Posts by Malice

1. 2015-11-17 at 4:15 AM UTC in If you were walking down the sidewalk and some frat boys pulled up alongside u
   Malice Naturally Camouflaged

   But if it's cold

   
   I wonder, if you threw a salt water balloon at someone who was outside at below zero temps, without a vehicle or access to transportation nearby, would it have a serious risk of killing them? Just came to mind because of how unusually deadly it seemed. If they had a phone, they could call someone to come get them, but even then they may have to race there and hopefully be close by enough, or call emergency services.
2. 2015-11-17 at 12:52 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
   Malice Naturally Camouflaged
   http://www.artofmanliness.com/2014/09/02/love-is-all-you-need-insights-from-the-longest-longitudinal-study-on-men-ever-conducted/
   
   We've done everything wrong, had everything go wrong.
3. 2015-11-17 at 12:33 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
   Malice Naturally Camouflaged

   I only post here like once a month anymore and you still mention me in your posts all the time like you've got some kind of weird fag crush on me or something.

   
   I wonder what would happen if we met up and by some cosmic miracle-joke ended up hitting it off, two misfit peas in a pod, getting drunk or high and painting the town red or just gaming alone, then we each took a pill that turned us gay for x hours. How we would feel about each other.
   
   I'm just messing with you, that's a really disturbing scenario. I still remember you were the only one that really liked me as a poster and stood up for me when I first began posting in TRT.
   
   Maybe it's just because we can identify with each other in some ways, how profoundly lonely, depressed, broken, and dissatisfied with life we feel, or have felt at times.
4. 2015-11-17 at 12:23 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
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   Came across something pretty interesting: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Grant_Study
   
   

   The Grant Study is part of the Study of Adult Development at Harvard Medical School. It is a 75-year longitudinal study of 268 physically- and mentally-healthy Harvard college sophomores from the classes of 1939–1944. It has run in tandem with a study called "The Glueck Study," which included a second cohort of 456 disadvantaged nondelinquent inner-city youths who grew up in Boston neighborhoods between 1940 and 1945.[1] The subjects were all male, white and of American nationality. The men continue to be studied to this day. The men were evaluated at least every two years by questionnaires, information from their physicians, and in many cases by personal interviews. Information was gathered about their mental and physical health, career enjoyment, retirement experience and marital quality. The goal of the study was to identify predictors of healthy aging.
   
   The study is unique partly because of the long time span of the cohort, and also partly because of the high social status of some of the study participants.

   
   Linked to from here (cached, because the OP was later deleted): http://webcache.googleusercontent.com/search?q=cache%3Ahttps%3A%2F%2Fwww.reddit.com%2Fr%2Fdepression%2Fcomments%2F3swmos%2Fwhy_you_cant_be_happy_alone%2F&oq=cache%3Ahttps%3A%2F%2Fwww.reddit.com%2Fr%2Fdepression%2Fcomments%2F3swmos%2Fwhy_you_cant_be_happy_alone%2F&aqs=chrome..69i57j69i58.7334j0j4&sourceid=chrome&es_sm=93&ie=UTF-8
   
   Vaillant's main conclusion is that "warmth of relationships throughout life have the greatest positive impact on 'life satisfaction'". Put differently, Vaillant says the study shows: "Happiness is love. Full stop."
   
   Something I've been immensely resistant to accepting.
5. 2015-11-16 at 9:48 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
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   Hey...imagine the havoc you could cause by using a high powered slingshot to launch fake baggies of drugs into places, like children's schools. You could do all sorts of things with one, reminds me of that Malcolm in the Middle episode.
   
   I wonder what the greatest vandalism caused by one (suspected) person, or even a group of people, was. Whether anyone ever declared their own senseless war against society, possibly just focused on whatever city they lived in.
   
   PoC, you seem like the perfect type for this if we got some good benzos and stims in you. Oh, phenibut could be great for making you an angry belligerent asshole. Give up your dreams of ever becoming a good person and embrace evil.
6. 2015-11-16 at 4:28 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
   Malice Naturally Camouflaged
   http://i.imgur.com/eOja905.gifv
   
   
   
   Bahahahahaha, I hope they really did it.
7. 2015-11-15 at 9:56 AM UTC in fuck muslims
   Malice Naturally Camouflaged
   Someone on r/ancap linked to this long list of Muslim facts: https://www.reddit.com/r/polfacts/comments/38gsdg/long_list_of_muslim_immigrant_facts/
8. 2015-11-15 at 6:11 AM UTC in Just buy a camper and you're pretty much set for life...
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   Not everyone has that predisposition. I could really imagine it fucking up those who don't, the people that like being outdoors and running around, playing. It's like high energy dogs, dogs with high exercise demands, being confined to a small apartment, it can really wreck them and cause destructive behaviors.
   
