in the ass until he came back while I was pregnant) got pregnant by him. He also did write a book. Thats not what this is all about though... anyone care to add any recommendations for this trip or advice on going on an open ended road trip?
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2016-06-21 at 12:17 AM UTC in 2014 vs 2015 vs 2016 (so far)In 2014 I was trying to get shit together and just live, my dad was still alive and §m£ÂgØL hitchhiked down and stayed a month- we all planned he come in 2015 and we do a shitload of drugs which never happened because I got pregnant. In January 2015 my dad died, shit was going to hell... I was heavy pregnant and everything was so fucked for me mentally and physically... my baby was born in May and it just got worse and worse and finally I got rid of my exhusband and I started getting shit together... had a job in Januaury of 2016 and been working up til now but my health has really gone to hell this year. Ive had a heart attack, my anxiety is terrible, Ive had a bad kidney infectionthey wanted to admit me for, along with pneumonia they wanted to admit me for just this month... now Im moving in a day to the north east and taking ny animals and baby where I know absolutely nobody and have been saying goodbye to the few people I have come to care about here or who have helped me and my son. My roommate whom I met at my job while he was hitchhiking is going but gonna be leaving in a day or two upon arrival when we get there to go to the rainbow gathering. Weve planned to meet back up and head west and pick §m£ÂgØL up along the way... we will see how it all pans out... The last few years have been hell.. especially since I lost my dad.
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2016-06-21 at 12:02 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionWhen it all boils down, it all becomes a job, being it takes your time to do shit. Sell drugs, sell shit on craigslist/ebay, be a man-whore... I guess it all depends on what a 'job' is to you, but everything involved in making money usually takes some degree of applying your time to doing it.
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2016-06-20 at 1:35 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionMalice- I agree thats a better route to fill the desires of a child. My exhusband was the one who wanted a baby, not me. Im just making the most of what I have, and wanted to suggest other things that might make those numbers the way they are just from my personal experience. Also, I wonder, since they are taking this from birth to what.. 2 years? I wonder if post partum depression was considered in this too. during pregnancy and after the hormones get all fucked up big time... I definely had suffered and probably at times still suffer from post partum depression since hes been born. I feel bad for how at times Ive felt for when hes been born and things Ive said, but nobody ever even considers that its possible I was dealing with post partum depression. §m£ÂgØL has even said shit that I said back then and has held it over mewith no consideration of that before... I was very depressed, especially with the shit from my Exhusband. Ive always taken care of him to the best of my ability, never endangered him, and while at times Ive felt so low, and that maybe I didnt love him, had severe regrets he was here (mainly because of my exhusnand), Ive never been one of those fucked up people who thought about killing him or some shit like that. The worst Ive ever been has been contemplating leaving him with a friend or dcf and commiting suicide. Things have been better though... Ive always been a depressed person and have ideas that involve dying sometimes, but my priority is him being safe and happy always. Hopefully I can make some really good memories with my son growing up and while it wont be a normal life, not by a long shot, hopefully he will appreciate all the cool shit he gets to do with his mom. All I can do is make the best of a fucked up situation.
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2016-06-20 at 1:21 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionEnter- Well, when I was 11-12... fuck, even in my teens and later, I would choose to hang out with my dad over friends my age a lot. Sure, Im not normal, but Im certainly not autistic. I was homeschooled (by choice) from middle school to graduating. i was the kid who went and spent time at an old folks home with this one old lady who had dementia. Id sometimes 'kidnap' her and take her to stores and if she needed/wanted anything, Id buy it for her- it sometimes would become an ordeal because she wouldnt ever wanna go back, but I always made it her choice to go back, say for dinner or would make excuses shed agree we needed to return for. It was sad looking back, since she had no one ever visit her save for very rarely. I met her when my grandmother sent me in to drop off flowers for this lady who used to go to her church, on my way out I was grabbed by this lady in a wheelchair who begged me to take her back to her room, bit she didnt know where her room was, so I helped her out, got her in bed like she wanted, bitched at the nurse who wanted to be a cunt and say she couldnt be in bed and I shouldnt of helped her, and so I just... came back... 3-5 days a week sometimes more and started being very random when I came. I for some reasonnfelt an obligation to make sure she was being taken care of and had someone looking out for her. i started bring stuffed animals for her, ballons, candy... shit youd bring when visiting someone in a old folks home, to the point you could tell she had regular visitors. Once I came the nurse came up to me laughing saying her family had finally visited and brought all her stuffed animals, ballons and shit out saying to her she must have stolen them from other residents and the nurse had to explain about this 13 year old kid who just showed up by herself all times of day and the better part of the week. Finally, they noved her down to a south floirda facility and U had to beg the lady who rannthe old folks home to tell me where she was transfered. I went and visited her there a few times too, first time I walk in, her family is all there, about a dozen of them she looks up 'HYDRO! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN AND WHO ARE THESE PEOPLE?!' she couldnt remember next to nothing but she remembered my name as soon as I walked in and it was awkward trying to explain to her innfront of these people that these were her family... they didnt so much as speak a word to me. Well, point of all that is, if my son is anything like his mother, he too will probably find friendships outside the norm of most teenagers. Part of why my dad and I were so close was because he treated me as an equal, gave me loads of freedom and we could talk and get along well... when I was a teen I didnt really get on with other girls talking about makeup, their hair, the latest boy bands and shit... I had a few nerdy friends my agr, but they too wanted to hang out with my dad and I too.. my dad always had good ideas of shit to do and places to go. He was a good listener and wasnt judgemental which made me feel safer ti talk about important shit with him. I hope I can be like that with my son and again.. if hes a weirdo, like his mother, he probably will.
