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2017-07-26 at 6:15 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSHey, I just thought of a great, and laughably stupid, way to potentially incentivize low quality men to receive vasectomies, or at least the vasalgel once/if it comes to market. It would require an organization and campaign by someone wealthy and somewhat well known, or at least respected, a figure in academia.
I'll skip straight to the point, it should be simple enough to surmise. Create a viral campaign, fueled by controversy that stems from an outright avowed support of (voluntary) eugenics, an education campaign dealing with the myths and misconceptions and explaining why it is in fact a very good thing that is not unethical/immoral at all.
Finally leading to various forms of highly secure user specific identification verifying them as members who have enrolled in the campaign to receive such status at no cost.
Essentially, convince ghetto men to do so because they would receive an identifier that could simply state, and would be heavily marketed as such, "I can't get no bitches pregnant."
The immense benefit would be, as we would claim, that "bitches" would be far more willing to fuck with them if they knew there was no rirsk of pregnancy, leading to sex being attained at a far lower "cost" as well as a considerably higher quantity being attained.
Low quality people would be absolutely unconcerned and largely oblivious to the atomic bitchfest caused by various facets of white leftist culture.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-25 at 7:59 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by Lanny Also what about Sartre makes him autistic in your mind Malice? The dude was a public intellectual, surprisingly well liked for being astoundingly ugly, and was a real playa on the campus scene.
I wasn't even serious. Did you not catch that in my posts?
Originally posted by aldra The cycle of autism - being so autistic all you can ever talk about is autism, so you end up inflicting it upon anyone who engages with you
Ahaha, oh man. Alright, I'll stop, but still, there's a certain degenerate pleasure from this akin to what it feels like to fool children in a rather malevolent manner. Fooling Lanny has a certain charm to it.
I really did manage to set off a chain of autism. It's like watching beautiful virus you engineered spread before your eyes.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-25 at 6:19 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by anra kill yourself
Suicide is vastly overrepresented among those with autism. Understanding the critical necessity of positive social relations for human well being, mental health, as well as the innate propensity due to various neurological factors, such as hyperglutamatergia, chronic neurological inflammation stemming from from the previous factor and its imbalance with GABA, abnormally low serotonin levels and abnormalities in this and other systems, even the chronic stress stemming from abnormalities in the amygdala.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-24 at 7:28 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS*large conference*
"Professor Malice, where did the origins of your philosophical treatise first begin to arise?"
"It was on a now defunct website titled Niggas In Space."
"I'm sorry, could you repeat that?"The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-24 at 9:04 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSNah dude, I wasn't serious.
It's going to take a very long time for me to recover and develop enough, if it ever occurs at all, for friendships to even be a possibility. There are countless facets to this. Essentially you have to think of it as necessitating a prolonged and intensive therapeutic process.
I'm not sure I'll ever be able to properly convey just exactly what lead me to detach and isolate myself to such an extreme, inhuman, extent for so long. It isn't a bad thing, but even the people here, let alone normal people with fulfilling social lives, cannot imagine how I came to perceive the world.
I genuinely have profound anthropophobia, which is incredibly rare. I wasn't exaggerating when I stated that intimacy, in any form, is one of my greatest fears. There's a very real chance I'm never going to be able to connect to anyone or form real relationships, and explaining why is exceedingly difficult. It may be fine, I may be able to adapt and learn to accept being around others, derive enough of the innate need for companionship to be able to survive, even thrive, but it isn't the same. Something that has been developing over a lifetime and involves an array of advanced subjects, particularly for a period that is close to 15 years at this point.
The impression given online is completely inaccurate. To be perfectly honest, I can't even feel a proper emotional connection to animals at this point. It's almost akin to a form of severe depersonalization/derealization, or the most severe forms of autism where they just end up completely withdrawn into themselves and unresponsive to the world around them.
I don't know, it's probably been the profound lack of people, intimacy, and how closed off I've become after so long, particularly during such a critical period of development. I'm likely going to need intensive MDMA therapy sessions with the right person or people over a prolonged period to overcome this as much as I'm able to.
I completely understand the response to being held or wrapped tightly. It's actually common among those on the spectrum, which is why weighted blankets are a popular therapeutic accessory. The desire to sleep and snuggle with someone, or even an animal, as well.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-24 at 7:57 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSDear god I should always keep some benzos on hand. The things that horrify me have absolutely nothing to do with mundane life, with what normal people fixate on. There are simply various aspects fund*amental to life itself, particularly in the form of human existence, that almost feel unbearable to fully ascertain and accept.
Instead I simply view anime to calm myself for some time until I can sufficiently remain occupied and distracted again.
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2017-07-24 at 3:15 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSMQ should really make a series of videos highlighting Chootie's best moments.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-23 at 9:41 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS"It is good to be a cynic—it is better to be a contented cat — and it is best not to exist at all. Universal suicide is the most logical thing in the world—we reject it only because of our primitive cowardice and childish fear of the dark. If we were sensible we would seek death—the same blissful blank which we enjoyed before we existed."
