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2018-03-09 at 9:29 PM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by Enter Not as funny now that he's dead, but still a classic:
One day I want to play DDR with someone and just before it's my turn say, "Let me show you my secret technique.", then pull out a vial of coke and snort a line.
"Goddamn, I said god.damn!"
I actually really enjoy dancing, but I'm so fucking uncoordinated due to the 'tism.
I also want to memorize the Sagiri dance from Eromanga's OP, Platinum Disco from Monogatari, and maybe Hare Hare Yukai from Haruhi. -
2018-03-09 at 9:17 PM UTC in Does anyone else get an intensely euphoric feeling when they're about to go to sleep?
Originally posted by Fox Paws I think about death most times before I fall asleep. That’s about it.
Although this morning I did hear a really loud sound like a woman in pain somewhere in my house. Like the next room over. When I got up to check there was no one there.
Wait was that a hallucination
Can you imagine how great it would be to painlessly die in your sleep without being aware of it?
There have been countless times when I've woken up pissed off because it didn't happen. -
2018-03-09 at 7:54 PM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.Rrrrrrrggghhh, I’m cutting down on pot due to negative effects and because I feel I’ve recovered from PTSD enough and I’m so fucking angry. I wish I had some benzos.
It’s too fucking hot and I had to wait outside in a line before I could get into the Social Security office. I’m so ancap just stepping foot into a federal building makes me rage. This must be how Timothy McVeigh felt. -
2018-03-09 at 7:20 PM UTC in Most of my nightmares are about secondary schoolWell, yeah, but even without that aspect it was still pretty fucking bad. Having years of your life robbed from you and forced to do pointless bullshit.
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2018-03-09 at 7:03 PM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.It’s interesting how realistically dreams can recreate sensations. Not having smoked weed before bed and being close to waking likely increased this effect.
In the dream I was able to give myself a blowjob. At first it felt much more like sucking a cock than getting blown, which is what people generally report, but since I wasn’t limited by my flexibility I was able to hook my arms behind my legs and start thrusting into my mouth and it felt pretty good, a lot more like what getting a blowjob feels like. It really felt like my cock was getting stimulated by a mouth and tongue despite never actually having experienced that. I came into my own mouth and could feel my cock pulsing while having an orgasm and my mouth getting cum shot into it.
I woke up afterward and the first thing I did was check whether I’d had a wet dream. I thought I hadn’t, but later realized I did. Dangit. -
2018-03-09 at 6:49 PM UTC in Most of my nightmares are about secondary schoolHigh school caused serious damage to my life. Part of the reason why I hate statism so much.
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2018-03-09 at 5:44 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
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2018-03-09 at 5:03 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
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2018-03-09 at 4:07 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
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2018-03-09 at 4:04 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.Ooh, they released some of the calls from the Parkland HS shooting in Florida. Time for some audio porn. The sound of people fearing for their life is something special.
https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=parkland+911+call&page=&utm_source=opensearch -
2018-03-09 at 2:41 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by WhiskeyPhoenix It hasn't done you a damn bit of a good because you're still as mentally damaged as the rest of us here who struggle with mental health yet you talk down to everyone as if you've figured it all out and cured yourself. Even now you just want benzos and amphetamines; what a coincidence, the two most abusable forms of psychiatric medicine.
That's not true at all, PoC. The interventions I tried kept me from becoming completely insane or committing suicide. They prevented a lot of damage, helped me improve and recover, and I learned a lot about neuroscience and pharmacology, as well as myself.
I talk down to others because the overwhelming majority of human beings are utterly worthless, absolutely reprehensible, imbeciles.
I've never claimed I cured myself at all, although I did manage to greatly reduce my symptoms of autism. I use to be a lot worse in the past.
It's not a coincidence. Part of the reason they're so abusable is because they actually work. I genuinely need them. ADD and anxiety are very common comorbidities for people on the autism spectrum. They also help address numerous other issues related to the disorder.
Are you in a bad mood? I won't retaliate, we all know how exceedingly sensitive and easily hurt you are. Our poor resident chronically suicidal baby. Is it that I'm actually on a trajectory to escape this hell and recover while you know there's no way out for you? Well, there is one way out...
Originally posted by greenplastic Malice just blames the fuck out of everything else but himself for his problems
Zen zen chigau. I've readily admitted my numerous failure and terrible decisions in life. I do blame autism and severe mental illness for many of my problems because that's actually the case. Do you have any idea what it's like to be autistic? It's a serious fucking disorder with a ton of symptoms. I've had a shitty life as well. Born to uneducated poor immigrant parents in fucking South Central Los Angeles, as a fucking non-Asian minority, along with all the disorders I have? Of course it's going to be far less likely and far more difficult to succeed. -
2018-03-09 at 2:24 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
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2018-03-09 at 2:21 AM UTC in urge to kill everyone you walk byBecome the next great mass murderer.
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2018-03-09 at 12:38 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.Mein Leiden
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2018-03-09 at 12:32 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.I really just want Vyvanse and Klonopin now, with some ashwagandha, memantine, T-PAIN, and maybe a few more things that have slipped my mind. I think those are really the main things I need.
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2018-03-09 at 12:31 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by Issue313 Malice, I've never seen someone work so hard diagnosing himself with different diseases and seeking pharmaceutical cures as you.
Dude, you have no idea. I took it to an insane degree for a prolonged period. Some people here may remember how huge my stack was, how many substances I experimented with and researched.
There were very good reasons for that as well. I am unbelievably fucked up and was in an unbearable state of constant suffering.
It may have been very similar to the desperation you felt when you had cancer. -
2018-03-09 at 12:28 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.No, not really. To be honest, most people here aren't very smart and have terrible taste. There are just some things that you're likely only going to get a good answer from a few people who specialize in a certain subject or have particular shared interests.
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2018-03-09 at 12:20 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
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2018-03-09 at 12:05 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.Lanny, do you have any recommendations for ambient/background music to play while studying/doing work?
I'm asking because you have such good taste.
What particularly comes to mind is the music you had on during one of your cooking with comrade Lanny videos, which I commented on.
I also want some happy, upbeat music to listen to as a form of therapy. -
2018-03-08 at 5:36 PM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by §m£ÂgØL2becausescronfuckeduptheforum Well, you know mine. For a while, loud noises scared the fuck out of me. When I'd see a revolver on tv my heart would sometimes race. Didn't like playing games with guns. I'm over it now.
Yeah, having a violent maniac after you who may actually kill you is scary as fuck. I probably had an entire gang after me. Then I fucking got abused right afterward, which only made everything far worse.
