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2015-09-17 at 7:11 AM UTC in Let's discuss this Bill Krozby.Brings to mind this: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quantum_mysticism
And this does an amusing job of describing the mentality: http://stuffwhitepeoplelike.com/2010/09/08/134-the-ted-conference/
The vast majority of people don't have anywhere near the cognitive style I've noticed ancaps in particular tend to have. Even Chomsky noted the commitment to rationality. It brings to mind large lists of "facts" I saw online and how I later realized, through rigorous attempts at verification and searching for rebuttals, how little information people validate. But since nearly everyone else does the same, as a strategy for giving the illusion of intelligence and understanding, it works. Then there's the issue of bias confirmation, other forms of bias, and emotionalism, most having massive problems with them. The vast majority of people simply don't have the predisposition, they aren't capable of or willing to develop the strict mental architecture for attempting to rationally understand the world, do the kind of reading and thinking that's required, as people generally avoid things they find difficult and aren't very good at, that make them realize the limits of their cognitive ability and feel inadequate. They seem terrified of saying "I don't know/I don't feel I have enough of an understanding to have a position or make a judgement." and unfortunately empty confidence and superficial posturing absolutely work for the vast majority.
I realized long ago the enormous complexity of these subjects and that I wouldn't come close to being qualified to comment on anything before what would likely take years of dedicated studying. -
2015-09-17 at 6:59 AM UTC in why do some people not eat meat?No, I'm claiming the mentally ill seem to be drawn to vegetarianism. Why is that? If rightism was associated with mental illness you would have no problem using it to mock the ideology, seeing it as a sign of its inferiority. Admit it.
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2015-09-16 at 10:45 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionIt's been so long. This has really been occurring for a bit over a decade. I feel like it at this point it would take going back in time and radically altering my path in life, or erasing every trace of my existence from the multiverse. I genuinely believe I should not never have come into existence, it's a philosophical position. Bringing life into this world is one of the worst and most selfish things you can do, if they're happy it's a life that never needed to exist attempting to maintain that happiness and coming up against what has been the inevitability of death for the history of he Earth until now. If they're suffering, it's a lifetime of torment that never needed to occur, and there still remains the fear of death, of non-existence, which you're able to be aware of only because of your sentience. If you had never come into existence there would be no you to feel fear or remorse for your lack of existence, but once it occurs you're faced with the questions of what life is, what you are, what the nature of consciousness is and whether there can be said to be any concrete concept of "you" to begin with (I don't think there is.), and what it truly means to cease to exist, never to come into existence again or experience anything, ever. One moment you're here, the next you're gone, you can die without any awareness of dying, and if the consciousness and the sense of self are illusory, is there really anything to lose, and therefore to be afraid of? But there are always the issues of the limitations of knowledge, the biological limits of your mind and the information you can acquire, whether truth can ever truly be confirmed, whether you should attempt to stick around or be preserved in case of a singularity, so you'll have the highest capacity to try to find an answer to that question. But it reminds me of an analogy for what the suicidal are feeling before they jump, the futility of telling them they have so much to live for. It's like being in a high rise building that's on fire and the only way out you can see is through the window. You don't want to jump, you're jumping because you're more afraid of the fire, because the anguish of flames and suffocation seem worse. It's the fear of continuing to feel like this, this tremendous pain and suffering inside you, thoughts that torment you relentlessly day after day, for the rest of your life, and that it seems to only become worse.
That is the one question I would ask extraterrestrials far beyond our level of intelligence or an artificial intelligence the product of a post-singularity world: Why do you continue to exist?
But that doesn't specifically answer your question. Can you really adequately sum up a human life, the thoughts and experiences that are important to you, the prerequisite knowledge and understanding to really comprehend your point of view? You can never really know another person. It feels like it would take so long, longer than could be reasonably expected of others to read, it's so much harder when you're drained of the very energy to live, and ultimately there's the reality of how futile it will really be. If you've never been able to arrive at the answers yourself, if anything you've experienced, read or seen, has never felt like it's had a lasting significant impact on your worldview, what hope is there?
There is something deeply, profoundly wrong with me, something that should never exist.
