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2019-12-27 at 4:18 PM UTC in Merry Christmas- get down on it...
Originally posted by Bill Krozby lol OP has a picc line
I wish I still did.
I'm seriously considering getting a port either done by someone on the side, or taking a trip to Mexico. That'd be the ticket.
I wouldn't really need new rigs, if I had a PICC. Just syringes. Insulin needles for right now though.
Glad the fag spic gets some humor from my happiness. Its just jealousy. I can be happy like this, yet he can't be happy in his life, which should be miles above mine.
I've learned a lot, I've grown, and well... I'm just gonna cherish each day. -
2019-12-27 at 12:03 AM UTC in Merry Christmas- get down on it...I live by myself, deep in the woods, in a tent. It's a safe and secure spot, and hard to access, if you don't know the way, which is heavily concealed.
I have a propane heater, plenty of 1lb tanks, which I can refill with my 15lb tanks (2 of them, and I just use an adaptor hose on the big tank when I'm here and use the little tanks for when I'm panhandling so it's easy to carry/tote along. Just becareful of some hoses, especially felible ones as they are manufactured with an oil to make them felible... It leeches into the heater lines and clogs it up, rendering your heater useless. You sometimes can pull it apart and blow out the oil, and best is to use a compressor to blow the oil out. Put it back together and it runs fine. Sometimes the pilot light assembly needs replacing, which is maybe once a season with heavy use (done a lot of camping with these bitches waaaay before I ever was homeless, hence why I am well informed on this wonderful thingie madoodle.
I can happily say I've never once stayed in a shithole shelter, which often has lice and bed/body bugs which infest clothing too. (I've seen the results on other homeless folks though).I also am not handing over my knives.
I gotmmy setup good for winter, and I don't need their help.
Hey I'm happy. That's the ultimate goal, right? To be happy? My pain is well managed at this point, albeit some times I have little set backs where I take a hard fall, or twist my knee, which has me take an extra dose or two once in a blue moon but I'm never without dope. I'm over 3 days ahead. I meet all sorts of cool people everyday. Some help me, others, I help them... I'm grateful. I'm excited to get up and see my people eveeyday. I look forward to seeing my cool cats who look out for me when I go to cop.
Got stoned tonight for the first time in a long time. Having a good time. Going to bed soon as I get up insanely early to begin my day.
Hey, I'm grateful to be alive and having good days. Tomorrow isn't promised, not is it promised to be a great day, but I'm thankful for the ones I get.
Hope y'all had a good Christmas. Happy New year incase I'm too busy to say so. -
2019-12-26 at 11:22 PM UTC in I might put myself to sleep soon.It's funny to think that when I was living in a home and had sommuch that I was at my worst mentally.
Seriously... Try homelessness even if just for a week. It could always be worse. I see kindness and generosity everyday. I am blessed everyday, enough so that a lot of days I can help and bless others... completely changing their entire day. It's touching, really.
I don't know what happened... But once I fell into the right groove... I just got better at least in the head.
I wish you the best. I hope you choose living. If I can help somehow, message me. -
2019-12-26 at 11:14 PM UTC in Should I use electric space heaters or propane?I use a Mr. buddy propane heater and it works great. I buy 1lb tanks in the camping department of Walmart, home Depot, Lowe's ,and ACE hardware. I'm sure some other stores sell it especially if they specialize in outdoor shit (i.e. bass pro shop, and other smaller "bait" shops, or hunting/camping related stores, and definitely near state and private camping locations, I've seen small convenience stores sell it when located near shit like that).
It keeps me warm as fuck and when I panhandle I take it with me to keepmmy hands and ass from freezing on those cold as fuck mornings. It also makes me a lot more money since people KNOW I'm likely gonna spend it on propane, which I do. had a guy give me a 15lb tank and hose along with a brand new dolly to move it around when I gotta fill it. Cool as shit.
I also have an adaptor so I can fill the small tanks and not have to constantly buy the 1lb tanks. It's best to get them chilled with small bottle being colder than the big tank but it'll still fill it 3/4 if it's not chilled. all you dojisnhave the adaptor and put tank upside down, screw on small tank... 45 to 60 seconds and VOILA! You got a small tank filled. You can do it about 10 times with a tank before the seal gets fucked. Saves a lot of money that way too.
