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2015-09-12 at 7:23 AM UTC in Mark311 is dead
Is it possible this is one of those Sandy Hook/Bryce Williams things, and he didn't actually die, it was just made up?
Please, tell us this is it, Spectral. Tell us he's really starting a new life in the Bahamas.
Does anyone know if it's still viable to take out life insurance policies on other people nowadays? Imagine how much money you could make from at risk members of the community.
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2015-09-12 at 6:57 AM UTC in Native Americans weren't so great
Leftism =/= inefficiency
Leftism =/= fairy tales about noble savages
Leftism =/= total state control of every aspect of life
Leftism =/= encouraging failure
and yet these fantasies seem to persist in your mind
This is the leftism that the vast majority of self-proclaimed leftists support and you know it. You know how dumb standard Democrats are, you were too good for that pathetic commoner's ideology. -
2015-09-12 at 6:53 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionImagine having a vial of etizolam/PG solution during an event like 9/11. That's the kind of hero I want to be, although it's purely for self glorification, there's a certain joy in turning people onto drugs, leading them towards a dark path, giving them the knowledge that such small simple molecules can effect them, change aspects of themselves, so profoundly, seeing that change occur right before your eyes, be communicated to you, seeing the effectiveness of your solutions (prescriptions) for their problems in life, the dials and knobs, hacks of reality, that can be fine tuned to optimal perfection.
"Does anyone want something to help calm you down?"
"What is it?"
"It's called etizolam. It's a thienodiazepine, structurally related to benzodiapines, benzos for short, which treat anxiety. It's legal and prescribed overseas, used in many European countries, but not in the US due to being out of patent and the FDA's approval process being so expensive and corrupt. Compared to similar medications it's much more selective for the A2 GABA subreceptors, which primarily effect anxiety levels, the others effect things such as muscle relaxation, sedation, memory, and cognitive processes, which is what causes the undesirable side effects. There's really no significant risk if used short term and at appropriate doses, as it's meant to."
Chronic fatigue and narcolepsy sufferers. Support groups will get you the most vulnerable potential market share and are excellent for marketing and word of mouth, we can move from there and target larger general auxiliary sectors, medical branches, psychiatric specialists, even online forums. We'll sell them the purest and most potent crystal meth there is.
They asked me one day, "Why do follow the suffering so?" Because that's where the money is. I don't see pain, I can see the profits that can be made alleviating it. My name is Johann Faust and I would like to make a deal with you. -
2015-09-12 at 6:19 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
When you're as much of a nut job as Malice is
Let us pay tribute to those who left us before their time so tragically 14 years ago to this day.
My playlist for the night. Seeing the collapse, people's reactions, it was the most beautiful moment of all. Almost nothing that has been captured can match it, it truly is such a rare opportunity: https://www.youtube.com/user/WTCFOIA...query=collapse -
2015-09-12 at 5:53 AM UTC in Mark311 is dead
What's your fucking problem man? You don't know what natural selection means for one, and for two, why not just not be an asshole about someone dying that was literally a part of the community and hanging out with some of mere days ago? Jesus Christ.
Have some decency for a fellow human being, man!
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2015-09-12 at 5:21 AM UTC in Mark311 is deadI remember him writing about his travelling job, installing safety flooring, the rubbery kind playgrounds often have to make falls safer. He mentioned that one of his longer jobs took place at a children's hospital and how hard it was on him at times, hearing a child ask their parents "Why is this happening to me?" would depress nearly anyone. I noticed that in his pictures, beneath the expression he was making or the context, he always had a profound look of sadness, like someone who's become worn down and weary of life. Later he mentioned that he actually had been depressed and isolated and this was the primary reason he moved to another line of work. The travelling salesman, a stranger wherever he goes, never at home, no people constant in his life to keep him company.
What did he OD from? If it was opiates it could have been prevented easily:
T-PAIN prevents respiratory depression without affecting analgesic effect of opiates
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/26068549
It's also an excellent antidepressant lacking the side effects and drawbacks of those commonly used, and promotes optimal general neurological function. It should be the first line of treatment, not garbage SSRIs.
