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2016-01-15 at 4:25 AM UTC in The roshambo and sploo chroniclesBecome agents of chaos. Just go and do stuff. I'd love to see you two outside actually interacting with the world.
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2016-01-15 at 4:20 AM UTC in How many Sploos could beat up a Malice?Oh, forgot the video. I've posted it before, it's a fantastic fight compilation:
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2016-01-15 at 12:29 AM UTC in How many Sploos could beat up a Malice?
I lol'd.
Having been very detached in a couple fights, I can already see how all of Malice's time spent watching anime would not come in handy. Detachment is bad. Malice is conflating tactics with strategy. Malice might be a good strategist, where detachment is healthy, but I can tell already that he'd be fucking shit in a fight. It doesn't matter how ripped you are or how smart you are, what matters is winning the fight. Being ripped might help with that, being smart does not even factor into fighting (beyond preparation). You do not want to be detached, you want to be very fucking involved. You don't want to have to think about what you're doing, you just need to know what it is, do it, and keep fucking doing it. Malice: if you even managed to connect a punch, you'd probably instinctively pause to gauge how efficient it was and whether you needed to throw more.
You are not going to have time to analyze the situation before somebody has landed 3 punches on you faster than you can blink. Fists do not come at you at "analysis" speeds. Real life is not turn based combat. Sploo is retarded, but he looks squirrelly. Malice talks like a CIA paper pusher - not infantry - and that would become painfully obvious in a fight. A single, determined sploo would probably kick his ass on the grounds of Malice's mindset alone. Sploo would immediately take the advantage, and Malice being Malice… well… he wouldn't be able to regain it after the first punch triggered his fight or flight response and all pretense about "thought" went out the window.
Don't fight unless you're willing to cripple someone in a fit of blind, adrenaline fueled, retard rage. If you're planning on winning fights with intellect, you're going to be shit out of luck. Unless you follow the true path of intellect and use your intelligence to avoid combat altogether or give yourself the advantage. Intellect might help you train and work out a fighting style that suits you, but in a fight you don't want to be relying on real time analysis. 'cause ain't nobody got time for that.
I can do both.
My ascended aspie brain is advanced enough to handle both tasks simultaneously.
The Intense World Theory – A Unifying Theory of the Neurobiology of Autismhe proposed neuropathology is hyper-functioning of local neural microcircuits, best characterized by hyper-reactivity and hyper-plasticity. Such hyper-functional microcircuits are speculated to become autonomous and memory trapped leading to the core cognitive consequences of hyper-perception, hyper-attention, hyper-memory and hyper-emotionality.
This would be my strategy. There's a certain divine pattern to it. He recognizes the moment and goes in for the kill full force, unrelentless. That's the secret to his winning streak, that's what I would do better than others. The unification, perfected fusion, of both. -
2016-01-15 at 12:09 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionI agree. My life is a trainwreck, I've admitted it many times before.
Now I feel profoundly depressed, in a very isolated segment of my mind. -
2016-01-15 at 12:06 AM UTC in The roshambo and sploo chronicles
The gimmick of the show could be a spinning wheel with all the drugs you have. Sploo spins the wheel for Robo and vice versa. Then you end up with Roshambo on duster and Sploo on…. probably duster as well because you faggots can't afford drugs. Do that though. Make it a weekly thing.
I like this idea, I like it a lot. There are so many things you could do together, be creative (no, not sex, no one make that joke). -
2016-01-14 at 9:51 AM UTC in The roshambo and sploo chroniclesAre you always alone? As in, no personal relationships for over a decade? No conversation IRL for over 2 years?
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2016-01-14 at 8:19 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionOr did he anticipate that and I play into his hand, and now I'm just predictable?! Or am I reading too much into this and now I'm the one demonstrating they're autistic, a reversal of our previous interaction?