   As for not having an intention of starting a family, I remember seeing data, from the General Social Survey most likely, on polling done on women in their 40s, the number of children they actually had and how many they wish they had, which was generally about twice the former. Only about 5% stated they had felt no regret about not having children. It's a very strong hardwired urge, particularly among women, although you're likely somewhat hostile to this idea, or at least the extent of it. There's also a section on this in The Defining Decade, a book every person in their early 20s should eventually read, how the window of opportunity for having children is really much smaller than people generally believe and the heartache and regret it often causes.
   
   I, of course, don't intend to ever have children, and right now I seem unlikely to even live to that point, to ever find someone who I could even have them with; I don't think it's the right path in life for me and at the very least I would never have biological children. During my depressive rumination and increase in empathy, trying to understand others and their viewpoints, life experiences, this is one of the many subjects I thought of, and along with following the pics/videos, blog, of an online friend I grew apart from, I came to understand why people had them. Although I have very deep moral opposition to it and see it as one of the most selfish things you can do, I can't really blame people or look down on them, feel anger or disgust, among them for doing so. Well, at least the types that have them for good reasons and raise them well, provide a good life for them. It's something interesting to think about, the reasons people have them and what a the experience of raising good children must be like. There really is something special about it that I don't think you can get from anywhere else, that it changes and allows you develop in ways others things won't, particularly for women. As I said though, different paths in life, we all have to choose between alternatives.
9. 2015-11-15 at 5:52 AM UTC in Do fast food workers deserve a $15 wage?
   Malice Naturally Camouflaged
   I know, it's a bad habit. What is anyone really qualified to comment on? Don't you ever feel insignificant and inadequate. Outside of your field, particularly Silicon Valley, the vast majority of people know almost nothing about and have no interest in computer science, couldn't follow a conversation or debate on it. It's one of the depressing aspects of life, our own limitations.
   
   I suppose my paint point was that people should be more humble and reserved. Lord, can you imagine how relatively glorious the world would look if people learned to shut their fucking mouths and didn't feel a need to comment on everything as if the world can't live without their opinion?
10. 2015-11-15 at 2:50 AM UTC in A best of compilation of old statuses on my facebook profile
    Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    What if...you could use an augmented reality device like Google Glass to replace people with simple colored sticks. This could be a good solution for misanthropes and anxiety sufferers.
    
    I wrote that. It's flattering.
11. 2015-11-15 at 2:41 AM UTC in Eating some of your pets meat after it dies
    Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    This is actually customary on Mars, you know.
12. 2015-11-15 at 2:05 AM UTC in Do fast food workers deserve a $15 wage?
    Malice Naturally Camouflaged

    A friend of mine once said: You know what the problem is with being an economist? Everyone has an opinion about the economy. No body goes up to a geologist and says, 'Igneous rocks are fucking bullshit.

    
    
    
    
    
    These issues are really far more complex than the vast majority appreciate. Unfortunately for various reasons every generation seems to have a more blatantly unwarranted sense of their own intelligence than the previous, people don't have a proper sense of humility and their own limitations, they aren't willing to say "I don't know" or "I don't feel I know enough to comment on that." Unfortunately seeming confident, having a certain appearance, stringing together buzzwords, cliches among university subcultures that they somehow manage to believe are unique, original, and insightful opinions, spouting obvious truisms as if they're deep insights, is enough to have the effect they want on the vast majority of people, it works.
    
    Regardless, the minimum wage is one of the issues stupid people and economic acolytes fixate on. It isn't even particularly effective, something like the earned income tax credit/EITC is far more effective and less distortionary if you want to achieve the same effect, and a negative income tax (not universal basic income), which was actually strongly recommended by the libertarians Milton Friedman and Charles Murray, would likely be the best alternative of all and be able to replace much of the welfare state which much higher efficiency.
    
