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Posts by Malice

  1. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    I'm assuming that's because otherwise it wouldn't be rape and that you like it rough.
  2. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    I'm reading LSD Psychotherapy right now and Grof spends kind of an uncomfortable amount of time discussing the mechanics of patients pissing and shitting themselves.

    I guess it makes sense, he himself admits to his freudian foundation and fecal/urethral concerns abound there.

    Doesn't seem like such a bad idea though, in heavier trips I've had moments where I wanted a glass of water or to go to the bathroom but the level of motor control and the span of subjective time that took were nearly inconceivable.



    Just slide it under you. For water a hydration bladder would be best for really intense/high dose trips.
  3. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    If you want higher quality music and a solution to 90+% of the minor problems you constantly bitch about then stop being such a poor fuckup and either get it together or accept what your future is almost guaranteed to be and commit suicide.

    Not really, I just felt like posting that.
  4. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    Yeah. Oh those shenanigans, vanity, vanity.





    https://sfnewsreporter.wordpress.com...ceful-protest/

    A man wearing a Klu Klux Klan outfit and carrying a sign that said “God Hates Occupy” and “White Power” showed up at the plaza just after 5 p.m. Occupy protesters and the media chased the man around and around the plaza, but the uproar eventually died down. Many at the protest speculated that the man may have been a responsible for Defend Our Oakland Movement (DOOM) fliers calling for violence against Occupy demonstrators that had been plastered around downtown Oakland about a week before the event.

    Oakland Police Sgt. Henderson Jordan said the unidentified man made him nervous, and some Occupy protesters said he may have been a police agent provocateur.

    “We are here to ensure everybody is able to express their First Amendment rights, but we have to balance that with keeping this guy from being injured,” Jordan said. He added that while last year OPD had been evicting protesters, this year was simply a facilitation.

    Hahaha, would have been good times if I had emotions like a normie. Oh, made Mother Jones as well: http://www.motherjones.com/mojo/2012...kland-one-year

    Back of sign:

  5. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    Imagine drugging someone, then spraying something on their asshole to cause long lasting pain (at least anal rape level until they awoke) along with fake blood, leaving them to forever wonder whether they had been anally raped. Record the entire process just in case.

    I had Lanny in mind when I thought of this; this is exemplary of only a minute fraction of the totality of reasons why I believe I'm incompatible with meaningful relations IRL (Online as well.).
  6. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    Suspicious:



    I wonder what it is and what retarded excuse they'll make up for it. Comments suggest it may be part of leg brace or catheter, but greater analysis needs to be made, sound is important as well.

    The overheated story also doesn't seem to stand up to scrutiny at all. It was in the mid to upper 70s, low humidity, around that time period, she didn't take off her coat, and wasn't drinking fluids.

    And now she was apparently diagnosed with pneumonia on Friday, according to her doctor: http://www.politico.com/story/2016/09/hillary-clinton-has-pneumonia-doctor-says-228012

    Also, Martin Shkreli, who had a hate fest unleashed on him when he was CEO of a company that bought the rights to a drug and massively increased the price, then used it as an opportunity to troll, has previously been tweeting about Hillary and was there, livestreaming it: http://www.nydailynews.com/news/national/martin-shkreli-heckles-hillary-clinton-daughter-home-article-1.2787500

    "Fell harder than the Twin Towers."

    "The biggest 9/11 collapse in 15 years..."

    Comment from r/The_Donald: "[FONT=verdana][SIZE=14px]Best 9/11 ever!"[/SIZE][/FONT]
  7. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    [FONT=Merriweather][SIZE=14px]“One of the few good things about modern times: If you die horribly on television, you will not have died in vain. You will have entertained us.” [/SIZE][/FONT]
    [FONT=Merriweather][SIZE=14px]― [/SIZE][/FONT]Kurt Vonnegut
  8. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    Bill Krozby, I just thought of an alternative and superior scheme to your Bill Krozbydog pipedream. Become a standup comedian, start small at free local gigs and you'll quickly snowball into large enough fame to make a living, trust me. All you have to do is speak your mind on this. People will think it's satire, but it's really severe schizophrenia, and the longer it goes untreated and more severe it becomes as it fully manifests, the funnier you'll become.

