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2019-03-22 at 1:11 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition
Originally posted by Common De-mominator You understand that these disorders actually involve your neurochemistry right? You can't logic your way out of depression, body or autism and it will always be a hindrance unless they actually get a handle on what's happening
Yeah thats true. I think what §m£ÂgØL is trying to say though is that there are practical steps you can take to mitigate the effects of depression. Whats true for me is not necessarily true for everyone- but I for instance, had really bad depression all these years. All the shit ive written about. Im still not wild about living at home, being on methadone, the job im working. But as soon as i stopped heroin (although i still on methadone, so i cant think stoping heroin alone would be possible for the reversal?), started taking CBD, eating better, exercising, reaching out to people i hadnt talked to in a long time, talking about trying to get clean and my depression, etc....id say like 90% of my symptoms are gone. Taking action in a lot of cases can actually cause your brain to start producing the right neurotransmitters again. Theres no telling if any of that wouldve worked for Justin, but the fact is that he really didnt try too hard. School was a good start, but boxes of assorted chinese RCs do not constitute "doing stuff to get better" -
2019-03-21 at 8:46 PM UTC in Malice's Autopsy Report
Originally posted by -SpectraL To be perfectly honest, I'm thinking this whole thing could be a lark, Casper. I mean, how do we even know if the guy's name in the autopsy report is Malice? Could be a totally different dead guy.
Did you happen to look at the email address on the messages I posted? He's dead dude. Too many coincidences. Who goes to all that trouble for a little shit forum like ours? No one does.
1. Autopsy report describes the features we know him to have
2. Email address matches name on the report.
3. Age/ birthdate matches what I remember (i.e. A couple months before mine)
4. Same situation with his parents/family (who disappears for 10 years and ends up in a mental institution)
5. Posted a screenshot of his interactions on a suicide forum, under the same name, confirming some of the same info.
6. Used the exact same drugs that Malice posted date stamped photo of- to kill himself
7. His body was found the very night that he posted he was going to kill himself.
8. Autism
If that doesn't convince you, dude....idk what to tell you.ive got some bricks of gold I'll sell you for half price, just cashapp me the skrilla.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-03-21 at 8:16 PM UTC in Malice's Autopsy Report
Originally posted by -SpectraL And I highly doubt he would have just wrote the word: "SUICIDE", on the note. He would have least wrote "CYA LATER ALLΙGATOR", or "AFTER WHILE CROCΟDILE", or some kind of cheery departure notice. Who checks out with a one word post?
Depressed autistic people who prefer to be dead as quickly and unceremoniously as possible.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-03-21 at 8:24 PM UTC in Malice's Autopsy Report
Originally posted by -SpectraL I think his father posted the "Suicide" note above his bed, and the kid actually died accidentally from taking too much shit trying to get to sleep. I mean, why would you blindfold yourself and put earplugs in if you were going to be dead in 20 minutes? Makes no sense, unless someone else put that note there. Sure, he posted the bus had arrived, but that could have meant he was planning on going for treatment the following morning and took an extra dose that night for the nervousness, and then accidentally overdosed.
Ugh dude.
No conspiracy here. You think he took NEMBUTAL for shits n giggles? Is it they new thing on the scene that the news should warn parents about their kids taking? "Social Media Craze Fuels String of Teenage Euthenasia Overdoses"???
I think the more likely explanation is that, despite all his rationalization- he was scared.
He said as much in the sanctioned suicide forum. He was scared not knowing what would happen, after. He was scared that fight or flight would kick in and he'd throw up or have an anxiety attack, and die in pain. He was scared he'd lose his guts and get kicked out and then be homeless and stuck with no painless way to end his life.
I think the much more likely explanation is that it's easier to lay there and die when you're not looking at your books. The tree outside. Your cat. When you're not listening to your mom making dinner in the kitchen. Not listening to someone talking about technical school on TV. Not looking at your phone to see if anyone will serendipitously text you, and give you a reason to hang around for another 24 hours. I think it was still hard for him, but he found a way to get it done.
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2019-03-21 at 1:26 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition
Originally posted by Methuselah Is she the chick next to 17 y/o you in that pic?
Also Malice was going to kill himself no matter what. I literally called it multiple times. I know exactly what was going through his mind because I’ve felt it before too, the meaninglessness of it all, but the only difference is my survival instinct is much stronger than his. I would pretty much do anything to stay alive
Yeah. That was her.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-03-20 at 7:24 AM UTC in Ever wake up wondering what kind of panties DTE is wearing?Maybe. If I didn't have to assume that all the women on this site were 70 year olds. I have no reason to assume otherwise.
I feel like I'm in a forum where we've been invaded by a bunch of horny bingo players.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-03-20 at 7:11 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro EditionI feel like it's my responsibility to lighten up this thread now.
If God forbid something shoild cut me down in my prime, there aren't many pictures to remember me by. So, for posterity:
This is a disposable camera picture of 17 year old casper drinking whiskey from a flask in a 99 cent store du-rag, throwing up the W behind the wheel of a blue 69 camaro.
I was only wearing the rag 60% ironically. 40% of me thought it looked "hood".
Discuss.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-03-20 at 5:44 AM UTC in Where is the line between being a junkie and not?Highest dose 175. Been on for a year and a half I think. First year I was using along with methadone. Then a lot less. Then just China white. Then just methadone. I've really only been tapering off for 4 or 5 months.
