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2018-02-02 at 2:10 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get Rekt, Faggot!
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2018-02-02 at 2:08 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get Rekt, Faggot!
Originally posted by Malice You really seem to be reading far too much into this and are showing clear signs of paranoia.
You have to keep in mind that there's asymmetrical information. She doesn't know all the things about you that you do. If she knew everything you listed about yourself, yeah, there's a pretty high chance she would lose interest.
Why would a girl like her develop an interest in you? You have redeeming qualities and may be too hard on yourself due to depression and other issues. Unless you've been lying all this time, you've at least managed to have a high amount of income coming in, even if you blew it all and have nothing to show for it, and have done some interesting things. Why does love occur? Sometimes it just arises between people due to neurological cascades that are triggered. Maybe you helping her get off helped spark this, seeing you as a caring savior, having desired someone to take her away from her ex. Think about it, due to the issues heroin causes, the dynamics involved in partnerships, it's very possible she was only staying with him out of necessity. You know about her habit and are perfectly okay with it, are able to relate to the issue, offer salvation, and can tolerate a secret that would be a major taboo for the vast majority of people.
You brushed off dark secrets she may have by stating she's from Minnesota, but there are strong selection pressures involved in migration. If she was the type to move to Los Angeles of all places and then get hooked on heroin, there's a very good chance she has multiple other dark secrets about her past.
Who knows how many issues this past decade of your life has caused you to develop, how many diagnoses you may qualify for. How's your social anxiety? Do you feel any general aversion to other people? A fear of forming platonic or romantic relationships?
Open up that box of chocolates, boy, see what you get.
I mean id known her on a customer level like 3 days when she started telling me how awful her then-boyfriend was. And texting me in the middle of the night when he was trying to break into her apartment. But hes a tall lanky balding jedi junkie. I dont think she was "the type" to get addicted to heroin. Just came out here to go to med school, and got with the wrong dude...just like my first girlfriend did. If it helps, she was only "addicted" for three months, and even when Ive been unable to get her the meds to ease the symptoms, shell just suffer for a couple days instead of relenting and getting high.
Yeah Im reading into a lot of things, but I just feel like its important to give an honest appraisal of oneself and ones flaws. Im doing better financially in the last couple of months than I have my entire life, due to a hail mary business plan that just took off like I wasn't expecting. If I could feel comfortable with my aging mother being by herself, lose some weight and get on some thyroid meds/ anti depressants, i think id be set.
Its not so much anxiety. For the most part, I can sit in a room or at a bar with people and get along just fine. Ive just been so removed from everything for so long, i feel like im back in high school again. People have an entire decade of travel and life experiences under their belt to small talk about, and I just dont. I dont really know what to talk to people about. -
2018-02-02 at 1:50 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get Rekt, Faggot!
Originally posted by Malice Hahaha, I started laughing because of how well you made the case that you're a loser. I had the impression that you were doing way better than that. Well, I suppose that's why you're still on this site.
I think a lot of people just refuse to see their flaws. Im the opposite. -
2018-02-01 at 8:01 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get Rekt, Faggot!
Originally posted by Sophie Oh yeah i just remembered CASPER is thinking this super model tier chick is trying to trap him. What part did she play in Downton Abbey? I need to see this chick. For science of course. Also, take a risk bro i mean jeez, she might be actually into you.
Not supermodel. Just regular model. Just regular looking, pretty girl....which I actually like better, And if I said the part she played, everyone would know who she was so.....NO. She also had the partial scholarship to USC med school.
I don't really "feel" things much anymore, so it's not stuff that bothers me too much. OBjectively though, she could get on Tinder and get a way better dude in a heartbeat. I've gained a bunch of weight while semi-abstaining from drugs. My teeth are fucked up. My back and fingers are fucked up. I have eczema or psoriasis or some skin shit now- either from stress or the drugs or whatever. I dropped out of community college. I haven't ever traveled or done anything interesting. I have few friends. I have a boring, low paying job. I'm terribly out of shape. I'm kind of a slob. I hardly read and I don't know much about art or culture. I don't have any favorite bands or music. Even the things I did like doing like computer game s or building shit
I can't be bothered with anymore. I haven't gotten laid or dated or been in a relationship in the better part of a decade. I have debt and shit credit. After I returned the. Cadillac, I haven't even bought another car yet. And this chick says she wants to go take photos somewhere or hang out or watch Netflix at MY place, and I have to figure out some way to tell her that MY place is MY childhood bedroom in my MOMs house.
I can't figure out why she's so interested, and even more so, I can't figure out why after ignoring her or politely declining, she's so persistent. I've been so confused I had to text logic and ask if this is something that women do with a guy they just want to hang out with as a friend.
Idk. It'd be nice to do something "normal". But I don't want to get into this just to have it blow up in my face. And then I'm so paranoid about shit, part of me thinks it has to be some kind of long con game to get info on me/get into my house and then she and her scumbag ex can take all my she's stsj -
2018-02-01 at 3 AM UTC in What have you been playing lately?
Originally posted by Malice I thought Devilman was worth seeing through to the end. It continually ramps up and develops, especially the last episodes. The original manga was made in the early 1970s and it was actually an influence on Evangelion, the final scenes being particularly familiar.
Devilman seemed very "You" malice. Your contempt for the lesser beings. Your desire to become one with everything in a sea of blood and destruction. I felt like youd really enjoy it. -
2018-01-31 at 7:50 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get Rekt, Faggot!I don't think there's a whole lot of dark secrets. She's from Minnesota. Lol.
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2018-01-31 at 7:41 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get Rekt, Faggot!Didn't ever actually sell her antiques. I did sell her stuff to help get off dem antiques tho,
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2018-01-31 at 7:33 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get Rekt, Faggot!