    Countless people have profited off literal insanity, some becoming immensely wealthy (No, really, just look at some religions/cults), you could be one of them. Whatever you do just don't take any pills they give you if they ever take you to the loony bin, and have a good lawyer available on call when you can afford it.
  9. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    What the fuck? If he really did get 15 boxes he has almost $7K worth. Those must be standard corrupt American prices, which aren't paid directly (people go to places where they're authorized to inject this and the cost is enough to cover the price of this).

    OP, if you can seriously get boxes of this that easily (I really need to know what country you're in), smuggling them into the US using darknet market opsec (Actually pretty simple) to someone who can sell them to a willing business at a price they're willing to pay (lower than what they pay for botox). This contains some relevant info: http://fllmag.com/is-there-a-generic-botox/

    They'd need to be crooked enough to illegally source it, which isn't a big deal, but to also lie about it being Botox, which also isn't that big of a deal; in practical, logical, matters, not legally. You could also have fake labels created for them easily enough, which they could adhere themselves. There would need to be a matter of trust, ideally someone to vouch for you, that knows the owner, get a foot in the door.

    http://www.goodrx.com/botox

    I recall a bottle being sold by a single vendor on a market that ended up shutting down for about $100, possibly Mexican sourced. Online DIY Botox is definitely a thing and has been for a long time, but it's clearnet based. There's also the matter of "Botox parties", and I have no doubt that in more affluent neighborhoods they, at least at some point (popularity fluctuating with popularity/media exposure, I recall a period where there was much more coverage of it, but now I'm detached from mainstream society to an incredible degree), were not uncommon.

    You won't get anywhere near market value if you try to sell them to randoms. More research would need to be done to learn of the feasibility and necessary logistics of the aforementioned business venture.
  10. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    Watch the video: https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/the-fix/wp/2016/09/11/hillary-clintons-health-just-became-a-real-issue-in-the-presidential-campaign

    Bahahaha! When that little girl runs up to her for the photo-op one reporter says, "Oh for Christ's sake." After it another says, "Wow, that was....something." You can also see that the little girl seems confused about what to do afterward.

    Oh god. Did you know that one of the planes was actually attempting to target either the Capitol Building (where congress meets) or White House? https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/United_Airlines_Flight_93
    By god that would have been glorious, if AA missiles didn't neutralize it. At least we would have gotten to see them pop up. I doubt they don't have defenses like this.

    With the migrant crisis bringing in vast amounts of Muslims who outbreed natives by far, along with ISIS, and the serious economic and political troubles the middle east faces in the near (within a few decades) future, I hope statists get what's coming to them over and over again, hopefully an event one day eclipsing even the grandeur of 9/11.
  11. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    Happy nine eleven goys, and remember. Jet fuel can't melt steel beams



    https://www.reddit.com/r/politics/co...episode_at_911

    Allah Akbar! On this most holy of days Mohammed has struck down the Whore of Babylon!
  12. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    For celebration of such a glorious day, when the whorish nation that with time forgot its body was not sacred and impenetrable was pierced by a holy lance, rivers of blood and the smoke and flames of orc rousing fear and indignation, deserving for its sins.

    I really loved watching these when I was in the mood, although currently it puts too much strain on me to remain in that state for too long, the stronger the state the lower the time limit/higher the fatigue. The extremes of humanity. I've never enjoyed gore. Analogous, I was always an agnostic atheist, and see it as good form of practice for critical thinking, logic and reasoning, debate etc. for beginners, but never saw the need to dwell on it since the argumentation required was of such low level (Of course nearly anything can be taken to a highly complex state.) and recognized the factors that made attempts at conversion so largely fruitless, even for self-development; the people and communities that fixated on it, some for an absurd length, we're distasteful.

    What does that have to do with this? Nothing really, you'll have wasted your time. Think of it as Charon's obol for only glimpse. Back to gore, it's boring, dead bodies, mutilated, aren't very interesting, death generally isn't very interesting. But moments like these capture the extremes of humanity. To think that acts of this nature actually occurred. Destruction, the play on human emotions, sometimes even the motive and information, the story, behind it, can add to it.