Yeah one month taper is no go. After using as long as we have, you're brain and body really need time to start slowly adjusting again. The last few months are the first time I've taken a regular dump in over a decade. Lol. do you know how nice it is to be able to take a shit before you go to work in the morning and not have to feel awful all day? LolThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-03-20 at 2:26 AM UTC in Malice's Autopsy Report
Originally posted by DietPiano Makes sense that he had a beard at least at the end. Unless you have very well groomed facial hair, it usually looks like crap and is a clear sign to everybody that you don't give enough of a crap to take care of yourself really. Speaking from experience, it's usually habitual self-neglect.
If it is well groomed it's a sign of the opposite.
For years I was "growing out"my beard. I really just looked fat and homeless. I'm the last couple months, I bought a beard trimmer and cut it close, lined it up. People respond to me completely differently. Not to mention I feel more confident now. Clean clothes every day whether they smell dirty or not. Lol. flossing twice a day. Waterpic to clean out my nasty smokers tonsils. Trim beard every day and clean up stubble. Workout in the morning.
Feel great.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-03-20 at 9:31 AM UTC in Where is the line between being a junkie and not?I literally used to have dreams about being at like a classy hipster party, and I'd be well into my law career or whatever at that point, and I'm able to mention in casual conversation that I've been sober for ___ years. That will be the most amazing feeling. Makes me get all misty eyed just thinking about it. Bc for 13 years (and I never thought in a million years it'd be that long...I figured I'd get strung out for 3,4,5 years and then pull my shit together), I thought I had a better chance of dragging my fat ass up Everest than getting clean. TIm not there yet, but the fact that I can feel how close that goal is.... fuck. It's major. I want everyone around me doing big shit, being better. I don't want to have to regret anything else.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-03-20 at 7:54 AM UTC in Ever wake up wondering what kind of panties DTE is wearing?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-03-20 at 3:02 AM UTC in Where is the line between being a junkie and not?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-03-20 at 4:46 AM UTC in Malice's Autopsy Report
Originally posted by GGG You look 40 with all those grey hairs. You stressed nigga?
Also my beard/hair is waaaaaay more grey than the picture makes it look. I don't know many 40 or 50 year olds with as much grey as I have. And of course they're the shitty old man grey hairs that grow off in strange directions so if I ever grow my beard out, there's hundreds of scraggly wiry hairs going off every which way.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-03-20 at 2:54 AM UTC in Malice's Autopsy ReportSince he's dead and this is really all about me by default, here's some pictures of my beard.
Don't even have neckbeard anymore. Crazy right?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-03-19 at 5:57 PM UTC in Malice's Autopsy Report
Originally posted by -SpectraL That's the one time I "insulted" him. He said he was going to kill himself, and I said, why, because you've got a one-inch dick? But like I said, he already shared this detail with everyone. I just figured he was attention-whoring, like so many others have in the past, so I didn't take him seriously. He had also posted publicly in the past that he was going to kill himself, but then didn't, so I just figured he was crying wolf.
Yeah I wouldn't read too much into that. He was talking about killing himself for like....6 years? More?
I legitimately thought he was alive and just being a dramatic Faggot this whole time, until I stumbled on the report.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-03-19 at 3:49 PM UTC in Show of hands, how many of us own or have owned a Gemini-20 milligram scale?
Originally posted by Dissociator I never used the metal bowl for scaling. Lost it when I first got the scale. Pretty much just calibrated it with a bottle cap on it and measured with that. Or dumped drugs straight onto it,.
Dumping drugs directly onto the scale is always a good move.
Bc then you can be like "well if my calculations are correct, it appears that I lost roughly 60% the material stuck to the plate. Therefore, I should add one entire scoop more to my eventual dose"
= SOLID SCIENCEThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-03-19 at 3:42 PM UTC in Where is the line between being a junkie and not?
Originally posted by Dissociator I'm 20 and currently in an inpatient rehab (luckily I have access to a computer). Hopefully you caught glimpse or followed the splooshambo antics of 2014-2018 because they were fucking GOLD. Those days are over now I'm CLEAN and going home in 4 days,.
Lol yeah I caught some bits and pieces. You're surprisingly coherent now. I genuinely thought you'd made yourself retarded. Rofl.
Congrats bro v. Wade.
You're way ahead of the curve. Took me 13 years to get my shit together. Enroll in school asap. Find a way to make money. Just being proud of what you're doing, and feeling like you're not at a complete dead end is a way better drug than any of the other shit I ever did was.
Be honest with yourself though- if I told you you could NEVER to drugs (anything besides alcohol, weed) again, does that thought freak you out, or are you completely cool with that? Do you feel like with the "knowledge" you have now, you could use those same drugs that fucked you up- responsibly?
I only ask because there were a bunch of times I thought I was "good", but in the end my desire to not deal with life bullshit was stronger than my desire to be sober. A lot of people I know have thought they were done, but when I ask them that question, they realize there's a lot more that they need to "get out of their system".The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-03-19 at 1:30 PM UTC in Show of hands, how many of us own or have owned a Gemini-20 milligram scale?Bc one of the biggest parts of trying to sell stuff you've had to "make" yourself (or cut), is that it usually doesn't look presentable. Anyone who's ever tried to "rerock" street coke for sale k own what I'm talking about. I've had people pack it into measuring cups. Put it in a heavy duty ziploc and step on it, etc. If it looks weird and crumbles easily, there's a good chance no one is going to buy it.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-03-19 at 1:27 PM UTC in Show of hands, how many of us own or have owned a Gemini-20 milligram scale?
Originally posted by GGG Elmer's glue you say?
Yeah it's non toxic, doesn't leave much of an odor. You can dilute it 10-1 with water, mix it into the dry stuff to make a paste, pack the paste into cheesecloth and wrap it, and then either put it in a vacuum oven for a day, or put it in the garage in a vice clamp and let it dry out naturally.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-03-19 at 1:54 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro EditionOP is edited with documents