Lovecraft was severely depressed for most of his life. Suicide is a wonderful thing. No matter how bad things become, at least you can always return to the eternal peace and safety of non-existence.
Ultimately I think universal suicide may essentially be how the end of life occurs.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-23 at 7:51 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by Piles of Crack I feel like smashing my fucking head in with a brick
I often feel like I want to drive a power drill straight into my brain and let all the pain and disease out.
I've mentioned the concept of thanatos before and how it relates to my life, why my actions have been so consistently self-destructive for so long. I think I may have a perpetual urge to die, to return to non-existence, that never fully goes away, even during manic moods and happy moments.
I think I'm the kind of person that could commit suicide even at their happiest moment, having been genuinely happy for years, over a decade.
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2017-07-22 at 8:26 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by cerakote no she makes me want to go outside and pet my cats and do coloring books and shit
Hey, that's exactly the kind of thing I normally want to do and I've literally never seen a girl who had that effect on me. I swear I had this exact same fantasy recently.
I have referred to myself as a vision of divine purity many times in the past, in my mind, mostly. I don't recall what other related phrases I used when having those thoughts.
Fuck being a "man". For all the deluded religious freaks out there, I do believe that Jesus said something along the lines of "To enter the kingdom of heaven you must become as this child." Wait, that's totally inaccurate, the vast majority of children are fucking dicks and terrible in their own special way. They're still human after all, simply romanticized due to biological instinct.
I am the ideal child of Christ. Note that Jesus was also a virgin.
Well, as to those masturbation sessions, I genuinely didn't really want to, I just felt I should attempt it just to see if it revealed any problems caused from not ejaculating in so long, to prevent any potential health problems. Looks like it isn't even a risk for me, probably, and if it was becoming one I would probably feel it.
Give me a house full of tendies and kitties, motherfuckers, I don't want your women. They are inherently evil and the most destructive force in modern civilization.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-22 at 6:09 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSI don't care about sinking to this level of autism, I want a weighted blanket. Who doesn't like warm, snug, fluffy soft comforting blankets? The weighted aspect has pretty sound benefits. I didn't choose to be born with a fucked up brain that goes haywire so easily.
God, I wasn't nearly this bad in the past. That severe mental breakdown and the ensuing 3 years really fucked me up and did some damage.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-23 at 9:50 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSThe nice thing about spending all your waking hours in a small inflatable pool surrounded by alcohol containers is that you could just lazily pour it over your mouth without worrying about spills or mess, even use the sanitizing effect as an alternative to showering. Then if you ever became desperate enough you could just drink the pool water, which would re-hydrate you as well.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-22 at 6:54 AM UTC in Yeah, and I don't like talkin' to strangers...Slavery did not build the US. Or, rather, it certainly wasn't anywhere close to being a primary or pivotal factor. This is a complete myth that has been perpetuated because it aligns with the leftist narrative and it goes unchallenged due to the association and presumption of racism.
Only a small percentage of the population owned slaves, they weren't particularly productive, slavery is very economically inefficient, particularly in that era when labor in general was far less efficient due to the state of technological economic advancement, it produced almost nothing of lasting value, the innovation that truly generates economic advancement/growth, afterwards blacks did a great amount of harm and are currently a large net drain on society, and there are many countries with negligible amounts of historical slavery that did just as well, relative to their circumstances, as those with far larger amounts.
Blacks contributed almost nothing to the current state of America.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-21 at 9:23 AM UTC in Yeah, and I don't like talkin' to strangers...War is hell. Believing it wouldn’t effect you because you’re desensitized online, from some events IRL, or because of how strongly depression as severe as yours blunts your emotion, is incredibly naive.
It would almost be guaranteed to change you, and for the worse. You would likely never get fully over it, fully recover.
For people like us, when we’re at our darkest points, occurrences like these are the pivotal aspects that push us to fulfilling suicide.
Thank god I never made the mistake of killing someone, I know I would either be dead or under psychiatric care, completely broken, for the rest of my life.
Existence is already barbaric and grotesque enough. An existential horror.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-21 at 2:54 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSI didn't even want nudes. I don't care about women (or men, of course). I simply provided them out of a sense of courtesy.
Requesting nudes from a lady is far too distasteful.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-20 at 10:30 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSOh, cool, Little Guy (girl) is willing to eat indoors as long as I'm far enough away from her. Uh oh, the wind could definitely close the screen door I had open a bit. Not closed shut, but I'm worried she'll freak out. I guess I'll just try pushing it open with a broom, but considering how it affected her when the wind blew over the food bowl and slammed the screen door against the wall a while ago it would take her a while to get to this level of trust again, which I really don't want.