I thought your post was going to end on this note and then my thought process was like this:
That's ironic
I should quote his reply with a link to irony on wikipedia
it's almost too ironic, was that a joke?
definitely a joke, and if I had replied he would have insinuated I was "poor at interpreting meaning" or something like that
so I'll ignore the post
or maybe I could point out I was able to pick up on his subtle joke and in so doing dispel any lingering concerns about being an autist
well good job malice, you've engrained yourself as a permanent fixture in my thought process. Sometimes I find myself in a conversation and I think "malice would jump in here and accuse them of a fallacy and demean their world view" in real life.
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2016-01-14 at 7:50 AM UTC in The roshambo and sploo chronicles
i had a good day
It must feel good not to be alone. -
2016-01-14 at 7:41 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionGoogles Eval/Apply, thinks about the idea of trying to understand it before clicking/reading any links, is Lanny just trying to get me interested in computer programming/web development?, set a challenge (cluster of concepts around this), an effective method for social engineering, ego > reaction > desire to prove to self and others, prove wrong, profound and seemingly complex beyond my understanding = most effective succinct description for evoking interest for my personality profile
Job offer in the sector starting from post 9: http://niggasin.space/forum/oh-the-humanities/56474-fuck-individualism?p=57147#post57147well good job malice, you've engrained yourself as a permanent fixture in my thought process. Sometimes I find myself in a conversation and I think "malice would jump in here and accuse them of a fallacy and demean their world view" in real life.
Distinct enough impression to ingrain self as fixture in thought process, evoke thoughts in IRL/meatspace situations. Desire for (closer/real) friendship? Notices surge in posting frequency, length, and quality, signal of emerging from depressive state, display of potential cognitive ability, capability.
*closes two tabs*
Sorry Lanny, I'm not playing this game. I'm going back to watching anime alone in the dark (I won't lie and claim I was doing something more profound. Unless you count the thoughts I was having that...lead to nowhere and come from, are really only relevant to, someone in a position as odd as I'm in.). Muahahahaha!
See, this...this is why I'm not sure I'll ever be capable of having true IRL relationships. It's...different from typical autism, standard reasons such as fear, lack of social skills. Can you be so extreme on the empathizing-systemizing scale that it just destroys your ability to have normal relationships? Is this the outcome of thinking almost entirely with your head and denying, closing off and entombing your heart? What if there was a scan/analysis of my brain, the activity or structure, and an abnormality was pinpointed that allowed them to state with certainty that, at least with current technology/medicine, I would never be able to experience true empathy, that sense of connection to others.
https://www.reddit.com/r/Psychonaut/comments/3u9gak/lsd_for_introspection_on_severe_depression_and/The feeling of connection to others, so many points anchoring you throughout time, in other people's lives, so many perspectives and reaffirmations of your existence, the similarities, shared experiences, memories, knowledge of and concern for each others lives, your progression in it and challenges along the way, working toward a shared/common goal; a social/societal web, beneath the surface, keeping you grounded to the world, reality, molding the basis of what allows a human being's psychological well being. Just learning to develop and function as a human being, with others, the emotions you're supposed to feel and develop.
Stop thinking and start feeling? Just do? But...if I don't think...how do I know it's the right decision? Should there be a tradeoff for analysis? How do you deal with it?
This is why I call it "terminal autism". -
2016-01-14 at 4:39 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionhttps://youtu.be/ThmMaJgjzRg?t=4m7s
Lol, you guys. You're alright. Sploo, you give the appearance of being autistic, significantly more so than roshambo. Or maybe it's the drugs or being schizoid, or just your mood. I dunno, fucking complexity of the world. -
2016-01-14 at 4:20 AM UTC in How many Sploos could beat up a Malice?
