Posts by The Self Taught Man

1. 2016-02-29 at 5:43 PM UTC in CIVAL-IQ
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   Anyone who gets over half of them right will get exclusive access to Ashley's facebook
2. 2016-02-29 at 5:41 PM UTC in Describe the gimmick of the poster above you
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   He's the fzero guy from smash Bros that goes FALCON PUNCH SHOE ME YOUR MOVES
3. 2016-02-29 at 5:40 PM UTC in I feel better
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   Today is the leap year day which means everything shifts. Expect not to just feel better but also fundamentally different
4. 2016-02-29 at 5:39 PM UTC in Do they sell duster at the dollar store?
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   The duster at dollar stores is overpriced tainted crap with H2S in it to slowly kill you and collapse your lungs. Real niggas huff laquer thinner and tetra
5. 2016-02-29 at 5:36 PM UTC in Iron John From RDFRN
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   That guy was the best poster on RDFRN next to that famous clandestine chemist mrhappy
6. 2016-02-29 at 5:35 PM UTC in Out of drugs how sober stay
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   Cut me a line of sploo, sploo
7. 2016-02-29 at 5:31 PM UTC in Iron John From RDFRN
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   if you google "username zoklet" usually funny images occur. For my own, there's that hilarious pic of chi chi and psychobowels whining about his psychobowels. For spectrals real name there's a hilarious picture of him that was actually posted on here 8 months ago that I apparently saw at the time. I didn't even remember I had another username on this site.
8. 2016-02-29 at 5:07 PM UTC in Do they sell duster at the dollar store?
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   I was making a music video to a peach kelli pop song after I drew a bunch of things in red sharpie then I put the red sharpie in an empty monster can and inhaled through the can for a few seconds and got a slight buzz and headache, do you think I caused any brain damage doing this?
9. 2016-02-29 at 4:59 PM UTC in Games We've Completed
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   damn, i didnt even know heroin could do that to you, did you shoot it all in one go or something? i know you were a pretty regular user at one point and 40/60 isnt much....
10. 2016-02-29 at 4:57 PM UTC in Iron John From RDFRN
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    I thought he was a funny lil manlet tryhard. His whole self identity is weird. I made some threads on redfuck about him and they were epic iirc. I hope the best for him, would keep in touch to discuss things autistically but whatever. He's definitely nay a true scotsman
11. 2016-02-29 at 4:57 PM UTC in Describe the gimmick of the poster above you
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    I have no knowledge or opinion of this faggot
12. 2016-02-29 at 4:55 PM UTC in Describe the gimmick of the poster above you
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    tries to convince people hes a hardcore drug dealer living a lavish lifestyle fucking a ton of bitches all the time but in reality is a loser on house arrest who studies statistics because its the highest math hes capable of
13. 2016-02-29 at 4:52 PM UTC in Describe the gimmick of the poster above you
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    frustrated german who posts from a ps2 or nokia flip phone. Is actually Lanny's shitposting alter ego
14. 2016-02-29 at 4:47 PM UTC in What drugs cure an existential crisis? Acid?
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    When I talk about ego and arrogance, I don't mean to imply that it is a direct cause for the "emptiness", but it is what hinders self criticism and therefore development. I think that that self improvement is the way to fill your life with the things you love, and to kill the things about yourself that leave you dissatisfied, insecure and so on. Most people don't really understand the level of arrogance they are dealing with within themselves. That's why I thought it was important to stress that it doesn't even matter if you do or don't admit it to me or anyone else (and I'm not saying this in a "fuck you" way either, it genuinely doesn't matter), so long as you can admit it to yourself.
    
    The biggest enemy is the state of denial that people get stuck in. To become a man, I think every boy has to reach a point where they look at themselves and knock down every lie they ever convinced themselves of, about themselves, the world, and their relationship with it. Some people never do. These are the ones you see stuck in the same cycles they have been for ten, twenty, thirty years at a stretch until time forces change upon them.
    
    And as for your personality, I think that's fair enough. My interaction with you has been some message board "le master trole" BS, joking and stupid or the both of us I think. But I think it deserves to be said anyway, specially for the others reading this to whom it may apply.
    
    My point is simple; make yourself happy, truly, deeply happy, and you'll stop worrying. That usually comes with an admission if your mistakes followed by steps taken to improve as a person. I havent reached the next "stage" in my life yet but I think you need ample time to learn resignation too, and I'm pretty sure I've done it myself. I come from a religious background so existential anxiety tore me apart when it hit. But over time, I found ways to come out with a sense of peace that felt like an object that attains dynamic equilibrium rather than stable equilibrium, by having a lot of different hobbies and desires pulling in opposite directions and balancing the whole thing kut. Now I have attained both resignation to death as well as and ability to ignore death.

    
    I think you're right about ego impeding spiritual growth/emotional development. I really have to admit that some of the "facts" I've internalized are really just experience based assumptions, many of which are assumed due to avoidance of pain (which I guess is really insecurity). When I think about how many people I've prevented from entering my life in any meaningful way for the STUPIDEST of reasons, it really is staggering. I've never really had stability in my life in any real way that I didn't think was ending. Last night me and a friend were talking about the "feeling of impending doom" that I've had on and off my whole life and he said that whenever you feel that it's all going to come crashing down, it never does the way you expect it to so there's no point in feeling like that. I'm extremely prone to losing small, unimportant things and flying into a ragey frustration trying to find them, shortly after that conversation I lost my personal phone for a few hours. After trying to find it I gave up and accepted that my phone was gone and there are only 6 or 7 people who I care to talk to on it. If it's gone it's gone etc. and I felt no sense of loss or lack of control. Then someone showed up at my door with the phone and I felt like I gained something, instead of retained something. Anyways, that's a boring story about last night.
    
    Seems like you've got a good perspective on control, destiny, existential angst, self actualization etc. My life has been kind of confusing but when it seems the best is when I'm taking things as slowly and mindfully as possible. Death doesn't really scare me, I know I'm capable of so much more and have no offspring but I've been around enough death to understand it doesn't discriminate. I just want to feel any kind of lasting peace before the everlasting peace ykno. thxbtwbb
15. 2016-02-29 at 4:05 PM UTC in The future of totse?
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    space stations....IN SPACE
16. 2016-02-29 at 4:04 PM UTC in The future of totse?
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    Clan destine space stations in space with fusion generators and lasers

    
    This is my favorite recurring drug-induced delusion of yours
17. 2016-02-29 at 3:59 PM UTC in Do they sell duster at the dollar store?
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    That time I kept kicking Ashley out of her chair and breathing on her, when the play was over I asked her if her grandma died of a stroke, get it? Like stroking my dick? 10/10 degenerate joke.
18. 2016-02-29 at 3:53 PM UTC in Iron John From RDFRN
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    Steven L. Akins of that Ilk. Chief of the Fatsos. Haha.
19. 2016-02-29 at 3:44 PM UTC in Far Cry Primal
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    It's probably a fun game but it doesn't look like a Far Cry to me. There is probably a lot of tactics involved in the fights so that's good but I saw that you throw around stone axes like a mad man (instead of shooting) and that looked really bad.
20. 2016-02-29 at 3:38 PM UTC in The future of totse?
    The Self Taught Man Black Hole

    Your prediction is accurate. Hail the Holy Meth Pipe
    
    
    
    This is true but T&T is an outlier in terms of forums with content. I would argue it was inevitable simply because we have so many members that enjoy programming and will contribute to other members projects.

    This is how forums work. People with the same interest entertaining eachother.