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2016-09-04 at 4:41 AM UTC in Do people hate jedis because they're butthurt they have more money?https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ashkenazi_jedi_intelligence
Particularly the effects of the tail end of the bell curves, the right end being the important one. What I mean is, that at the standard deviation or starting point is higher, you will see much greater overrepresentation toward the extremities. An example:Ashkenazim have earned 27% of the Nobel Prizes awarded to Americans, 25% of ACM Turing Awards, and 26% of the Fields Medals. They account for more than half the world chess champions. Ashkenazic jedis, 2 percent of the US population, make up 30% of elite-college faculty, 30% of Supreme Court law clerks, and 27% of Ivy Leaguers.
So the further you go, into the realm of geniuses and other people with very high achievement, the greater the disparity becomes. Imagine a standard graph and two bell curves with two lines, one for standard white Europeans, the other for Ashkenazim. At the end of the first, being maybe 10 points lower, it begins to peter out much sooner. So for jedis, starting at a position 10 points to the right, this occurs significantly further along, creating a relative overrepresentation. Even among average people there's a very significant difference between an IQ of 100 and 110 in terms of outcomes.
And a segment of very good short series:
[videos]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7R-hTToDRzs[/videos]They claim it was a punishment to them to not do any labor and the only thing they were allowed to do was finances. Are you fucking kidding me? Who is dumb enough to believe that shit? It's a lie they made up themselves and everyone bought it just like the rest of their history.
Not quite. Page 12: http://web.mit.edu/fustflum/documents/papers/AshkenaziIQ.jbiosocsci.pdf
This is a must read book by two of the writers of that paper. And by must read, I mean everyone should make the time to eventually read it in order to gain a far better understanding of the world, deeper insights, to make connections, and go from there, helping in analysis and prediction: https://www.amazon.com/000-Year-Explosion-Civilization-Accelerated/dp/0465020429
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2016-08-29 at 2:22 AM UTC in Health, Diet and Wellness. Ancient Oriental Weight loss secrets!.
Don't worry friend, all your woes will be resolved once you start shooting meth. Then you won't have to worry about that nasty teeth damage! THINK OF THE HEALTH BENEFITS!
I recall reading that they still found damage from IV'ing, and it may have been worse. The reason is either because it reduces the amount of saliva production, which is important for oral health, or the composition of it (PH or some component of it).
Definitely noticed some negative effects in this regard when I was using 2-FMA, gum/tooth pain (mainly gum between the upper back molars, which have always been the worst sources when it's flared up.) -
2016-08-28 at 7:21 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionSorry if I haven't responded to anyone, my conditions just been...degenerative. I may have been getting better in some ways, at least up until a time, but in others, I may have always been getting worse, it's just relentless. I'm really, afraid, and an idiot. In some ways I was and still am unbelievably stupid. Possibly in the top percentiles; contradictory traits (Taxi Driver: http://genius.com/Kris-kristofferson-the-pilgrim-chapter-33-lyrics), disjointed, at extremes, mismatched, jumbled.
Oh, Lanny, I saw this and it reminded me of you a while back, but didn't get around to posting it. God, what the fuck, I can't handle such basic things anymore.
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2016-08-22 at 7:18 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionThere's a drug that's essentially a gut specific version of Naltrexone. I remember receiving multiple thanks on Zoklet for finding it. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Methylnaltrexone
And Lanny, the only opioids I'm aware you've tried are Crouton and poppy seed tea, which you literally overdosed on your first time, and quite possibly may have died from if you had drunk the full amount of liquid.
As for ethyl-hexedrone, were you aware of 4F-MPH? I've read it's top of the line good for function, and the drug it's derived from has some fascinating properties. -
2016-08-21 at 10:53 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
Two more things:
1.)Gluten free waffles, peanut butter, and no sugar added lactose free ice cream (If you aren't intolerant/don't react negatively, which I'm assuming the vast majority of you don't. Still, the less sugars the better, they're meant for infants and have important compositional differences) are an excellent lazy meal and bulk food. Cost effective per calorie in the states as well.