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2016-06-20 at 3:23 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionMalice, I think the worst part of a child is eithet having them 24/7 and trying to hold shit together or having to work so much you hardly see them. I love and genuinely enjoy taking my baby places and swimming and such, its just the constant work and household shit doing it all alone thats been so tough. Soon, I wont have all these burdens, and can actually go out into the world on an adventure with him and my friends and just get to enjoy a lot of good things with him. i am really excited for this, but aso scared due to a lot of unknown factors, suddenly moving with my animals and packing... but once its done and we are there it shouldnt be too bad- then in a few weeks its off on a road trip for a while... who knows how long.
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2016-06-19 at 9:22 PM UTC in What drugs should always be on hand/ kept in reserve?To have on hand for cases of emergency, since a lot of you mentioned meth and other stims, Id say yall should keep some propranolol on hand incase you or one of your idiot friends over does it. It could save a life in a cocaine, meth or other stimulant overdose.
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2016-06-19 at 9:02 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionDoesnt matter if you believe in karma or not, everything ends everything changes and what I think he means is that before too much longer its likely equally shitty things will happen. All I can say is to just enjoy the high while it lasts.
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2016-06-19 at 8:50 PM UTC in Moving, finally- fuck FloridaIt probably is, but I really dont have much choice with it right now. This choice atleast ensures my animals will be safe and well cared for and Im out ofnthis shitty state and where I can get shit done a lot cheaper for my vehicle. I cpuld be in a homeless shelter in this bumfuck state and my dogs could be displaced, so this is certainly the better option regardless.
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2016-06-19 at 8:46 PM UTC in To what extent of being responsible for someones death would you feel bad?
kill yourself
One day I probably will. Whats the point of you telling me to kill myself? Do I cause you that much anguish and pain by posting here that me commiting suicide would better your life? -
2016-06-19 at 8:22 PM UTC in Moving, finally- fuck FloridaEverytime Ibpost itncondenses everything into a wall of text. Also back usingnmybshittybbroken phone again. As fornhim seeing his child, he was just here with him for over a month. He went back friday and Im moving hopefully tuesday, thursday at the latest. He spent a lot of time while here with him- he agreed that I wasnt exaggerating about having such a calm and good baby. He turned a year old in the middle of May for which Golkum was here to celebrate his birthday with us. No, I havent nor would I pull a gun on anyone. things were stressful while he was here because zive been sick with a kidney infection, and pneumonia for which they wanted to hospitalize me for, but we did have a good time over all I think. I quit my job last week and they were pissed but zi needed the time to pack abd get ready to move so fuck them. Anyone wanna add any practical advice or ideas of places to see while heading out that way?
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2016-06-19 at 4:28 AM UTC in Methylphenidate binge, up for like, 30 hours, not countin a 30 min napDude, here in Florida, most pharmacys you can walk right up, wothout ID or even signing anything and buy insulin needles. Some pharms have their own bullshit policies and want tonsee a scriot for insulin, Or the bottle of insulin or buy insulin with the needles but that isnt the norm.
