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2018-12-26 at 6:01 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs AttentionTan and mangoes look like the kinda hoe to catch an uber for the promise of a teener and Buffalo Wild Wings.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-12-26 at 6:12 AM UTC in Random ThoughtsWatch out for dat celestial seasonings girl. It'll sneak up on you. Then I'll have to haul your ass in to dr, Phil to get intervened on.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-12-19 at 11:50 PM UTC in Some O.G. Totseans - Chime up if you know what they up to or if you happen to be them with a new usernameThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-12-22 at 3:41 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by hydromorphone Honestly, if that person was expressing pain, I'd just go with a topical anesthetic at the most.
Look, I don't believe people should be in pain, but there has to be a line. An example… When §m£ÂgØL had to get stitches for his hand (Oh yeah, I forgot, the cunt doctor didn't even write an antibiotic script, which for fucks sake, I would have considering we told them it was cut moving aluminum sheeting that had been sitting outside, and in actuality, it was a dog bite, either way, I believe a preemptive course of antibiotics was in order, which is why I put him on bactrim, I believe.) I feel that he should have at least gotten a few days worth of hydrocodone. Since all I had in my arsenal was tramadol, that's what §m£ÂgØL got. I even gave him some somas just to sweeten the pot, and because I felt bad, even though I know that they wouldn't serve much use for his condition, save maybe to help him sleep. The doctor did such a piss poor suture job it made me cringe too… I let him play with my tits while my ex changed his bandages so he wouldn't cry, bitch and/pass out from being a pussy who's squeamish as fuck. That's another form of pain control- distraction.
Now, for what happened… no, I don't think he should have gotten more than a few days worth of pain meds, and nothing stronger than a 7.5mg hydrocodone, but I do believe pain should be taken into consideration, and treated fairly.
Should a stubbed toe get pain killers? Not unless they actually broke their toe or something. Should a paper cut or similar cut? At best a topical anesthetic, like benzocaine or lidocaine.
Also, I do believe one should start somewhere without opioids, unless they're experiencing severe acute pain. In that case, stop the pain, and then figure if something else can work, but no one should be left to suffer if there's something that can help the pain.
You know I'm not one to hop on a bandwagon, but it sounds like you're really rationalizing around a lot.
If you genuinely wanted to die, there are a million and one ways to do it. I have a gun. If I wanted to die, if shoot myself in the skull. But mostly I just want to be better and feel okay.
You can bad mouth the docs all you want, but when it comes down to it, you have an obvious addict coming into their hospital. For all they know, most of your conditions could've been caused by IV drug use. They're not just going to pump you full of drugs and write you a script without a very good reason.They're going to be skeptical of anything you tell them, and they have reason to be.
If you didn't care if they saved your life or not, why not just wait at home and eat cheap fatty frozen food until the inevitable took its course?
I'm just saying, if be a little more appreciative of the people who kept me alive. Even if it was 10 cents worth of stuff, I'd feel shirty about taking their stuff. That's like someone inviting you over for Thanksgiving and then raiding their medicine cabinet. That's junkie shit,and I think you know that.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-12-20 at 7:49 PM UTC in TFW You Realize EVERYONE On Here is an Alt (Solipsism-maxxing)That reminds me of another time I got a vibe of something that'd be a killer indie style documentary. There was a video on efukt for a while with a guy and girl that met in tumbler. The girl was really cute. The guy was kind of fat and just looked mad and crazy. Think his handle was sadistic_sid or something. Anyway they meet online and get ina relationship, and eventually he gets her to start doing things and he films it to post online. First 20-30 seconds of the first video is her standing naked in front of a mirror crying, and he's shaving her head and this song is playing
There's pussy mutilation, cutting her breasts, forcing things down her throat, punching her in the face, choking her. Putting knives in her ass. Very little sexual, just a lot of hurting, and the final scene is them both staring in the mirror blankly, with a really lo-if quality. Felt like the kind of video you might see as evidence in a murder trial.
