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2017-04-02 at 12:01 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinIt is not surprising that most members of this forum feel an affinity for cats.
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2017-04-01 at 10:34 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by RisiR I'm pretty close to being in a relationship which is weird. I should be happy and I actually think I am about the situation but I dunno. I'm also really sad for no reason. Why does this never stop?
I got used to it but it bothers me now that I should actually just be happy. Is that normal? When you guys are happy, is there still this incredible sadness right next to you or are you just happy?
I refuse to ever forget and give in to illusion as the others do, even if it leads to great suffering. There are countless flaws in the notion of human "love". It is an impossibility and I have deemed it an incorrect path in life. I could write a novel on this subject, had I any desire to share my thoughts. Perhaps is one day I receive the medication that perfects me or I attain a higher state. I am committed to monk mode. Akin to the Queen's Guard, there is not a woman in the world who could move me. It is an impossibility unless I make the clear decision to change.
Give food to the hungry, water to to the thirsty, shelter and protection to the homeless, comfort to those who need it, aid to the wounded and sick. It's hot today, so I put a small fan out in case they care for a gentle breeze.
Such simple relationships, and generally far more deserving than human beings. -
2017-04-01 at 8:27 AM UTC in Attn: Everyone, we're getting mods!Damn, I wanted to know what personal developments in your life would lead to such a thing.
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2017-04-01 at 4:54 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by reject Has anyone ever considered we might hear different sounds. Like everyone goes on about how we might each see blue or red or whatever uniquely, and it's actually different to all of us, has anyone ever thought that "the" to me might sound different to "the" to you. Maybe we're all just crazy and delusional and the shit we babble means nothing to no one but we interpret it to have some meaning when really we're just out our nuts in a mental asylum
That's actually a fairly common level philosophical thought experiment.
If you want to try triggering an existential crisis I highly recommend reading Better Never to Have Been: The Harm of Coming Into Existence
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2017-03-31 at 10:26 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by SCronaldo_J_Trump North Korean meth subs inbound uk
Dude, imagine if North Korea, out of desperation or just god knows why, started smuggling meth made in their super labs (Apparently it's commonly used there like we use coffee!). I would so get in on that, buy in bulk direct from the cheapest source. -
2017-03-31 at 10:21 PM UTC in Fuck all ya'll niggas. I'm getting drunk.
Originally posted by RisiR Malice! I know the answer. I know you don't like human touch but you need it. Did you ever get a massage?
I'm sure you'll find a nice, clean spot where you can get (accidentally pressed submit) a great fucking massage. They don't care about you. There is barely any talking. Try that shit. Get a massage.
Post last edited by RisiR at 2017-03-31T10:37:38.113815+00:00
I've actually thought about this as a form of therapy, although I never reached the point where I seriously intended to go through with it, and last thought of it quite a while ago. Oxytocin release. The idea also came from IRL experience.
Ultimately, I very much doubt it would change much. It is not going to trigger a radical transformation, at most alleviate a fraction of the standard depression and anxiety I feel. -
2017-03-31 at 9:40 AM UTC in Fuck all ya'll niggas. I'm getting drunk.
Originally posted by Lanny I'm like "so you know when Sartre said hell is other people?" and he's like "uhh no" and I'm like shit, used pretentiousness and it wasn't very effective.
Because life rarely turns out the way you would have hoped, far from your truest ideals, you learn more and the world keeps losing its wonder, you learn about the ugliness of humanity, even the horror it is simply to exist, and countless others, the flaws, the inadequacies.
In a world without inherent meaning where life arose by mere chance, how naive would you have to be to believe that it was meant to fulfill your romantic ideals. -
2017-03-29 at 10:13 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by bling bling xanax or lorzepam wots better for trip like if ur moms bare annoyin an u have to got wif her and she dont let u go nowere
Originally posted by bling bling xanax or lorzepam wots better for trip like if ur moms bare annoyin an u have to got wif her and she dont let u go nowere
Well, Lorazepam has a longer duration, but if you can redose easily enough Xanax tends to be a favorite among benzos. -
2017-03-28 at 4:37 PM UTC in Your top 3 women who contributed to humanityUhhhhhhhhhh....I suppose my history could use a bit of work.