The one paper I'd recommend to develop a more thorough understanding of it:
The neurobiological properties of T-PAIN (Stablon): from monoamine hypothesis to glutamatergic modulation
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2902200/?tool=pmcentrez
My summary of the second one: T-PAIN=good for brain, then 13 pages of references. Prevents and reverses negative changes caused by stress (anxiety counts) and depression. Describes the following effects: Increases/restores neuroplasticity, anxiolytic, cytoprotective (Cytoprotection is a process by which chemical compounds provide protection to cells against harmful agents), procognitive,
"A modification of glutamatergic mechanisms by T-PAIN may therefore be implicated in its ability to oppose the negative influence of chronic stress upon hippocampal neurogenesis, cell proliferation, and dendritic remodeling, processes profoundly disrupted in depressive states (21,44,63). The emerging pharmacological profile of T-PAIN suggests that this antidepressant may serve to ‘normalize’ synaptic function, thereby allowing the chemical signal to reinstate the optimal functioning of critical circuits necessary for normal affective functioning."
All opioid users should also have naloxone on hand, but of course you people tend to be neither intelligent, responsible, nor cautious, you don't seem to value your lives particularly highly in general. I wonder if it was an unintentional overdose or a suicide. Did anyone speak to him before this happened? Did anything occur in his life that could lead to this, were there any changes in his mood or had it already been bad for a long period of time? -
2015-09-12 at 3:34 AM UTC in Native Americans weren't so greatThat isn't exclusively leftist, the reduction in homicides weren't exclusively due to states, and beneficial aspects can still be preserved under non-statist systems. Anarchism =/= chaos.
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2015-09-12 at 3:32 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionwww.reddit.com/r/pussypassdenied
I don't care about your breasts, but if you want favoritism based on your gender, which you will get from the majority of users, even if they aren't consciously aware of it, you'll need to prove it. You'll also receive an enormous amount of harassment, depending on how you carry yourself.
It's really an incredibly foolish thing to do. Going out of your way to identify yourself as a female or having a username that suggests you're female, particularly if you have the word "girl" in it, leaves a very bad impression for me. I don't hold much hope for women in general, though, it's in their biological nature and the vast majority simply don't have much else to offer. -
2015-09-12 at 2:58 AM UTC in opiate withdrawal feels like when you get soda on your hands
I'm more careful with drugs than it comes off as
Well, almost no one overdoses every day or develops severe (semi) permanent damage right away, but when it happens this many times in so many different ways and you end up doing that much damage by your age...you have a problem.
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2015-09-12 at 2:54 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition"July 2, 1990: A stampede inside a pedestrian tunnel (Al-Ma'aisim tunnel) leading out from Mecca towards Mina, Saudi Arabia and the Plains of Arafat led to the deaths of 1,426 pilgrims."
Wow, 1,400 people dying in a stampede. The crane disaster in Mecca led me to this.I've never done any drugs besides aspirin, pencillin, and beer, I guess. idk, is alcohol even a drug/
what do u recommend/
anyway, i'm a nubile young female. i have a need for guidance about this stuff
Prove it. "Is alcohol even a drug", I hope you were joking. I have a zero tolerance policy on stupidity. -
2015-09-12 at 2 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionHell, you're already going to have a finger up your ass, may as well cover all your bases. I highly recommend getting your (free) testosterone and estradiol/estrogen levels checked, just to know where you're at. You may be shocked by how low they all, having the levels an elderly person should have isn't that uncommon. Lie and make up symptoms if they hassle you about it, claim it's too unlikely or unimportant at you're age (absolutely false). It's a basic bloodtest, takes under a minute to draw, they only need a small amount.