But the vibe I always got from that, I always thought would be an interesting/fucked up indie movie about a girl with mental problems who meets a genuinely fucked up dude, and over the course of a relationship, he breaks her down until she essentially agrees to let herself be eviscerated and vivisected on camera for the sake of art.
I want someone who get that same churning gut feeling I got when I finished watching requiem for a dream at 13.
Anyway. Thoughts?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-12-19 at 5:13 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs AttentionI miss bling blingThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-12-18 at 5:46 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs AttentionThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-12-19 at 6:24 PM UTC in What keeps YOU from getting on that bus?Don't suppose there's any way to enhancement the picture of that hospital bracelet for name or dob?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-12-16 at 12:36 PM UTC in ITT: I Dox MyselfAnd while I completely understand why a forum full of weirdos, junkies, tweakers and criminals of varying degrees would particularly value there privacy, there's something kind of sad about being so on guard. For some of us, this social group has been our only steady group of friends for, 10, 15, 20 years of our lives....maybe more. And then either life gets in the way and we just disappear, or health problems arise and we kick the bucket, or we can't deal with depression anymore and rage quit life. In cases like Malice, if he did in fact kill himself- no one beyond his mother, father and siblings will even remember that he even existed. It sounds like he had a more open relationship with many people here than he ever did, even with his own family. Theres something sad about that...not knowing even just his first name.
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2018-12-16 at 11:43 AM UTC in Some O.G. Totseans - Chime up if you know what they up to or if you happen to be them with a new usernameThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-12-16 at 12:52 PM UTC in Some O.G. Totseans - Chime up if you know what they up to or if you happen to be them with a new usernameAlso, I'm almost positive that it wasn't bloodydiapermqn who killed himself in a car. I seem to remember it being a fellow fat neckbeard who got in a fight with his girlfriends mom or something and the locked himself in his car by the railroad tracks and ate a bullet.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-12-16 at 12:21 PM UTC in Some O.G. Totseans - Chime up if you know what they up to or if you happen to be them with a new usernameI still say someone should begin work on a TOTSE documentary. While a lot of people grew up and shed it like an old skin, from the internet searches, it seems like a lot of people still have good memories. I think if it were for the right reasons (preserving a unique history/ making a movie) a lot of people would probably come out of the woodwork.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-12-16 at 12:19 PM UTC in ITT: I Dox Myself1) This sounds like the kind of things I would do when I was fucked up and lomely
2) I've given all my PI to a handful of people. People I know I can trust. That really only comes with time. I've also been in these forums long enough to know that some people have no qualms about fucking your whole life up for their entertainment.
3) which one are you, the shirtless dude with the glasses, the blonde dude with his tongue out, or the taller dark haired dude?
4) That said, even if you're drunk and fucked up, I respect your moment of clarity, and wanting to connect with others, sooooooo.....what's up Darren. Names Trevor, from Marina del Rey, CA.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-12-15 at 1:49 PM UTC in Some O.G. Totseans - Chime up if you know what they up to or if you happen to be them with a new username
Originally posted by CASPER I guess I've been here since 2003 or 2004. Just since I barely had a personality IRL, I didn't have much of one in the forums either. Mostly lurking and hanging around BLTC. I only remember Rizzo and Hazey from when Meta was modding. That's about it. Meta banned them (probably for good reason lol), and I started some kind of stupid internet protest in he vein of a middle school walkout to try to have them "freed" from internet jail.
Dose me.
The list of people I posted in TRT the other day.
Fractals
Gg4
I wish I would've known zoklet was going to close so I could've gone through my PMs and archived stuff. At the time, I was getting regular pussy for the first time ever and going to community college, so I kinda forgot about the forums. By the time I went back, everything was already shit down.
