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2017-07-18 at 3:11 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSThe optimal level of happiness. Diminishing returns to attempts to increase net well-being in life based on research related to the hedonic treadmill and the costs.
Ultimately you can reduce happiness, as with many other things, as being similar to a multivitamin. Something necessary for proper biological function. Certainly it can be excessive, merely ponder mania, or thought experiments involving wire heads.
Then an argument against seeking happiness primarily based on my interpretation of original Buddhist ideology as well as the heavy detrimental effects and costs involved as well as the inverse, the benefits gained. Abandon your desire for happiness, abandon happiness itself. An explanation for why my goal in life is not to be happy, to be as happy as possible, and why I consider this to be an exceedingly crude goal.
"Why don't you care about happiness (as others do)?"
"Evoking emotional states is not my goal in life." -
2017-07-18 at 2:56 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSI am becoming increasingly convinced that I'm going to need to take the chance (I don't believe it will be a high risk of negative outcomes.) on gamma knife surgery to lesion a relatively large amount of my right amygdala.
It plays a critical role in ASD, in some of the strongest detrimental effects, effects on quality of life and level of functioning.
Either that or find a rare drug that may reduce activity at the amygdala, ideally primarily the right hemisphere.
GABA based anxiety can be treated easily enough with Nardil, and augmented with benzos when stronger effects are needed, but this can't, and the effects are different than standard anxiety. Currently else has as powerful a detrimental impact on my life as this, and I doubt it will ever be adequately attenuated without surgery. -
2017-07-18 at 2:47 AM UTC in hey so How long can a man live without^ That would totally be my ideal arrangement. A two story house that's split in two, with shared common areas if we desire company.
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2017-07-18 at 2 AM UTC in my mind is really weird
Originally posted by sploo everyone has autism clearly
you have no actual understanding of other people, you read articles on disorders and then try to apply it to any minor detail a person says. you think you can read people well and that's fucking hilarious, you're totally autistic and socially oblivious. i was misdiagnosed with bipolar disorder, aspergers, psychosis, etc because i do every drug all the time and it makes me act in certain ways. you're fucking retarded if you think you can manipulate variables in your head until everyone has aurtism. my psychiatrist who i've been seeing for 6 months says that i'm normal and have OCD, depression, and polysubstance abuse. you find it impossible to believe that someone can construct a shitposting persona on a shitposting site without it being a person's true self. kill yourself idiot.
wow so motivated to acheive lowest score !!!! :o ive taken the test a shitload of times out of boredom, more than 10 times, range was 19-28, not that it actually means anything. your damaged brain can only process numbers, not an actual understanding of how people behave.
Why is the variance so high? It wouldn't surprise me in the slightest if it was analogous to your IQ tests, where you simply rationalize retaking it after receiving a score you didn't like. Your first score was 28, wasn't it?
As to your psychiatrist, I very much doubt you have a high opinion of people in the profession in general. Are you not able to easily mislead and deceive them? They have a very limited understanding and view of you, an inaccurate perception. The major symptoms you display, those that command the most attention and have the strongest negative impact on your life, can mask others, particularly when they have a high comorbidity with another disorder (OCD and depression are both highly prevalent among those with Asperger's). -
2017-07-18 at 1:44 AM UTC in How do you dress?
Originally posted by mmQ I also currently wear a gaping knee wound on my left knee from a bike wipeout the other night. It's probably a good thing I stopped driving drunk considering how I wipe out in my bike almost every time I go to the bar for the night. Lol
This would be great for cross posting into your drunk driving thread. -
2017-07-18 at 1:42 AM UTC in Hey lanny boy
Originally posted by aldra inb4 it turns out to be 'malice no longer gets SSI'
Hey, I could get off SSI one day. I am planning to go to school next month.
Well, over the table work wouldn't be worth it, especially since I could only do part-time (or would only be willing to), so I wouldn't want to lose benefits for that.
Probably safe for an indeterminate period of time, unless I somehow manage to become a darknet kingpin. -
2017-07-18 at 1:40 AM UTC in Tea time with meIt's all about that Pu-e'er tea. Gotta drink it if you don't want to seem like a tea dilettante or novice.