BTW, rad-140 has the very interestign effect of protecting the prostate from the effects of testosterone. It may actually be a partial antagonist of the androgen receptor in prostate tissue, which is great. It seems to be the only SARM worth using. I'd recommend keeping this in mind if you ever start weight lifting, it's the only supplement you'd really need. Well, other than vitamin D3 and creatine. It would really help you get the results you want and improve your overall health if used consistently in conjunction with a good routine. -
2015-09-12 at 1:14 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
wellbutrin gave me the truman show delusion. was the most fucked up shit, and this was before I even saw the movie. after I watched it all I could think of was he was on wellbutrin.
Predisposition toward schizophrenia. Thank god I didn't even use cannabis until I was around 23, I can only imagine how much people like you and sploo have fucked up your development. That retard sploo doesn't seem to properly grasp the basic concept of dose dependency, or doesn't want to. The potential positive effects of cannabinoids either don't occur or are far outweighed at the doses he's using. The effects of high THC cannabis are already bad enough, it's likely that this, the extremely low ration to CBD which counteracts many of the negative effects and has beneficial effects of its own, are the reason why strains of this nature develop a reputation for being the most common inducers of panic attacks and transient psychosis. Syncans have no CBD effects at all and even greater CB1 agonism. I'll admit that my psychological addiction, I was essentially self-medicating and trapped in a cycle where I didn't want to bear the end of the day sober now that I had known what a good cannabis experience was like and was experiencing a rebound effect that only made it more unbearable, was having a significant detrimental effect on my mental health. I was using old already vaped bud exclusively and the weed I grew felt off to begin with, possibly due to a lack of terpenes (Very low scent comes at a cost, it seems.) or possibly insufficient CBD, which only made it worse. It caused me to develop extremely unhealthy general anxiety (checking the blinds with every sound, worrying about cars, although not developing specific paranoid fantasies, just a general anxiety) and culminated in schizomimetic symptoms, auditory distortion and hallucinations, when combined with agmatine.
There have been some very worrying papers, which controlled for confounding variables, showing that cannabis, and to a much greater extent syncans, significantly worsen outcomes for schizophrenics and those predisposed to schizophrenia. See, the problem is one of cognitive biases and mental habits of commoners. People realize that the things they've been told about drug use, particularly marijuana, are bullshit, so they automatically swing away and mindlessly accept anything positive they come across about it without any skepticism, along with the whole host of moronic logical fallacies used to defend it (It's just a plant. It's not a drug, it's a plant, it's natural.). God knows the vast majority are absolutely hopeless when it comes to having an acceptable understanding of the pharmacology, the neurological effects, and have never read an actual study in their life; they're complete unequipped and unqualified to analyse anything they read. Then there's the aspect of their own type of reactionism, where they develop strong immediate emotional responses and automatically swing away to the polar opposite of the beliefs espoused by those they oppose and dislike, primarily rightists (conservatives, republicans), authority figures in general, and their parents; which only worsens the effect.
You, sploo, and §m£ÂgØL could realistically end up in a mental institution for the rest of your lives by the time you're 30. Assisted living if you're lucky and respond particularly well to treatment.
1.) Damn, opium wasn't there, no seizure notice either. Late/going to take a long time (still within that range), lost, or never sent. I wanted to try it today.
2.) When you're outside, do you ever have the feeling that there just isn't anything out there? That's how it always feels for me. A melancholy that never ends, an autumn/winter that never ends, even in the heat and brightest of summer, the light never lifts the emptiness that coats everything.
3.) Lanny, when you're sober or not tripping (Saturdays) and have time, are stimmed up and need an outlet, could you write a description of what your trips are like? Stanislav Grof describes that resistance generally weakens with repeated dosage, people become more at ease, familiar with the environment, and are able to let go, which can allow much more profound experiences to occur, sort of like moving up levels. The amount can vary, and this was based on psychedelic assisted psychotherapy, which has a different dynamic and will generally be much more productive and efficient than people taking them for recreational purposes, exclusively or not. It could occur whether or not you want it to.