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2016-06-19 at 3:44 AM UTC in Moving, finally- fuck FloridaAlso, besides advice on shit to bring and such, anyone recommend any places to see? Weeve already decided on Pikes Peak, Zion and the Redwoods.. give me some more ideas. We will be starting out on highway 80 heading west from PA.
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2016-06-19 at 3:41 AM UTC in Moving, finally- fuck FloridaAbout a week ans a half ago, I made arrangements with people I know up north to come up there with my dogs, cats, macaw and baby. Ill finally be getting out ofnthis dump of a home with no hot water, half the house doesnt have electricity running to it and the floors in my kitchen are falling in. The dogs will also have a nice yard, shelter and people who will care for them well. I dont plan to stay long there, just about a month. My roommate, whos been staying with me since I picked him up 4 -5months ago while he was hitchhiking, my friends down south had my baby, he had nowhere to stay and wanted to try to meet up with an old friend near where my baby was- I invited him to stay for a few days until I went to visit my son, he stayed, went with me and decided to return with me to help me out, about two weeks later he stayed at my house while I got my son and ever since has been helping me watch him, care for him and doing so much for me. Hes gonna be going up there with mebecause he had planned months ago to head out to be on the northeast for the Rainboe Family Gathering, but put it off to help me. Now we are like two weeks away from it, hes gonna ride with me up there and then head out to the gathering in Vermont which is pretty close to where I am going anyway. After the gathering, hes gonna stay with me until I either repair my current vehicle or get a new vehicle and we both, along with my son are gonna head west, pick up §m£ÂgØL and go to Pikes Peak, Zion National park, and to see the Redwoods in California. Ill have people watching my dogs and animals for me, so thatll be good plus have a lot more help finanically to be able to do this. Ive had this calling in me for well over a decade to drive west and see shit out that way but always my anxiety and fear would get the better of me or Id have things holding me back like my Ex husband and my animals- now I dont have those problems so I am doing this. My roommate and §m£ÂgØL promised me theyd go with me, my roomie is exciter since mostly hes just hitchhiked, now we all will be driving and not havr to worry about the uncertainly of being picked up or getting where we want to go and also we will have the ability to stay as long or as short as we want in any place. Ive done a bit of travelling in my life but not like this, mainly just point A to point B drives up and down the east coast. I have a chevy tahoe which has served me well before in the past doing week long camps and such but Im thinking of getting a cargo van or a camper instead so we can be more comfortable on this adventure and room to give some people rides if they have gas money for us, plus some room for annair matress since my back is bad- my tahoe can fit a queen size but thats it with the seats folded down. any advice for this long ass road trip consisting of 3 weirdos and a baby? (Im sure someone is gonna mention a year old baby screaming on a long ride- my child was born to ride, he never, ever cries as long as we are moving. Seriously, hes the best riding baby innthe world, so he isnthe least ofnny worries as far as that is concerned).
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2016-06-19 at 3:17 AM UTC in To what extent of being responsible for someones death would you feel bad?Id only feel guilt if it was my fault where I coyld have done something to prevent it. Id feel bad in anycase, especially a child, dog or other animal, but just simply me driving normal, paying attention, regardless if the drive was for the sake ofba drive or not, I wouldnt feel guilty solely for that. I dont drink and drive, I dont drive when I take new drugs or drugs that interfere with me driving- ever even had a speeding ticket. Id say I am a pretty cautious driver and I pay attention well behind the wheel so I doubt Id ever be feeling guilty for a tragity like that.
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2016-06-19 at 2:30 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionWell Im leaving florida in a few days with my child, dogs, cats and macaw. Finally going where Ill have more help, a safe place for my animals, and where I can get the work I need done on my truck cheap and/or buy a new vehicle. Im thibking of buying either a cargo van or a camper. In the beginning of August, after my roommate is done at the Rainbow family gathering, him, §m£ÂgØL and I are going to drive out west and go see a bunch of shit with the baby. My dogs have a perment place and will be well cared for and Ill see them again soon enough and this finally gives me the freedom to do the shit Ive eanted to do a long time ago but was too scared and/or had shit stop me- its not gonna stop me this time. Im having a lot of anxiety for moving, having pnuemonia at the same time and trying to pack with a year old baby but hey... things will be miles better soon. Literally no later than thursday. Planning to go tuesday though.
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2016-06-06 at 7:58 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionFyi I did take it out of its case after it got wet and the back off to dry it but it didnt seem like it got wet inside where the components are. Ill fix it eventually Im wassbit pissed about it, but Im not going to blame him for it. I.