I'm usually so good at remembering names. But there was one guy in particular that I kept in touch with for 8 or so years. He was in culinary school and worked as a cook, but he was also really bad into shooting oxy and stuff. Ended up doing 3 1/2 years, and I spoke to him when he got out. About a year after that, his Facebook or whatever had pictures of him fishing on the beach with his kids, having a barbecue, steering a sailboat… Christmas morning with all his dad gifts. It was nice to see, especially since the number of people I know irl who've actually managed to get clean is like…1.
lol fucking (((Lanny))) . I was about to go off the handle on my iPad until I realized his word enhancement is changing Christ.mas to Hanukkah.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-12-15 at 1:23 PM UTC in Some O.G. Totseans - Chime up if you know what they up to or if you happen to be them with a new usernameI guess I've been here since 2003 or 2004. Just since I barely had a personality IRL, I didn't have much of one in the forums either. Mostly lurking and hanging around BLTC. I only remember Rizzo and Hazey from when Meta was modding. That's about it. Meta banned them (probably for good reason lol), and I started some kind of stupid internet protest in he vein of a middle school walkout to try to have them "freed" from internet jail.
Dose me.
The list of people I posted in TRT the other day.
Fractals
Gg4
I wish I would've known zoklet was going to close so I could've gone through my PMs and archived stuff. At the time, I was getting regular pussy for the first time ever and going to community college, so I kinda forgot about the forums. By the time I went back, everything was already shit down.
I'm usually so good at remembering names. But there was one guy in particular that I kept in touch with for 8 or so years. He was in culinary school and worked as a cook, but he was also really bad into shooting oxy and stuff. Ended up doing 3 1/2 years, and I spoke to him when he got out. About a year after that, his Facebook or whatever had pictures of him fishing on the beach with his kids, having a barbecue, steering a sailboat... Christmas morning with all his dad gifts. It was nice to see, especially since the number of people I know irl who've actually managed to get clean is like...1.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-12-11 at 6:48 PM UTC in My guy hooks me up with $50 quads of high grades...YALL NIGGAS EVER EAT A THREE MEAT SAUSAGE?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-12-12 at 4:42 AM UTC in What keeps YOU from getting on that bus?Kind of what mq said....I remember a time when my brain chemistry was "right" and I was active and articulate and inspired, creative, spontaneous. I keep thinking that maybe when I get my shut together, I'll be okay again. I also acknowledge that I've barely given life a shot. I know I'm capable of finishing school. I know I'm capable of running a business. I know I have more than average empathy for people, and I genuinely like helping people. I know at the very least I'm above average intelligence wise. For all his rhetoric, malice refused to engage with life and people around him, and take the steps needed to live a fulfilling life. Then again his brain chemistry was kinda fucked too.
Idk. There's a Remington 870 and a box of #4 shot shells in my closet. There's that lingering feeling that I might be okay again, and that if I dont wait long enough, I might miss out. But if there comes a day where I'm fairly certain that's no longer the case, I'll rent a car, pack up my stuff, find a quiet spot somewhere with a view, wrap a towel and a tarp around my head and duct tape it there (since it seems so selfish to leave that gross mess for someone to have to clean up), and punch my ticket. And it won't be a sad thing. It'll just mean I'm too tired to do this anymore. But mostly I think people who are this depressed just don't have the energy to Do the things that will actually make you happy.
As shortlived as it was, just spending nights in bed with the girl I was with, and talking about kids and life and being a weird introverted kid...did wonders for my headspace. It's so easy to feel disconnected and inhuman and unhappy when you're disconnected and out of touch with everything around you. I've come to understand that happiness isn't something you just stumble into. It's lazy and selfish and natural to feel this way. But health and happiness is something you have to actively work towards and I think that's what Malice just couldn't wrap his head around. He was so furious at the injustice of life, like an incel furious at the world at large. But the truth was, he didn't try. I tried to connect with him. Others did too. It was too much effort for him.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-12-12 at 3:39 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by DietPiano Got raided. We may be heading into new legal territory regarding WEEJDSRCH CMCHIHCALLLS. I'm gauging that it's unlikely that users will be charged for gray area ones at the moment.
