Posts by The Self Taught Man

1. 2016-02-29 at 11:27 AM UTC in Dog barks are talking to me
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   [FONT=helvetica][SIZE=12px] it was like insults directed at me
   
   
   
   
   
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   [FONT=helvetica][SIZE=12px] because dogs have supersonic hearing or something
   
   
   
   
   
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   [FONT=helvetica][SIZE=12px] and they can hear me because im the only person awake
   
   
   
   
   
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   [FONT=helvetica][SIZE=12px] so they bark
   
   
   
   
   
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   [FONT=helvetica][SIZE=12px] but since theyre used to being near people
   
   
   
   
   
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   [FONT=helvetica][SIZE=12px] their barks slightly mimic human noises
   
   
   
   
   
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   [FONT=helvetica][SIZE=12px] and the things the dogs say are actually bad
   
   
   
   
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2. 2016-02-29 at 11:22 AM UTC in Dog barks are talking to me
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   I can understand what the dog barks are saying almost
   
   Whatthefuckisgoingon
3. 2016-02-29 at 11:02 AM UTC in Describe the gimmick of the poster above you
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   Kek is a disembodied spirit existing solely in the cybernet meant to self-actualize it's name, and thus, make it rain Keks on years the Nile doesn't overflow.
4. 2016-02-29 at 10:58 AM UTC in CIVAL-IQ
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   I have a clock that describes numbers in how they make you feel
5. 2016-02-29 at 10:56 AM UTC in Describe the gimmick of the poster above you
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   Bill Krozby is a fuckboy plain and simple
6. 2016-02-29 at 10:51 AM UTC in California is like granola, full of nothing but fruits and nuts (Cali is cucked)
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   they're like two pears in a pod
   
   fucking trannies
7. 2016-02-29 at 10:51 AM UTC in Le master storyteller Bill Krozby
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   Lol you know this forum sucks when people make threads about my shit posting.

   
   But dude......It's not the shitposting......It's like......your brain......lol...............
8. 2016-02-29 at 10:48 AM UTC in CIVAL-IQ
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   I'm so fucking smart lol
9. 2016-02-29 at 10:22 AM UTC in CIVAL-IQ
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   This post is like the cumulative IQ of every post ever in one post. This is going to stay at the top of the page for at least a month whether you fgts like sharp corners, precise points, and flat planes or not.
10. 2016-02-29 at 10:19 AM UTC in What drugs cure an existential crisis? Acid?
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    Good post, rather true and insightful. Reminds me of the great benefits I used to receive from meditation, "letting things go" and whatnot, really most of this post is rephrasing buddhist principles. I don't think the "ego and arrogance" bit is the reason for feeling so empty. At least not in the conventional "ego and arrogance" sense. I have a hunger in my stomach I always want to fill, I set goals for myself and after the elation of achievement wears off, I'm left feeling as empty as before. You're pretty off base about my character too but this is a mesage board, i.e. sub msn messanger human interaction. Self reflection/self knowledge are definitely key to getting over feeling broken. The problem is my "identity" is so convoluted (but still tangible in almost all facets) it feels like I'm going in 5 different directions at once and having success with each one, at the expense of my own experience.
    
    I feel a lot better now, have been drinking less, took my girlfriend and her son out to where I used to live, saw the house I spent more of my childhood in. I was putting off going to see it for literally years since last time I went I got a rush of bad memories which I allowed to penetrate my psyche. I'm very proud of myself for how far I've come but I (guess my ego) still want so much more. Fuck, I do feel a lot better now, making memories helps enforce a positive natural identity instead of an environmentally assumed one. Not to say there isn't merit in both, just that balance is necessary to keep from straying too far.
    
    Anyways, I'll write more later, thanks for the serious reply, I didn't expect you to take so much time to write that and it reminded me of things I put in the back of my mind too often.

    When I talk about ego and arrogance, I don't mean to imply that it is a direct cause for the "emptiness", but it is what hinders self criticism and therefore development. I think that that self improvement is the way to fill your life with the things you love, and to kill the things about yourself that leave you dissatisfied, insecure and so on. Most people don't really understand the level of arrogance they are dealing with within themselves. That's why I thought it was important to stress that it doesn't even matter if you do or don't admit it to me or anyone else (and I'm not saying this in a "fuck you" way either, it genuinely doesn't matter), so long as you can admit it to yourself.
    