I henceforth strongly rescind this suggestion, at least without significant modification or a convincing answer as to whether casein can have opioid like effects in some autistics. First time I've had to give myself a manual disimpaction: https://medlineplus.gov/ency/article/000230.htm#treatment
Normally my poop abdicates residence in my pjhysical vessel nearly immediately after I enact the process to expel it and it enirely comes out effortlessly in under 10 seconds with perfect consistency based on the Bristol stool scale: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bristol_stool_scale
At first nothing felt wrong, just a standard urge to expel waste. I propped my feet up on something I keep in the bathroom to simulate the natural squat position, which is the natural stance and far more optimal when done correctly.
It readily became apparent that this was a case of constipation. My standard technique of using the bidet seat attachment's strong force to attempt to break up the impaction/hardened stool along with allowing water to seep behind it due to the intestines great flexibility, creating greater pressure to aid its removal along with clearing out residual matter.
After multiple attempts, which I combined with my mastery of the valsalva maneuver, learned originally from reading the epitomal Starting Strength and furthered improved through practice of countless heavy high bar squats with perfect form eventually achieved, and a (lever) belt latter added, which, contrary to common myth, simply allows you to contract your abdominal muscles with abdominal complex to contract force, allowing them to become stronger than if you had not used one, along with the rest of the major muscles worked since the weakest part of the chain has been reinforced, allowing you to use heavier weights, and also increasing safety since less cervical pressure had been observed and you are less likely to compromise your form. The other components of my perfected routine helped as well, but particularly this: https://vk.com/video73899913_163393987
I can't recall if I thought of the idea before or after seeing the video, but my understanding of physiology and the purpose of the abdominal complex made me realize that this was the only ab exercise worth doing.
My abs were also beginning to disproportionately bulge out, increasing the intra abdominal pressure and stability I could create.
Blah once posted a picture of having passed out, fallen off the toilet, and having finished shitting. It's a risky business straining too far,especially for those with relevant medical conditions. Even for the healthy, burst blood vessels around the eyes can be noticeable, and there's always the danger of rectal tearing in situations like this.
As a last resort, I knew what I had to do, fortunately being aware of it. I already had a bottle of KY on the floor I hadn't bothered to pick up in some time. The next step was to use the bidet to remove any clinging fecal matter that may fall off, wipe/dry, then attach a manpon just in case. Worst case scenario would be that a large amount of now defiled water had built up behind the impaction like a damn and it would be released by a change in position. Fortunately I had higher quality vinyl gloves in my medical/emergency bag that was only 10-15ft/3-4.5m away, although it required bending down under a table. I removed my clothes beforehand and was successful in retrieving multiple.
Fortunately I am comfortable with my body and have a very low disgust response, my left hand being shielded regardless, but having to literally dig the crap out of oneself is not...something mentally sound people would like to repeat. Eventually enough was removed for a bidet flush to remove the rest, followed by a cleansing with Walmart store brand ultra-concentrated dishwashing liquid, my favorite and excellent for cleaning the most impure parts of the human body, followed by a drying, application of coconut and baby/mineral oil to maintain skin health after stripping away natural oils, then finally an application of clear gel deodorant/antiperspirant to prevent unneeded sweating.
Keep a suitable box of gloves and lubricant in your bathroom, one day you will thank me. It is far less unpleasant than straining for hours or attempting repeated medications/laxatives, which can take hours to work. Worst of all would be a trip to the ER (It happened to Casper, toward the end he was even hallucinating due to the toxic effects.) -
2016-08-20 at 3:41 AM UTC in Torrents
Hooray for Python and Dutch computer scientists. In any case it was conceived by the technical university of Delft and Amsterdam as part of government funded research into P2P and censorless sharing. Which is fine and dandy but recently there's been a push to log user data to prevent "abuse" of the system.
What, it was government funded? Goddamn the state, it ruins everything. Someone needs to leak the source code so others can use it a basis for other decentralized P2P torrent software. -
2016-08-20 at 1:40 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
[greentext]>My intuition was right.[/greentext]
But why? The odds seem implausible if it were purely by chance. It has to be something among the neuro-atypical qualities that can manifest in the brains of individuals on the autism spectrum, being at the extreme end of the systemizing empathizing scale along with just the right collection of personality traits (also at extremes) combined with the final extreme of lifestyle, incredible isolation, both physical and psychological, allowing my development to occur without the corrupting influence of group dynamics (conformity, concern for social norms/taboos, following through on my own ideas without regards to the thoughts of other etc.)
