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Amputation: dominate arm above elbow
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2021-09-29 at 3:11 AM UTCI cannot save you
I can’t even save myself
So just save yourself -
2021-09-29 at 3:29 AM UTCop what if i give you a million dollars then will you cheer up
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2021-09-29 at 6:01 AM UTC
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2021-09-29 at 9:03 AM UTCY'all niggers need jebus.
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2021-09-29 at 10:41 AM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone I don’t accept blood on matter of principle
That and I’ve had bad reactions in the past from blood products so that’s another reason
I don’t claim to know better than the doctors, I just don’t want to be here in the first place
I’m enabled by nobody but myself . I make my own money I buy my own drugs I’ve been high and dry since I’ve been here
take the fucking blood or you will die -
2021-09-29 at 11:10 AM UTC
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2021-09-29 at 11:17 AM UTC
Originally posted by Cly You sound like a damn loser. You're more of a drain teluntzing like a fool without an arm.
Get help
Get clean
Find your calling
God Bless.
Dawg at a certain point youre just tired. Shortan arm with i fection coursing through your body qualifies,i think, Which is not to say you cant cind purpose even acter all that painful bullshit. Buti get it. Amd anyone whos been that low gets it. At a certain point its not even a mopey thing its just prudent. I literally prayed so many times to overdose in ky sleep, I didnt want to have to make a decision or be dramatic or draw it out. I just wanted to pass out high and never wake up. To stop shaming my friends and family. Idki think hydro has some fedeeming qualities but its up to her to decide whether shes got it in her to fight back and make something of this mess, or whether to gracefully bow out of the game. Underdog stories are always the best. Thats one way i kept myself going. And im a huge loser but i have so much pride in the shit i got through. I hinestly think i wouldve had more luck climbing everst than getting sober for my first many years -
2021-09-29 at 1:39 PM UTCTAKE THE FUCKING BLOOD YOU RETARD
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2021-09-29 at 2:47 PM UTC
Originally posted by General Butt.Naked Dawg at a certain point youre just tired. Shortan arm with i fection coursing through your body qualifies,i think, Which is not to say you cant cind purpose even acter all that painful bullshit. Buti get it. Amd anyone whos been that low gets it. At a certain point its not even a mopey thing its just prudent. I literally prayed so many times to overdose in ky sleep, I didnt want to have to make a decision or be dramatic or draw it out. I just wanted to pass out high and never wake up. To stop shaming my friends and family. Idki think hydro has some fedeeming qualities but its up to her to decide whether shes got it in her to fight back and make something of this mess, or whether to gracefully bow out of the game. Underdog stories are always the best. Thats one way i kept myself going. And im a huge loser but i have so much pride in the shit i got through. I hinestly think i wouldve had more luck climbing everst than getting sober for my first many years
You hit the nail on the head.
I’m so tired so fucking tired of being so fucking tired
I so want to gracefully bow out like malice
You have those dreams/wishes/desires too? God I pray often to never wake up again it’s horrible
I too love all underdogs and I gues I’ve always been in myself but it’s so fucking exhausting
AND NO FUCKER IM NOT TAKING THE BLOOD IM NOT A VAMPIRE
I’m getting 12mgs PO dilaudid and 2mgs IV every 4 hours and 20mgs PO oxycodone every 6 yet I’m still shitting my brains out despite not eating for a week I think I have internal bleeding like wtf
Funniest conversation with ladies who did my piccc line just now they are awesome cocaine, marijuana discussion and then looking up my maggot pictures from my records lol that made me feeel a tad bit better.... or maybe that’s just the drugs
Going for MRI soon waiting for my Ativan even though I warned them of paradoxical effects it can have on me... I’ve considered refusing but wonder if this time maybe I’ll sleep and since I haven’t slept in a loooooong time... that’s be nice -
2021-09-29 at 3 PM UTCI dont really wanna kill myself anymore. I mean im still pretty mopey and gay but mostly im just tired and my body hurts. My lifes better and i feel better about myself than i have in a while. And a few years ago i wouldnt have thought that possible. Idk let them shoot you full of Joe Rogans neck stem cells and super blood, and then failing that, hitchhike to a Right to Die state.
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2021-09-29 at 3:11 PM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone I so want to gracefully bow out like malice
Suicide isn't "gracefully bowing out" It's a cowardly quitters move...gracefully bowing out is dying of old age when you've lived your life in a way that contributed to the society you live in and leave your loved ones with fond memories.
Everyday is a new start etc regardless of if you have already pissed all the past days down the shitter. -
2021-09-29 at 3:14 PM UTC
Originally posted by Jiggaboo_Johnson Suicide isn't "gracefully bowing out" It's a cowardly quitters move…gracefully bowing out is dying of old age when you've lived your life in a way that contributed to the society you live in and leave your loved ones with fond memories.
I have no loved ones who are still alive. I have to disagree but hey you can feel anyway you want
Everyday is a new start etc regardless of if you have already pissed all the past days down the shitter. -
2021-09-29 at 3:15 PM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone I have no loved ones who are still alive. I have to disagree but hey you can feel anyway you want
Again, what's passed is passed...Just because you don't have loved ones now doesn't mean you can't work on getting some as of TODAY.
Regardless suicide is not a "Graceful" way out by any stretch of the imagination. -
2021-09-29 at 3:45 PM UTCHitchhiked to Heaven.
The long awaited sequel. -
2021-09-29 at 3:54 PM UTC
Originally posted by Jiggaboo_Johnson Again, what's passed is passed…Just because you don't have loved ones now doesn't mean you can't work on getting some as of TODAY.
Regardless suicide is not a "Graceful" way out by any stretch of the imagination.
I agree suicide is grim if anything. The word Hydro is looking for is deliverance. It's confabulated with grace due to Christianity.
Interestingly the quandary seems to be does she want to be saved by not being saved. A rock and a hard place, a gunshot or a sharp blade, does the thought of death exhilarate and elevate your heart rate? I don't know what to say. I'm a little bit drunk anyway. Fuck it, let's just pray that God will take your pain away.
Hey. there's a poem for you Hydro i hope you like it, i'm a little drunk so i can't tell if this is appropriate or not. -
2021-09-29 at 3:58 PM UTC
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2021-09-29 at 3:58 PM UTC
Originally posted by Sophie I agree suicide is grim if anything. The word Hydro is looking for is deliverance. It's confabulated with grace due to Christianity.
You’re good soph. I always like your posts and admire your passion for computer linguistic skills and all that fun stuff
Interestingly the quandary seems to be does she want to be saved by not being saved. A rock and a hard place, a gunshot or a sharp blade, does the thought of death exhilarate and elevate your heart rate? I don't know what to say. I'm a little bit drunk anyway. Fuck it, let's just pray that God will take your pain away.
Hey. there's a poem for you Hydro i hope you like it, i'm a little drunk so i can't tell if this is appropriate or not. -
2021-09-29 at 3:59 PM UTC
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2021-09-29 at 4 PM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone You’re good soph. I always like your posts and admire your passion for computer linguistic skills and all that fun stuff
Hell yeah Hydro. I appreciate that, to be honest it would suck if you died. It's your decision, but i'd hope that sentiment at least gives you a little pause before going somewhere you can't come back from. -
2021-09-29 at 4:04 PM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone I’d rather not. You’re right, I just mentioned A+ because that’s my blood type (and most common if I’m not mistaken?), but if I can’t survive with my own blood I’d rather not at all.
You're willing to shoot poison in your veins but refuse to accept blood?
Let me guess. You're an anti-vaxxer too, aren't you?