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2018-01-31 at 7:29 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get Rekt, Faggot!
Originally posted by Malice You’re such a charming and interesting person. A good woman was bound to show interest in you eventually.
Why did you go so long without dating or having sex? Any trauma?
Awwwww. Thanks bud. Still feels weird. I forget how any of this is supposed to go.
I wouldn't call it "trauma", although my hippie dippie counselor chick at the clinic says my behaviors show signs of it. Idk what to do with that. I think it's probably a lot more to do with depression, addiction, thyroid thing. I just find it really hard to care about anything anymore. I don't have it in me. Everything is too much work. Someone could be parked outside read to hand me 1000 for no reason, and I can't drag myself out of bed. Even jerking off is too much work most of the time. I have no doubt I'm still all kinds of fucked up, but I'm trying to build a healthy framework at least.
It wasn't that I didn't BELIEVE I had low testosterone. I'm positive I do. I think it's pretty common in people with hypothyroid. It's that I didn't want to order some shit from China on the dark web and inject it into myself. At least if I go to a proper doctor they can do blood work and test my levels. I'm nervous about anything that could bring me "up" because I've had thyroid spikes before that were one of the worst things ever, Heart racing at like 180 bpm, palpitations, dizziness, nausea, tremors, etc. fuck all that noise. If it means I have to feel pretty awful all the time to not have that happen, so be it. -
2018-01-31 at 7:17 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get Rekt, Faggot!
Originally posted by Enter how do you know her? she from tinder?
if so, it may be a catfish or a prostitute who will ask for money right before the date.
God no. I'd never have had the balls to go on Tinder. Met her selling antiques. Her ex bf contacted me and he was a total loser. She apparently had only been dabbling in antiques for like 3 months and was trying to get off them, so requested I find her the means to do so. She had a minor role on Downton Abbey, and got a partial scholarship to Medical school at USC. So she's already way smarter than me. -
2018-01-31 at 3:13 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get Rekt, Faggot!
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2018-01-31 at 3:09 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get Rekt, Faggot!So...an actress/ model chick pretty far out of my league is expressing a weird a mount of interest in me, and it has me really puzzled/skeptical more than anything. Havent fucked in years and havent dated in longer than that. Get the unshakeable feeling that this is some sort of trap. Wat do?
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2018-01-24 at 2:23 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get Rekt, Faggot!
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2018-01-19 at 12:32 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get Rekt, Faggot!
Originally posted by A College Professor I think the challenger is the coolest looking muscle car in production, only improvement that would be cool is offering a convertible version. You get an auto or a standard? To me any modern BMW is a penis-car and yeah corvettes are kind of penis cars too.
*looks at the ground* auto....but it has a manual mode/paddle shifters. Never had no pappy to teach me to drive manual. And this thing is too beautiful to fuck up the transmission on, learning right now. Yeah bc i want a NICE car, but the caddy felt kinda weird, and other "luxury" cars always feel like theyre trying too hard. I love vintage cars, so I felt like this would be a compromise. Id never be able to afford this one, but they do have $17k versions. And failing that, Ive always liked the charger too, but everyone seems to have one of those now. -
2018-01-18 at 12:42 PM UTC in What have you been playing lately?
Originally posted by Lanny Yeah, I gave JoJo a fair go but it's, uhh, probably not my thing. It's best when bordering on comedy, which admittedly is often, but shit like training sequences and filler destroy the comedic pacing.
Shipeeeeed Waogaon is a bro tho
Yeah i mean from an anime outsider perspective, all i remember is it felt like Yugio or something for slightly older kids. I just remember a tall, weirdly-proportioned dude with spiky hair and a big gay earring and a 90's chain wallet and a trench coat. And he had a star tattoo on his neck, and his name was Jojo Jostar. And no joke, the same thought that kept coming into my head was "I wonder how many thousands of kids are going to get the fuck beat out of them wearing this exact outfit?"
Also, in summary: YOUR RED FIRE PHAROAH IS NO MATCH FOR MY ROBOTIC BASEBALL PLAYER PUNCHING GUY WITH FISTS MADE OUT OF DIAMONDS!!! -
2018-01-18 at 12:18 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get Rekt, Faggot!
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2018-01-18 at 12:03 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get Rekt, Faggot!1.ilovechronic or something was the one who died on cam. Im surprised Im the only one that remembers that.
2. My car had fucked wiring issues, so Ive been renting the past couple of months. And ive been treating myself to some nice vehicles.
Being poor fucking blows. Having money is such an instant mood-lifter. And whe people THINK you have money, for some reason they go
out of their way to give you more money/opportunities for some reason.
3. Asking out a waiter/waitress is sketchy. Unless you have some clear cues they want the D. Then again, this is from someone who's never asked anyone out. But it feels weird. Should get in tune with your spanish heritage and quietly ask " Want to come back to my mom's apartment and reenact the Spanish Inquisition?" Then nonchalantly pull out a pair of nipple clamps and a white hot branding iron and stare at her quizzically.
4. When you look at one of the new Dodge Challengers, does it seem like a douchey car? I have the Hellcat right now, and i love it so much I could cry. But some cars like corvettes, I always look at them and just think "penis car". I think it just seems like a nice kinda lowkey sports-type car. -
2018-01-17 at 1:58 AM UTC in What have you been playing lately?
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2018-01-14 at 10:16 AM UTC in What have you been playing lately?Add to the list of anime I actually liked- Devilman: Crybaby. Good shit, Netflix.
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2018-01-11 at 6:23 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get Rekt, Faggot!