Tactics. Sploo would likely be in an emotional rage, just flailing around wildly on instinct, I'm incredibly unemotional and detached and could analyze the situation, use the environment to my advantage, utilize techniques few would ever think about. Genius intellect, enhanced reflexes and processing capabilities, hyper-connected brain allowing me to take in an abnormally large amount of information, an extreme level of awareness: http://blogs.discovermagazine.com/d-brief/2013/11/07/brains-of-autistic-children-are-surprisingly-hyper-connected/
I may not feel pain normally like others do, to the same extent, anymore, (also related to autism, a lack of sensitivity to pain is a common symptom), and, particularly with phenibut, I can enter into a hyper-aggressive fearless state. I've honed my body in isolation from years of weight training, I won't lie and will admit I lack experience with combat and tactics, along with having a very noticeable hyper-efficient way of moving and doing things (someone once mentioned this to me, said something along the lines of "You have this hyper-efficient way of doing things that just says "I kill people." It's awesome, though, I bet you can walk for miles (I can and did regularly, just for the exercise/experience)." If it was a matter of survival, I would adapt the most brutal, absolutely ruthlessly efficient, fighting style, where one hit would be enough to disable a sploo. My knuckles may be abnormally large, the shape of my fists capable of delivering unusually strong punches, and I've refined my movement patterns, have an extreme systemizing mental architecture that just allows me to develop the most efficient and effective methods, methods for delivering power. Just practicing my techniques, striking the air, which I have to hold back on so my joints won't become detached, is enough to launch me forward. An uppercut will launch me into the air whether I want to or not, a hook or haymaker will cause me to do a minimum of a 360, multiple revolutions if it was at true full force etc.
I'd like to/would consider joining an MMA gym with an accelerated learning program, seeing how fast I can master it, enough to have a sufficient starting point for actual competition, where I could then use all my other abilities for an enormous boost and learn on the fly, fly through the ranks, just researching everything to an extreme extent in the manner I do when working on a project I have interest in, developing the most efficient/effective methods/techniques, fighting styles and training regimens, backed by scientific data, knowledge and studies most aren't close to understanding or being aware of, along with a perfected diet and pharmacological enhancement.
So to answer the question, the number of sploos I could take on would only be limited by my endurance. -
2016-01-13 at 9:37 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionMalice's autistic ramblings. You should do the same instead of shitposting, refine and channel your creative energy.
http://education-law.lawyers.com/school-law/does-my-child-have-a-permanent-school-record.html
We should all request our school records. I wish I had done this right after I graduated. I think the thought did cross my mind in the past, but I never went through with it, it must have just passed through and become lost like countless other thoughts. I'd love to see what's on mine. Hopefully it's still available and has everything. -
2016-01-13 at 7:27 AM UTC in NMDA antagonists are retardation simulatorsI honestly think LSD and/or binaural beats may have triggered this. Or maybe bright light therapy and who knows which of the various substances, the combinations/interactions, may be having an effect, what exactly may be occurring when used all at once.
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2016-01-13 at 7:01 AM UTC in I just realized something...
You have an AR-15? What could possibly go wrong.
This was years ago and I lost interest, so I don't remember all the details.
Handgun is a CZ-P-01 with good night sights, and the internals may have been modified/optimized, possibly had a trigger job, I can't remember. If I had to redo it, I would go with a Glock 19, unless something better has come out in 9mm for concealed carry.
Optimized the hell out of it. Like a typical aspie, spent countless hours, read thousands of pages, to determine the optimal components for my dream semi-budget build. The optimum between price and performance, every aspect of it. Who knows what may have come out since I completed it, but it's probably about as optimal as you can get, if I went through every part and my reasoning behind it, a gun enthusiast would probably be pretty impressed. It was purely SHTF insurance and ended up never using it, never even going to the range to even sight it (although a good red dot sight and the low recoil make this much less important, although I don't delude myself about the necessity of practice). Anyway, that fact would be pretty embarrassing and make me seem like a total poser, but I was a pure pragmatist, not an enthusiast. I just cared purely about pragmatics and had a variety of interests, I didn't obsess over one subject, but if working on a project, I wanted to perfect it.
Just by looking at the picture, if you're familiar enough with the AR, you can see it's a pretty neat build. Christ, the accessories available. "Like Barbie for men." There are a few more parts I may have wanted, mainly a small lightweight and powerful flashlight, not sure if there's anything else.