    The biggest enemy is the state of denial that people get stuck in. To become a man, I think every boy has to reach a point where they look at themselves and knock down every lie they ever convinced themselves of, about themselves, the world, and their relationship with it. Some people never do. These are the ones you see stuck in the same cycles they have been for ten, twenty, thirty years at a stretch until time forces change upon them.
    
    And as for your personality, I think that's fair enough. My interaction with you has been some message board "le master trole" BS, joking and stupid or the both of us I think. But I think it deserves to be said anyway, specially for the others reading this to whom it may apply.
    
    My point is simple; make yourself happy, truly, deeply happy, and you'll stop worrying. That usually comes with an admission if your mistakes followed by steps taken to improve as a person. I havent reached the next "stage" in my life yet but I think you need ample time to learn resignation too, and I'm pretty sure I've done it myself. I come from a religious background so existential anxiety tore me apart when it hit. But over time, I found ways to come out with a sense of peace that felt like an object that attains dynamic equilibrium rather than stable equilibrium, by having a lot of different hobbies and desires pulling in opposite directions and balancing the whole thing kut. Now I have attained both resignation to death as well as and ability to ignore death.
    
11. 2016-02-29 at 10:14 AM UTC in CIVAL-IQ
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    [FONT=helvetica][SIZE=12px] [/SIZE][/FONT][FONT=helvetica][SIZE=12px]two errors: 6 should show
    
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12. 2016-02-29 at 9:59 AM UTC in ATTN Lonnie: Financial propositions
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    Lanny told me to tell you that all donations go to me beause I'm the only trustworthy person here.
13. 2016-02-29 at 9:54 AM UTC in ATTN Lonnie: Financial propositions
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    I am starting a bounty for Lena to fix the PM and New Topic broken bug. I pledge $20 by any means he wants.
14. 2016-02-29 at 9:48 AM UTC in Le master storyteller Bill Krozby
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    "ent".
15. 2016-02-29 at 9:23 AM UTC in Sploo smokes crack
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    I've been sober for 4 days and I'm still high
16. 2016-02-29 at 8:30 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
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    I used to have such a crush on this bitch when I was a kid. That ass in that fucking tight bodysuit. HNNNGGG
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gzoEK545j64
17. 2016-02-29 at 7:32 AM UTC in Le master storyteller Bill Krozby
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    [FONT=Helvetica Neue][SIZE=16px]"Hello fellow American. This you should vote me. I leave power. Good. Thank you, thank you. If you vote me, I'm hot. What? Taxes, they'll be lower… son. The Democratic vote is the right thing to do Philadelphia, so do."[/SIZE][/FONT]
18. 2016-02-29 at 7:13 AM UTC in Lanny - Do you know who seels CC around here? I cannot see any threads about it?
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    didn't laugh didn't smile kill yourself OP
19. 2016-02-29 at 6:53 AM UTC in Le master storyteller Bill Krozby
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    I tell stories through amazing love letters I write to girls who went to my middle school
    
    [FONT=helvetica][SIZE=12px]that feel when everyone thinks youre retarded but youre the smartest person in the universe and then you send people things you do/make not because you expect them to respond but rather the lack of response indicates your superiority or they dont care but no1curr ever so idcurr either fuck you you stupid bitch i didnt even mean that see what i mean i am reassigning the meaning of words to the words themselves because being GOD ALMIGHTY you can do everything do a rape or 3 kick a baby into the subway tracks or dont because i didnt do any of those things and i dont plan on doing any of those things but im reassigning meaning to the words because words are hammers and chisels or rather SURGICAL SCALPELS grin emoticon grin emoticon grin emoticon *CAT* *BOX* *ROCK* *BULLSHIT* [/SIZE][/FONT]http://imgur.com/c0HyYhE
20. 2016-02-29 at 6:33 AM UTC in URGENT (POLL)
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    [FONT=helvetica][SIZE=12px]one error: 6 should show[/SIZE][/FONT]
    
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