Best of luck staying warm. I'm lucky and blessed that I am for pretty cheap. Best gift anyone can give me is propane honestly lol. They're just heavy to carry back to camp- I go about once Week on the bus to Walmart to get them though so it could be worse. Some bus drivers are assholes when I got it with me though. LMFAO it was a fucking nightmare to get the big tank and dolly back that one time. Thank God for some understanding and kind bus drivers especially since they had hardly anyone on that particular bus. God bless them. It was a bitch. -
2019-12-26 at 12:43 AM UTC in Merry Christmas- get down on it...... if ya really want it.
I'm having a pretty awesome Christmas. I have a day pack o' the goodie good dope pills, a few bags of new needles, some reefer (rarely smoke anymore but it was a Christmas present), and blunt wraps. Even got a lot of other people gifts, and cards. I made a ton of money. I gave out a fuckload of cards to those who helped me survive, and I was able to save a few other people's asses who are less fortunate than I am.
I'm grateful. I'm happy.
Merry Christmas,1337. love ya always. Praying for you always, especially today.
I'm gonna be going to look at Christmas display lights now with friends. Hope y'all have a good Christmas.
Merry Christmas, Narc. Love ya, bro. -
2019-12-19 at 11:18 PM UTC in Ok, Iโm gonna spill the beans....Be glad you don't have ass cancer. Seriously, my mother has/had a tumor growing out her ass with 95% blockage. Took forever for someone to say hey bitch needs a colostomy. Now she shits in a bag on her side.
It's fucked and disgusting. Meh, she has done a lot in her life to deserve what she's got, but she seems to be dealing with it alright. They think it's growing back now. This is after a shit load of radiation and chemo treatment. Meh... It is what it is.
Good luck with your treatment. I personally wouldn't be doing it. Not saying you shouldn't, just me and my feelings on it. It's something everyone needs to choose for themselves. I'll be praying for you. Best wishes, my dear. -
2019-12-19 at 10:32 PM UTC in The R'tarded thread: The Shitfucking Edidtion ๐ฉ๐Oh, and Merry Christmas, happy Holidays to all you cool cats, and Happy New year I'm the event I'm out living my life, actually happy for the most part. I may stop in to say Hi, but I'm usually too occupied with other shit.
Take care, y'all. -
2019-12-19 at 10:30 PM UTC in The R'tarded thread: The Shitfucking Edidtion ๐ฉ๐
Originally posted by Octavian
Some good reads for over the Xmas period.
I've been reading all sorts of shit. The libraries around here have books that are 25 to 50cents each. I usually grab something and read it when I panhandle or on the bus or in the coffee shops when I'm charging my shit and drinking my thousandth coffee or tea (fee refills are awesome).
I forget the name of it as I've some given it away for someone else to read but I had one book about Alice in wonderland, where it was real, and Alice instead of wandering into wonderland was princess and her parents who ruled were murdered. She somehow found her way to the real world and the hatter (last name was 'Madagen' I believe), and was her body guard who lost her and attempted to find her by visiting hat shops all over Europe. He had cool weapons and his hat was a cool weapon. She had to use her imagination to defeat her Aunt Red, who's murdered her parents and sorta made wonderland like north korea. It was interesting and pretty cool I thought. -
2019-12-19 at 10:18 PM UTC in does anyone know if 1337/bipolarhighroller is alright?
Originally posted by WellHung I'll join him, and we will gang rape u, hydro. If u resist, I'll throw sulfuric acid in ur face
LMFAO yeah, right,buddy. You'd be walking into the most prepared, ready to fuck you up permanently for life/kill you bitch you've ever seen.
I've had people try. They don't walk away. I may be disabled, but I'm not vulnerable like many in my situation are. I've also got LE on my side too. I'm just a really nice person. As nice as I can be I can be just as evil... And I'm an exceptionally nice person, really super nice.
I'm stronger for the streets, not weaker, and I have made a lot of friends who have already proven their worth as back up/coming to my aid when they've seen me going apeshit on a nigger who's made the mistake of trying to fuck with me.
I'd like to see you try. I'd take pleasure in pounding you into the ground, and crying to the cops about how I had no choice. You're especially fucked if you have any kind of weapon on you. I've handled 3 big niggers on my own before my bro joined in to my aid after seeing me fighting like a tiger. Almost got him by accident when I was in the moment kicking ass, taking names later. I bite, I fight dirty. Don't underestimate what I'll pull out of my coat, or be hiding/getting rid of when the cops show up.
Also, I don't sleep on the streets. I'm safe where I sleep at night. You couldn't find me if you tried anyway. Only a select few know my location and have been shown.
Good luck. Not sure why you'd want to be so sickly sexually violent. It's sad really. I pity you all who want to even fantasize about such sick behavior. I guess because you can't get pussy any other way. poor baby dick fucks. Even in joke it's sick. Grow up, you baby dick fucks. learn how to get pussy the right way. -
2019-12-16 at 10:20 PM UTC in does anyone know if 1337/bipolarhighroller is alright?