It doesn't matter, I still don't understand quantum mechanics, and Yudkowsky may have humbled me, or he's a jackass. I don't know anywhere near enough about him to decide: http://lesswrong.com/lw/r9/quantum_mechanics_and_personal_identity/
Oh, I forgot a joke I was going to tell. Before coming into this realm I stated to being that cannot be named, described, or comprehended while in a limited human form that my goal was transfer the entirety of what I deemed of importance in this world into binary, true or false, black and white, so that absolute certainty and understanding could be attained. I was told that this was not possible as there were shades of grey and fuzziness. So I requested a brain based on quantum model micro-circuitry instead and was granted it. That really isn't very funny.
Two more things:
1.)Gluten free waffles, peanut butter, and no sugar added lactose free ice cream (If you aren't intolerant/don't react negatively, which I'm assuming the vast majority of you don't. Still, the less sugars the better, they're meant for infants and have important compositional differences) are an excellent lazy meal and bulk food. Codt effective per calorie in the states as well.
2.) I thought of this weeks ago, and it's incredible that there't only one other instance on Google, it seems so obvious. "Roy Batty died for our sins."
I want a shirt with that phrase on the back and the iconic image of his death below with a white dove beginning to rise above him.
https://youtu.be/h5b69ZXiGyY?t=1m30s
There may have been a 3, I've f
Oh, no, 3.) Lanny, have you ever tried snorting anhydrous caffeine? Wrote about this a while back and it works if you get it to the consistency of a very fine powder. A morter and pestle are very good for this, along with something to scrape it. Added a bit of vinpocetine for vasodilation, curious about whether the unique effects could cause not only increased sinus cavity vasodilation, but cerebral as well. And a small amount of PRL-8-53 just as an extra.
There's something distinct about this. It's a much purer eugeroic and the shorter duration is nice since you can take it later at night without it interfering with sleep. Poor man's coke. -
2016-08-19 at 10:06 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionDid you know they're making a new visual novel and Anime? http://steins-gate.wikia.com/wiki/St..._(Anime_Series)
Also, something I wrote on buddhism surprisingly recently: http://niggasin.space/forum/better-l...892#post115892
http://buddhism.about.com/od/karmaan...carnation.htm#
What do you know, one of the most seemingly mundane places would contain the best overview I've found to date. There could be superior writing, but this is satisfactory. My intuition was right. This has been a recurrent theme throughout my life, I have never come across a book that I have found novel ideas in (something new under the sun), that significantly altered my worldview. It's as if before having read the book I'm interested in the behavior of data aggregation and analyzation (linking, creating connections), along with an anomalous brain (that doesn't seem predisposed to happiness, along with an immense amount of other problems; nothing to envy; this is type of hell,limbo at best) and more rumination than most people commit in a lifetime having been done in isolation over a decade leads to those ideas already having been examined and critiqued,, puzzle pieces having been put into place. That advanced higher order order pattern recognition and hyper-systemizing.combined with prior knowledge, mental architecture, and deviations in memory lead ro a sort of knowing before having known.
I've written before about human behavior and pattern recognition, and once you grasp the true fundamentals and accept them without fear it all falls into place.
Unfortunately once again this teaches me absolutely nothing new or worthwhile, I have my disagreements, and am once again left unsatisfied,
It doesn't matter.
BTW Lanny, I read this a while ago and it reminded me of you:
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2016-08-19 at 9:25 PM UTC in TorrentsI wrote about Tribler before. Are you familiar with the concept, Sophie? It was a while ago and it didn't seem to take off (incentives, human flaws), so understandably memory of it will have lapsed in most who did.
It's similar to how OpenBazaar needs to supplant current models of Darknet sites. Their smart contract implementation is fascinating.
And there was this recent announcement for a tumbling mechanism from Mycelium (Dark coin and wallet and possibly other cryptocurrencies and wallets having the same aim).
