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2017-03-25 at 2:36 AM UTC in My wife's rack
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2017-03-24 at 11:27 PM UTC in We need Amphetamine Malice
Originally posted by cerakote ^this
regardless of your nihilism, theres gotta be something that makes you happy or else you wouldnt keep getting out of bed
That isn't true, there are many other things other than happiness that keep countless numbers of people from staying in bed or committing suicide. A fear of death that overcomes your disdain for the suffering of life, feeling an obligation towards others, particularly family/children, religious beliefs.
Staying alive isn't a sign that there's a single thing in this world that makes you happy. -
2017-03-24 at 11:24 PM UTC in We need Amphetamine Malice
Originally posted by reject If you didn't think there was hope, you'd already be dead
Yes, hope for the singularity, assimilation into AI, even just better drugs, possibly brain implants, new classes of procedures, that could make like far more bearable, increase the basal hedonic tone.
Started the day off with .75mg clonazopam, 20mg NSI-189, a cup of poppy seed tea, then a few hours later, recently, I drank another cup of PST.
What really made the starkest difference was this: https://www.leafly.com/indica/do-si-dos
Cookies family genetics crossed with a particularly strong cut of OG kush with stronger body effects. Only $20g for shatter. I'd like to make edibles out of this. -
2017-03-24 at 11:20 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
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2017-03-24 at 10:26 PM UTC in We need Amphetamine MaliceI refuse to have any involvement with women. I won't even touch them past an obligatory handshake. Men aren't an option either. The human notion of love, mediated through the biological, is an absolute farce relative to the ideal. Humanity is unacceptable, life is unacceptable, I want nothing to do with it.
Happiness isn't a goal, self-improvement isn't my goal, all that matters to me is the endpoint, the journey is meaningless.
Fortunately the results for my Nardil/phenelzine powder should be available quite soon, so perhaps I will feel differently. I already know why I'm so depressed, what it would take to change this into a "healthy" well functioning state where the will could best be enacted, but what this struggle has largely come down to over the years is a refusal to be human, one of my most hated things, just below the creation of life.
Maybe eventually I'll become a drifter and continually run away, keep myself distracted, from the emptiness and burden of existence. -
2017-03-24 at 9:33 PM UTC in We need Amphetamine MaliceI've gradually lost more and more interest in the world over the years, have had less desire to share my thoughts about anything. What a terrible time to have been born, earlier and it may have become clear that transcendence would never arrive in time and what would be best is a quick death, yet too soon you may have wait decades being ground through this monstrosity just for a chance, only to confirm the final question: Is there a reason to continue to exist?
Just as Nietzsche recounted:There is an old legend that king Midas for a long time hunted the wise Silenus, the companion of Dionysus, in the forests, without catching him. When Silenus finally fell into the king’s hands, the king asked what was the best thing of all for men, the very finest. The daemon remained silent, motionless and inflexible, until, compelled by the king, he finally broke out into shrill laughter and said these words, “Suffering creature, born for a day, child of accident and toil, why are you forcing me to say what would give you the greatest pleasure not to hear? The very best thing for you is totally unreachable: not to have been born, not to exist, to be nothing. The second best thing for you, however, is this — to die soon.”
The impossible dream and my greatest desire, never to have been. -
2017-03-23 at 10:45 PM UTC in If you could snap your fingers and learn any language in the world...
Originally posted by NARCassist any chinese people that are worth talking to already speak english.
Oh, this is a good point, one that I had thought of in the past. Similar to Spanish, past a moderate level position/level of income you're likely not going to find it very useful or need it very often. You live in separate worlds eventually where you never really interact with them. -
2017-03-22 at 4:53 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinLel, Trump and NASA, bucking the narrative yet again: https://www.reddit.com/r/technology/comments/60ok10/trump_signs_nasa_funding_bill_sets_goal_of_human/?st=j0khpbv0&sh=42355700
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2017-03-22 at 3:26 AM UTC in White Women
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2017-03-22 at 3:15 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinAlso, this may increase the chance that CV2 VRs will have 4K resolution, possibly hinting at foveated rendering as well, which has already been demonstrated in one headset. This will truly bring us to the beginning of the golden age of VR.
https://www.reddit.com/r/oculus/comments/60qw1x/samsung_a_headset_with_1500_ppi_is_soon_expected/?st=j0kck3b0&sh=1592a9cb -
2017-03-22 at 2:52 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinHow old are you, Scronaldo?
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2017-03-21 at 5:14 PM UTC in If you could snap your fingers and learn any language in the world...Chinese would certainly be the most useful, but Japanese would be the most fun and expand your world of weeabooism.
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2017-03-21 at 5:05 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinScronaldo, why the hell are you so paranoid about people hearing you do drugs? This has never been a concern for me.
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2017-03-21 at 6:23 AM UTC in Impossible Mario game
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2017-03-21 at 5:53 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by Lanny They turned well, don't seem to have lost any potency. They don't make me feel like I'm going to puke trying to down them and it feels like it comes on a bit faster, although that's probably just because you get the whole dose in one shot. Weight per capsule is really variable though, have we weigh each one before taking it, one or two I'm going to have to halve.
What are the effects like for you you? For me it's generally a sense of relaxation that feels distinctively different from that induced by bezos, along with a general sense of well being, and the nodding state, which for me causes a state between full rem sleep and drifting off in bed, yet more lucid. "Opium dreams". It's a comfortable sedation, a much longer time in that sweet spot before drifting into unconsciousness.I generally don't suffer from much physical pain, I don't think I've ever permanently injured myself, so I'm not a good subject to review the analgesic effects. If I ever do get injured or in some other situation where opioids are often used for pain then I'll definitely evaluate it for that purpose. -
2017-03-21 at 4:31 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin*licks lips*
1 x do-si-dos shatter
1 x skywalker OG wax
2 x OG Kush wax (the shatter was very good last time, everything I like about indicas, but wax is easier to handle)
gram each.
Along with a very good pre-roll for spending over $100 (last year it used to be a free 8th, but SF is expensive, they may have been forced to cut back). Their matchbooks are free, which was very convenient because I forgot my lighter due to always being in as hurry for the bart. Only $105 total after taxes.
Played Little Big Planet on the latest nightly of PPSSPP and it works great. Oculus Cinema is by far the best way to block out other people, which is worse when it's crowded. I watched part of The Usual Suspects (great film) while sitting cross legged near the rail. -
2017-03-20 at 11:20 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinLanny, buy this. I'm serious: https://sfbay.craigslist.org/eby/apa/6047366717.html
Enough room for two people, nice amenities, in sailing condition, $230/month to berth in a gated community in Alameda. You can get to SF (FiDi) surprisingly fast from some of the BART stations, Would have taken 20 minutes, walking included, from an opportunity I missed for a sweet RV setup.
I doubt you'd want to live in it yourself, but are there any tax breaks you could take advantage of? Real estate definitely does, but I'm not sure if boating counts, what the legal category is, what changes if you live in it.
If you rented you could easily make your investment back in 2 years.
Also, what ever happened with your dehydrated poppy seed tea capsules? -
2017-03-19 at 9:09 PM UTC in immature as fuck
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2017-03-19 at 8:56 PM UTC in roommate tried to rape meThis thread made me learn St. Patrick's day was on Friday.
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2017-03-18 at 5:53 AM UTC in Just lost a ton of moneyWell, exactly how much did you lose?