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  1. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    On the note of other forums, anyone found arnox's new forum yet?

    You didn't know about this? It's been open for a while: http://intosanctuary.com/experimental/
    Unless you mean he's planning on opening a new forum I'm not aware of.
  2. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    You know, the whole trick/heal my brain using virtual reality idea is starting to seem appealing again, could provide a very novel healthy/nurturing environment due to the level of novelty, variety, and stimulation. If things go well we'll all be spending most of our time in VR within a few decades, I'd just be an early adopter. It honestly does seem like it may be a better alternative to any form of IRL social relationships, and it could at least greatly overall improve various aspects of cognition, my mental state/functioning, should I ever choose to reintegrate into society.
  3. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    50F is fucking cold for those of us that have been pussified by California, I hate it. I honestly think the weather in places that get actual snow and ice in the winter could kill me, even with appropriate clothes. Like that scene from that movie about the Jamaican bobsled team.

    Hey, did you ever try phenylpiracetam? Along with being the strongest, in terms of effect, racetam by a good margin, it also has the interesting effect of increasing cold tolerance, although this varies, as effects usually do. It was actually banned by the World Anti-Doping Agency/Olympics for this reason, possibly others, such as the stimulant effect.
  4. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    IDK. I mentioned wanting a pinback button with the design a while back, and was actually surprised that it wasn't being sold anywhere. How the internet has warped my mind and expectations for the current era. A button like this: https://www.etsy.com/listing/171260254/hows-it-going-to-end-one-inch-pinback
  5. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    Yo, anyone got any thoguths on Deplin to help with my depression? Shit's been terrible lately (hence me not being around) I even had to turn down a job over my mental health probs.

    Some info
    http://www.psychcongress.com/article...pression-11329
    http://www.everydayhealth.com/drugs/deplin#basics

    Malice knows his drugs, I respect that.

    I'm considering just buying an eigth of som reggie and smoking myself better.

    All kidding aside backin the ol J dub days when I smoked daily depression didn't bother me much and I had the most successful year of my life professionally

    NSI-189 may be a godsend for both of us, anyone dealing with severe depression and other issues (PTSD). You read about it? The story behind it is really fascinating It's different than anything else and works by promoting rapid neurogenesis in the hippocampus, which undergoes atrophy from chronic stress and depression. Adult hippocampal neurogenesis is also implicated in forgetting, which is a perfect added bonus for those of us looking for a new start on life, to forget the dark parts of our past, particularly if you're the kind that ruminates on them and really has them cemented in their mind (I do to a terrible extent). This may be the mechanism by which fear extinguishment occurs, great for PTSD or overcoming social anxiety.

    It's only about $5.50 a gram if you chip in with others to buy 100. You only need about 8 grams for a 3 month cycle, 40mg twice a day, and many people see results right away. Multiple cycles are possible, I'm interested in 25 grams for myself. There's a huge thread about it on Longecity, and you can find reports on r/nootropics as well.

    http://www.longecity.org/forum/topic...i-189/page-117

    Article about it here: http://www.bethesdamagazine.com/Beth...ticle=0#artanc

    Then I went to get a bottle of water out of the fridge and in my half-conscious state grabbed a bottle of salad dressing and almost took a fat swig off of it.

    Classic PoC.
  6. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    Aww, that's sweet aldra. I've noticed that you, along with arthur treacher, have given me the bulk of my thanks on here, which I appreciate.
  7. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    Yeah, hard to say. I think the cognitively aware vegetable thing would definitely do it for me, I go nuts just sitting at a bus stop for like 20 minutes without a phone. Every time I get on an airplane for more than an hour or so flight I try to work out some way to knock myself the fuck out (booze or a benzo or not sleeping for a day or two before) because I can't stand just sitting in a chair doing nothing. If I was stuck in a bed for the rest of my life or something I'd wish I were dead.