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2017-03-28 at 12:40 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinhttp://www.theverge.com/2017/3/27/15072560/samsung-note-7-refurbished-device-recyling-announced
Aww, sweet, if it's at a good price I'll definitely buy one. -
2017-03-28 at 12:37 AM UTC in What prescription meds are you on?
Originally posted by mmQ I looked into some MAOIs but I'm too scared to take them what with my history of alcoholism and liver abuse I'd probably die.
Don't be such a misinformed wimp. In a few properly conducted high quality studies Nardil was more effective than Xanax. It functions by GABA-T inhibition, GABA-T being what breaks down gaba, so this leads to higher levels via a more optimal mechanism. ALcohol and the desire for it can be greatly reduced with a good true antidepressant like this. There also isn't a serious risk in this taking under 90mg, at least, which is a relatively high dose, 120mg being for bottom of the bell curve treatment resistant patients (probably me). You could also take the pharmaceutical regimen for phenibut, which is cheap, and can further greatly reduce desire: 250-500mg 2-3x per day; start low at 250mg 3x and increase maybe once a week if it feels like it's needed, lower dose or take 1 fewer dosage per day if they begin to feel too strong.
Don't waste years looking for something that won't give you what you want. I've studied for countless thousands of hours, year after year. Go for the top of the line. -
2017-03-28 at 12:24 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
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2017-03-27 at 7:09 AM UTC in What prescription meds are you on?
Originally posted by Hash Slinging Slasher I think if you were to go to a psychiatrist or doctor and described everything you feel, everything you tried, everything you know about nardil and it's side effects/diet restrictions, they wouldn't have a problem prescribing it to you. It's not abusable. And if they don't, agree to try whatever they want you to try and just tell them it doesn't work.
No, they are idiots and I do not want to depend on them. -
2017-03-27 at 5:36 AM UTC in What prescription meds are you on?Zanick, do you have any tips on getting a high dose prescription for Nardil? Someone who has the kind of doctor that will prescribe them anything? I could pay for it. Pretty desperate to get it due to likely over a decade of depression, with the last 5 qualifying for severe, and the last 2-3 having been the worst post mental breakdown, low quality of life, poor ability to function, and a host of other problems it's excellent for treating. I hate dealing with psychiatrists and there are a host of myths about the risks. MAOIs are drastically underutilized. Phenelzine has some absolutely fascinating properties and results when compared to the outcomes of other medications.
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2017-03-27 at 5:14 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
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2017-03-27 at 5:03 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by bling bling stfu
There are many reasons to give outdoor cats a collar.
There's the possibility they could be caught by animal control. If it ever gets into an accident they won't know who to contact if it passed away or was taken to a vet.
They could even just start being fed by someone else and eventually abandon you. Although, I don't believe animals should be considered property and should have some reasonable autonomy, with restraints only for their safety, as with children. I don't want to "own" a living creature. Even if I had a pet, if it one day decided that it preferred to live at the house of another person I don't believe I would have any right to stop it.
Anyway, they're so cheap I don't see any reason not to get one if you really care about your cats. Or at least a microchip.
Seems all dogs were required to have one in the UK and you could get it for free, but there may be places that will do it to cats for free as well:
https://www.gov.uk/government/news/all-dogs-in-england-to-get-free-microchipsBattersea Dogs and Cats Home have announced that free microchipping will be offered at their three centres, and the Blue Cross will also offer free microchipping to dogs and cats at their 16 hospitals and centres across England.
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2017-03-26 at 11:42 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinThe slow process of earning a cat's trust. Possibly strays, or even feral. Would be horribly irresponsible not to have a collar on them with contact information. I also realized and figured out why the area in front of here seems to be a popular passing point for cats.
First step began perhaps 20 days ago, throwing treats at it when I saw it resting on this shed. Then practicing when spotted again so they would land in an optimal spot, not causing it to run away, yet close enough that it can detect it's a treat.
Getting closer, will eat food I leave under the car when I see them, backing away and coming back when I leave.
More comfortable getting closer, comes to front door.
Now the young one is a regular visitor, and some time later the other bushy tailed one came by.