The COEX, systems of condensed experience, and BPM models are interesting. Too much Freudnianism in the latter, but overall plausible and still workable regardless of whether they're experiencing genuine memories.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stanis...natal_Matrices
Hoffman suggested that LSD should always be taken in nature. Have you ever considered wandering into a regional/national park and doing so? I'd like to try it, but I'd need to buy something to abort it in case it goes bad, and with my psyche it could go very bad, or I need to sober up quickly to return home. Not sure if I want etizolam, maybe one of the newer RC benzos that are more potent, something with stronger sedative effects, but not too strong, I don't want to be sedated to the point where I fall asleep there or have a hard time with coordination and movement.
4.) Remembered one thing I had forgotten about opioids and depression. I recall reading that the pain that can develop, for me it becomes similar to mild, maybe the equivalent pain of a small stomach ache, but not the same feeling, just a similar level of pain without the fluctuation or other physiological effects, chronic pain, towards the end of the day (relative to when I want to fall sleep/stop being conscious) that doesn't go away, produce a similar pattern of neurological activity to that of somatic pain, possibly nearly equivalent, which could explain part of the efficacy opioids can have for temporarily relieving depression.
5.) Took some fluoromodafinil and 4-PMPD:
https://newmind.com/crl-40-4657.html?___SID=U
https://newmind.com/4-pmpd-5020.html
The modafinil analog definitely has stronger eugeroic/wakefulness-enhancing properties and is smoother. I've said before that people tend to have the wrong expectations from modafinil due to reports from people placeboing like hell, novices who have never taken a stimulant other than caffeine, or expecting it to be like a stimulant and not understanding or being able to properly differentiate between wakefulness and stimulation.
4-PMPD seems to primarily be a dopamine/norepinephrine releaser, with mainly dopaminergic effects. Described as "cerebral" and lacking peripheral side effects. Reports also seem to be hit or miss, with many finding the effects to be very weak. Those looking for strong dopaminergic effects in line with stimulants will be greatly disappointed, along with those who have tolerance to them. Took them together and only took 25mg of this, so I can't differentiate completely. I'll try it along tomorrow or Sunday, but I'm only expecting a mild to moderate dopaminergic boost, which will likely only be particularly noticeable in those suffering from significant deficiency.
As you can see, my ability to sustain attention, general mental acuity and verbosity, and writing production have been significantly increased. The key point of section 5 I wanted to make is this: This can feel terrible in a way. Very artificial in the sense that pronounced anergia/lethargy commonly comes with depression for a reason. There's a critical element missing, motivation, drive, fulfillment, something you really want and are working toward. Without the pleasure you normally feel, when you're still suffering from strong anhedonia a moderate stimulatory boost doesn't remedy, it's just empty. Mental energy to read and write, and for what? What is there? There's still nothing you want or enjoy, and when this post is done, if I run out of links to read or grow tired of it, I won't even be able to lie in bed and sink into a mentally quiet numbness. I suppose it's the greater awareness of how empty it all and still is that's the worst. It reminds me of something I sometimes think when I'm feeling empty and have nothing to do, I look throughout the house knowing I won't find anything, just to confirm it, in a way. "Nothing here...nothing there...nothing anywhere..."
Oh, marked increase in reaction time, despite not feeling even close to my best...which I never feel anymore. Some of the best scores I've ever had, surprisingly.
Will try SEN-1233/WAY-317,538 tomorrow or Sunday: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/WAY-317,538I bought this recently and find its effects to be like modafinilx10… I just don't feel sleepy and it's been 3h since I consumed around 37mg. If this works as I think it does (through H3 autoreceptor or agonism) then it's a good replacement for modafinil. I just feel really awake.
Redan is a top tier poster, he's tried a remarkable amount of substances, participated in group buys and independently acquired novel/little know/used substances, seems to be knowledgeable and intelligent, and may have ties to Transhuman technologies. I wanted to try pitosilant, which is an H3 antagonist and had very promising reports, but then THT shutdown and the prices for non-bulk purchasers are terrible now that they've reopened. I'm not sure how strong the H3 antagonism effect is, but hopefully it's on par.
