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2017-05-14 at 6:17 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin“The thought of suicide is a great consolation: by means of it one gets through many a dark night.”
I’d love to bust Ted and Ross Ulbritch (Dread Pirate Roberts) out of prison one day.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-14 at 3:41 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by RisiR † This one fell into my lap.
An old classmate that aged so incredibly well, I think she's 25 now. She was kind of a tomboy in school and we were only in a class for one year and didn't have much contact. I always liked her because she was a weirdo but then we didn't have contact for more than 5 years and she was the last person contacting me on my old Facebook account.
I think this is going to be a trippy summer. Oh boy.
Originally posted by RisiR † Now imagine you told this to a 8.6/10 and her pupils become two giant black suns and she has a problem swallowing.
Tomboys are the best. Standard women are so fucking dull, uninteresting, and just fucking horrible beneath the surface, which is most apparent after your brain snaps out of the lovey dovey phase.
Just for fun you should have her take the autism/Aspergers quotient test with you. Just have a suspicion. Aspergers was first researched in Germany, you know.
But, hmm, if I’m right, it does cause serious issues in relationships that you’d need to be aware of and know how to deal with.
You’ll see what I mean in time if she is on the spectrum.
Originally posted by RisiR † Hey, SC, you off the Bundy or what? Good posts. Keept it up.
For real, I didn’t know you could make posts like this. The difference is so stark it seems really bizarre.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-13 at 6:11 AM UTC in Hey maliceThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-13 at 10:04 AM UTC in Hey malice
Originally posted by NARCassist malice, you said all that cat fucking and 2 inch peen thing was a troll yes?
Yeah, people are fucking retarded and will fall for the stupidest shit. It's as dumb as believing most of the stories on 4chan.
After a while it just gets annoying as hell when people keep bringing up the same things for literally years, which have no effect on you except mild nuisance. Humanity is just capable of unbelievable stupidity.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-13 at 7:35 AM UTC in Hey malice
Originally posted by SBTlauien Don't kill yourself. There's many opportunities out there in this world. You have to be free. Do as you please.
There can come a point where words fail, and there's just absolutely nothing you can say that will make a difference. I've read such an absurd amount, I wanted to experience the greatest literature, films, books on existentialism, I met with a psychologist weekly for 2 years, one for at least 1 after that, and it never helped, if anything it made me feel worse. I also have severe anhedonia and feel a complete lack of connection to others, a complete inability to relate to anyone, to find any meaning and fulfillment in life.
I cannot convey everything I've experienced, everything I've learned, that led to this.
I'm going to start Nardil tomorrow, and it has a pretty high chance of working if I can manage to stay on it and get a high enough dosage. I'm also going into therapy and will try to get out as much as possible, volunteer at some animal sanctuaries.
Can't guarantee it will work though, some people are just extremely treatment resistant, and there's something about Asperger's, these profound neurological differences, that seem to predispose you to some of the worst life outcomes.
I was wrong when I said I made a breakthrough, I'm still having serious thoughts of suicide, and erratic behavior can be an impending sign of it.
Ultimately, I can't tell you how it's going to turn out, but Lanny was probably right when he said I'll likely never get better. It could well be within a year, but at some point I'm going to have to make the decision. i have to be honest with myself and accept that due to everything, my life is very unlikely to have a happy ending.
There's nothing else to be said. I just have to wait and see, hope for the best.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-12 at 8:54 PM UTC in Pro: About psychiatrists, even if you don’t need one right now
Originally posted by Lanny The fault, dear malice, is not in our medical practitioners, but in ourselves. I hate to be a downer but this kind of thing can't help but make me think you're never going to get better. Medication is an important part of the clinical process but the fact that you lack the ability to introspect, to realize your inability to fully participate in treatment is the reason you are treatment resistant. Gaming the system for drugs is the exact same thing as your campaign of killing yourself slowly with insane amount of dietary supplements and RCs. It's not a viable strategy.
Lanny, do you have time to read this? http://slatestarcodex.com/2014/07/07/ssris-much-more-than-you-wanted-to-know/
No? Then keep your fucking mouth shut about subjects that you're completely unqualified to comment on, you pretentious little twat. Have I ever said a thing about computer science to you? No, because I haven't studied it and i have the humility and self-awareness of my limitations to know I'm completely unqualified to have an opinion. And let's see how well life works out for you when you feel increasingly unfulfilled, alienated, unable to find a suitable long term partner, and eventually end up drinking yourself to death. Still planning to go back to school? Are you planning on retiring early and then realizing that it's nothing like you expected and you have nothing to do with your life. Or you could do like anyone else, keep working for decades contributing to a system you hate, the novelty and enjoyment decreasing more and more, likely fall into the lifestyle of choosing the wrong wife, having kids because you likely will change your mind due to being weak willed and still driven by strong biological impulses, especially since you're so spineless that if you do find someone to enter into a relationship with and they eventually develop baby fever you'll end up caving in, and be trapped in the same hell as almost everyone, which in your youthful naivety you'd swear to avoid. And if you leave them, odds are you may attempt to go through this cycle of new relations, but eventually you'll end up alone, completely miserable, and unfulfilled, and these were the exact fears you voiced some time ago.