It is really nice to see progress in cats like her, strays/ferals, and the wind possibly blowing over the bowls won't be an issue (I really should just attach something heavy to the bottom or rig something to place them.).
Alright, and she's out safe after looking around a bit and finally pushing it open enough. It was just barely closed to much for her to feel she could slip through it. I'll make sure to prop it open next time.
Definitely like her eating and drinking inside. Will make her more at ease indoors and around people, less likelihood of her getting spooked or the neighbor's kids or dogs coming by. I hate being seen, or even the possibility of it. Still anthropophobic and agoraphobic to an extent.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-20 at 9:32 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSI did it...I FINALLY DID IT!!! After at least 20 days, up to a month, without even coming from a wet dream, with severe erectile dysfunction and complete inorgasmia I came! I ACTUALLY CAME!
It took 3 hours of off and on attempts, deciding to give up multiple times because it felt it clearly wasn't going to happen, then changing my mind, but I finally did it. The details don't matter.
Christ I made a mess. That was a huge fucking load. I began coming too fast and couldn't aim into a receptacle in time, shot all over the bed sheet.
Still feel jittery.
Well, I won't be doing that again. Not worth it. Sex acts (haven't tried actual sex) are incredibly boring/uninteresting and stupid. There are far better things in life. I wouldn't have minded never coming again, but felt I should drain myself just to be safe. It was not worth it, by far, a chasmic distance.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-18 at 11:59 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by hydromorphone I wish. I wanna do that with PoC sometime soon, hopefully.
MDMA therapy with you is probably the most positive thing PoC could experience. It's a life changing event for many people if done properly, with the right person or people.
Originally posted by Discount Whore 2.0 in five days you will be posting about how depressed you are just like malice goes through his manic cycles
youre talking about a guy who brags about destroying people. Treating people like shit overpowers "good souls" I mean hitler loved dogs
Hitler is actually one of my role models. Even if you disagree with him, you can't deny he was one of the greatest men in history. I've also come across some fascinating information about what he was like in his earlier life, the social aspect of his being.
Also, I don't really go through manic cycles. I've never been close to being manic. I'm either mildly depressed or severely depressed. If I do have cycles, which seems to be the case, they're cycles where my depression worsens and I lose the ability to function, even skipping eating for up to 3 days (Actually my third day fasting now, although the cycle ended yesterday. Purposefully done.) and showers for longer than that.
I'm completely serious, what you perceive as manic is simply somewhat above baseline, I'm really not particularly happy or energetic. Hmm, well, actually, looking at the symptoms I'm not particularly elated and I never experience euphoria and my physical energy is still low, although there's certainly a rise in cognitive energy.
The lack of euphoria and physical energy could be explained by the severity and length of my depression, how extreme(ly unnatural) and unhealthy my lifestyle is (Complete lack of social relationships or interaction.), along with some aspects of aspergers, the very low emotionality and possibly physical energy levels, the problems caused by low muscle tone such as endurance and fatigue.
So, utilizing a 1-10 point system to illustrate this, if I'm naturally at a 1 on certain symptoms of mania, primarily mood and physical energy, and mania raises it by 5, I'm only at a 6 whereas a normal person, whose baseline is at 5, is pushed to the maximum level where the symptoms are undeniable.
I actually recall reading recently that among teens (possibly at age 17) those classified as gifted (Me.) were found to have somewhere around a 4x risk of having or developing bipolar disorder relative to the general population. It may also be greatly overrepresented, have a high comorbidity, among those with ASD.
I never thought of this before! I may actually be mildly bipolar. This would perfectly explain the cycles I've repeatedly gone through. Well, shit, that's just another major thing that may be wrong with me. At least it's only mild and I already know how to treat it due my knowledge of psychiatric disorders, neurology, and pharmacology.
There's actually a strong correlation between high intellectual or artistic achievement and bipolar disorder. Of course it's during the manic phases that positive development, production, occurs.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-19 at 6:43 AM UTC in Which poster do you hate the most?
Originally posted by cerakote malice when he's tardposting (most of the time)
Oh, you're just butt hurt because I tore you a new one, which was well deserved.
It's flattering, really, that it had such an impact on you and you're still upset over a few posts on a small message board. What a petty boy you are, it's endearing, in a way. Like a senpai bullying and dominating his kohai in good natured jest.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-19 at 6:06 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSGee, maybe I should eventually publish an amateur paper on my "Autism as a Self Perpetuating Traumatic Cycle" theory. It's so oddly synergistic it may lead to a root cause, something analogous to a "big bang" event. There's also "The Scientific Asperger's Mind" paper I have in mind, the cognitive impact of the above would clearly be incorporated.
Purely through amateur interest, one of a multitude, I already clearly surpass Discount Whore in knowledge, understanding, and skill/aptitude for application. This is despite him having formal education and training, actually working in the field, of biology.
Although, we all know biologists do tend to be rather low on the scientific ranking, now don't we?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!