    There are also differential effects of the minimum wage. You can look up the data and the effects are much stronger among certain subsets of the population, particularly Blacks and teenagers, who have lower productivity (Which has a different meaning than is commonly interpreted. Many will be offended by this because they're idiots and also because we're still haunted by the stupidity of Marx's labor theory of value). International comparisons are also horrendous because of massive differences in demographics, resources relative to the population, and cost of living. For example, Australia's size is similar to that of the continental US despite only having around 23 million people, meaning that high wealth generated by resources can be distributed among far fewer people, raising incomes and competition for labor. The argument that they have the highest minimum wage and were the only/one of the only to escape the escape the recession is also incredibly moronic. People, common leftists constantly do this and act as if they're forming brilliant arguments, cherry pick two data points, and state an argument that's a standard conflation for correlation with causation "This country has this aspect we like, they also have this outcome, therefore, it's because of this." Made even worse by being able to choose between sources with the most favorable statistics and being able to interpret them differently. Look at how massive Australia's cost of living is, particularly for the poor, in terms of housing and food prices, which effects them the most. They, along with Canada, also had massive housing bubbles that simply hadn't burst at the time. Canada already had their recession, although due to favorable conditions they're fortunate to have and which can't simply be replicated by policy, they still haven't, but may be sliding into one.
13. 2015-11-14 at 9:27 AM UTC in fuck muslims
    Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    *shakes your shoulders* Why can't you be fun?!
    
    Oh, right, computer science major. Then again, I am a hikikomori autist. This is a deeply depressing pairing.
14. 2015-11-14 at 8:16 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
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    Christ, heard someone mention the Pairs attacks at the bank earlier today, but wasn't sure if I seen a headline about it on Reddit late last night and it wasn't that significant. What a shitstorm, this is going to be great entertainment. *grabs popcorn* I really do treasure moments like this, there's a special quality to them. How they bring people together, the shared event/experience, the discussions, the extremes of human existence and sweet sweet footage, the lasting fallout.
    
    Oh shit, maybe the National Front could win after all. I remember Ygg on Zoklet took a liking to them, made a thread IIRC. And of course this will spread anti-muslim sentiment throughout the rest of Europe, create greater racial/ethnic/religious tensions, more resistance to immigration/multiculturalism/diversity. I won't consider it a positive thing if it greatly reduces immigration from the migrant crisis, though, as I want states to fail and become untenable, and more immigration will only accelerate this.
15. 2015-11-14 at 8:09 AM UTC in fuck muslims
    Malice Naturally Camouflaged

    that awkward moment when secularist sentiment aligns with nativist sentiment and you feel like a racist

    
    Embrace it, Lanny. Something I've noticed with you people, leftists, is that you behave as if a group of of your comrades are going to appear out of thin air and lynch you if you say the wrong thing, even if you're in private with a person who would be completely accepting of those views. There are so many cognitive biases at play, so many sociological aspects, and little of it really has to do with reason, or at least only a smaller fraction, but only in the sense that you begin with a conviction and work backwards to confirm it.
    
    Wouldn't you love to just give in one day, get drunk/shitfaced, and go on a rant about how much you fucking hate niggers and Muslims? *moves behind you and places hands on your shoulders, or wraps arms loosely around chest if you want to get more homoerotic, puts face close to your preferred ear* "Come on, give in, say it. Tell me how much you hate those damn A-rabs."
16. 2015-11-14 at 7:31 AM UTC in Just buy a camper and you're pretty much set for life...
    Malice Naturally Camouflaged

    I mean sure it's better living in the streets but I'd hardly call a notch above homelessness being "set for life".

    
    Some are actually pretty damn nice, and surprisingly cheap. A few thousand can honestly get you something nicer that a small San Francisco (efficiency) apartment or studio. Only problem is the lack of affordable trailer parks/RV lots in many places, like the Bay Area, which can negate most of the savings. It's also illegal to sleep in a vehicle overnight, or possibly even have an RV parked on a residential street overnight, so you could get hassled by cops. Not sure if this is the law everywhere.
    
    Good perspectives here: https://www.quora.com/Is-it-possible-to-park-anywhere-in-California-with-a-small-RV-to-sleep
    
    Blocking out the windows is the easiest and most obvious option, if it isn't flat out illegal to have an RV parked overnight on residential streets, but to get around that I've thought about the idea of simply putting a huge tarp/car cover over it, which would be pretty amusing, although if there's dick/asshole cop in your area with nothing better to do you could still get screwed, particularly if certain types of people complain (better to stay out nicer White neighborhoods).
    