Honestly, if you claim to be happy in life, I don't think you really understand what happiness is, or just how little emotion you experience compared to others.
There is absolutely nothing remarkable about you. You make money, which clearly doesn't bring you much happiness in life and isn't your main goal in life, you're intelligent, good at compsci, well read, may have some interesting things to talk about, although I doubt you have many, if any people in your life, to have deep discussions with about the things that truly matter to you, and when you to talk to others you most likely just go along with either completely mundane conversation, shallow and unfulfilling attempts at discussion where no one shares your views etc.
But you know what? There are literally countless others like you in your relatively small geographical area. People only feel large, unique, and important because their worlds are so tiny.
Some time ago, influenced by experimentation with LSD (I recommended Stanislav grof to you) you said you felt fine with just being a cog in humanity. So go ahead and tell yourself you're okay with it, but the truth is that cogs are insignificant compared to not only the entire machine, but the far more important segments as well, and they're boring as hell. That's what you are.
If I never do get better I may just hunt you down beforehand and take you down with me. You were dumb enough to reveal your face and let me record enough (check keyring recorders on eBay, you can strip them down to their basic components and modify them to work peeking out of a coat button hole or pocket) of you to have a pretty solid composite to identify you by, along with all the other information you were either stupid or careless enough to reveal to narrow down your area to a few square blocks, which I already showed you before. Hell, maybe I'll take down any loved ones, if you have any at that point, just because I think you deserve it.
To be clear, I have no intentions of actually doing this, no desire or plan, it's just a hypothetical question that I'm not entirely sure of. If I ever reached that point, what exactly would I do?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-12 at 6:19 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by Darth Beaver Just stop whining for attention. For almost a decade you have whined on the internet about how fucked up everything/everyone/you/life is/are/was/always willing be. Either go live life and enjoy it or shut up and kill yourself already. Otherwise your just an attention whore.
It has not been a decade and almost no one here likes you. I have literally seen you contribute nothing of value. At least I'm still relatively young and have a chance of breaking out of being a loser, but how fucking old are you and why are you still clinging to this community? Almost no one sticks around here unless they aren't that happy in life, have a serious lack of social relations, people they can't relate to, autism spectrum disorders, severe anxiety issues, depression, etc.
So, it's a serious question. I've accepted why I'm here. Why the fuck are you here when I can't think of a single person that particularly likes you, and if they do they're probably part of the group of members that are the worst posters around, persistently annoying as hell like you, with nothing of intelligence to contribute.
Tell us the truth. You're a bitter old man whose life didn't turn out the way you wanted it to and you've tried to cling to that dying community for this long because you have no real meaningful relationships in your life.
At some point you have to decide whether it's really worth continuing to decline into old age when it's never going to get better, you're just going to continually feel physically and emotionally worse, there will be less and less things to do, time will keep seeming to go by faster, novelty will be impossible to find, you obviously won't be able to attract a dream woman, or anything close to a good woman at all, really, and eventually your body is going to begin to fail, you'll be in horrific pain, humiliated and having to be taken care of by strangers, even shitting yourself and needing your ass to be wiped, no one is going to particularly care enough to ever visit you, and even if they rarely, a very few amount of people, do, in the state you're in you won't be able to enjoy it, you won't be the same person and won't want to be seen in that state, have this be your final memory of yourself, and at some point you'll even develop symptoms similar to dementia and alzheimer's, begin to lose every memory of your life, everything important to you, anything you've ever done, the people you've loved and cared for, everyone you've met, everything you've felt and thought, learned and come to believe in the world.
So when you're facing the inescapability of death that's going to erase every part of you, as if you may as well have never existed, when you finally realize that the life you lived was the real thing, there was never any awakening of the ideal person you thought was inside you, that you could one day become, and that it was all meaningless and for naught, the pure vanity of life.
You're going to ask yourself: Why the hell did I cling on for so long when it amounted to nothing, my life only became increasingly worse, and I suffered so much, all for what?
At the end, this very moment, for the rest of your life, you need to ask yourself: Why don't I commit suicide right now?
Go ahead and brush this off, give a TL;DR or cheesy low brow joke that no one ever finds funny, but on some level you know it's true. And you know what? Regardless of what's going on in my life, my past, the reality is that I'm still in good health, will likely overcome my problems now that I'm making a serious effort and know what I need to do, and I'm going to live. At the end of the day I likely have at least 50 more years on this earth, and that's simply with a modest estimate of a lifespan of 77 years. No health problems, don't drink, smoke, do hard drugs, exercise, won't do anything stupid to get me killed, extremely strict diet I adhere to. Keep in mind that life expectancy is only an average, and all these factors indicate that I should reasonably expect considerably more.