At the very least a strong black. Other teas don't have a strong enough flavor for my taste.
Drinking the last tea I had, a varietal black from Yunnan Sourcing. It has a unique flavor slightly reminiscent of baked sweet potatoes, particularly good for cold periods. -
2017-07-17 at 8:29 PM UTC in why dont girls like me
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2017-07-17 at 8:27 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSRuminating on various subjects in philosophy, in particular the aim of our existence, its implications, effects in our lives.
Thoughts change and attempt erection and masturbation to see if this streak of inorgasmia and lack of desire can be broken.
Visualize woman. No significant arousement. Begin to fixate on various aspects that affect a woman's physical attractiveness, the simplicity of their figure, their proportions, the basis of sex, how all aspects of romance can generally be tied back to the will of life, or evolutionary impulses.
It is utterly absurd. How do people with great intellects and knowledge manage to do this? The kind of people, such as myself, whose thoughts are never fixated on the mundane, the ordinary, but are instead perpetually focuses on the highest elements of the mind, continually within, viewing the world from above, and repeatedly being drawn inward toward the mind. It's such a radical phase shift. They must become enraptured by an episode of libidinousness.
r/iamverysmart, I don't deny it.
While attempting to become concupiscent my thoughts drifted, due to failure, to the thought of Nietzsche and Schopenhauer, his "great teacher" who he desperately attempted to refute with a life/will affirming system he was in the process of creating. I had the thought that due to his understanding of Schopenhauer, his ideological predecessor and primary influence, he may have one day abandoned this goal, come to realize his error(s), admitted his mistakes, and instead furthering the ideology, contributing novel and profound valuable insights.
This fantasy may have made me mildly aroused, possibly due to some crossover with the aforementioned attempt and mental state. -
2017-07-17 at 7:13 PM UTC in my mind is really weirdAre you sure? You explicitly stated you had Asperger’s multiple times on Zoklet. Your score on the autism quotient test doesn’t disprove or make it impossible, particularly with how inaccurate you’re likely to be. The pattern is very easy to discern and adjust for, even if only subconsciously, and you do have strong motivations for attaining the lowest plausible score you can.
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2017-07-17 at 7:05 PM UTC in why dont girls like me
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2017-07-17 at 6:47 PM UTC in my mind is really weirdHe has everything.
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2017-07-17 at 6:44 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSA relatively short time after developing full blown inorgasmia, I completely lost any sexual desire and have not regained it to date. No wet dreams either despite a few long lasting sessions, culminating in the record 21 hour event. Afterward it certainly felt like arousement and desire had become permanently higher until release, that blue balls would eventually force my hand.
Now I feel like I could never masturbate or even become aroused ever again and I would be just fine.
Very abnormal for a male my age. I really should go to a doctor at some point just for assurance that something serious isn’t causing this, such as a pituitary tumor, which is a cause of the symptoms I display of secondary hypogonadism. If the lifestyle change of going to college and giving women a chance doesn’t make a significant difference after a few months, this is a very real possibility that would explain a lot, even other aspects related to pituitary dysfunction.
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2017-07-17 at 6:24 PM UTC in The evolution of Bill Krozby: I've changed my views on sex
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2017-07-16 at 3:06 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSSploo, what if your scores within the mild schizophrenia range mirror your pattern finding ability, revealed by your high IQ test results, which will eventually develop to the point, along with other factors, that you begin to see patterns that aren't really there.
In this case it could simply be you finally losing control of your mind. -
2017-07-16 at 3:01 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSKind of unnerving to hear someone actually speak about antinatalism like this to others, especially in a foreign language.
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2017-07-16 at 8:45 AM UTC in HOT CHEETO FRIES, YAASSS FAMM YAAAAASSSBill Krozby must:
a.) Be too stupid to figure it out, to accurately categorize a thread.
b.) Repeatedly forget certain forums exist. -
2017-07-16 at 8:34 AM UTC in How Many Calories Did You Consume Today?
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2017-07-16 at 6:21 AM UTC in tfw schizophreniaIt's better to have Asperger's than schizophrenia, especially with the aspie powers, such as the memory quirk and high reading speed.
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2017-07-16 at 4:16 AM UTC in Shut up.