My philosophy on self defense just changed. If you're in a situation where you need it to begin with, you fucked up. The risk involved, reality vs. the ideal. For example, if you want a realistic example of what a post-apocalyptic/societal breakdown scenario would be like, read The Road. It's not enjoyable, absolutely bleak, monotonous, depressing, but it's probably one of the most realistic depictions of what it would actually be like. As for combat, you can think of armies and the naive idealized view some people have of the experience vs. the ugly reality. It wouldn't be an existence worth living, I would just move, if possible. There are also much more creative and legal options for self-defense. Completely realistic as well, problem is most people don't actually go through with "crazy ideas" and few are intelligent and knowledgeable enough to come up with ones that would actually work well. The amount of effort and resources required for my ideas would be perfectly realistic and likely much less, much easier, than the process of selecting and acquiring an optimal firearm. There's also the issue of how incredibly loud they are, even with silencers (far from silent, unless you're using something like subsonic 22LRs, although I have a good video on improvised silencers and even standard supersonic could be quieted down to an acceptable level and frequency, like dropping a heavy hardcover book on a wooden table, which could also be covered by some other noise if it was even recognizable as a gunshot or if stealth was required. Deadliness as well, much easier to just incapacitate someone, which could be done about as quickly and effectively as a good gunshot wound.
This could be a good project for you, you have the relevant knowledge and ability. You know how Anders Breivik used pure nicotine in hollow point rounds to increase their deadliness? All you need is penetration and a suitable substance. Even a BB gun could be enough, which you could disguise as something that would draw no attention/suspicion. You could even have something to reverse the effects, prevent them from reaching a deadly level, for example, to counteract the effects of a paralyzant that could stop the heart or breathing, provide a limit/ceiling effect, in which case it could even be combined. If a combination wasn't feasible, nothing suitable was able to be found, you could have two "guns", one brings death/disability, the other life/the cure, which would be pretty neat, especially if you were using them as a criminal.
I could go on and on. Wow, I forgot about this chapter in my life. Just a lifetime spent in contemplation and research, the connections and ideas you can make that no one, or hardly anyone, has before, and even if so, only a fraction of that tiny amount would actually go through with it. What an overwhelming amount of information there is in the world.
Oh, and as to your "what could go wrong" comment, I also thought about that before. I posted that pic years ago on Zoklet and the comments some people made were pretty amusing. I may be able to find the thread on the internet archive. But, the response I had, and I had an idea for a thread I didn't go through with, was that firearms are the least of your concerns. If your goal was to simply kill and injure as many people a possible there are far far more effective methods. If I genuinely wanted to and dedicated myself to it, Law Abiding Citizen style, I could become the greatest mass murderer of all time, thousands, even hundreds of thousands, wouldn't be out of reach. Fortunately I changed my mind on the whole exterminate the human race/take revenge on society/punish those I hate idea.…my heartlessness goes deep and is persistent. My conscience, my pity, my hopes disappeared a long time ago (probably at Harvard) if they ever did exist. There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it, I have now surpassed. I still, though, hold on to one single bleak truth: no one is safe, nothing is redeemed. Yet I am blameless. Each model of human behavior must be assumed to have some validity. Is evil something you are? Or is it something you do? My pain is constant and sharp and I do not hope for a better world for anyone. In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape.
Christ, I was/am utterly insane, completely out of my mind, evil incarnate, and an absolute ticking time bomb. I had some bad ideas floating around in my head, and who knows whether they may make a return if my depression rescinds, I improve, perfect myself, and become highly functioning. The thought is terrifying, and given that I'm about to begin serious intensive treatment and therapy, it's fully possible. A failed genius (Tested as gifted in 1st grade and was literally scoring in the 99th percentiles on multiple categories, despite multiple disadvantages, before losing interest in middle school due to being bored out of my mind, not having the right environment. Uneducated immigrant parents, felt uninvolved, wasn't really praised or pushed to reach my potential (fucking useless idiots), no enrichment, extracurricular activities, don't think I really had to study, just read and did what I was interested in, was in a regular shitty school that was 100% minorities, never received anything extra, was never challenged, found people I could relate with, came to hate school and feel a deep resentment toward the education system and society in general etc. Who knows what I could have achieved.), grew to genuinely hate the human race, erased ability to feel compassion, empathy, connection with others, found TOTSE and it corrupted/perfected/molded my mind, repeated bad experiences with people, closed self off completely and never experienced or allowed myself to experience love. Continually went down a very dark path. Had to be my own psychiatrist, therapist, and doctor, treat myself and figure things out on my own. Began to halt and reverse damage (extremely promising options available now), although in terms of intellect and other abilities required for success, who knows how much irreversible damage may have been done, how my brain may have developed abnormally or suboptimally during such a critical period. But, if I regain and develop the power I could have had while still having this mindset...
