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2018-06-16 at 3:14 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by Brain surgeon Malice who was the guy who jumped off the golden gate bridge that you posted about some years ago. There was a YouTube video off him falling backwards off the railing I think and he didn't flail at all as he was at peace falling into the endless void.
Oh dont patronize him.
Talking about the "endless void" is only going to give him chub. -
2018-06-16 at 2:28 AM UTC in i took 7 drugs todayYou wouldve won the trivia portion of this forum.
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2018-06-16 at 2:26 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
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2018-06-16 at 1:33 AM UTC in i took 7 drugs today
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2018-06-13 at 2:10 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by LegalizeSpiritualDiscovery And the AB dudes cut me a deal for $40/g and let me know multiple times that was their price, not normally what they sell it for to outsiders. The more recent shit was some wigger who asked our homeboy what I normally pay for a g. I said $40, and he said he'd do it for $35. It was all in like one or two huge shards. Usually it's smaller crystals, even good shit. And the feeling is definitely off. Doesn't make me nearly as awake or last as long. Not really euphoric, more antsy.
Wtf are you even doing, dicking with that again? Dont you still get tested and stuff? Your life was pretty shitty when you were strung out. I mean...you became a maymay. Take that into consideration. -
2018-06-13 at 2:08 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
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2018-06-12 at 7:36 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
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2018-06-12 at 2:59 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs AttentionIm officially old. Ugh.
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2018-06-12 at 1:51 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
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2018-06-06 at 12:23 PM UTC in ATTN: Residents of California
Originally posted by Vigilante Look I'm no fan of the radical-left, but I'm even more annoyed by the fucktards on the alt-right. Thanks Germany, for producing generations of neo Nazi wannabes who troll the internet trying to be retro and cool by proclaiming some form of race supremacy or another. It glorifies your ignorance if you can sum up the cause of all of your problems into the simple response of "jedis" or "Apes". Just imagine, a world with only white rednecks…. Yea, that's some utopia ya got there.
But the alt- right aren't the ones rallying to have Roseanne fired. The left's politics are pervasive in every book and cranny of life now. There's no such thing as disagreement. If you wrong-think- even if it happens to be backed up by statistical data, FBI crime stats, direct contradictory quotes, etc- they will campaign to ruin your fucking life. -
2018-06-05 at 6:07 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by Malice So much to ponder and read. The only reason I see to stay alive is to attain certainty if there's a reason to continue living. I feel confident that there isn't and that there's no difference between assimilation and annihilation by an artificial intelligence, that human morality will not stand up to scrutiny, we have no moral obligations, and that to die as soon as possible is best from an individual point of view.
“Hell is truth seen too late.” - Hobbes
“It is not worth the bother of killing yourself, since you always kill yourself too late.” - Cioran
Mystery. Another way to put it, as a reason to live. I am entirely disillusioned and unenamored with this world, the banality of it, the human condition and its nature, biological reality, and how things move at snail's pace. I want to meet extraterrestrials and ask them the one question that I believe would be worth asking, "Why do you continue to live?"
Maybe one day I'll regain some of my old self and continue my self-experimentation, since I have so little regard for my life, such a strong death drive.
At least be like the Norwegian (?) dude in The Sound of Insects (?) who starved himself to death in a tent in the forest. After a little over a month, he realized he wanted to live, but he was so deteriorated and mentally fucked that he couldn't even lift his body anymore,. He kept a journal of the whole process. Really fucking depressing, but interesting. Figured I'd return the favor. -
2018-06-05 at 6:04 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by Malice I'm about to have almost everything I need for the perfect suicide. The only thing left that hasn't been ordered and won't soon be arriving is a fentanyl patch.
I'm not saying it's decisive, it's just nice to have the option. I don't like guns for suicide and can't legally own them for like 4-1/2 years anyway. Combining a huge dose of flubromazolam with a very strong fentanyl patch could be just as good, but I'm not certain if the CNS depression is enough compared to barbiturates, whether there are any critical differences that could lead to some form of suffering. I should really research this and ask.
Stop harshing my mellow, faggot.
I feel like drugs are a wishy washy way to commit suicide. They can reverse opioids, resuscitate you mechanically if need be. Just a lot of variables. Gun- you're done. They're not going to be able to glue parts of brain matter back together. But most people don't like that mental image of themselves. -
2018-06-05 at 5:58 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
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2018-06-04 at 10:43 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
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2018-06-04 at 8:49 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by infinityshock if that were true the handsome and well tanned individuals would stay in their own shitholes and not invade white countries at the behest of the kikenjuden
No...they're pretty happy in their squalor. They're also just predisposed to want what everyone else has, in addition to theirs. Hence all that rape. -
2018-06-04 at 8:47 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by Malice You won't understand the argument.
It's also not entirely self-inflected since I was suffering greatly before all this happened due to various factors (Not the life I needed, autism and related problems such as chronic depression that's mild at least, low basal hedonic tone (how well you feel in a neutral state), and low hedonic response (how much pleasure/positive emotion you receive.).
There's going to be a gap between the end of the spring semester and the beginning of summer. I'll tell you what, I'll take you up on your offer to show me a day that demonstrates the things in life I've missed out on which may make it bearable/worth living. Not worth living because I'm happy, but because the lifestyle change makes life feel bearable enough.
I feel self conscious because I don't have any nice clothes, though, due to losing everything due to that series of events that gang member started.
Fair enough. I mean I'm not surprised you feel like shit. You wallow in your feels all day long without any stimulation or new experiences or even face-to-face contact with other human beings. I mean I've been in that exact position, and I know which things made it worse, and which made it better. And even if I don't feel the best I've ever felt at this particular moment, I'm grateful for the attributes I do have, the opportunities I have, and the possibilities that are open to me if I keep cultivating myself in a positive direction. If I ever get to a point where I feel like I'm objectively out of options, yeah- suicide isn't unreasonable. I don't think most people here feel it is. But someone healthy and in the prime of their life harping on this shit is all kinds of retarded.
Is this one of those autistic things where you get stuck in thought loops about very specific topics, like dinosaurs or some shit? -
2018-06-04 at 6:37 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
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2018-06-04 at 6:34 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by Malice It's not about happiness. There are rational reasons to commit suicide even if you are genuinely happy.
And I don't think the world has ever felt the way you describe it, CASPER. You know the suicide rate among people with high functioning forms of autism is one of the highest among any disorder, even among children? Being comorbid with depression and anxiety multiply that risk, which I've had lifelong problems with.
It probably is neurologically based, but I need to be clear when I say that even if I was a very happy reclusive monk in a third world country I would still see reasons to commit suicide regardless of whether you are happy. It is completely absurd to assume that suicide is not rationally justifiable. Here's a paper on it that no one will read: http://jiwoonhwang.org/pro-mortalism/
It's like attempting to solve and equation. If the solution is suicide, it should be accepted without fear.
A cursory read of that thing seems like earlier death to avoid pain is preferable. It seems to account for a normal human life with generalized milestones for pain and pleasure events. They don't take into account someone otherwise healthy and fit in mind and body, whose pain is almost entirely self imposed, and a result of unwillingness or fear of taking part. And if you were to actually to apply yourself to something, you might find a joy in service and usefulness. Not to mention the amount of attention, money, effort that went into growing you to your current state.
Ugh. This is so fucking tedious. Lol. At this point it seems like a rhetorical argument more than anything. -
2018-06-04 at 5:56 PM UTC in I have been asked for a quoteOh fuck that. I'd quote them $5 or something and then just pick up a couple of Mexicans to do it for $2.
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2018-06-04 at 5:51 AM UTC in EllariaSand Shouldn't Have Been Banned