    “To feel envy is human, to savour schadenfreude is devilish.” ― Arthur Schopenhauer, On Human Nature

    Fortunately we live in an era where alienation can create (momentary/partial/voluntary) monsters, and technology the flesh that feeds them.

    Explanation of origin: After 9/11 many videos were seized, or turned in voluntarily. This shouldn't be surprising. Why didn't they release them? Well, conspiracy theories aside and anything containing material that would need to remain classified, I doubt they'd be legally required and I can't see a reason for them to choose to do so. Some of these may have only been released within the last few years, with only a relatively minute amount of people having seen them.

    Here are my favorites to give you a taste. Wait a few minutes if you believe my description inaccurate or question my taste, the intensity will rise to an exquisite level. Peruse the rest if you desire more.




  13. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    Wait, can you buy them without a prescription? Where do you live and what's the price in your area?

    If you're really doing this for your mother, Botox is actually in trials for depression, and seems to be receiving good results. I had this saved in one of my files, I only save information on the most promising/effective substances. It's safe, you can do it yourself as long as you aren't an idiot or have hands that are as steady as a Parkinson's sufferer. The paralysis also lasts for about 3 months. I'd be less worried about big pharma influence due to the widespread awareness of Botox, negative impression most have, lack of prior connection in their minds to depression, and how stupid it may seem to commoners, the skepticism it would evoke. Also not as easy as taking a pill, like the standard SSRI's, the need to receive an injection from someone else etc. Basically, it's unlikely to be much of a money maker relative to other treatments, and will be more obscure. Definitely worth trying more than another piece of shit SSRI or a standard evergreening strategy or releasing the (more) effective isomer or an extended release version:

    Botox: Effetive treatment for depression.
    Botox injections to disable the facial muscles responsible for frowning were effective in relieving clinical depression in a randomized, placebo-controlled trial, researchers said.
    Among 33 patients meeting DSM-IV criteria for major depression who were assigned to receive Botox (onabotulinumtoxinA) injections, 17 (52%) showed decreases of at least 50% from baseline in Montgomery-Asberg Depression Rating Scale (MADRS) scores 6 weeks after treatment, compared with six of 41 (15%) injected with saline (P<0.001), according toEric Finzi, MD, PhD, of the Chevy Chase Cosmetic Center in Chevy Chase, Md., andNorman E. Rosenthal, MD, of Georgetown University in Washington, D.C.

    Clinical remission, defined as a MADRS score of 10 or less at final evaluation, was achieved by 27% of the Botox group versus 7% of the placebo group (P=0.03), Finzi and Rosenthal reported online in theJournal of Psychiatric Research.

    -"Our emotions are expressed by facial muscles, which in turn send feedback signals to the brain to reinforce those emotions. Treating facial muscles with botulinum toxin interrupts this cycle," study investigator Prof. Tillmann Kruger said at a press conference at the American Psychiatric Association's 2014 Annual Meeting.

    Six weeks after a single treatment, the Botox group had an average 47.1% reduction in depression symptoms vs. 9.2% in the placebo group.

    -injection of Botox to the glabellar area between the eyes

    -But I also noticed a reaction to the Botox in the people I encountered. My mother had always told me that if you’re not frowning more people will want to talk to you, and she was right. As David Matsumoto, a professor of psychology at San Francisco State University and a renowned expert in expression, says, “If your expression changes, then of course how people are perceiving you will change.” Finzi once told me about an older female patient of his who hadn’t socialized in years because of her depression. After Botox, she felt well enough to attend her high school reunion and ended up in a relationship with her high school boyfriend.
  14. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    OP, you should blare this next: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGSg_D0cSJLxe9jkuWsc1uw/videos?sort=p&view=0&flow=grid
  15. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    I'd jump to unplug my computer and would probably get shot in the process. Then you can Honk4Sophie on Twitter and shit.

