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2017-04-22 at 7:21 AM UTC in I WILL BOMB LODON (322 is repaeting again(Hah, I remember those. Good ol' childish pranks. Smoke bombs were cool too. Fuck up your school, subvert authority.
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2017-04-22 at 7:15 AM UTC in Is being a lawyer a "noble profession"?The legal system is an absolute abomination. I wouldn't say most are particularly as the overwhelming majority of legal cases do not appear to be noble causes worth fighting for.
At the very least I sure as hell wouldn't go into that field and, honestly, if you went into it you're likely either are or were incredibly naive and likely had other critical flaws that will bother me and cause apprehension. I mean, good god, if you think about what it actually entails, I would just go insane. Can you imagine dedicating that much of your life to just memorizing the legal code, procedures, and case studies? Doesn't seem even close to being worth it, the money and status don't mean much to me. -
2017-04-22 at 3:41 AM UTC in SF Power OutageImagine someone waking up to this and genuinely believing they were blind, completely freaking out.
"Oh no, I can't see! I'm blind!"
Just a silly thought. God, I can't really see it happening to an adult, but it would be funny as hell if a kid fell for this. -
2017-04-22 at 3:13 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by RestStop I truly hope you find your passion and it turns your drive on. It doesn't have to be money or woman or fame or whatever else in the big top ten. It would be immeasurably sad to see a mind as bright as yours just waste away.
I just accepted I was going to die eventually. If I had to identify what led to this, I would simply answer "causality". Everything makes absolute perfect sense, the neurological differences, the interplay between biology and environment, everything that has occurred within my mind, which may be impossible to ever properly convey.
It reminds of a description used to explain suicide. It's like being in a burning building, you jump because you reach a point where the flames and smoke become a worse option than jumping, not primarily because you genuinely believe you have nothing to live for, hearing that you do makes no difference, it's simply perceived as another presentation of being in the bell jar, where communication fails, you feel disconnected, separate and alienated from everyone, like an animal in the zoo behind glass; you can move, but the glass is always there.
How bad do you have to feel for suicide to genuinely seem like the better option, for it to push you over the edge where you overcome the most innate and powerful biological instinct, the instinct to survive and the immense fear of death? This is how people feel before they die. There's a point where depression isn't simply sadness, but you become actively dysphoric. It's relentless, chronic, nothing can cause it to cease. You can reduce it, delay it, but it will always return after a point, quite rapidly, usually when you return to being alone, to isolating yourself. It morphs you're perception of the world so that there is no joy in life, you are incapable of experiencing significant positive emotion (To give you an example, I genuinely have barely laughed in all these years, and it has never been a deep fulfilling laughter. Everything is incredibly shallow at best), the life is drained out of you, critical aspects required to allow you to live as a human being. It becomes a waking nightmare you cannot escape from.
It's really not much different from chronic pain caused by a physical source, and there is quite a bit of similarity in brain activity, except chronic pain doesn't torment you psychologically like this. It doesn't necessarily have a pill or procedure that can remedy it. "It hurts just to be alive" isn't an exaggeration. There's only so much pain and suffering a human being can be expected to endure, and the longer it continues the more it eats away at you. It doesn't make you stronger, make it more endurable because it has occurred before, it wears away at you. Far beyond the point where you can handle it alone. -
2017-04-22 at 1:27 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinI'm going to see a psychiatrist again and try to get Nardil or at least a hefty benzo dose. I'm losing the battle against depression, there's no way I can make it decades like this, continuing to live like this. I've also accepted, that regardless of how I feel, I cannot continue to exist in total isolation. I tried, tried hard to find some way to make it sustainable, but it simply does not work. It runs far to contrary to human biology.
No family, indigent, literally have not had social relationships in 14 years, purposefully isolating and detaching myself, filled with regrets, I really wish I had been diagnosed early and put on medication and depression. I'm about as depressed, isolated, unfulfilled, anxious, and tormented by my thoughts as you can get. This is a really fucked up situation to be in. Realistically, I'm probably pretty much fucked with pretty poor odds of never committing suicide or ever having a particularly good quality of life.