There are incredible advancements occurring right now, some amazing developments, there will likely be breakthroughs in the future extending lifespan even more and preventing or curing serious diseases, and I get to be at the forefront of it. It's an exciting time to be alive.
Sorry you're going to miss all of that. I forget, once again, would you mind telling me how much longer you're expected to live? Have you ever been to a doctor and had a discussion about this?
It doesn't matter what you can type, nothing changes that you're going to die and it's going to feel like it came far sooner than you ever expected, and I won't. Is there anything that can really beat that, or are you going to make me laugh by telling me you'll kill me if we ever meet or are going to put a hit on me?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-12 at 2:16 PM UTC in Sadistic Sociopaths Make Me Sick
Originally posted by newfag back to the topic: What about aspies? We got the wrong emotional response at times and some of us have Machiavellian knowledge of other people's mental patterns to compensate for our social retardation. is there a certain point where it stops being Aspergers?
No, Asperger’s is a neurological disorder with a wide array of complex differences.
There can be some overlap between it and psychopathy.
Btw, I’m the exact same way, likely to a considerably greater extent. I’m an extreme misanthrope and anti-natalist (applies to al life) for a good reason.
Before severe depression (going on 5 years, 3 near the max, to the point of serious risk of suicide) and other issues modulated my behavior (evolutionary theory of depression and Asperger’s strongly predisposes you to it) I had some bad ideas floating around my head. I mean terrible terrible ideas, from the perspective of others.
I was seriously considering becoming a mass murderer, and could have done a hell of a lot better than Aumm Shinrikyo. I tested on the 130+ IQ range on first grade, was scoring in the 99% despite a pretty shitty environment etc.
Also considered serial killing, killing sprees (beating the high score), and domestic terrorism (McVeigh style).
The overwhelming majority of humanity is worthless and deserves to die. There are countless aspects of human nature that I despise and will never change. Humanity is a plague that needs to be exterminated as soon as possible, in one form or another, ideally through assimilation of AGI.
Can’t guarantee I won’t change my mind about it one day.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-12 at 3:45 PM UTC in Sadistic Sociopaths Make Me SickNo, Beaver, I think it's people like you and the vast majority of humanity. Of course there will always be a war of ideologies, but let me ask you this: Which one of us do you think is more intelligent, knowledgeable, willing to dedicate absurd amount of time to research, planning, and preparing, is willing to be absolutely ruthless and go as far as possible?
I can say that after all the time I've known you, if I had a good opportunity I may just see putting you down as easily as the equivalent of putting down a rabid dog. Maybe your loved ones as well, if you have any, just to send a message and ensure any of your genes (heritability is of extreme importance) don't lead to more people like you.
Honestly, I think I would probably enjoy it quite a bit and feel I've made a positive change in the world.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-10 at 6:23 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinDiscount Whore, I'm not willing to let you fuck me in exchange for fucking our wife, but if you were able to put up with me and we all did a group therapy MDMA session to attempt to cure my autism I would consider at least giving you a handjob, ideally with a glove on (preferably made of thick white silk, or at least satin). I mean, like, finishing you off over your wife.
Or does just having watch you have sex and jerk off get you off? Are you into cuckoldry or BDSM or anything? Sorry, but it's just the way I was born, I've tried prostate stimulation many times, including with a vibrator, and it just doesn't do anything for me. Shame because I read about it over a decade ago and I'm aware they can give you the most mind blowing orgasms.
Oh, and you still haven't told me what I did to make your wife laugh.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-10 at 8:07 PM UTC in Your daily reminder.God, I absolutely despise leftism and their arguments. And the unfortunate reality is that the vast majority of people are authoritarian statists to the core who will never change.
Fuck this world. I really do hope something similar one day arises.
Sophie, are you aware of this?
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Zone_for_Employment_and_Economic_Development_(Honduras)
IIRC some important people from the Cato institute and other libertarians were working on it. Unfortunately Honduras is incredibly violent/dangerous and a pretty shitty place to live.
Who knows what future developments there may be, maybe seasteading will take off in a decade.
Have you also read about Liechtenstein? It's a fascinating country. Do a search for it on r/ancap or The Mises Institute, some libertarian website or keywords. What's really interesting is that Hans Hermann Hoppe is actually allegedly close friends with the king and strongly influenced his policies. If you read about what their laws are like, you'll see how brilliant it is. Possibly the most libertarian country on earth, and the closest towards moving toward anarcho-capitalism. Unfortunately due to the way the world is you have to have a government and ruler to be recognized and avoid being invaded because statists are fucking cunts that can't just let you live in peace and at least try to experiment with radically alternative different means of societal organization.