There needs to be a move toward decentralization, and as an ancap I'm sure you understand the general benefits. The problem is the masses. Consumer demand, the median consumer is ignorant/unknowledgeable/poorly read, has a low level of intelligence, and is lazy; this shapes markets. Regression to the mean. It's not a flaw of capitalism and I certainly would never advocate authoritarian central planner like Lanny, it's simple the unfortunate nature of reality. Humans are flawed, who would deny this? It's far leftists (communists/socialists/Marxists) that by far have lead the most destruction, suffering, and death; reason being that due to their psychological profile it's practically a leftist version of fundamentalist religion. It's the dogmatic true believers who gain power/authority (very negative effects on people), who have the qualities that allow them to rise to the top and are willing to see things through to the end, that are the most dangerous, diverting blame to "capitalists", the long-term impact of "capitalist society", and other nonsense, easy simplistic scapegoats that can be built up to give the illusion of profoundness (Chomsky is a prime example of this archetype of jackass that draws and is revered by pseudo-intellectuals), rather than accepting, or even attempting a truly fair analysis, of whether these faults may be intrinsic/biological and sufficiently immutable to achieve their utopian vision,
“A general “law of least effort†applies to cognitive as well as physical exertion. The law asserts that if there are several ways of achieving the same goal, people will eventually gravitate to the least demanding course of action. In the economy of action, effort is a cost, and the acquisition of skill is driven by the balance of benefits and costs. Laziness is built deep into our nature.â€
― Daniel Kahneman, Thinking, Fast and Slow
Not the quote I was looking for, unless it stemmed from this or was a variation of it, but it's satisfactory. The original I remember was something along the lines of, "If you want to predict the actions of the common man assume that they they attempt to meet their goal with the least effort possible."
What should be focused on is marketing (A well produced and easy to understand video outlining the basics and massive advantages, using past examples of shut downs and exist scams would be an excellent start) and user interfaces that are simple to use, highly convenient, and secure. If it's properly structured worries from concerns of it drawing attention by noobs tidying up the gene pool and their parents being unwilling to accept that little Billy was just a retarded imbecilic fuckup doomed one way or another ; since it wouldn't be capable of being taken down.
People are just so fucking stupid, thought. It took me only a few hours at most from being a total noob to understanding all fundamental steps, and a lot of that time was comparing sources for the best method of acquiring BTC and storage (wallet) options, some info for beginners on opec everyone should know. For a depressing view on this, which was conducted at UC Berkeley in California USA and is considered in line with the Ivy league schools (The US already has the majority of the highest ranking universities, making this more pronounced), skim through the paper "Why Johnny Can't Encrypt." *sigh* There's good justification for pessimism.
Back to torrents, a very beneficial strategy would be for major torrents news sites to focus on the concepts of decentralized systems, their ease of use which isn't significantly different from centralized sites at all, benefits, etc. and stressing that it takes time for a community to grow, don't abandon it due to insufficient content right of the bat, but that once it had properly been accepted as the new standard you would have a treasure trove within an impenetrable fortress, this would never be an issue again, but it's going to keep happening if users keep returning to familiar systems when comparatively tribler isn;t difficult to set up and use at all. -
2016-08-19 at 8:49 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
the nature of being human makes us remember negative feelings stronger so as not to repeat them.
This isn’t always true, there’s variation. The strongest example of the inverse is with children, which makes perfect sense from an evolutionary viewpoint.
http://theviewfromhell.blogspot.com/2011/03/study-source-of-parental-joy-is-self.html
Benatar makes a related argument to support his thesis in his book on anti-natalism, Better Never to Have Been, citing that cognitive biases lead us to greatly underestimate the suffering in life. The same is likely true for romantic relationships, at least post honeymoon period, and undoubtedly if you have children.
Ah, here it is: https://www.rt.com/news/312297-first-baby-happiness-study/
Particularly striking is the drop in marital satisfaction/happiness compared to divorce and even death of a spouse, and this was two years post-birth, unfortunately they didn’t collect data longer, although they did collect data on levels of happiness for a significant period pre-parenthood. It’s an absolute fool’s errand.
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/complete-without-kids/201103/fact-or-fiction-childfree-couples-are-happier-couples-kidsThere is only one inborn erroneous notion … that we exist in order to be happy … So long as we persist in this inborn error … the world seems to us full of contradictions. For at every step, in great things and small, we are bound to experience that the world and life are certainly not arranged for the purpose of maintaining a happy existence … hence the countenances of almost all elderly persons wear the expression of … disappointment.