Wow, this...may not end well. -
2016-01-13 at 5:42 AM UTC in NMDA antagonists are retardation simulatorsRetardation simulator sounds like it could be a great novelty/comedy game.
I mean, really, imagine a game where you play as a retarded person, with various quirks, set in a school for the mentally challenged and disordered. This is a fantastic idea, I wonder whether a variation of it has ever been made before. Unfortunately the taboo would prevent any major developers from becoming involved in it. -
2016-01-13 at 3:09 AM UTC in The sophist hate threadSophie is massively egotistical. Self-centered, grandiose, narcissistic, elitist etc. It's a very common personality profile cluster for people like him.
I would love to see how he would react to a stream of finely tuned personally catered and optimized compliments IRL, after a period of observation, learning more about him and his life, to learn what was optimal. I could see him turning beet red, furiously blushing, with an uncontrollable beaming smile on his face. Possibly close to the point of tears of joy and shaking with euphoria. It wouldn't surprise me if he even developed a throbbing erection and involuntarily ejaculated. -
2016-01-13 at 2:59 AM UTC in Are blowjobs and pussy overrated?
youre doing it wrong.
fucking your kittens dont count as pussy
Cats have pussies. Why wouldn't it count? -
2016-01-13 at 2:38 AM UTC in I just realized something...
There was no crime at all, though. I checked everything. Probably just a careless child. Imagine going through life like that. Feeling guilty about made up shit you didn't even do. I wonder what causes this behavior.
Paranoia, anxiety, possibly paranoid schizophrenia.
Excessive/regular cannabinoid use can definitely lead to this, unfortunately. It seems to happen to a lot of people, eventually, veteran users report that it began giving them terrible anxiety, panic attacks, and then they just couldn't use it anymore. It''s really not benign, especially syncans, there's been some very worrisome studies about the effects some have, one I showed to sploo. Daily use isn't a good idea, many people are just in denial, they've been in that state so long they don't realize how much their behavior has changed and what's causing it, and when they stop using it they have a rebound effect, leading them to start again, they might keep using in hopes of chasing the high they used to get, which is now long gone, despite never receiving it anymore, no matter what they try, except maybe on rare occasions, a lucky new batch, which still doesn't last. I thought I was immune to addiction due to strict adherence to rationalism, comparing the state of my life in a period of addiction (think of heroin addicts) to the period before and realizing that the short term pleasures, which at that point aren't anything like they were at first, largely just bringing you back to baseline, which you're knocked way below when in withdrawals/the rebound effect and recovery period, aren't even close to making up for the overall loss in quality of life. The I realized that it wasn't that we necessarily loved the drug, but that we hated sobriety, the inadequacy of the standard consciousness experience (weltschmerz), the emptiness of our lives, the feeling of lacking something, having a hole in our hearts/souls that we were trying to fill, and at least drugs, even dealing with the problems, the ritual, the entire process revolving around them involving acquiring them, reading/research, preparation etc. at least provided some distraction, some break from that, change.
I suppose that once you accept that you need to find what will create lasting/enduring, sustainable happiness, true meaning and fulfillment in your life. Like the thread you made about the Grant Study, which I responded to, about the importance of love and meaningful relationships. I'd also recommend Happiness: A Guide to Developing Life's Most Important Skill and The Happiness Hypothesis: Finding Modern Truth in Ancient Wisdom. Then, once you recover and can attain happiness, inner peace, reverse anhedonia and begin to find joy, meaning, pleasure in life, have a healthy foundation, you can continue to improve and develop yourself, try your best to become who you want, the best you you can achieve, and move from there to finding your passion in life, what you want to devote yourself to, something that stimulates and captivates you, gives you meaning and fulfillment.