    For electricity, solar could be an option in some areas. Not sure if they've developed enough to provide enough power for everything needed, major appliances like a water heater, stove/oven, refrigerator, computer, etc. Then you'd just a place to fillup the water tank. For the toilet, you can go a while without needing to drain the septic system. There's also the option of using a gym for showers and toilets, Planet Fitness is only $10 a month, although they're garbage if you want to use an actual gym, and you could also take advantage of the free pizza and bagel days if they're compatible with your diet. Or you could pay someone to let you use a hose and extension cord from their house. Internet would also be easy with a good antenna and wireless adapter setup + a good hacking OS.
    
    There are a lot of creative options. If you wanted to go all out you could create an expandable double decker setup. I guarantee you that prices in most major metropolitan areas, aside from those that are already relatively affordable, will never drop significantly. Even if they ever do, it won't be for a good reason, but due to a major crash due to an economic crisis, likely brought on by debt (This is not conservative fear mongering, some places are already dealing with a shitstorm due to this) or housing prices becoming so unsustainable it just tanks the regional economy due to a mass exodus. Options like this are going to become much more attractive. For example, Lanny, you've stated that you already have enough for a mortgage on an apartment and that it could cost less that what you're currently paying in rent, but if you ever get married and have a child, want a place with privacy and a decent amount of room for them to grow up (Whatever happened to yards? Christ it would have been awful not having one. Access to an actual significant chunk of wilderness, a nice forest, would have been incredible, but I loved the relatively large backyard of my parent's home. Human's weren't meant to develop without places like that, there's already data on the significant benefits, who knows how much it could be screwing kids up.), in a nice/safe area, hoo boy are you going to pay a painful amount.
17. 2015-11-14 at 6:41 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
    Malice Naturally Camouflaged

    Malice, remember you posted something about the correlation between depression and planning or high mental activity in some kind of non-human life? Do you still have that? In a bout of wikigolf I wondered upon the articles for Buddhist mindfulness and psychological rumination. The use of the term "rumination" to describe that particular mental phenomenon was interesting to me, reminded me of what you posted. I tend to think of the term as neutral or even positive (implying deep thought) but somebody picked it to describe a symptom and/or cause of depression. And like conversely mindfulness seems to imply the surrender of some level of agency or planning capacity which makes me uneasy. Like when I was reading about it I kept thinking "yeah, but how am I going to know what to do next if I'm always focused on the now". What a cruel joke it would be if planning, deep though, the higher cognitive functions that are generally considered to be what separate us from lower animals were inextricable from depression. If the only way to live as a higher animal was to walk the tightrope between self destructive obsession and base animalism.

    
    Autism power, activate!
    
    https://www.reddit.com/r/Nootropics/comments/2u5vgt/is_serotonin_an_upper_or_a_downer_the_evolution/
    
    
    
    Most things, concepts, don't have innate connotations, we're the ones that ascribe emotions to them. Although many attached feelings, triggers for them, have a strong evolutionary/biological basis, we have a strong ability to change the habits of our mind and come to perceive things differently, to see the positive aspect in things or simply brush pain aside, let it wash past you like a wave, or to not develop any judgement at all, but simply perceive, which is a major part of the concept of mindfulness, I believe, along with a major and beneficial aspect of the ego death experience, to be able to experience things without the enhancements, confines, and burden of the ego. No judgement, attached/triggered emotions, feeling of separation and the wide array of effects it has on our mental processes, our views/ideologies and decisions, throughout or normal life. I think this is something that comes up a lot in Buddhist literature.
    
    This is a very bad habit of mine and something I need to change. It's just that when I'm ruminating on subjects that most would find deeply depressing, that there's some natural basis for experiencing that way, it feels so mismatched to try to remain positive, wrong. Then again, considering the damage severe depression does to ability to process things, to develop and improve my life, it probably isn't worth any benefit it may have and I should bear through the discomfort of change. A new perspective could be incredibly beneficial, anyway.
    
    I've never read much about Buddhism, although I really should eventually. To be honest, unfortunately I've really fucked up my brain and potential and have pretty much given myself ADD-PI (primarily inattentive). Shit, I could read like a motherfucker in elementary, blazing fast and all day, perfect grades, top of the class, elite standardized test scores. I don't know what the fuck happened, whether it was bound to happen and triggered by some changes in puberty or I just lost interest and came to develop such a nihilistic, negative and jaded worldview, in part because of the terrible environment in middle school, along with the extreme social isolation being another major factor, of course.
    