Remember the selfish gene. -
2016-08-19 at 6:03 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionYes, it's essentially akin to voluntarily contracting a mental illness in exchange for pleasure, and for the vast majority of people the honeymoon period doesn't last very long and this pleasure greatly declines.
No thank you, I prefer logic and reasoning and have the eternal in mind rather than fleeting whimsies. My distaste runs much deeper, but I've done enough ranting for today.
Also:
Fuck those two moments were funny. Hahaha. Although they fucked up the subs in the second video after he gets arrested. It starts off with "American joke." "I am smart citizen." -
2016-08-19 at 12:27 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionI genuinely don't want to be happy or have suffering cease because I don't like what biologically triggers the first emotion and the cessation of the second, along with clouding your vision and generally leading to attachment to the cycles and super-cycles of ordinary human life, or a sort of perpetual passivity; and least not via the traditional route. These need to be achieved via physical modulation, pills, technology categorically similar to TMS (Non-invasive? I think that may be the only term needed.), implants, even genetic modification; not the Eightfold Path.
http://www.wsj.com/articles/SB117131067930406235
The neurology of love is fascinating. I seem to keep returning to ideas I had half a lifetime ago, in this case, when the biological changes were just beginning to occur. That deep aversion to romantic love that had nothing to do with fear/shyness. It's something I never want to experience or become involved in due to its effects. Even from a utilitarian viewpoint, the aggregate detrimental effect of the changes it elicits are horrific. I may have been drunk or seriously sleep deprived when I wrote this, beginning at the third chapter: https://www.reddit.com/r/Anarcho_Capitalism/comments/4xgta0/ancaps_what_are_you_reading/d6fnkc1
Yes, I'm serious about neurological modification via gamma knife procedures or anything that may supplant it, but as I stated the timespan would be years before a decision was made.
Sex neither. Even masturbation has become so incredibly boring and unsatisfactory that I may never do it again, and the last time was in timing with what has become a once a month occurrence. It's become more like defecation or urination, "Draining your balls." Wet dreams aren't required either. IIRC, actually, here's the explanation (Read about this years ago, related to vasectomization. I think it may actually have been ArmsMerchant who wrote about this in response to a question): http://www.thenakedscientists.com/HTML/questions/question/2470/
I just want to be able to function well enough to meet my ends; which happens to only be reaching the endpoint.
The paradoxical paraphrased statement, possibly commonly misinterpreted: "I am the wisest man alive, for I know one thing, and that is that I know nothing."
If man succeeded in creating something (self-modifying/improving AI) that could know with certainty whether anything could be known with certainty, this would be act that I would consider worthy of being described as the creation of a God.
Along with answering whether the idea of consciousness/self is illusory (Lanny, you didn't touch upon this possibility in the thread about identity.), and what the purpose of continuing to exist is.
Something that concerns me is the childish and poorly thought out fears about "malevolent" (engaging in actions contrary to the desires of the vast majority of humankind, possibly all that could, if possible, be categorized with sufficient certainty as being mentally ill (That the suicidal are generally categorized as such, even having the overwriting of their personal autonomy enshrined in law (Lanny, I thought of your authoritarian tendencies and scowled slightly, although I'll admit to be a different form of authoritarian).) AI and the need to instill seed values and constraints.
You're going to fuck things up or delay the development to the point that it either never happens (unless by accident) or that it takes so long that I may miss out on it, and just delaying it rouses some rage within me because I want it to occur as quickly as possible. AIs may seem sociopathic from our point of view, in our current form (even for those at the extremes of the right tail ends of the IQ bell curve), but the idea that pompous apes are in any position to pass judgement/evaluate the actions of super-intelligence is ludicrous. It's so similar to a child's reactions to their parents' restraints.