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2019-12-15 at 3:58 AM UTC in does anyone know if 1337/bipolarhighroller is alright?
Originally posted by Sudo Being homeless would certainly have an effect on your pain management. As someone who also suffers from chronic pain (and has 2 prescriptions for your namesake) I can say that lifestyle DEFINITELY has an effect on pain. I don't know the extent of yours but stress, anxiety, lifestyle blah blah etc can cause it to be worse or better. As roughly 99% of the world would see being homeless as a depressing and stressful hand to mouth existence, this would likely cause them more pain and discomfort. When I'm in my car too much in the run of the day or am busy stressing about various things, my pain becomes much worse and it has always been that way. I also know that when you're dopesick your pain is much greater and when it is otherwise. Pain is a subjective thing though and I can't pretend to understand how yours works, I'm just telling you the experience of myself and most of the medical community I've talked to and books I've read on the subject (pain explained and the mindfulness solution to pain are the best ones I've found) over the last decade and a half.
Your life revolves around drugs and seeking ways and means of acquiring more. That much I can tell, as can anyone else. If you weren't in the grips of addiction you could likely find a place to stay or could afford your own apartment.
Stop trying so hard to appear as a good, selfless person too. You rely on the handouts of others who provide utility to the world and good people don't go around announcing they're doing things they perceive to be good, nor do they feel the need to qualify themselves as a good person.
I hope your pain and addiction get better and you don't harm any more ยงmยฃรgรLs
I think the biggest thing that has actually helped me is that I have routine, and healthy escapes. I do have an addiction, and that is managing my pain, but I don't let it be the end all, be all of my life.
As a friend I have said, who's actually a very intelligent guy, he's got his master's in some shit related to social services, but had a mental break down when his wife divorced him and a bunch of shit happened which fucked him over in his career path (he smokes weed and spice but has no addiction or use of other drugs) said to me "you have a reason to get up in the morning - dope- sure it's kinda a shitty reason BUT it's a reason, and you do it everyday, and prior, I bet you failed yo have a reason to.get up and about for a very long time. With that reason leads you to do yourur thing, but puts you in contact with so many other people that you touch positively everyday and you go about your day positively which reflects on to others, and while it's all do to something as small as dope, it's at least SOMETHING and thus this is why you do have it better to most in our situation- you have drive to get up, do what you got to do, smiling all the way, and then spread good while you go about with the rest of your day and why you're likely happier than you were previously. This was said by my friend and I believe him to be right.
I tell y'all small snippets of my life, I'm not on here everyday, I'm busy enjoying life, having freedom. I go to the aquarium nearly daily,.and luckily enough my year pass enables me to bring a guest, which I try to do as much as possible,even bringing strangers, other homeless with me, which is often a highlight of their day, and I know it is for me too.
Sure, I'm dope sick once in a blue moon ,which sucks, but the frequency is so much lower than it ever was when I lived in a house.
Take what you want from my little snippets, but I'm just trying to express that I'm happy, and it makes me happy that I can help others, that I can "share the wealth" I aquire. I am blessed. I have many people who genuinely love and care about me, and I love and care about them. I even got holiday cards (some are Muslim, and one a jedi lol) and some small gifts. I don't always want to be a "taker", so I try and find ways to giveback a little. They really appreciate that and are kinda astonished- thus I am helped even more. Karma is a real thing, and it comes back every day to me. I live and sleep comfortably. I use public transit, but due to coping dope everyday, I do a bit more walking than I'd like to, which is my only complaint, and sometimes I just cop enough for two or three days if funds allow.
I hope you all are doing well and as happy and mentally centered as I am now. I actually feel good despite my existing health issues but that's manageable. I go doctors regularly which was hard for me to do before too, so that's another plus. It's odd to think wow... I'm actually level. It's weird but hey.. whatever works.
If you read this 1337 I pray for you all the time and hope you are well.
Originally posted by MexicanMasterRace She has a pentagram tattoo lol
It WAS a pentacle (a pentagram has a lot different meaning than a pentacle. Pentacle is star right side/point up, pentagram is star down/point down) and I no longer have it. It was covered up by back tattoo of the sword in the stone my tattoo artist friend did for me.
It was a jail house small tattoo inlet the asshole I was with talk me into, and also do one for him on his back. I'm so glad it's gone. I literally was going to use lye to burn it off but my friend talked me into this option which I prefer. Everyone seems to like it too. Kinda cool having a Sword go down my spine.
