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2019-06-25 at 11:29 PM UTC in I don't feel "fulfilled"29 years old and the past 8 have been a drugged up, STD ridden, hate and regret filled mess.
I often look at people, listen to what they have achieved and imagined what I was doing at that point, or even where I would be if I was younger. I need to be living "in the here and now", otherwise I'll be thinking this same dumb shit in 8 years time looking down a barrel and be more regretful
I don't want merit or fame. I just want a semblance of normality, of contentment. Instead I'm left feeling disillusioned, fed up. I need a new outlet. All my friends and aasociates are all settling down having kids, I feel like I'm still out there, lost per se.
God if there are aliens, just please fucking abduct and take me away from this shit hole.
That would be sweet.
I'll find myself, eventually.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-06-25 at 4:48 PM UTC in the OFFICIAL wordfiltеr suggestion threadIQ -> Autism LevelThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-06-25 at 3:59 PM UTC in Do you ever feel horny a lot or that you just wanna fuk?
Originally posted by Wariat Why do you keep calling me a pedo? At the very least if you say ex pedo it could make sense. Or former pedo. I really do no go out and talking to preteens or hardly ever even past the aoc teens anymore. Like I said if it’s legal I would go for it if I ever get a chance barely legal like 16 or something.
Bc once a pedo always a pedoThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-06-25 at 3:51 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro EditionThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-06-25 at 3:39 AM UTC in ITT we talk about RisirThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-06-25 at 3:11 AM UTC in YOU LIKE FIGHTING, HUH?Fought a bear last week and that's exactly what I said to a bystander who witnessed the whole thing. Just got a few scratches and a scrape on my elbow, where I bashed him in the ribcage. The bear, not the bystander.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-06-24 at 9:30 PM UTC in Are you willing to meet users from here?
Originally posted by Sudo dude wth was satans handicapped helper like? He was one of my fav totse HBers, fuck he made some funny fucking threads. I imagine him to be fat and angry and kind of depressed
He's pretty cool. He stayed at my house, and we went camping a like twice, we had magic mushrooms and booze and a bonfire both times. The Irish weather didn't help either time, once was on the coast and the tent nearly blew away, the second time was in a damp forest and, even though we were able to get a big fire going, once it went out I nearly frozed to death. He gave me magic mushrooms though, so he's cool.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-06-24 at 9:17 PM UTC in A paradox I came up with that isn't a paradox at all probablyOpportunity cost - lost profits, is one of the main ways jedi economists use to justify mass immigration, as well as to justify increasing indebtedness of western nations.
"oy vey you're letting all this money go missing...how will you repay your national debt now?"
You can tell the argument is disingenuous, as they propose the exact opposite policies for Israel.
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2019-06-24 at 4:33 PM UTC in Registering as a sex offender
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2019-06-24 at 4:38 AM UTC in They are already releasing PlayStation 5 next yearoh no my 3-400 dollar console is going to be obsolete in 5+ years because time marches on and technology advances!??
imagine being so jedi that 400 bucks for 5 years of entertainment is an "obvious cash grab" to you.
you're a broke bitch with a broke bitch mind so you'll always be a broke bitch.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-06-23 at 10:03 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition
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2019-06-23 at 7:14 PM UTC in I don't know what's happening to meOn a serious note.
I have come to be apart of the silly sardonic and weird humor this and other BBS have in common.
Yet again, I feel a sense of returning to a sense of being more serious about whatever life I have left on this mudball and what I can successfully or creativity offer this world before I perish
all the promises of and or creative shit I had potential of, which I started up and never finished is still a curse for me. I did finish some short stories but they were taken from me by being deleted out.
I need to find a more positive output. this is just becoming way too mundane doing the same stuff day after day.
Everyone has to chose to change themselves for the better. it sounds like some of you have.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-06-23 at 4:27 PM UTC in Did you ever talk to social workers as a kid?At least you turned out normal.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-06-23 at 4:04 PM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)
Originally posted by Sudo Least rn. You have to build strength by being clean so you can have a foundation to deal with lifes stressors. Finding things to do helps you move in another direction away from dope and forge a new path.