This world/place/body/mind/existence/reality is a prison and a hell and I am screaming/dying/crying to get out, it has to/it needs to/please let it end. -
2015-09-16 at 5:41 PM UTC in why do some people not eat meat?Terrible argument. You assume they would do worse so it's okay for us to do it? You could justify nearly anything with that logic.
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2015-09-16 at 5:39 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionhttps://www.reddit.com/r/RCSources/c...izolam_60_usa/
https://www.reddit.com/r/DarkNetMark...m_1g_etizolam/
Around $60 for a gram of etizolam. Been putting it off because now I put off everything, even minor things, for months with little reason. It may be due knowing there's no hope at the end of any tunnel, the ultimate futility if all routes, all paths and actions. More and more dysfunctional each month and having ceased to care long ago.
Also because I haven't felt in a good state to trip in over a year, maybe two. At least with this I could quickly abort it, and one day might come across an experience that could change things and help develop myself. I should be like Lanny and have a day each week devoted to this, ideally. -
2015-09-16 at 5:34 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionYou say that as if it's the only thing keeping me alive. It's likely neither.
Every time I go outside after a long period of seclusion I'm only reminded of how ugly and unfulfilling the world is, how empty it fields. You could search a lifetime for deeper meaning, among buildings and people, but you're never going to find it because it just isn't there. Endless repetition, revolving patterns.
Recently spent over 36 hours in bed, not entirely sure why. It had been after I had gone outside after nearly a month of not having stepped foot outside. I didn't feel worse after it, the sunlight, physical activity, and relative novelty, break from the monotony of the indoors day after day that contains nothing new, nothing that catches the eye and is worth looking at; it all provides a natural mood boost, although I only ever go from being clinical to moderately or mildly melancholy at best, and still very much anhedonic and incapable of feeling much emotion, let alone connection. It may have been due to what I mentioned in the second paragraph, the reminder, that I didn't feel any reason or obligation to get up, when the mild comfort of warmth and darkness, how it makes it easier to keep an empty mind and let time flow by, was likely better than anything I would experience after getting up. Thoughts are always sparse these days, I didn't have the lights on, I wasn't reading a book or using a phone, the thoughts that came to me are the ones that never have satisfactory answers. Thoughts from a dark place, devoid of warmth, where no one can reach me. The circulation in my legs was being slightly effected and it ceased to be particularly comfortable, although even comfort and warmth don't penetrate much like any other feeling, there's never any feeling of relaxation and peace. I'm always tired and devoid or energy, I don't become tired of living, but of being conscious, and sleep grants a reprieve from that burden. I wanted to make it to 20 hours in bed, but the goal, the arbitrary number, was likely mostly an excuse to justify an activity devoid of meaning, simply bringing less discomfort from life than other meaningless activities. I think I fell asleep at some point for a few hours, got up for a short period to rehydrate myself, urinate, and check the internet, then I fell asleep again. A sleep that does not rejuvenate.
Don't envy this if you wish you could rest all day, it's not the same. This is a state of living death, half-way to being bedridden. You should think of it as being closer to someone in a hospital who never has any visitors and speaks to no one.
All the light has gone from my world. -
2015-09-16 at 2:41 PM UTC in why do some people not eat meat?Reread my post:
Due to the matching procedure, the findings cannot be explained by socio-demographic characteristics of vegetarians (e.g. higher rates of females, predominant residency in urban areas, high proportion of singles). The analysis of the respective ages at adoption of a vegetarian diet and onset of a mental disorder showed that the adoption of the vegetarian diet tends to follow the onset of mental disorders.
The mentally ill clearly seem to be more susceptible to vegetarianism. This shouldn't be surprising as the mentally ill are more susceptible to being brainwashed into becoming parts of cults in general, in this case the cult of vegetarianism, and particularly veganism. -
2015-09-16 at 1:24 PM UTC in why do some people not eat meat?You can't argue against science.
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2015-09-16 at 8:15 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionwww.google.com/search?q=IV+4-aco-dmt
Someone should try this and report back. Apparently it's far above the level of a N,N-DMT experience. Still legal, should be much cheaper and easier to get. I remember people mentioning this on Zoklet and it seemed to be very well received. -
2015-09-16 at 7:32 AM UTC in why do some people not eat meat?Severe mental illness.
