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2016-06-19 at 8:53 PM UTC in To what extent of being responsible for someones death would you feel bad?It reminds me of a post I read from an EMT. In their experience, every single driver who had had someone commit suicide by jumping in front of their vehicle needed to be sedated.
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2016-06-19 at 12:32 AM UTC in Cringe TheoryEmpathy-The vacarious experiencing of emotions.
Wikipedia says social awkwardness or embarrassment is the cause of cringe.
I prefer the more nuanced view that cringe is the mereological fusion of fedoras, reading ayn rand, and misreading nietzsche.
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2016-06-18 at 1:41 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionWireheading set to induce pleasure for activities we consider beneficial. Or at leats greater pleasure, there already is the basal hedonic state. Of course no pleasure at all while not engaging in those activities would be problematic. "Man is something to be surpassed." The creation of a new ___ man. This could be far more feasible, occur much sooner, than editing genes.
I had a thought: Do buddhist monks achieve a state similar to wireheading? The majority don't seem to produce much benefit for others. Other than the inner peace/psychological health-stability, introspection/understanding of the self and the nature of the consciousness and (human) existence, which could well be severely flawed and still requires knowledge (neuroscience, genetics). But for the primary, pain/instability could be prevented. Secondary, of questionable benefit in this state and ideally left to something superior, such as Kurtzweil's idea of nanobots connecting the human brain/mind to a cloud like interface.
I ws looking for an old post related to this so I could quote you saying why this wouldn't work, although I hadn't expounded on it, and never bothered to look into this, which you mentioned: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/I_Am_a_Strange_LoopNot particularly but that would be a good strategy. I was just tripping on what I'm thinking was 25I and was thinking about Hofstadter's "consciousness as recursion" theory and how there are some interesting isomorphisms between subjective cognitive experience and the lambda calculus model of computation(eval/apply) that don't exist with the turing machine model.
It's actually a pretty simple idea although it has profound and complex implications, I just know you're not interested in computer science and would likely never take the time to learn about it.
It surfaced a faint memory of having come to the conclusion/idea that I would define consciousness in part as self-referential system. Amusingly, it may have been during a trip as well, who knows how long ago.
"lambda calculus model of computation(eval/apply)"
Of course I don't understand this, and at the time stated that I wouldn't look into it in part because I thought you were attempting to manipulate me in a playful way. You make me feel inadequate and inferior, which I am. Poorer verbal/communicative skills are no surprise (autism and use it or lose it), along with the incredible damage I've done. All I have is neuroscience, pharmacology, my systemization of humanity, which is a large part of what made me so miserable.
I'm not even sure why I'm posting this, I'm just very depressed. I can't see any way out of this and I don't know whether there's anything to lose to begin with. -
2016-06-18 at 12:46 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
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2016-06-17 at 4:43 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionAlso, received my pyrazolam today. May have had some residual solvent(s) based on the slight scent I detected, but I immediately thought "How bad can it be?", then applied it sublingual with vinopectine (strong local vasodilation), not even having the benefits of hte gastrointestinal or hepatic system offering some protection because unsurprisingly I no longer value my health much since the odds are I won't live long anyway. It's also a yellowish color, so it could be a somewhat shitty since/poorly purified. Someone on RCSources noticed this too, they said they had recently received some that was orange and not water soluble, which pyrazolam is supposed to be and stated they were going to send it to Energy Control for testing. Another person stated that in their experience this was standard for the pyrazolam they had received from sources and that it still had the intended effects, but that changes nothing.
As for the effects, it's pretty much exactly what I wanted, very selective anxiolysis without side effects. It's neither fun nor interesting, and isn't meant to be, but very therapeutic and when I was researching GABA-A subreceptors came across some valuable information that leads me to believe that benzos of this nature could be sustaible in the long-term and avoid the long-term risks that have been found, mainly a greatly increased risk for dementia and alzheimer's. /end review
There are some very promising novel anxiolytics in the pipeline (http://mentalhealthdaily.com/2015/02/26/5-new-anxiety-medications-in-development-2015/). Actually, they don't seem particularly promising at all and most don't pan out. May have been thinking of some in some of my files.
My ideal drug would have been this, although Nardil is the best choice for me because I also need the potent anti-depressive effects, but the synthesis didn't scale due to random explosions (you are dealing with hydrazine), which I may have found the cause of, and another veteran user who haqd attempted it a few months before stated that it was purification that was difficult,
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2016-06-17 at 2:17 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
Drink bleach anyway. I'm not posting anything actually illegal out of respect for Lanny, i'm allowed to post clothed lolis and vocaroo clips of little girls saying hot things and in return i keep it legal. It's a social contract if ever there were one.
You weren't even the one that made the post I linked to, and I don't know what was contained in that image you posted, I was simply concerned. I've no problem as long as you keep it legal, it's just that Lanny had stated that he doesn't want anything that could get him involved in any legal actions, he'd hand over what was requested if subpeonaed, and give the lack of improvements on a simple message board over such a long period of time, which for an alleged coder of Lanny's level should be fairly simple, I believe it reflects that a community of this nature, small, composed of refugees many times over some clinging to the only social community they have left (I'm one of them) or an idealized memory of what TOTSE stood for and never really was (Spectral), quite honestly doesn't quite deserve even that effort; as time goes on an he advances in life he could well lose interest.
Actually, unless there's a massive bubble pop that never quite rebounds, some tragedy in his life, or a major shift in industry, Lanny's peak career earnings should be more than enough to simply pay someone else to do the work for him. Think of my analysis and how much suffering you would cause us, quite realistically potentially leading many down the path of suicide (www.theviewfromhell.blogspot.com/2011/05/maslow-be-damned-how-social-belonging.html), you faux-utilitarian. -
2016-06-17 at 12:32 AM UTC in I wish I had psychosis sometimes.You should really watch the scenes with Sara Goldfarb in Requiem for a Dream to get a better idea of what psychosis is really like.