Casper is there any advantage to methadone over box? I really can't think of any
Yes, there is one advantage. It seems to be reducing CASPER's anxiety about the whole thing going to be getting super intense and difficult later on, but in my experience going slow is the worst way to do it, and I've done it both ways. I started out going slow because it made me less anxious about it, but doing it again I would have done it rapid the whole way. Methadone is the worst way besides CT to do it IMO.
To clarify, with heroin I haven't done slow taper; I did rapid taper with suboxone which is far superior IMO. Opioid w/d isn't easy, but it is easy compared to benzo w/d. I did slow taper off xanax and the cutting of my dose in half was bad, but yet bad, cutting in half again was the same but worse, and then slow tapering once I got to 2mg/day way a living nightmare that I eventually had to drastically speed up, which was the best thing I could have done by a kilometer. Slow withdrawal off of that last 25% is unnecessary torture, and slow tapering off of the first 50% is an unnecessary waste of time and a confidence killer constantly being reminded of how freaking long this takes, and using methadone in particular is straight up not a good idea because of how ungodly long acting it is, esp. given how suboxone is plenty long acting itself.
A rapid taper to half of Casper's pretty hefty yet dose (I know you were on more) would not be much more painful than doing his slow, drawn out taper that takes drastically more time. Once you get to that point, begin backing off again. That's how I would'a started my xanax taper if I were to do it again. Then I would advise to slow up and catch your breath for a few weeks with a slow taper again to get off another 25% (I was on 8mg xanax a day for 4 years, so my body was VERY well dependent, mind you) and then go hamdog again. That last 25% is brutal, which is why you do NOT want to take it slow. That's the worst thing you can possibly do.
I finally went from a baby-me year+ long taper to a full out get off in a couple weeks taper, and it was hell, but it was finally done and instead of me being in a 4-6 month torture chamber in which I would have been beaten so bad and lost all confidence, I instead withdrew the rest of the way off at home (and work at first) hallucinating, never sleeping, tremoring, writhing in pain, brain popping, having manic episodes, thinking God made me a prophet and was telling me to go do reckless things which I starting doing then decided not to and thought I was going to hell being punished by (what I now know are migraines and neuropathy) curses, etc.
But it was the best decision possible because I could not continue my slow taper for an extended period of time, or even stay at my current dose for a while. I would have completely lost it and probably wouldn't have gotten it &/or came back. I would have had to either raise my dose or go to a psych ward, and neither of those were valid options for me.
I think what you're doing is technically OK, but I think you're spending way more of your life on opioids than you need to, and I think the time you're spending on them probably isn't as valuable as the time you'll spend off of them...know what I mean? Suboxone for 6 days was enough to get me clean off H, and maybe for a month or two would be better for you, idk, but I think this methadone business is very costly to your time with very limited benefit to your recovery/comfort besides curbing anxiety which you will almost certainly find as I did, is laughable once you realize how painless cutting 50% is, and how fucking freeing it is to cut your withdrawal time in half *snap* just like that.
Keep at it bro. Lean on the guys who have done it.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-06-23 at 2:35 PM UTC in Look for legit impregnation porn.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-06-23 at 2:10 PM UTC in tweaker irritating me
Originally posted by Ghost He sounds like he's just trying to make his bread, why you gotta be such a dick?
I hate normie drug people too but I treat them with respect because that's how my mama raised me
you would say some shit like that, you're the type to spend 2 hours and making 5 phone calls trying to middleman a deal on a 30 sack so you could make 7 bucks off of itThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-06-23 at 1:13 PM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)No triggers this weekend which was good. Didn't drink any spirits and was around friends that don't do coke. Was a chilled Friday, had a little fire in the back garden. I did drink "John Smiths", 3.6% bitter. Smoked some weed but that was it. My friend is going to sell me one of his weed vapes. I'll get a nornal vape friday so then I'll have no need for tobacco ever.
I've realised the line between relapse and sobriety is very fragile, being around good people and away from the chances of even getting hold of any coke is the only way. -
2019-06-23 at 10:39 AM UTC in Lol who keeps trying to ban people?lil sporty is back on the high horris again
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2019-06-23 at 4:22 AM UTC in What actor does Christopher Reeve wish he was?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-06-23 at 3:53 AM UTC in What actor does Christopher Reeve wish he was?not Christopher Walken?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