    I've actually thought about a very detailed and plausible way to induce the worst locked-in syndrome case imaginable on a person I wanted to experience the worst suffering, psychological/physical/even existential, imaginable. Being just alive enough to justify having you confined to a hospital for the rest of your life, not at the level of needing life support that could be shut down, and completely incapable of communicating any desires, including the desire to die, let alone act upon them. All I could need is a single injection...
  8. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    Oh god I'm lonely. This is killing me, destroying myself and my life. This isn't life, this isn't what life is supposed to feel like; it's absolutely empty and bleak, devoid warmth and emotion.

    God I fucking hate people. I can't imagine myself in any sort relationship, let alone with a family. I can picture myself regularly having to fight the urge to brutally kill a woman who thinks she's being cute.



    Maybe I could just allow myself to love them for a moment...then kill them. No, really, no.
  9. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    This. There was a time I was really into pegging and shit. The desire has faded since then but its good to know if I ever get raped I can just sit back and enjoy.

    This should become someone's sig.
  10. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    Just being nauseous makes me want to commit suicide. Fortunately I almost never get sick, at most a mild cold/fever/flu, whatever it is, for a few days a year.
  11. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    That's a myth: http://www.economicpolicyjournal.com/2014/04/apples-suicide-factories.html

    The suicide rate is actually far lower than the average. The nets? They employ such an immense amount of people it's bound to happen, and it particularly makes sense due to their PR image, particularly when this nonsense emerged. We should be thanking them for their good work. What social program has caused a decrease in the suicide rate this drastic? I challenge anyone to name one.

    Oh, I love being a libertarian/capitalist apologist (explainer), especially since I actually mean what I write. You should give it a try one day, Lanny, feel the joy of evil coursing through you.
  12. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    Everyone should try a proper prostate stimulation at least once. Doesn't seem to really do anything for me, sadly.
  13. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    https://www.reddit.com/r/personalfinance/comments/3t8nov/my_grandma_just_got_scammed_out_of_her_life/

    Hmm, maybe I should start preying on the elderly. I could concoct a scheme more devious and cunning, more ruthless, and enact it with a level of heartlessness, than anything seen before. May not even need to move to Florida, SF could be good hunting ground for rich people that have gone senile/crazy.
  14. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    I'm 18, and just like any other young adult. I will take my SAT, then go to college, then get a job, then marry someone, then have kids.

    I don't know, you seem to be pretty fucked up/dysfunctional, who knows what kind of damage you've caused and how your brain may be abnormal. Unless you've been massively misrepresenting yourself for your own amusement/to troll us, which I think is the case, but to what extent, I'm not sure. Actually being half as crazy as you make yourself appear is still pretty fucking crazy.
  15. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    How many times can I be put on "the list"?

    You can have your risk status elevated, or be put on other lists.
  16. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    Not just about family, but the importance of relationships, as much as many of us may be resistant to accepting. The second book is still well worth reading even if you're no longer in your 20s.

    I've been driven to being a hermit at this point.

    Don't do it, the effects of social isolation are disastrous. It may take years, but eventually it will probably happen, or at least you'll look back with regret at your life and realize how you really feel.
  17. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    so cringeworthy, so fucking dickless, that I want to grab the author of these things by the shoulders and scream "FUCKING PUSSY" in their face until they're dripping with my saliva and then kick them in the nuts they don't actually seem to have.

    Would that make you feel like a man?
  18. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    The site actually has the best summary on it I've found, surprisingly. I don't read the site, it just came up in the search results. I say this because you wouldn't expect it from the name. In this instance it really isn't line with that general style at all.
  19. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    I urge everyone to read these:

    http://www.artofmanliness.com/2014/09/02/love-is-all-you-need-insights-from-the-longest-longitudinal-study-on-men-ever-conducted/

    http://www.amazon.com/The-Defining-Decade-Twenties-Matter-And/dp/0446561754

    They're good and easy to get through, fun and fascinating reads.

    Dead serious, this isn't one of those random book recommendations, something from people who repeatedly claim something "changed their life", these are probably the most important things you could read.
  20. Malice Naturally Camouflaged
    Look through the internet archive to bring back memories of who the really good posters were. I wonder who the best people from totse that never spent any significant time, enough to be memorable/noticed, were.
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