No, really, they actually do tend to have significantly higher rate. Just look at Lanny, a prime example of the kind of person whose natural predispositions lead them down that perverted path.
Vegetarian diet and mental disorders: results from a representative community survey
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3466124/Vegetarians displayed elevated prevalence rates for depressive disorders, anxiety disorders and somatoform disorders. Due to the matching procedure, the findings cannot be explained by socio-demographic characteristics of vegetarians (e.g. higher rates of females, predominant residency in urban areas, high proportion of singles). The analysis of the respective ages at adoption of a vegetarian diet and onset of a mental disorder showed that the adoption of the vegetarian diet tends to follow the onset of mental disorders.
And many more: http://www.google.com/search?q=veget...mental+illness
Just watch them engage in blatant denialism, attempting one of the most simplistic arguments of all, that correlation does not imply causation, when confounding factors have already been accounted for.
Of course you shouldn't rely on anecdotes, but those of you who don't suffer from in-group bias, or a bias against them, and attempt to see things as objectively as possible can think of vegetarians/vegans you have known IRL and will likely notice that they tend to be far more mentally unstable and overall less mentally healthy. As a group, they often contain some of the sickest people around, particularly those that are activists, engage in protests, and especially the militant. Feminists are very similar, along with those who strongly identify as leftists. Geographically, look at places that have the highest concentrations of these kinds of people, San Franfreakshow is absolutely full of nutjobs, one of the most dysfunctional and deranged places on Earth. -
2015-09-16 at 6:15 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionDon't want to IV? I'm pretty sure you can use other ROAs, like smoking.
Hyrdo, did you ever see the post on converting T-PAIN free acid to sodium? If not, /u/liftmode made a much better guide: https://www.reddit.com/r/Nootropics/comments/3g5wa7/need_T-PAIN/ctvbwdj -
2015-09-16 at 5:23 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionYou should find an IRL Mexican black tar dealer. IIRC litemex/fire once linked me to some interesting articles on the business model in that industry, they seem to have a strategy centered around quality and a lack of violence.
Oh, found it: http://articles.latimes.com/2010/feb...ar14-2010feb14
I bet Casper could give you the best advice of anyone on finding good connections, that man knows his heroin.
http://www.nytimes.com/2015/04/19/opinion/sunday/serving-all-your-heroin-needs.htmlFatal heroin overdoses in America have almost tripled in three years. More than 8,250 people a year now die from heroin. At the same time, roughly double that number are dying from prescription opioid painkillers, which are molecularly similar. Heroin has become the fallback dope when an addict can’t afford, or find, pills. Total overdose deaths, most often from pills and heroin, now surpass traffic fatalities.
We could be seeing many more marks in our lives. I wonder how many other totse and zoklet users have died from overdoses, what the odds ratio is compared to similar age groups among the general population. -
2015-09-13 at 11:48 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionSatan lives within us all.
You are now witnessing a descent into madness, live and unscripted. -
2015-09-13 at 8:31 AM UTC in Native Americans weren't so greatHmm, let's see, inefficiency, fairy tales about noble minorities, victimhood culture, promoting failure and entitlement mentalities. Explain to me how this is something rightists would support, again?
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2015-09-13 at 8:14 AM UTC in Mark311 is dead
Another good Mark story: he totally flipped out when Zok went TTFN and had to be de-modded and banned. It was the textual, online equivalent of 'dingo ate my baby' hysteria… plus a heaping side of "how can you do this to me? look at all I've done for you!! nnn–nnnNNNOOOOOO!"
I enjoyed that too. No wonder they picked him to be a moderator at that shithole.
It was all he had, his friends, his connection to other people and the world outside himself.I didn't like the guy, personally; he was a fucking asshole once you really got to know him
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2015-09-13 at 7:45 AM UTC in Native Americans weren't so greatNot particularly important? You live in San Francisco, you honestly think that the massive cost of living, which disproportionately effects the poor, isn't particularly important? Driving force of the Bush jr. era, what the hell are you talking about? Then you go and assume that I believed that 1 chart overturned your political ideology. Standard childish distortion, I was only pointing out one particularly destructive aspect of what leftists have led to, which is related to inefficiency and state control, two things actually existing leftism repeatedly promotes.
