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2017-05-16 at 9:34 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinThe good old gut microbiome: https://www.reddit.com/r/Microbiome/top/
I really wish there was some sort of fecal transplant clinic set up like sperm donation, where you take only the people with the best traits and hope for the best.
Tons of information on the link between it and depression, anxiety, autism, chronic inflammation, multiple GI issues, chronic fatigue etc.
No idea how to get it, though, if it's even available to me. Pretty awkward to ask someone if you can have some of their shit so you can swallow it or give yourself an enema without seeming like you have a scat fetish or are insane.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-17 at 2:37 AM UTC in What happens when you die? Best and worst case scenarioIt was a good example of what death is like, in a way.
It really can be like flicking a switch. One moment you're there, the next you aren't. You no longer exist, there's just nothing. It's something that most people have a hard time grasping because of course you can't experience non-existence. Although, I suppose the closest thing is when you're sleeping and don't dream, or at least don't remember dreaming. Imagine just going to sleep and never waking up. You aren't suffering, you aren't in fear or pain, because there no longer is any you to experience, it's just nothingness.
Most people simply cannot come to terms with this. Religion has been called the opioid of the masses for a good reason, it's a very difficult and unnerving subject to fully understand and come to terms with, to accept.
Dwelling on it won't do you any good, of course. Best to just be alive, be in the present, focus on whatever makes you happy. At some point it will either happen or it won't. No man knows the hour. Even the suicidal can't be certain of when they'll finally be pushed over the edge.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-16 at 9:55 PM UTC in What happens when you die? Best and worst case scenario^ No, they've literally done multiple studies attempting to confirm this. For example, in patients who claimed to have repeated out of body experiences, astral projection, even during surgery/anesthesia they would do things like putting some distinct message or object that they could only see if somehow, in some form of consciousness, they were actually floating above their bodies and taking in information.
And you know what? Not a single one of those produced a smidgen of evidence.
There's just so much bad information out there, pseudo-science, quasi-religious beliefs/"spirituality", and people that are simply incredibly under informed, massively overestimate their own capabilities and knowledge/level of understanding, and completely misinterpret information.
So, basically, I'm pretty sure all this stuff is bullshit, sadly. Would be pretty cool if it wasn't.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-16 at 4:03 AM UTC in Mash, why did you stop taking your meds?
Originally posted by Sophie I never liked Mash, fuck him. I hope he continues not taking meds and ends up dead.
He used to seem pretty chill, but, man, I heard about what happened, and he legitimately does seem to have developed severe mental illness.
Some people do begin to develop full blown schizophrenia in their early to mid 20s.
It's tragic, really, that's just life. Shit can go wrong in your brain just like any other part of your body, you can suddenly develop cancer for no clear reason. I definitely understand, having Asperger's is hell, and all these other issues make my quality of life terrible. I feel for the guy.
Hopefully he finds effective treatment one day. It's really a shame human beings tend to be so fucking retarded and progress in psychiatry has been excruciatingly slow.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-16 at 4:19 AM UTC in Fucking chirping birds motherfucker!Can you imagine if one of these birds, or even multiple, suddenly crashed through RisiR's 50K windows and he finally snapped.
Just imagine that happening, then him collapsing to the fetal position, possibly with tears streaming down his face and soaked in sweat, or in a quasi-autistic knee hugging position where he rocks back and forth, repeating over and over again in a fluctuating voice, sometimes loud, sometimes low and muttering, but always profoundly disturbed and distressed, "The birds…the birds…THE BIIIIIRDS!!!"
Then his siblings finally call an ambulance when they accept he's not snapping out of it and he spends the rest of his life in a padded cell and straight jacket muttering it over and over.
And just to fuck with him they put pictures of those birds all over his cell and continuously play the famous film repeatedly for entertainment/recreation time. As a final touch there's even something akin to those toys they put above the cradles of babies, except it's just this highly realistic and incredibly menacing raven that continuously flies around in circles.
This would be a great poster to hang in there. Or just imagine sneaking into/outside of his house right now and pasting this outside the perfect window, or even in his own room:
Then one day, something awakens inside of him, the fundamental immense driving force that had led him to read the great works of philosophy, his Schopenhauer and Nietzsche, one desperate attempt at finding meaning, an answer, strong enough to finally break through. "When will this madness end, when will I regain my sanity?!" RisiR desperately screams at it one day, as loudly as he can, the full force of furious years of pent up passion and madness pouring out at one last attempt to gain some reprieve, an answer for this meaningless suffering, an end to it, with the force of an immense strike of lighting, the sound bellowing as the deepest thunder whose reverberations shake the entire ward to their core, awakening everyone, a moment of absolute silence where they all listen for what comes next, an innate understanding of them, having known of poor RisiR's state of madness all these years, the importance of the first novel thing he had spoken since becoming trapped in the cycle of madness.