We have a system when I open the screen door and slide makeshift trays with food near them, along with water, then I close the door. Unfortunately I'm very perceptive, so they've become accustomed to just standing in front of it. Would prefer it if they scratched at it or called.
They're comfortable with my hand near them, but not eating with my full body in sight, generally (Actually, may have gotten bushy tail to do this today, but I was sitting inside in front of my computer 10+ feet away). Next steps are hopefully physical contact and coming inside to do an initial check.
Bonus picture I took of bushy tail. I wonder if it's the mother of the other one or a sibling. Come to think of it, there may be one more I haven't seen around here that looks to be part of their family, spotted some time back near a park that seems to be one of the places they hang out at.
Bonus pic of bushy tail, she's a very healthy high class looking cat when standing in profile, the pictures aren't optimal due to a lack of full comfort between us, so it doesn't show her/its true kawaii.
I think I'm going to order this for them, I want them to be healthy.
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B00VMHSUMK/ref=twister_B01EFXFAPW?_encoding=UTF8&th=1
It's close to $2/lb, which is good for grain free premium formulations, and I really like the composition/ingredients, it's well designed, along with qualifying for Amazon Prime. (Been waiting to use to use that student email I bought for cheap. The concept of a student discount has always pissed me off.) Sometimes there are bulk bags of frozen chicken for around 60-70 cents. Would be a great cheap addition, add some moisture, and the bones help keep their teeth clean.
It makes me happy when they come to visit.
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2017-03-26 at 3:27 AM UTC in RC trades
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2017-03-26 at 3:19 AM UTC in how to deal with crushing lonelinessFrom On the Vanity of Existence - Arthur Schopenhauer
Then again, how insatiable a creature is man! Every satisfaction he attains lays the seeds of some new desire, so that there is no end to the wishes of each individual will. And why is this? The real reason is simply that, taken in itself, Will is the lord of all worlds: everything belongs to it, and therefore no one single thing can ever give it satisfaction, but only the whole, which is endless. For all that, it must rouse our sympathy to think how very little the Will, this lord of the world, really gets when it takes the form of an individual; usually only just enough to keep the body together. This is why man is so very miserable.
Life presents itself chiefly as a task–the task, I mean, of subsisting at all, gagner sa vie. If this is accomplished, life is a burden, and then there comes the second task of doing something with that which has been won–of warding off boredom, which, like a bird of prey, hovers over us, ready to fall wherever it sees a life secure from need. The first task is to win something; the second, to banish the feeling that it has been won; otherwise it is a burden.
Human life must be some kind of mistake. The truth of this will be sufficiently obvious if we only remember that man is a compound of needs and necessities hard to satisfy; and that even when they are satisfied, all he obtains is a state of painlessness, where nothing remains to him but abandonment to boredom. This is direct proof that existence has no real value in itself; for what is boredom but the feeling of the emptiness of life? If life–the craving for which is the very essence of our being–were possessed of any positive intrinsic value, there would be no such thing as boredom at all: mere existence would satisfy us in itself, and we should want for nothing. But as it is, we take no delight in existence except when we are struggling for something; and then distance and difficulties to be overcome make our goal look as though it would satisfy us–an illusion which vanishes when we reach it; or else when we are occupied with some purely intellectual interest–when in reality we have stepped forth from life to look upon it from the outside, much after the manner of spectators at a play. And even sensual pleasure itself means nothing but a struggle and aspiration, ceasing the moment its aim is attained. Whenever we are not occupied in one of these ways, but cast upon existence itself, its vain and worthless nature is brought home to us; and this is what we mean by boredom. The hankering after what is strange and uncommon–an innate and ineradicable tendency of human nature–shows how glad we are at any interruption of that natural course of affairs which is so very tedious. -
2017-03-26 at 2:46 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by Lanny Oh man, found some old ass 2-FMA in my stash today, definitely lost some potency but still does the trick. This feeling of total relaxation on the comeup, just perfectly calm, like the constant disjointed internal monologue goes quiet and anything you focus on becomes the only thing in your mind. I don't know if I dose lower than most people or have an atypical response but it feels so peaceful.
If you have the money you can get anything. There was also that D isomer 2-FMA that was about to be available a short time before the mass China ban. It seemed to essentially eliminate any negative side effects and perfect the drug.