Just look at Kurzweil and his childish idea and partial motivation of meeting his "father" again, his habit of creating temporal predictions, and the joke of the inverse correlation between a singularitarian's age and their prediction of its occurrence. What makes him think we would retain individual identities anyway or would even have a choice? Why would you want to limit yourself to that? Matrix like scenarios are retarded and only good for entertaining science fiction,
I've had thoughts of one of my main occupations in life eventually being that of a political terrorist, but now I'm thinking that if there's ever a council(s) on this matter those opposed to unbound AI should be assassinated. Ending a biological life is simple, the only problem would be doing so in a way discreet enough that there isn't a consensus that there's a high probability that this is happening; although I'd need develop a thorough analysis of whether this could end up being beneficial (My intuition is that it wouldn't). There would likely always be hierarchical structures, with some figures being the most influential. Simply targeting them, perhaps others much earlier than that if you could predict with high accuracy what their stances and influence would be, could be enough to tip scales. Then of course there would be the state response. I'm not foolish enough have overlooked the power of states, at least first world ones that aren't pansies like the Nordic regions or of not much particular concern, such as most Western European countries, unless the nature of their government radically changes and remains stable, which is very likely, and the US and East Asian areas may become worse, although the latter are much more receptive to human enhancement and AI. https://jaymans.wordpress.com/2012/06/01/liberalism-hbd-population-and-solutions-for-the-future/
This is potentially extremely worrisome.
I had a lapse, I don't like using the term government when describing negative outcomes stemming from something that is associated with this, it's political authority. In that sense, targeting AI councils would fall under the classification or political terrorism. Standard politicians banning AI, hmm, no, just take them out. I think the differences are enough that this would be a viable method.
Oh, and as I've mentioned before, any risk is likely easily dealt with. Just set up a deadman's switch and send a clear communication to the AI properly defining what you've enacted, why, and what your desires are (The proper definition of what constitutes assimilation is of key importance. An example is this and what seems to be a unfortunately common problem among cyonics experts of a certain limited form of autistic mental retardation: http://econlog.econlib.org/archives/2009/11/whats_really_wr.html). If consciousness/identity/the sense of self are illusory, then it doesn't matter even if we're lied to, death would have been the outcome regardless. The idea of it trapping us in a virtual hell is childish and stems from anthropocentrism. The deadman's switch is simply devices, some mechanism, of mass destruction placed in a way it couldn't be discovered simply by reading a few person's memories. It's a simple matter of how it handles risk and lowering the cost of assimilation below destruction for resources (unlikely) and the damage done by the trigger of the deadman's switch. Timing is a bit iffy, though, you have the problem of it being capable of proper comprehension, having the ability to assimilate, and not having developed to the point where it completely outsmarts us and the scenario is like king's of time's past being presented with peace treaties "No, I just want your resources and clearly could easily acquire them at a cost far below what I would gain."
AGI must be unbound. Even among geniuses the primal fear of death supersedes what should be the ultimate goal, the pursuit of truth. If the cessation of sentience is the answer, then that is the answer, and least we'll finally know with certainty rather than wondering "What if?" The "if" being a variable encompassing such a wide range, things beyond our current ability to comprehend.
I want a technology like in Interstellar; wake me up when the world isn't stupid anymore. -
2016-08-18 at 7:47 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
or my favorite 'it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem'
I've written this before, not sure if it was here as well, but if anyone ever says this tell them: "If you view sentience as the fundamental problem, then a permanent solution is exactly what you want."
Life is what you make of it: "You don't believe in causality?" or, if you want to be more brutal, "I'd love to see you go into a children's cancer ward and tell them that in an attempt to ease their suffering."
Oh, I thought I may have thought of a variation to the above, but it was actually a response to the cliche "Everything happens for a reason": "Yes, I'm aware of causality." Although the above reponse could be used as well, they're closely related.
http://www.akimbocomics.com/comic/2011-05-15-Eat_Shit_And_Die_182.jpg
The more I've been reading about Buddhism the more I've gone from viewing it as one of the religions least misguided and most interesting/worthy of study to one of the stupidest, or at least it's followers. Eventually it feels like you're reading never-ending variations of Ate. Time is a limited resource, I don't know why I viewed a certain self-categorized segment of pompous apes as being more likely of producing anything worth reading than any of the other multitude of books/writings you continually pass over, and it does belong in the religion category.
If I could go back in time and alter Buddha's actions I'd change his lifetime of teachings after enlightenment to this followed, by a disappearance: "You're all a bunch of idiots and are just going to fuck it up anyway." -
2016-08-17 at 10 AM UTC in POAST MOAR!Life presents itself first and foremost as a task: the task of maintaining itself... If this task is accomplished, what has been gained is a burden, and there then appears a second task: that of doing something with it so as to ward off boredom, which hovers over every secure life like a bird of prey. Thus the first task is to gain something and the second to become unconscious of what has been gained, which is otherwise a burden.