And he swears, that despite his madness, with absolute certainty, knowing that it will never be confirmed or believed, that he will live with this knowledge alone in his mind until the day he dies, there was a response:
To quoth the raven, "Nevermore".
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2017-05-16 at 5:06 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinHoly cow, I didn't know Freud eventually became a big fan of Schopenhauer!
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Death_drive#Philosophy
Neo-Schopenhauerians of the world unite! We need to create a resurgence of his works.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-16 at 5:01 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by RisiR † Hah! Lil Dargo…. there's more to life than having sex. So, so, so much more and it's all fucking me right in the fucking face.
5 years ago. Fuck… 5. Years. Ago. I thought I have testicular cancer which turned out to not be the case. I was semi-homeless, deeeep into Benzos etc. had absolutely nothing. I thought I fought my way out of the hole but no… no. I just can't be happy.
Rock bottom again. And now there is a person I have to reject or destroy and I can't deal with that at all.
You've probably considered this before, but are you like me?
Afraid of intimacy, that you just can't function in relationships, and will only end up hurting the other person, that you aren't worthy of it, or they deserve someone better?
I agree with Phoenix, you've probably been in an incredibly self-destructive, self-sabotaging, cycle, like I have. For whatever reason, regardless, you need to break out of it.
I've wondered for some time whether Thanatos/the death drive, could be a genuine phenomenon for some: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Death_driveThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-16 at 4:47 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by RisiR † I kinda feel like I understand depression but now I got hit by sadness I can barely comprehend.
Oh my god, why?
I would have thought you of all people would understand it by now.
Have you read these? I know it seems retarded to recommend a cartoon, and the art style is that way on purpose, but put aside your biases and give it a serious read, at the end it will probably make sense. It's actually from a webcomic that used to be pretty famous, and these in particular were popular, even described by professional psychologists as the most accurate depiction of what severe depression was at its core they had ever seen.
www.hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2011/10/adventures-in-depression.html
www.hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2013/05/depression-part-two.htmlThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-16 at 5:49 AM UTC in Suggestion: Give me a custom user title, Lanny. Fuck you.Hahaha, Buzzfeed actually had a pretty good nostalgic overview of the saga: https://www.buzzfeed.com/iexplorer/let-us-remember-the-greatest-internet-hoax-jenkem?utm_term=.uw5X16nQrz#.hox1Bv42kq
"Fruit from crack pipe", "winnie", "Leroy Jenkems", "butthash"
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2017-05-16 at 5:27 AM UTC in Suggestion: Give me a custom user title, Lanny. Fuck you.Oh my god, I just did a search for Jenkem and am laughing my ass off. The fact that we actually got people to fall for this, major news organizations to report on it, even got a Sheriff to send out an actual alert with Pickwick's picture.
Oh, the nostalgia. And how Pickwick must have felt when it blew up far larger than he would have ever imagined. Man, that was classic TOTSE.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-15 at 7:29 AM UTC in LannyScron, you remind me of some somewhat famous person, it may have been someone who was a professional wrestler, who claimed that he wasn't gay, but meth made him engage in promiscuous gay sex.
I mean, seriously, what is with stimulant users and trannies? I swear there seems to be some correlation.
Actually, I have a plausible theory for this and remember some research to back it up. Dopamine desensitization/downregulation, the need for greater/more extreme stimuli, the arousal yet anorgasmia etc. There was actually a study where they seemed to turn rats gay by giving them meth or some other dopaminergic, possibly GHB, which has strong aphrodisiac qualities, and putting them with another male when they were in the mating seasons phase. Afterward they stopped the administration of drugs they were still gay.
It also brings to mind something I read on a nofap website and the extreme fetishes LegalizeSpiritualDiscovry (infamous for beating his mother on mother's day because she drank his Starbucks coffee) he developed, his incremental need for stimulation.
He later became an expert at finding drugs on the ground and was henceforth known as "Look, Some Drugs!"
The human brain is a fascinating thing.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-15 at 5:24 AM UTC in tfw to smart
Originally posted by Oasis so instead you learn something that's retarded
you're an expert about reading articles on powders you buy off the internet
What would be a non-retarded thing to learn? Obviously something you're passionate about, enjoy, gives you fulfillment, and financial independence.
Of course severe depression and anhedonia, all these other issues we both have, really fuck up your ability to find what that is.
And I have a wide variety of interests. You know nootropics isn't all I write about.
Jesus, can you imagine what a shitstorm it would be if we met in real life and attempted to have an extensive multi-hour debate?