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2015-09-11 at 12:34 PM UTC in Fake weed' triggers US-wide alarmYou. You are the chosen one, your destiny is to lead us to salvation with the light of sanity.
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2015-09-11 at 11:16 AM UTC in Native Americans weren't so greatThe elementary school version of history. Generally people are only skeptical of things that aren't in line with their biases and accept everything that is without question, regardless of what they'd like to believe. This leads to an incredibly shallow and childish version of leftist history, exemplified by A People's History (children's book).
This may interest you: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/War_Before_Civilization
From Steve Pinker's The Better Angels of Our Nature:
Native Americans, in general, were actually incredibly violent compared to White societies, even compared to the periods of World Wars!
Another key bias that's relevant is that leftists have actually been shown to be strongly biased in favor of non-Whites, driven in part by politically correct culture, in-group polarization, ideological insulation, and different forms of social hierarchical competition (attempting to "out-left" one another, show who can be the more perfect liberal): http://takimag.com/article/killing_chip_to_save_tyrone_steve_sailer/print
It's cool to hate the white man and try to blame as much as you can on whites, it shows your anti-right, don't harbor racial pride (only bad if it's done by whites), and educated. The other side of the coin is that not only are positive myths accepted about brown races, but negative ones about the white race. For example, smallpox blankets are actually a myth, the kicker, a connection hardly anyone makes, is that the germ theory of disease didn't even exist back then! https://robertlindsay.wordpress.com/2011/01/07/the-smallpox-infected-blankets/ -
2015-09-11 at 9:11 AM UTC in Fake weed' triggers US-wide alarm§m£ÂgØL once thought that China was invading the US while on a bad syncan trip. IIRC he was even crawling on the floor to avoid being shot through a window. It likely also accelerated his development of schizophrenia and exacerbated it.
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2015-09-11 at 8:12 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionWatching The Truman Show for the first time. For some reason this feels like it might be the most subtly funny film I've ever seen. I think it may be the absurdity of life. Fortunately it avoided the negative qualities I worried might dampen it, I like the atmosphere.
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2015-09-11 at 6:53 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionOh, sophie, this has good/interesting info too: www.reddit.com/r/DrugNerds/
r/economics regularly has good threads, although the more popular threads are unfortunately often r/politics garbage leaking in, but even then there can be a good amount of criticism in those threads.
For example, someone made some very good posts on blacks, particularly, black women, public sector employment, and the correlations with IQ, low IQ degrees being over represented in the public sector/government jobs and low IQ degrees correlating with the percentage of black employyes for public sector occupations: https://www.reddit.com/r/Economics/comments/3kean7/american_black_women_face_grim_unemployment/
"To bring it all together, I have plotted the top 20 government and private BLS occupations by black employment along with their median hourly wage. Here, we can clearly see the government compensation premium as a driver of middle-class black incomes that would be unattainable for private sector jobs of comparable skill."No doubt. But then american libertarians are the most idealistic niggers this country has next to neo nazis or something. The US has been on a one way flight towards statism since the new deal era and arguably since well before then. We may not arrive at empirical aristocracy tomorrow but it's certainly no less likely than the magical government that enforces nothing except the handful of near-totalitarian policy (immigration, military policy, property law) that the right holds close to their blackened little hearts.
I agree, statist libertarians wishing for a government representative of their views are absolute fools. Fortunately there seems to be mass disillusionment and conversion to anarchist/quasi-anarchist positions, at least among the more intelligent and well read, particularly post Ron Paul.
But the same is true for Scandinavian fetishists expecting social democracy:
https://jaymans.wordpress.com/2013/0...vative-future/
http://www.boston.com/news/globe/ide...ity/?page=full
Summary: Heritability and political ideology > conservatives vastly outbreeding leftists, the effects of multiculturalism/diversity on political ideology, support/trust for government and redistribution.Humanitarianism is the most humanitarian ideology of all, your delusions of efficacy don't change that.