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2016-06-15 at 11:29 PM UTC in Most people are in denial about death, but I'm not.
They don't call it "Le petite mort" for no reason….
You reminded me of Schopenhauer's "Devil's Laughter". The post-orgasm moment of clarity when we realize we're slaves to our biological imperative, uncaring of our happiness.
From his essay, On WomenOnly a male intellect clouded by the sexual drive could call the stunted, narrow-shouldered, broad-hipped and short-legged sex the fair sex … More fittingly than the fair sex, women could be called the unaesthetic sex. Neither for music, nor poetry, nor the plastic arts do they possess any real feeling of receptivity: if they affect to do so, it is merely mimicry in service of their effort to please.
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2016-06-15 at 10:56 PM UTC in Whenever I complain about women on other forums (especially 4chan)...redpill?
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2016-06-15 at 10:55 PM UTC in Things I gotta start doing...
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2016-06-15 at 10:39 PM UTC in I got a new cat
No, I found it in an alley walking home drunk one night, it was hung up on a fence
It didn't seem creepy to me, but now it does due to way you found it.
Imagine making eery paintings like these, the kind that would be perfect for whatever old show had stories like these (Did the twilight zone ever do this? Seems like they may have done something similar.), and leaving them in the most fitting places you could find. Like treasures for urban explorers.
If I was an artist I would totally do that, for the vast majority, no one's going to buy your shit or pay a decent price for it anyway, stop fooling yourself. It's bettert than leaving them to rot in your "studio"/publicstorage/attic/garage/closet/whatever and you'd have a higher chance of achieving some recognition. -
2016-06-15 at 10:31 PM UTC in Anal masturbation while watching straight pornThe Aneros is highly recommended, or was, you know how markets/technology can move quickly, but it seems pretty overpriced IMO. I'd research the best options and if it seems overpriced look for recommendations for a good Chinese clone (fuck intellectual property).
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2016-06-15 at 10:27 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
Ahw, does it offend your feminine sensibilities? Drink bleach, SJW cuck.
Just looking out for the site. Rational self-interest and all that. -
2016-06-15 at 10:14 PM UTC in anti-depressants are bullshitAs I wrote in an other thread: Obvious confounder: Does it seem unlikely that the kind of people who commit mass killings such as these are far more likely than the general population to be on psychiatric medication due to serious mental health problems?
Even if it was the case that in an incredibly small fraction of a percentage of people who were somehow genetically succeptible/predisposed to having this behavior triggered, the benefits could still far outweigh the harm. Overall, as I've stated before, the percentage of deaths from mass shootings is so small that they simply shouldn't matter, he vast majority of people are simply emotion driven idiots, and it's the emotional impact that gives them due to the ramifications stemming from political machinations. (Yes, that rhyme was intentional.)
-And yes the serotonin hypothesis of depression is incredibly overly simplistic and parochial bullshit that should have been abandoned long ago and will one day be seen as an absolute embarassment, but they aren't the only anti-depressants. -
2016-06-14 at 11:10 PM UTC in Lost my job last week after giving 100%
1. A degree in BA
2. Business Administration
Lanny will hate you for thise. I don't know how it is in Germany, but here in the US that degree has terrible career prospects. Why the hell did you choose it? Quite honestly, the best use for what you learned would be to become a darknet dealer, at least to supplement your income; and this has notihng to do with me. -
2016-06-14 at 8:45 PM UTC in I got a new job
Wow the cat picture actually worked.
It actually doesn't seem like a bad idea for lower level positions like him, particularly ones that are less formal/more laid back and care more about having people who will mesh will into the group. Interesting note tangentially related to this, the food service industry was shown to have the highest rate of drug/marijuana use, which isn't surprising.
Makes him stand out, look more human compared to all the all the other faceless applications that are only words on paper, seem more memorable, friendly, easy going/laid back.
Yes, of course he didn't think it through at all, I didn't even bother to say "to this level", but it is rather clever after the fact. -
2016-06-13 at 10:41 PM UTC in I got a new job
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2016-06-13 at 9:49 PM UTC in Lost my job last week after giving 100%Drug exporter.
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2016-06-13 at 9:31 PM UTC in Why is everyone such a fucking pussy?
IAre there things that I'd be offended about if someone joked about them? Yes, there are.
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Oh… there are.
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2016-06-13 at 9:28 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
It's tasteless but as far as I can tell it's not illegal. Law enforcement or a lawyer are free to tell me otherwise, legal precedent seems to be that it's acceptable.
I recalled reading that non-nude can be considered CP if, I'll just quote this:
https://www.justice.gov/criminal-ceos/citizens-guide-us-federal-law-child-pornographyNotably, the legal definition of sexually explicit conduct does not require that an image depict a child engaging in sexual activity. A picture of a naked child may constitute illegal child pornography if it is sufficiently sexually suggestive. Additionally, the age of consent for sexual activity in a given state is irrelevant; any depiction of a minor under 18 years of age engaging in sexually explicit conduct is illegal.
Which is why I thought it may have been crossing the line into that fuzzy realm.Undeveloped film, undeveloped videotape, and electronically stored data that can be converted into a visual image of child pornography are also deemed illegal visual depictions under federal law.
CP has likely already been posted: http://niggasin.space/forum/technophiliacs-technophiles/104613-steganography-help-plz
And if LE can figure it out, which I'm guessing they can since Sophie told him to "figure it out", hopefully they won't come across that. Unlikely, given the vastness of the internet and our obscurity.