I want to work in an animal sanctuary, just surrounded by non-human friends like me.
The thought of me committing some grand crime to go out with is a complete joke when I'm in this state, completely non-functional. I really shouldn't even joke around about it. -
2017-04-22 at 1:03 AM UTC in Shoplifter caught with more than 100g of heroin gets 5 years in prisonWhat a stupid motherfucker. But, hey, 100g of heroin and only 5 years doesn't seem that bad for the US. Christ, some of these states are fuckign nightmares when it comes to drugs and prison. Don't know if he could get out early as well.
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2017-04-21 at 4:38 AM UTC in Cat PI fred
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2017-04-20 at 7:06 AM UTC in is 420 biches
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2017-04-20 at 6:23 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
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2017-04-20 at 5:56 AM UTC in baccy thread 3 (tips ^& guides*) almost transplating time 5 weeks inThose look nice and healthy. Gardening is a good meditative exercise.
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2017-04-20 at 5:54 AM UTC in is 420 bichesI'm surprised "chronic is the tonic" only has 4 hits: https://www.google.com/search?q=%22chronic+is+the+tonic%22&oq=%22chronic+is+the+tonic%22&aqs=chrome..69i57.5643j0j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8
Quite some time ago I recall finding no hits for "marijuana is my nirvana". In fact, this should now become the first since it was probably on one of the forums that went down. -
2017-04-20 at 5:43 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinYou know, I've genuinely thought about writing autistic-level researched guides on mass murder and terrorism and anonymously distributing and popularizing them on the chans, and grappled with the ethics, but maybe a guide to unique/hilarious suicides would be permissible and a good outlet/pet project.
Suicides have so much more potential, if only everyone saw the world this way and could work up the energy/motivation for one last big bang. -
2017-04-20 at 5:35 AM UTC in is 420 bichesNo I don't, I only get that good-good.
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2017-04-20 at 5:34 AM UTC in THE FAGGOT LISTLiar, you're categorizing the site because law enforcement requested it in order to have documentation for what they perceive to be my likely eventual initiation of mass murder!
You've done this before, don't think we've forgotten, statist! Authoritarian! -
2017-04-20 at 5:23 AM UTC in is 420 bichesGotta check out those candy store deals tomorrow. Hopefully Purple Star really has something good this year.
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2017-04-20 at 5:22 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by Captain Falcon VCists fund things based off the potential to profit off it. It doesn't matter if the idea is stupid, if it sells. The fundamental disconnect between management and talent lies in that crevice, and bridging that gap is what makes for a successful business.
Not having a stupid idea really tends to help, to be fair. -
2017-04-20 at 5:18 AM UTC in cat pic threadNot really, I don't want to impose anything on them, but some form of ID is useful for practical purposes.
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2017-04-20 at 5:15 AM UTC in Living in the past
Originally posted by HampTheToker Wow, all y'all niggas clueless af.
War has always been man's greatest pastime.
"Welp, we've built a purdy nifty lil society here. Now, let's go see the world, fuck bitches, and get money."
Almost all aspects of large "civilized societies" revolved around waging war and expanding culture. If you were a grown man during that time period, then you were most likely to be a warrior, unless you were a weiny. Then, you'd be a farmer or some such shit.
If true, it only demonstrates the vileness of the human race and the immorality of creating more.
But I do believe the species is inherently quite violent, subdued only by modern institutions and cultural developments (That's right, it's always or all genetics, Lanny. Of course, anarcho-neckbeardautismocapitalism would not be free reign/chaos, as it is often misrepresented. Wouldn't even need to assume the goodness of culture, that's why private defense is such an integral part.), and this aligns with my view of the practical immorality of creating more of my most hated species. -
2017-04-20 at 5:12 AM UTC in Living in the past
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2017-04-20 at 5:11 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by Lanny This level of stupidity isn't as uncommon as you might think. A lot of VC and seed money goes to really stupid ideas.
I know. The business model works, apparently. The big winner are supposed to make up for it. *shrugs*
Still, it would be fun to literally set out with a goal of seeing what the stupidest thing you could get funded is or downright ripping them off.