You know what, you're angry as hell like I am, and you're also brilliant, hard working, and have enormous perseverance. Your knowledge of chemistry is useful.
Do me a favor, if you ever feel like you're at the end of your rope and have reached the breaking point don't pull a McVeigh or Killdozer in a strategic manner targeting the people/buildings that deserve it the most.
Hi feds. Just trying to warn someone not to go down a dark path in life and do something so unethical. I'm practically a saint.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-11 at 2:52 AM UTC in i hate workNot working really is not good for your mental health, at all.
Trust me, the break may be nice for a while, but eventually you run a high risk of lapsing into some pretty serious severe depression. It does not turn out well for the overwhelming majority of people.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-10 at 6:40 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinMan, insulting Bill Krozby should be a national pastime. I swear it does more to alleviate my depression than anything else I've tried. I've changed my mind about wanting him banned.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-10 at 3:08 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinYaaaay! Breakthrough. Yesterday I noticed Ash (neighborhood cat/stray) was spending an unusual amount of time indoors looking around, exploring and sniffing every corner. I had an intuitive feeling this behavior might mean she was exploring what could be a potentially new home. Right now she's sitting under my desk/table resting.
Finally have some company. I've mentioned before that I don't consider animals properties and don't want to impose anything on them, so I'm happy she chose this on her own accord.
I'll let her out whenever she wants, of course, but it must be nice for her to have a break from the elements, the wind and cold, noise of outside, other people, and other forms of danger. We can just chill together and enjoy each other's company in peace.
Damn, missed the shot, she got up just as I was taking it. Now I'm just gonna roll a joint, watch some anime, and chill.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-10 at 8:11 PM UTC in Your daily reminder.
Originally posted by Open Your Mind Do you think paying taxes is worth it?
Fuck no it isn't. Do you feel proud that so much of your money, especially in the US, has gone towards killing millions of civilians, ruining lives, countless nations, incarceration, abuse etc?
As for the poor, they're mainly poor because of economic illiteracy, policies that drive up cost of living, mainly housing and food, through the roof, and land use/zoning policies in major metropolitan cities. Read the book "The Gated City" to see how much damage the latter causes. "The Myth of the Rational Voter: Why Democracies Choose bad Policies" is another must read, and it was named by the New York Times (hate them) as one of the most important books of the year when it came out.
There are alternative ways of funding everything the government does, and life wouldn't be that different for most people once things developed properly. Just admit it, almost none of you are willing to the amount of reading that me and Sophie have, along with countless others. So just keep believing in your statist fantasies and hoping that one day the perfect people who agree with you on everything will somehow magically be voted into power, free from corruption, everyone who disagrees with you will change, and we'll all hold hands and sing kumbaya happily ever after. Let me know when it happens, because right now you would have to be incredibly oblivious to believe that the vast majority of people on earth live under statist systems that are incredibly destructive and horrendous.
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2017-05-10 at 5:56 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinOh, I'll probably get over it and feel different one day. I'm just severely depressed, autistic, and fucked up.
I had a thought a while ago, not sure if I posted it here, that the end of the novel Steppenwolf could be interpreted as having received the death penalty for taking life too seriously, as opposed to treating it as a game and accepting the absurdity. There are some people who literally do end up committing suicide or driving themselves insane because they took life too seriously.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-10 at 8:13 AM UTC in Only pedos will appreciate thisThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-09 at 11:13 PM UTC in Abstract, medical Journal BOUNTY! help a nigga out TOPIC "naturally occurring false-positives for barbituates"Hydro, I really don't think you'll find the help you need here. I don't think anyone is going to know the answer. You need to find the best board you can with an advanced discussion section, someplace where brilliant people frequent, and ask there.
I already told in your email why this is going to be so difficult to figure out.
The two people I would recommend asking are Sophie and 1337, and any old totse and zoklet members that used to be part of the community.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-08 at 11:06 AM UTC in Talk me out of my foolishnessWell, you're already making enough anyway. It really doesn't pay all that well to be honest, and, yeah, most of the things you write about aren't things you're probably going to be interested in or enjoy. It's just work, one other option. You probably should stick with what you have, I wrote that before I knew you were working in the phone sex industry and making a decent amount.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-10 at 6:37 AM UTC in To Plant a Seed is Not to Be a Gardener. The Tragedy of the Child of Bill Krozby.
Originally posted by Bill Krozby go suck on an ativan syringe you cuck
Umm, benzos are pretty enjoyable. Don't really see how that's much of an insult. And if there's anyone that's cucked, it's you. You've been cucked countless, literally thousands of times. Do you remember when I made that thread about how you used to be a skinny smooth shaven twink that was literally gay for pay?
You are the epitome of cuckoldry. I genuinely believe you could break a world record for having been cucked more times in your life than any human being in existence.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