Regardless, what does it matter what I have on me. These people accept and love me how I am and I love them all the same too. I was blessed with family in them. They're happy and cool too. They joke about smoking weed all the time but nolonger partake but are chill about it and all.
They are really wonderful people. I'm blessed to have a lot of wonderful people around me. -
2019-12-03 at 12 AM UTC in does anyone know if 1337/bipolarhighroller is alright?
Originally posted by Sudo being homeless fucks with your pain management but you choose to stay in that cycle so you can use drugs whilst in a shitty lifestyle
Being homeless has no bearing on my pain management.
I choose this actually because the dope I use is my pain management and my PM doc just is a source of income. I use that money to improve my living situation every month, upgrade my equipment. I panhandle for dope. I live pretty well all things considered and am a lot happier than Ive been for most my life.
Im a lot better off too. Tonight was the first time in a long time Ive been dope sick and that was just because they were on hold and I didnt want to cop shitty dope while I waited. I was just on the cusp too. Funny to think that sometimes I actually can say mugh life doesnt revolve around being depressed and in pain. I get up early, go out everyday, and do my best to be a good person.
Im gonna be getting salt to salt the roads aroumd the light I panhandle for when it snows since I know Id be there before the salt trucks will and before a lot of traffic. Ive made signs too that remind people that bridges freeze before roads,to be wary of black ice, and to try and not over compencate if you begin to slide. Sure, its common sense, but we havent got snow and ice yet so you may not think about it until its too late- plus my light is a major thrufare for young proffional yuppies and college kids... Some less expwrienced drivers who could use the reminder. -
2019-11-30 at 1:26 PM UTC in does anyone know if 1337/bipolarhighroller is alright?I guess no one knows.
I go to a pentacostal church. I go with friends I made who see me panhandling all the time. I go because I want to and it makes them happy. I get nothing from them or the church, except maybe a coat and some food here or there.
I do not go to a methadone clinic. That would fuck up my pain management. Im not gonna fuck up my pain management. -
2019-11-28 at 12:09 AM UTC in does anyone know if 1337/bipolarhighroller is alright?Itd be nice to know.
If you read this, I pray for you everyday. I have my church pray for you too.
I get it if you never want to talk to me bit itd bw nice to know youre alive and well.
If anyone knows, Id like to know hes alright. Thanks. Happu thanksgiving guys. Happy thanksgiving 1337. -
2019-11-16 at 12:27 AM UTC in The R'tarded thread: The Shitfucking Edidtion ๐ฉ๐
Originally posted by Sudo abandons children and bums money off the street. That's just what we know too. Plantessi has a special place in planthell for her
If you knew the truth of it...
Whatever. It doesnt matter. You all are insignificant piss ants who go on shitting up everything they touch, spreading negativity... -
2019-11-15 at 10:57 PM UTC in The R'tarded thread: The Shitfucking Edidtion ๐ฉ๐
Originally posted by 6011UM Hey that's where hydro is at I hope she gets murdered
Yeah, I walk through the worst neighborhoods in the entire city, sleep in literally the worst too for gun crime and murder.
Ive known people selling dope one day a dead the next.
Personally, I dont feel a target. I give respect and get it in return. Ive had an asshole here or there act shitty and have folks up there set him straight and then escort me to the metro or wait with me for the bus just so they know Im okay.
For being white in a mostly black area, Im treated pretty good.
Meh, sure I guess anything could happen but I dont feel Id be lucky enough to take fatal gun shot. -
2019-09-17 at 1:28 AM UTC in I've been depressed most my life...
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2019-09-17 at 12:59 AM UTC in I've been depressed most my life...
Originally posted by mmQ So $105 a day, on average.
It depends on how good it is and how much I feel like walking a light and picking up trash. I sometimes can have 130 before 11 sometimes not. I always make what I need though. We get food and drink too and never spend money on that shit save for Starbucks coffee and tea. We get free refills. -
2019-09-17 at 12:56 AM UTC in I've been depressed most my life...
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2019-09-17 at 12:54 AM UTC in I've been depressed most my life...
Originally posted by mmQ Honest question here, when you say you make bank, is that relatively speaking?
Basically, how much money do you personally make a day on average, with your HUSTLE ?
80-130$ a day on average. Get up early, go out, catch a bus or the metro, and get done by 10-12, at the latest 2. Sometimes I don't even have to catch a bus and work a good spot I can walk to if I feel lazy. I do well there too, just like to mix it ipt, have company and give it a break here and there.