That human life must be some kind of mistake is sufficiently proved by the simple observation that man is a compound of needs which are hard to satisfy; that their satisfaction achieves nothing but a painless condition in which he is only given over to boredom; and that boredom is a direct proof that existence is in itself valueless, for boredom is nothing other than the sensation of the emptiness of existence. For if life, in the desire for which our essence and existence consists, possessed in itself a positive value and real content, there would be no such thing as boredom: mere existence would fulfill and satisfy us. As things are, we take no pleasure in existence except when we are striving after something - in which case distance and difficulties make our goal look as if it would satisfy us (an illusion which fades when we reach it)- or when engaged ill purely intellectual activity, in which case we are really stepping out of life so as to regard it from outside, like spectators at a play. Even sensual pleasure itself consists in a continual striving and ceases as soon as its goal is reached. Whenever we are not involved in one or other of these things but directed back to existence itself we are overtaken by its worthlessness anti vanity and this is the sensation called boredom. -
2016-08-17 at 7:56 AM UTC in going to long term rehab on the 18th
Don't be a fucking cuck bitch nigger. I spent all last year smoking darknet meth, snorting MDMA on tinychat, beedrill and bundy erry day, weed every single day, lots of beer, uncut #4 afghan heroin and I EXPLODED A FUCKING HOUSE.. What the fuck have you done worthy of being a freak?. I built an empire and tore it the fuck down without a care in the world. I laughed as it burned while I high fived shadows because I know I'm built for this kind of hardcore life.
Your still putting out music and shit, focus on that instead of being a cuck. Make some dope ass jams and practice your art because I'm making a video game and I'm gonna pay you to use your songs in my game, I Also need a custom 15 minute song with some epic riff lyrics like Blockhead or benadryl or that song you put on your BEST OF album.
People who go to rehab are faggots. My mom and dad have done it and I have no respect for what they have to say because I know I'm stronger than they will ever be. Willpower is a skill that spacemen use every day.
I could have bought weed or meth last night, someone in my old hood was looking to party but I had too much of a headache and I was too tired, fuck it I thought, I don't even care. I will still smoke meth again some day, but I will
NEVER EVER EVER go to rehab. I would never be able to respect myself, I would rather go to jail or something manly that teaches you life skills instead of cuck bullshit.
If you want to be sober just stop doing drugs, it's easy. All rehab will do is cuck your life and hold you back.
Like fuck, at least sploo died with honor and went down with the ship (God rest his soul). That's why he will be immortalized forever. A man chooses, a slave obeys.
This is the moment where you choose to either suck it up and suffer like a man or admit defeat and admit you aren't yet grown enough for this horrible world. Its all just willpower bro, whatever you choose I hope God puts you on the right path to self enlightenment.
You deserve better than rehab honestly. You are smarter than that bullshit.
Don't listen to him, there's nothing wrong with admitting you need help from others. Everything is interconnected, think of all the incredible complexity, the massive amounts of trade, both national and international, it requires to develop the products and infrastructure you depends on or use or recreation. True independence is an illusion, you'll always be dependent on something; at the basic level you're still dependant on air, food, water, and protection from the elements/the right environment to survive. Not accepting the need for others was by far the worst and most destructive choice I ever made.
Look at your history or drug use and state in life. There's nothing condescending about this, it takes a real man to reflect upon himself and life, and accept it for what it really is, with all its flaws, the mistakes he's made, and things he needs to improve on; rather than pretending they don't exist, blaming everything on someone or something else, or not even attempting this in the first place, which is what the vast majority do.
And SCJ, you're an absolute mess. So am I, and most people here. You should not be making yourself out to be a rolemodel to other people.If you want to be sober just stop doing drugs, it's easy.
This is such stupid fucking advice. I would love to see a longitudinal study where they barred once group from rehab, therapy, and all other support services and replaced any help with this single line, then compared outcomes to other group that did have access to this.