    Good reason to wear a watch that triggers a mechanism to wipe it. If they're careful enough they may be able to retrieve ram data with coolants IIRC, but I don't know if this method is still feasible, and it was really only used for a poweroff. Made even easier with a smart watch, despite being distasteful in their current state, from my impression, but, concessions/trade offs. Link to phone > data plan > alarms relaying a home/base breach w/ video and audio feed, or if it hasn't occurred yet and you're surrounded outside, well, you should obviously still do it. Hands up, press a button, saved. Unless you're high enough profile for them to have acquired knowledge of it (They play damn dirty.). It's really surprisingly simple and there are already programs in place so that it wouldn't take much more work than buying things, gathering some software, and setting them up.
  16. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    AFAIK there isn't even a consensus on a coherent definition of "consciousness". There are such a number of fundamental problems lacking a clear answer.

    Something is occurring, but I don't know what.

    It brings to mind the concept that we're incapable of fully understanding ourselves, due to intractable problems of intelligence, "The ability to deal with complexity." being a succinct definition. It's like attempting to take two split and incredibly complex/difficult problem beyond the scope of even those at the furthest right tail end of the IQ/g bell curve and have each person solve one half and combine them together. It needs to be contained in one mind. Unless an AI could find a workaround, I wonder if studying past copies of itself could be a motive behind actual simulation; other arguments for it commonly espoused seem utterly moronic to be. A bit depressing, though, if it was a large, especially is constant, cycle of creation and destruction, but I highly doubt this would be a concern, anthropomorphization being a major and surprisingly common problem among some in AI research.

    Someone lacking humanity to the highest extent, the extreme systemizer. Henry Cavendish may be the best example of this I'm currently aware of, possibly the hardest of the hardcore aspies, and an incredible genius, particularly when taking into account his unpublished work: http://eppl604-autism-and-creativity...darticle-4.pdf

    This isn't because I'm autistic, but a man like him, with the right traits, would be as close as a human could be to understanding and conveying what AGI would be like; although I'm aware of the foolishness of attempting to speculate; a definition of the singularity commonly being the point where change occurs at a rate where we're no longer able to predict it, along with the orders of magnitudes in intelligence, the ability of self-modification, the knowledge/data and comprehension it could gain etc. making it far worse than a chimpanzee attempting to understand man.

    Something I've thought of is dropping something to the ground and asking "What meaning does this have?" in response to what may be my most hated question, "What is the meaning of life?" Hmm, where was I going with this...I also had a thought about fuzzy thresholds and the possibility of charting a general path. Then there are the implications of the Fermi paradox that I believe are most likely, in my current limited state. Intuitively, I have a strong feeling that there is no salvation and that if AGI does occur, it won't be a childish doomsday scenario, just nothing that they would have hoped for. At least if assimilation occurs I can't see why it would retain emotions, meaning a lack of suffering and fear, even in the case that it decides to press the power off button permanently.
  17. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    There is nothing new under the sun: https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Ecclesiastes+1

    History doesn't repeat itself, but it does rhyme; don't expect anything genuinely exciting, it's the fundamentals of human nature you need to understand to fully comprehend this. Someone like Lanny may bring up gay marriage, religion, and a host of other things that have changed, but this is shallow in my eyes. How much time did it take? And it only goes so far. It's churn; there can be, and clearly have been, vast increases in other forms of stupidity to counterbalance it (I'm not saying that some sort of "balance" is required or that the word necessarily has some objective meaning.) that can be incredibly destructive.

    The best things there will be are developments in VR, and to some extent antidepressants, if you need to be distracted and have life made bearable enough to maximize your chances of making it to the endpoint.
  18. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    Lanny, have you ever seriously considered/pondered or read the arguments that consciousness and the sense of self, at least in our conception of them, are illusory?

    I mentioned recently (I usually mean within the last month at this point) my thoughts on Buddhism, the problem of canonicity, and how, unfortunately without a writing system present at the time and well preserved records, human nature was bound to sully whatever the original was. Of course Buddha was simply a man, who does seem to have existed, without any special abilities. I view him as an ancient and important philosopher worth taking seriously.

    “When we read, another person thinks for us: we merely repeat his mental process. In learning to write, the pupil goes over with his pen what the teacher has outlined in pencil: so in reading; the greater part of the work of thought is already done for us. This is why it relieves us to take up a book after being occupied with our own thoughts. And in reading, the mind is, in fact, only the playground of another’s thoughts. So it comes about that if anyone spends almost the whole day in reading, and by way of relaxation devotes the intervals to some thoughtless pastime, he gradually loses the capacity for thinking; just as the man who always rides, at last forgets how to walk. This is the case with many learned persons: they have read themselves stupid.”