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2015-09-13 at 7:38 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionRandom thought: I didn't make the connection at the time, but with head transplants becoming feasible it may actually make sense to have a clone of you raised. People have pondered the possibility of doing so for organ transplants, but this would be so much better. Your head, your brain, would still have aged, but that generally isn't what fails. Who knows how long the maximum lifespan of the brain could be if kept healthy and all other points of failure are avoided. If you had the resources and connections, it could be done. I wonder if any of the super rich have ever done this. If you think about the sizable percentage that are genuine psychopaths, or at least extremely power hungry, how many became rich through corruption, abuse of state power, the amount who have the necessary money in the entire world, it's very possible it could already have been done, although not necessarily with head transplants in mind. Maybe someone started a crop just in case it ever became feasible, or just for the organs and then realized the possibility would soon be here when the headlines came out about the first planned operation.
Consider China, the genuine lower levels of empathy, the differences in morality (There have been studies on this, I'm not basing it on stereotypes, popular perceptions and anecdotes about citizens leaving accident victims to die.), the poverty and lower wages, leading to greater receptiveness for some illegal propositions, the corruption. Find a crooked lab, a person in the field qualified, then how hard is it to have a child raised in secrecy when you have the money? Home school them, have maids, nannies, who would ever question something as basic as whether they're a registered citizen? And of course the scenario that's occurring is so far from normalcy that it won't ever cross their minds.
Then there could be the first case that's discovered. How do you hide having a body that's decades younger than your head and a possible massive surgical scar than can't be sufficiently altered?
It would be even better than your own body was at that age. Use the knowledge you gain, new information that has been discovered, to do a far better job than your parents. Bare feet and minimalist shoes for proper foot development and far less wear on the joints, optimal nutrition, a refined paleo style diet, particularly absent of gluten grains (not specifically because of gluten) and sugar, vitamin D3, supplements, hell, maybe even use something that could boost height, general frame size, we have multiple substances that effect growth hormone, put them on a weight lifting regimen, then when the time comes, harvest them.
If you wanted to feel like less of a monster you could have their head cryogenically preserved so they could have a second chance at life. Hopefully they wouldn't hunt you down and kill you or be able to at that time. -
2015-09-12 at 9:36 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionIntense.
Mike! Mike! You're too close, you're gonna get killed!
But like a child budding into a future psychopath fixated by a flame blossoming into a forest fire, the power and destruction that could consume all, the beauty of such immense power capable of taking lives and such enormous cumulative effort, so much meaning, so many hopes and dreams, so many emotions evoked into a swirling cacophony of chaos, Mike didn't move away. Mike stayed close and thank god for it. He risked his life, we know nothing about him but his name, but thanks to him all these years later desensitized hikikomoris aspiring to be functional mad men can live vicariously through their screens, computers, alone in the dead of night, online and in darkness, connected to everyone and not a single person at all.
Their most popular video at 600K views. The Freedom of Information Act/FOIA series currently stands at just over 100 videos. The first was uploaded in early 2012 with the latest just 3 months ago. Views are surprisingly low, particularly considering they're publicly listed and accessible youtube videos, with the least viewed in the upper hundreds, the majority having less than 10K views, the most popular have a few in the hundred K and mid to upper 5 digit range.
These are gems. Released over 10 years after the event occurred, only a tiny fraction of population has glimpsed them. -
2015-09-12 at 8:36 AM UTC in Native Americans weren't so greatThis is what actually existing leftism leads to, Lanny:
http://econlog.econlib.org/archives/2014/10/housing_and_pov.html
You made the poor poor and then you proclaim yourselves to be the only ones preventing them from starving. You people sicken me. -
2015-09-12 at 7:28 AM UTC in Native Americans weren't so greatThe dichotomy has a genuine basis in fundamental aspects of ideology. Then there's the well documented aspect of tribalism. The vast majority are, by their nature, mindless hyper-partisans, regardless of what they'd like to believe, and don't have particularly good reasons for supporting the things they do.
The people distract themselves. It's the reality of the nature of the common man reflected throughout the finance driven aspects of society, which are molded by consumer demand.
It's what idealist don't want to accept. There is no grand overarching conspiracy, they largely do it to themselves and always have. Repeat after me: There is no god, there is no hope.