The sheer amount of concentrated autism colliding could set off some type of reaction akin to an anti-matter bomb, like in Akira or some shit.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-15 at 2:18 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by Coathangers Suck -WS but malice you're gonna need soft skills, and that means starting at Arby's or something. you got to truly humble yourself coming from where you are coming. it's all part of your journey.
I'm flat out saying it: I'm too good for menial labor.
Some people just need such a high level of stimulation that something like that is torture. I have to admit, despite all the extreme quasi-asceticism, my demonstration that I can have incredible will power, or just this unbelievably rigid set of internal rules that I have to be perfectly consistent with, I cannot handle that kind of work full time. It literally drives me insane.
That's why I'm going to start off with volunteer opportunities. Because I swear to god, and Lanny could probably relate, that if I had to work full time at McDonald's I would snap so fucking fast and either go on a killing spree or blow my fucking brains out.
Not saying I'm opposed to physical labor or all low wage work, but my brain/mind cannot handle something like food service. The turnover rate is incredibly high among normies to begin with anyway, and it's for a good reason. Jesus christ, the people that are middle aged, or even elderly, and still in those types of jobs must be in absolute hell...The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-15 at 4:20 AM UTC in Fucking chirping birds motherfucker!Heh, you know, that's literally a standard and strong symptom of being on the autism spectrum?
It's bound to be far more prevalent in people who communicate excessively online, on message boards like this. Everyone should take the autism/asperger's quotient test at least once, think really hard about it and your past behavior, and answer as honestly as possible.
It's a deficit in sensory gating and sensory hypersensitivity. Your brain literally takes in too much "information", far more than we evolved to be able to handle, to the point where it becomes extremely detrimental.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-15 at 2:32 AM UTC in Fucking chirping birds motherfucker!Maybe you have sensory hypersensitivity and should try wearing high quality ear plugs. There are some, I don't recall the name, designed for music where they lower the decibels but don't muffle the sound.
I literally do wear earplugs all the time when I'm indoors, and may even go for full on ear muffs, the kind designed for hearing protection at gun ranges and shit around those decibel levels, because the background noise of even a refrigerator can drive me insane.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-15 at 8:38 AM UTC in tfw to smartYes, as amazing and unbelieveable as it may appear, Bill Krozby really does seem to genuinely be this stupid.
Sometimes it really makes you ponder the reality of the overwhelming majority of humanity and think:
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2017-05-11 at 11:03 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by Malice Made it to my psych appointment and have my references saved so I can share them!
Cross my heart and hope I don’t die. It’s in a few minutes.
Originally posted by 1337 Nb4involuntarilycommitted
Guess who just scammed a Nardil prescription, motherfuckers!
WUBBA LUBBA FUCKING DUB DUB, BITCHES!
FUCK THE HATERS AND FUCK THE DOUBTERS, I AM THE MASTER!!!The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-15 at 1:33 AM UTC in Opinions on the homeless?^ Yeah, there's way too much abuse that goes on. People make assumptions, there's a lot of virtue signaling and delusion among leftists, but the data is pretty clear. You really should not give money directly to the homeless, but instead do your research and contribute to the best organization(s) you can find, the one that's most cost effective.
Honestly, most of the homeless are bad people, and ended up that way because they were so fucked up that even their relatives would no longer put up with their bullshit. Others are just really unfortunate and mentally ill, or have enormous past trauma. And of course being in that environment, that lifestyle, for an extended period of time is going to fuck you up, it's pretty much bound to change you for the worse.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-15 at 2:13 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by Lanny THE WORST DISEASE IMAGINABLE
Lanny, there is definitely something profoundly wrong with you, possibly multiple things, that you haven't realized at all.
Keep in mind that I've been completely honest and open about my own problems and fuckedupness, so that changes nothing.
I hope I'm wrong, but you're still young, and I think there's a good chance that in 5-10 years you're going to discover you have some serious issues. Your current position in life, doing well financially, being in a field you like, is no indication that the rest of your life will go well and smoothly.
Hell, I'm glad I turned you onto Stanislav Grof (LSD psychotherapy), maybe you've already uncovered some things at this point.
I have this distinct memory (hooray for autism power) of there being a, possibly recurring, theme in your trips at some point where you felt you were on the verge of uncovering some horrible repressed memory that made you profoundly uncomfortable. You may have mentioned something about skeletons, representations of death, playing a theme.
I don't know, I'm really not in the mood to play armchair psychoanalyst.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-14 at 6:48 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinDoes anyone else just start feeling mildly unnerved and uncomfortable when they see images like the ones Scron posted two posts above after having done psychedelics, particularly DMT?
It's almost like a fear that a trip is going to be spontaneously triggered. Well, considering how intense and novel they are, the memory formation, it makes sense.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!