From TRT: You know you're alone when you don't just not celebrate the holidays because you have no one to do so with, but when they genuinely don't feel any different than any other day.
There genuinely is no difference from any other day. That's how alone I am. It's been like this for…a very long time.
This.
The only reason I even knew it was almost Christmas was because my supervisor reminded me that we were getting Thursday and Friday off, and this was the 21st.
Its hard to put into words why I dislike holidays so much, especially Christmas. I think its because people are pressured into spending money that they don't have because society tells them that they have to, and then they pretend that there is some huge meaning behind it, and ostracize anyone who doesn't do the same when really they're only doing it because "tradition."
And they refuse to respect your wishes if you ask to be left out of it, and make you feel guilty for not getting anyone anything when you repeatedly asked them not to get you anything, but they did anyway.
But back on topic:
I love the "instinct argument" when it comes to having kids. Somehow there's a difference to people between the primal instinct to have children and the primal instinct to rape, murder, and pillage.
Honestly I don't even hate kids. I hate their parents. As you said, having your own kids is irresponsible and selfish at best. And people can't just leave it at "I like kids, you don't," to them there has to be this deeper reason why we don't want kids. We're either mad at our parents, sociopaths, or some other equally stupid bullshit. Even when its explained to them that severe mental illness, repeat drug addiction, and repeat stints in prison run in my family, they say, "that doesn't necessarily mean your kid will end up like that." Once they say this, you might as well walk away, because no matter what you say, they will just repeat it over and over again. Saying that you don't want to risk it means that, to them, you are thinking about your own feelings over all of the "potential joy that your kid could have on others in the world." They seem to forget all the people it could kill because it would be adept at the use of firearms by the age of 14, or all of the people it could spread infection to because it would not be vaccinated, or all the hell it will have to go through with the way this country is and the way it is going. Hell, the way I'd raise a child would probably get CPS called on me because the way I would parent is considered cruel by the pussies that we call parents today. The thing that scares me most in this world is that in ten to fifteen years, the people I went to school with will be running the country.
No doctor in SC will sterilize a 21 year old man, I've tried. Its considered "unethical" here, because I "might change my mind." Reproductive rights of adults, especially women, with no children are pretty nonexistent here. Even people who have a kid get a hard time with it, because "what if they want more later?" When I get my insurance back I will start trying again, and probably post about it here. I wonder if I can guilt trip a doctor into doing it by saying that some third world kid in an orphanage could have had a loving home if he would have sterilized me instead of worrying that I would want my own kids if I decide to have one later. Honestly I'm not sure if I can blame the doctors, apparently people have won lawsuits because they regretted having it done later, but is there not such thing as a liability waiver?
And to make everything worse, any woman my age that I meet wants kids, and if I find a woman my age that doesn't want kids, she takes considerable issue with my generally conservative views and love of firearms because they're all liberals and radfems. Women nowadays (and a lot of men are getting this way too) can't stand the idea of having kids that are not "from them."(Now who's selfish lol) For this and many other reasons, I've given up on trying to find love. If I meet someone, great, if not, great.
I've heard the "humans would cease to exist" angle a lot, and I love the reaction I get from people when I say that that's not a bad thing. As you said, that's so far from your average person's mind that they can't seem to even fathom that somebody might actually think that, and assume you are joking. Another good one: When they say "what if your parents thought that way? You wouldn't be here right now," say "I never asked to be born."
And your "fuck mothers" comment, do you mean that literally, figuratively, or both?