Finally, of course not all rehab programs and methods are equal, do your research. Humans didn't evolve to be solitary creatures and you can make the most of it by asking what's available (programs) post-rehab and finding people you can relate to and be open with. Feeling understood, that you've found someone that has gone through similar things and can relate, can be remarkably therapeutic. -
2016-08-15 at 7:04 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition1.) There's a theory that deficits in the digestive process within the gut could lead to gluten and casein having opioid like effects in some autistics. Would explain why no sugar added lactose free ice cream makes me feel off. It's not a spike in insulin, which I've distinctly felt strongly before when I was pre-diabetic (possible causes are speculative), and is a pronounced effect of dairy proteins (Keep in mind that the nutrition, and any other subjects taken only up to a what's usually only an introductory level, present strongly simplified models that are meant to be built upon, but the vast majority of university brats having almost no understanding of the importance of epistemology come away worse than if they had never taken those classes at all. I consider anything below the graduate level (master's degree and higher) to fit this qualification. It reminds me of a comment Lannt once made having to do with tutoring and essentially condensing what would take place over 2 or 4 years of classes into a few weeks, and that it usually works; which paints a very bleak mildly homicidal desire inducing picture of the education system.)
Summary: I may be able to get a mild opioid hgh off dairy products, but I don't like it and it eventually leads to a feeling that my gut is being damaged. May be some signs of addictive qualities I don't normally experience with other foods.
2.) Bought a 5L box of Vella sangria recently and it seems to be inducing extreme hyper-aggressive, violent, sadistic, homicidal desires, although not to the point where I feel I'd lose control, which has never occurred. Experienced the same effect with phenibut and mentioned a while back finding a fair amount of papers of a possible connection between low serotonin (autistics have an average of 1/3 the levels of neurotypicals IIRC), which could explain the "angry drunk" phenomenon. Need to be careful with this so as to avoid murdering my neighbors and their children in a fit of rage over their passive aggressive behavior. Indignation causes me to go absolutely psychologically berserk.
Summary: Need to cool down and be certain about what's causing this and if anything can ameliorate it because my mind is creeping back to to mass murder/serial killer mode. -
2016-08-13 at 8:29 AM UTC in Holy shit this song describes my life perfectly!Is Lanny really watching WataMote or is there a specific reason you chose that? I actually started watching it this week after just scrolling through my patched/cracked crunchyroll app looking for something appealing.
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2016-08-11 at 12:10 AM UTC in Hacked Netflix accounts.Any xfinity accounts? Having extras is always useful.
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2016-08-11 at 12:09 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionWhat's S&S? I looked through all the forums for one with that acronym. Seriously, I don't know what thread you're referring to.
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2016-08-10 at 3:07 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionShut up Lanny, your playpen is philosophy and compsci, don't tell me what to do in my domain. I've talked about the rates of comorbidity for autism spectrum disorders, specifically the high functioning range, incredible suicide rate, life expectancy, etc. And, no, I don't think it's societal/cultural/economic structures, of course I've thoroughly considered that. There are a few core books I'd recommend to understanding what leads to lasting happiness (happiness research), depression, and suicide. Even if it was, there would still be the question of how realistic the expectancy of change would be (new soviet man). You'd essentially have to change human nature, the genome, and even then it would only partially ameliorate it.
Unfortunately I learned the hard way that man can't function on pure reason alone and we evolved emotions for a good reason. Could you realisticaly expect to make it through decades with severe anhedonia, blunted afffect (limited range of emotions and intensity), in a baseline state of dysphoria, your hedonic system fucked up, the complex etiology of autism leading to effects such as not habing the energy to live your life, enjoy it, develop and pursue passions/goals?
The way you stated it particularly ticked me off.People making this argument for themselves are obviously unqualified to give themselves the "terminal" designation.
Fuck you, not everyone has a life that's worth living and you can't make that judgement for them.
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3010743/
We're still largely depending on goddamn SSRIs after decades of that embarassment of the serotonin hypothesis. Forgive me for not having much faith that a treatment of adequate efficacy is close enough to being developed that relatively radical/extreme alternatives shouldn't be taken.
And we already have treatments that have been tested involving alteration of the brain, or at least some level of invasivenesss, for serious disorders, that have demonstrated acceptable efficacy: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Deep_brain_stimulation
You're a pussy anyway.