    Anyway, unfortunately there are so many problems attached to religions, dogmatism and institutional biases/negative effects (Rick Strassman talked about his experience with this in The Spirit Molecule), poor interpretations, some by dilettantes with no real understanding who vastly overestimate their knowledge and intelligence, go on insane rants, and develop a following that spreads this (some people in the psychedelic movement definitely come to mind). There's so much chaff to sift through, and lord knows the most popular and top rated books aren't necessarily a good measure to go by because the masses/commoners/average man have shit taste (although there is the benefit of a self-selection bias, so often you can at least find small pockets or certain people with genuinely good recommendations).
    
    Then there are the people who have spent decades in meditation. I mean, holy shit, just think about what that experience must be like, where they could end up. IIRC there have been brain scans suggesting that they genuinely are significantly happier than the general population, and persistently in that state. Although, once again, selection biases. People with certain genetic predispositions are bound to be much more likely to stick through it and respond well. It's just incredible to think about what meditation masters may have experienced and come to realize, the changes it may have caused in their state of conscious experience. Multiple times I've seen people mention that certain forms of meditation, brought about through very long sessions, or possibly some may be able to do so through experience, being able to achieve a deep state, can create experiences deeper than even what psychedelics can achieve.
    
    Well, that's life, so much complexity, so many limitations. It can be deeply depressing. Come to think of it, these kinds of people are probably the only ones whose conscious experience, state of mind, may be so radically different from the standard that it's really particularly worth examining. Bring on the singularity so we experience and know everything already.
18. 2015-11-13 at 8:48 AM UTC in BradleyB's Rock Bottom -- Recovery Thread
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    Bradley, have you heard about baclofen as a treatment for alcoholism? It doesn't seem to be very well known, but is the most promising option AFAIK. Copy paste, I recommended this CountBlah when his alcoholic/drug addict mother in law was staying with him. Everyone who has serious problems with alcohol should know about it:
    
    If you read about it, this is the real deal, the most promising treatment for alcoholism and some other addictions currently available, although it's not well known. Among that those that are familiar with it, there are major proponents because they understand how effective it is. It genuinely seems to greatly reduce and even eliminate the desire to drink in long term serious alcoholics at high doses, along with changing the response to alcohol, so even if they have a drink it won't lead to relapse.
    
    http://www.google.com/search?q=baclofen+addiction+OR+alcoholism
    
    http://brandmedicines.com/index.php?main_page=product_info&cPath=42&products_id=1493
    
    Seriously the best option if you can't get rid of her and can't convince your girlfriend of other options and don't want to leave her yet. It works fast. A lot cheaper than a motel. especially if you can manage to split the cost. It doesn't make you feel bad, quite the opposite, and it doesn't work like antabuse, it won't have side effects and zombify you or numb your emotions like SSRIs, you need to make this very clear, so there's no good reason why she shouldn't take it.
    
    If you're interested, read this and maybe show it to your girl too if you think she can get through it, it's a very good case series that will give you an idea of what to expect. Compare to what you're going through, this is very easy to actually go through with and is worth the effort to save your relationship, along with the money and incredible stress it's causing you: http://journal.frontiersin.org/article/10.3389/fpsyt.2014.00143/full
    
    
19. 2015-11-13 at 8:14 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
    Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    Oh, before I forget. You know what would have really been nice? If we could have had an option to tag our own posts "important", to make it much easier to save things we value. Maybe a tweak to allow the wayback machine spider/crawler, whatever it's called, to bypass the search function time limit.
20. 2015-11-13 at 7 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
    Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    "I cannot believe what I've done." When thinking about my past. I've missed out on so many things, done so much damage to myself.
    
    God I wish I had a family or some form of emotional support. Fuck, the things completely isolating yourself for so long does to you. Everything feels overwhelming and insurmountable now. The evidence on the negative effects of social isolation are horrific, and being born with an abnormal brain to begin with, that makes proper social functioning and feeling a connection with others difficult, along with numerous other symptoms... Fuck me I want to be reborn.
    
    I absolutely hate it when it gets cold. The feeling of having people waiting for you and happy to see you return, being able to share a bed with loved ones and feel their warmth, it must be wonderful.
    
    I was so ideologically driven, I wanted to prove you could be happy without others. I was wrong. I don't know if the stories of hermits finding enlightenment are true, genes are guaranteed to account for a large part of how well you can handle it, but maybe they learned things, had thoughts/realizations, that I haven't. I'm too weak at this point, though.