    Academic bulimia. A grotesque lack of genuine understanding, extremely poor retention over time, bias confirmation along with other cognitive biases, and a lack of verification, reading critiques, counter-arguments. Besides the point, merely observations and understandings that have evoked negative emotions in me beginning over half a lifetime ago.

    The reason I brought it up is because there's something special about thinking, simply contemplating for long periods of time, especially when you have a certain type of mind/brain and are "unpolluted" by the thoughts of others. This is what Buddha did, for a very long time. Can you imagine, years, decades, devoted simply to contemplation, having gone to the extremes of asceticism beforehand in search of an answer/truth? He came to some conclusions that were remarkable giving the environment he was in and the limitations. He did live around the time of some of the most famous ancient greek philosophers. Imagine how phenomenal it would have been if they had met and been able to communicate.

    Anyway, then there was the confirmation of my suspicions after looking up information on Schopenhauer and Buddhism, which he only limited access to. There are interesting papers, even a book, on Nietzche and his view of Buddhism, ironic affinities. The earliest texts supporting what may be called "secular Buddhism". Due to my perception of it, particularly how most people, even the vast majority of Buddhists, seem to view karma and reincarnation I wrote it off as just another religion not worth my concern.

    But reading about the concepts of "no-self" and, I'm not sure if it deals with consciousness separately, along with some thought experiments, can be a good method to understand what I'm getting at.

    I also read a critique between to people on cyonics where it was pointed out, and I had missed this, that they had ventured into other topics. This is something I had missed and made a mistake on, it's not cryonics, but concepts associated with it, such as mind uploading. This is another major cluster useful for pondering the subject.

    Reading about some Buddhist concepts related to this can be really unnerving and disconcerting, although this is in my current state, with much lower mental resilience post-mental-breakdown. But, going on a tangent, my thought on why, how, this could possibly greatly cease suffering in those who understand it in the "secular" and likely original form, is that there's nothing to really lose. The ultimate biologically ingrained fear conquered, even if your body still responds, anything else seems so minute. "You never existed to begin with, in terms of your sense of self and consciousness."

    It's what I think is most likely true, and leads eventually to my thoughts on the most important aspects of the singularity/the creation of (uncontain(able)ed) AIG. But I've relegated myself to a sort of humility due to understanding human/biological limitations (I hate this vessel), deferring the answer to AIG. I honestly view this period as simply passing the time, playing games (philosophy is a type of mental game), and ideally maximizing the chance of continuing to that point. If death is the answer, I'll accept that, I just want certainty, if possible. Scenarios and concerns about AIG, even by brilliant minds in the field, tend to be incredibly childish from my perspective. I suppose you could simply keep the illusion going as long as you wanted, as another possibility, with some modification to your vessel.
  19. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    Lanny, IIRC you were using once a week, although I don't know how your usage has varied.

    But it's recommended that trips be done with significant gaps in order to fully integrate them. As time goes on, the frequency of trips for personal development greatly reduces for most people.

    "Once you get the message, hang up the phone."

    If you're using them for recreation or not integrating them properly, you're heading into dangerous territory. How dangerous depends on the individual and some chance.
  20. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    There was a bit of blood in my poop. Also, unrelated (or possibly not), is drinking mold safe?

    Not necessarily, the metabolic waste they produce, mycotoxins what you need to be on alert for IIRC, can have serious harmful effects, even if the mold or bacteria is killed. An example of mold that's safe to eat is that present in some cheeses, and then there's also fermented food for bacteria.

    We need to conjure the spirit of Malice. Mal, if you're here give us a sign.

    I remember you posting about Ano Hana in this very thread and i decided i might as well give it a go. I seem to remember you thought highly of it. You mentioned it was sad and while it was, it sometimes felt a little forced to me. In general it was alright but at some points a little over the top. Memna-chan is definitely kawaii though.

    You need to be in the right mood. Losing someone in your life, particularly a friend, would be the best time. The more affinity you feel to the basic plot, the better.
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