*sigh* Life takes so much work, and, unfortunately, cannabis really is one of the worst drugs for apathy, for making you okay with being bored and not doing much, anergia. Then there's the feeling that I'd prefer to just sleep forever. That feeling when you wake up, warm and closer to the dream state, and drift peacefully back to sleep. Just never having that end and waking up again, eternal peace. Wanting to stop wanting anything at all.
But, we're here, may as well try to make the most of it. We don't know everything, we're limited flawed biological beings, our ideas about life, our ideologies/philosophies, existential views, could be flawed/incorrect. Just accepting not knowing is the closest thing to hope non-believers may have. As far as we know, death is final, there's nothing after it. You could speculate, state we don't know, but even our idea of things being fundamentally uncertain/unknowable could be wrong, and if you're basing your actions on ultimate uncertainty and futility/meaninglessness, then how are any of your actions, the choice to live and anything you do in life, any less meaningless and uncertain than anything else? Truly embracing it could be absolute freedom, but then again, if you genuinely believed it you could jump off a building and attempt to fly, because, who knows, maybe you could be the first person to do it if you had the courage, strength, and abandon, truly believed and attained a state of feeling total freedom and fearlessness. People don't actually live their lives like this, though, and those that do are almost always severely mentally ill and end up dead. Then you could get into solipsism and thought experiments about the nature of consciousness, the standard "brain in a vat" thought experiment, and question whether your perception could be manufactured, go back to ultimate uncertainty/unknowability, but it never leads to anything, you can just think yourself into an ideological black hole, go into a spiral, like I did.
So if you're going to smoke weed, limit your use, and I'd recommend only using high CBD strains like harlequin or whatever else has been developed. There are also extracts, some of which could be combined with syncans, which is the only way I'd recommend using them (although you'd still be lacking the beneficial effects of terpenes, but I wrote about the possibility of using essential oils/extracts to make up for that), as CBD attenuates many of the negative effects of THC and analogs, has good anti-psychotic and anxiolytic effects. -
2016-01-12 at 9:19 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
trying to od by taking 200 benadryl on top of 50+ mg klonopin and ~14 beers is not something i'd like to repeat. i was in the hospital trying to smoke my IVs and text on the EKG thing. plus, trying to grab the lights on the ceiling because i thought the 3 bulbs were vicodins..
shit i almost forgot to lol
well the speedball part probably made it way worse tbh
you get a rush of bad feeling everywhere like youve been shot or stabbed and i started puking all over the place but i couldnt figure out where i was so i tried 2 stay in the same place but the floor kept lifted me up and throwing me down and i kept on puking and hte walls started shooting spiders and ghosts everywhere and then i kinda blacked out unti medical wires tried to stangle me and it was satans then i woke up again pretty sober i heard tthey were giving me valium shots to keep me out
i had the worst dry mouth ever and couldnt piss or shit in the hospital so they stuck thus wierd shit up my body
LOL.
Good god, I wonder what everything you've done over the years has done to your brain, sploo, particularly during such a critical period of development. Who knows what sort of bizarre symptoms you may end up displaying as you're older. It could be unparalleled, things never before seen. You should be a case study one day, have your brain, everything relevant, examined with the best instruments available.
We are the world's forgotten children. Those who were never meant to be, never meant for this place, who don't belong and are alone in the world. I wish someone had rescued each and every one of us from ourselves, given us the world we needed.
“There he goes. One of God's own prototypes. A high-powered mutant of some kind never even considered for mass production. Too weird to live, and too rare to die.†-
2016-01-12 at 8:44 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionSploo is a fellow aspie/autist! http://web.archive.org/web/201409231...?tag=aspergers
You couldn't hide forever. I don't think I ever really noticed or payed attention to you on Zoklet, you weren't on my radar, there were some sections I never visited. Not sure if I've ever seen you admit this before. Oh, I actually posted in one of your threads. Must not have registered properly in my memory.
And a classic thread from the past, the deliriant speedball episode: http://web.archive.org/web/20140909232102/https://www.zoklet.net/bbs/showthread.php?t=242531