I have 5 counts, 3 were added recently after chem analysis. It's probably not gonna be terrible, maybe just probe, but they may or may not be trying to nix the deal w/ the add'l counts. I can push it off till after the holidays, but then a sentence could potentially prevent me from going to school, so I'm going to have it filed now so I get on with my life.
Ugh. Ouch. As quick as my money is going, the one thing that gives me comfort is that out of the 7 persons in my extended network, 5 got raided in the same week, and one for picked up being stupid and on a probation violation. I pretty much cut anchor, backed up texts and contacts to an encrypted microsd, changed numbers and changed hotels. Some of the offers made to me by the upper end of the logistical management were tempting, but shit just isn't enjoyable anymore. Benefit doesn't outweigh the time and stress and incidental bullshit.
What are the lying bastards claiming you did/had? If u need a character witness i gotchu. Fat Rambo will write you hella references.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-12-11 at 5:28 PM UTC in So with all this opiod crisis bullshit...Fentanyl Wasn't awful IMO. Or maybe my drug addled brain just was grasping at whatever I could do that wasn't my DOC.
That said, I'd say there's some truth to both arguments ( fentanyl vs. crisis in general). I've talked to some of my suppliers back in the day, and he way they tell it, while heroin used to be a mostly east coast thing, the cartels wouldn't look a gift horse in the mouth, and the popularity and overzealous prescription of hydrocodone and eventually oxycodone really tilled the fields for a fantastic new crop of junkies. After 9/11, law enforcement was on high alert for any shifty looking brown folk, so instead of just moving drugs from the hood into the fringes of the suburbs, they actually set up shop there. In Denver and Oklahoma City, Austin, Portland, Lincoln and Seattle, they began buying property....in some cases paying passable, healthy junkies that they already knew, to be the homeowner of record in these new cities. These became their suburban hubs. Cheap, potent tar even started edging out ECP in some of its own markets. People who would otherwise have passed on needle drugs, opted to experiment with smoking the stuff. When Purdue changed their oxy formulation and demand was suddenly skyrocketing, their were millions of unknowing addicts suddenly in the crosshairs. Many people who started finishing their scripts early began buying from friends, and eventually from the people those friends bought from. So part of the stigma of buying "street drugs" was diminished. Mexican heroin was a fraction of the price, far more effective. Before "black tar heroin" became a household name, I even saw it marketed as other things. The first 3 or 4 times I did it, I was told it was "opium" (although it did taste very different. Maybe it was - who knows?).
In the fentanyl front, black market synthesis and availability on the dark web means that even mid level dealers have been able to whip up their own artisANAL batches of "China white". The people closer to the cartels have had some basic guidance as to know what to use, and in which doses, mix the fent into a solution to dose it volumetrically, and then mix thoroughly to avoid hotspots. Those without that input are often inattentive to the fact that different analogues have different potencies, and end up buying whatever is cheapest at the time, or whatever they can afford. For $300 you can grab 5 grams of acrylfentanyl, furanyl fentanyl or one of its other analogues. And with corn starch, microcellulose, Calcium tablets, quinine, mannitol, elmers glue, lidocaine or even OTC benzocaine gel, cheesecloth, a bench vise, and the kind of vacuum over you'd use to make weed "shatter", you can crank out 10-15 ounces of "high quality" heroin that they'll then turn around and sell for at least 1500- if not 1800-2000 retail.
In other words, the people who have access to this shit are becoming less and less informed.
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2018-12-11 at 4:04 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs AttentionAlso, that math that fucked me up was apparently particularly boinkers. even the neighbor who sits in his garage all day coloring monster truck pictures with crayons, jacking off and playing skyrim on his ps3 and gigantic fat tv said he couldn't mess with that shut everyday bc his wife would know.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