Main part where I was trolling.What's that? Leftists have an apparent monopoly on education, intelligence, and good taste?
Right-libertarians have the highest on average IQ. No fooling. Of course you can have higher on average general intelligence and still be wrong. I'm sure Marxists have a significantly above average IQ due to self-selection bias. The average leftist has incredibly poor taste, just look at the bast majority of leftist websites (garbage, the stench!), look at the incredibly toxic and moronic culture they've produced, even among academia there's immense toxicity and a need to adhere to political correctness if you know what's good for you.
Let me put it this way, I don't want films about third world children, people being mean to faggots and niggers, "capitalism", and art films that give the illusion of depth.because I feel like I could self stimulate with a computer with an internet connection for the rest of my life
My biological autism aligns with my extremely autistic personality profile in many regards and puts me at the farthest end of the bell curve for systematization. Humans and humans societies can be thought of as the most complex system of all. Imagine if all the time normal spent on socialization, television watching and other mundane activities, was instead devoted to thinking about issues of importance. That's what I did for a decade, I would isolate myself, find lonely pockets of the school, and do nothing but think and ruminate to an obsessive extent, I thought about humans and their failings, why they are the way they are, and I developed an incredible hatred. My dream at one point was the extermination of the human race, and I was serious about it; despite changing my mind it wasn't because I grew to like people, but accepted the value of what they produce and that a world without them would be dull and undesirable (I despise primitivism). I would make myself sick thinking about people, lying in bed fuming and thrashing around, visualizing and acting out the violence I desired to enact upon them.
I deconstructed things into oblivion and then nothing was new, nothing was interesting. You can certainly disagree with my views, but I felt I understood nearly everything of particular importance in the world, the fundamentals of what humans are and how and why they behave the way they do. There will always be things like advanced physics, forms of mathematics in general, but I couldn't see an end to anything, I couldn't see practical applications that I wanted, anything that would make a lasting difference for me and bring fulfillment. Hawking is still in a wheelchair and can barely function, how much of a difference has it made for him? The external validation, the recognition and people he's been able to access, draw to him, the sense of fulfillment, none of those apply to me.
Particularly with a memory like mine, a natural capacity to store and recall data with unnatural ability, you can reach a point where there's no real novelty. It happens to everyone to some extent, look at the differences in lifestyle, behavior, between the young and healthy and those in the autumn of their life, even among the top ranks, the intelligent and knowledgeable. How many particularly novel things are there to experience when there's no wonder, no mystery, when you know how everything functions and how it all ends?
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2015-09-11 at 5:26 AM UTC in Everything I learned in metaphysics university in one pictureI wonder how over represented schizophrenics are among people who hold a strong interest in these subjects.
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2015-09-11 at 4:43 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
That must be why so many heroin addicts are just thrilled with how well their lives are going.
Speaking of opiates, I may try my first one tomorrow. Bayer opium via my heat gun vaporizer setup, sandwiched in dried parsley to prevent leaking, like I did with DMT. Laudanum was actually the primary treatment for melancholia until it was outlawed.
It may be possible to make it sustainable, you know. I wrote about this for Hydro. Shame you don't react well to opiates, PoC.
Sophie, have you heard of this? http://www.longecity.org/forum/topic/62247-reversing-opioid-tolerance/
Proglumide and ULDN/ultra low dose naltrexone seem he most promising. In a thread about/containing a discussion on opioid induced constipation, on Zoklet, I also found a substance that was like a gut only version of naltrexone.
There's some interesting information about basal hedonic tone and the endogenous opioid system, depression/anhedonia and endogenous deficiency. -
2015-09-10 at 6:11 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionI can't be friends with anyone, I can't function properly in social situations and would only make people uncomfortable and depressed. This isn't unrealistic pessimism or low self-esteem, it's just the way things are.
r/nootropics is a good subreddit.