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2017-12-07 at 7:13 PM UTC in Lanny's New Shtickhonestly I think Lanny lets speccy stay around because the community needs a loony POS around just to keep things interesting.
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2017-12-07 at 7:10 PM UTC in Child abuse
Originally posted by Issue313 Get revenge by posting pics.
I don't think you'd like her looks very much.Probably the way most male role models left my life one way or another left me with a crippling fear of rejection.
Plus also lots of actual rejection.
A lot of times, traumas in our formative years can prophesize later ones. I'm sorry to hear that you were neglected in that way. -
2017-12-06 at 7:37 AM UTC in Child abuseI was abused by my narcissistic older sister as a child. Not sexually, just physically and emotionally.
My parents would hit me sometimes and I'd get the belt, but they aren't violent people and that didn't happen often.
What about you, niggas? Who hurt you? -
2017-12-06 at 7:34 AM UTC in Hey FuckersGood to see you're still around.
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2017-12-06 at 7:32 AM UTC in what would happen if everybody on earth took mdma at once
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2017-12-05 at 7:44 PM UTC in My "witch" friend says I have a demon inside me, and wants to perform an exorcism.Act like the exorcism really working but you feel pressure building up evilly in your cock
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2017-12-05 at 4:48 AM UTC in MemantineGood lord, I'm so sorry! And about your grandpa, too, of course. But Namenda is expensive stuff. I used Ceretropic before, but I get it at a better price from Nootropic Source. The latter tastes a bit like cough syrup while Ceretropics is milder in taste, but they seem to have equal potency, in my experience, and the price difference is not insubstantial.
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2017-12-05 at 4:39 AM UTC in relationshipsI lack boundaries.
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2017-12-05 at 4:25 AM UTC in Moving out at 17
Originally posted by D3VDINSIDX I was thinking of literally just getting a minimum wage job getting an apartment with a friend and growing weed haha. Yes my parents are exactly as you describe them. If I do attend college it would be for audio engineering but I don't really need school for that half of the courses are online lol.
I think it's true that not everyone needs to go to college, so you might be able to make things work temporarily as you strive for something like the audio idea. And you're right that you can learn a good deal online. The thing about audio engineering, though, is that you need an in to make it work for you. Taking community college classes in music composition and audio production might be a good idea to meet some well-connected professors, and so would requesting an internship with a studio that could use the help. The latter is probably better for the kinesthetic learner, especially if you already know some of your stuff and can bring a skillset to the table.
So, if you're dead set on moving out, you'll want to do it the right way. Ask your parents for some help, first. Don't expect anything, but if they want to be really nice maybe they'll cover your security deposit. If you have roommates, work 25-30 hours a week and spend thriftily you can probably live rather comfortably. You'll want to budget so that you're saving a reasonable amount of income for emergencies and other unexpected expenses. -
2017-12-05 at 4:11 AM UTC in Toxic people
Originally posted by D3VDINSIDX This is my current situation! although I have the willpower to stop I just don't want to. My gf hates this drug as well haha
You probably already know this, but don't stop taking it cold turkey. The best thing you can do is get a doctor to help you taper off because if you fuck it up, you can have seizures and die. -
2017-12-05 at 4:10 AM UTC in Moving out at 17
Originally posted by D3VDINSIDX I've been to therapy, Thanks for the input nothing personal, I shared the information for a purpose haha. In my eyes, I am not moving out to specifically do drugs but I am going to because I don't want to be "controlled" by my parents any longer as that's what bothers me most. Fun fact they don't believe I have anxiety. I don't blame this day in age what teenager hasn't self diagnosed but even my school counselor has told them.
Particularly immigrant parents are sometimes remiss to acknowledge psychiatric diagnoses in their children, prescription or not. I promise you, though, if you go to college you will get to enjoy the freedom you want from your parents, and you will have access to a student health plan that lets you access mental health services. You only have a little bit of school left, and you can absolutely turn this around because hardly anything counts before college anyway.
Otherwise, what will you do for money to afford food, housing, etc? -
2017-12-05 at 4:03 AM UTC in Toxic people
Originally posted by D3VDINSIDX Xanax, although I am not dependent and could really fight off any urge of popping the stupid little pill, the sensation is too nice.
Yeah, I was horrible when I took clonazepam. My whole life, I had no idea that I was actually swimming in crippling anxiety. When I finally had a little pill that made it go away, I couldn't stop. -
2017-12-05 at 4:02 AM UTC in Moving out at 17
Originally posted by D3VDINSIDX There's definitely been some abuse (normal shit getting hit for breaking glass or talking at school) I mean mostly due to me being a anxious boy with my parents getting divorced (this mostly causes my anxiety and probably some other shit as previous ex gf's have told me) but I have respect for my parents as they do not speak English and made the best they could but, like I said it's more due to not getting long and I've never been the person to depend on other people.
If there's not a pattern of abuse, and you want to move out at 17 to grow hydroponics with your friend, you might actually be a hoodlum. Please don't take this personally: I also wanted to move out and do drugs when I was 17. If you want my advice, talk to your folks about your anxiety and have a good cry. Then get to a family therapist. I know that sounds shitty right now, but in ten years your priorities will have shifted and when you start thinking of starting your own family, you'll regret not working things out with your parents. -
2017-12-05 at 3:57 AM UTC in Still aliveI don't remember bringing that up ever, to anybody, but no, I'm not.
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2017-12-05 at 3:55 AM UTC in Toxic peopleWho are the evilest people in your lives, niggas? Tell me about them and how you handle dealing with their bullshit.
One of my close friends growing up was a narcissist with some very bizarre and aggressive behaviors. -
2017-12-05 at 3:53 AM UTC in Moving out at 17
Originally posted by D3VDINSIDX I don't fit in at all never have. for some reason I grew up with a different mentality, I'm seen as hoodlum by my family and the more time I spend with them the more increasing hatred I feel.
I can understand your motivations for wanting to leave, but is there more you aren't telling us? Without going into specifics, is there physical or emotional abuse happening? Do you feel unsafe in your house? -
2017-12-05 at 3:48 AM UTC in Moving out at 17How complicated is it? I would recommend almost any other workable arrangement that would keep you in the home, because unless there's a pressing reason you need to get out you're almost certain to be miserable.
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2017-12-05 at 3:44 AM UTC in Still aliveHonestly, this place is like Cheers.
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2017-12-05 at 3:44 AM UTC in MemantineAs a nootropic, I've never taken something that put me so in touch with my creativity. It's also been helpful as an added mood stabilizer. Recreationally, it's almost worth doing if you don't have plans for 24 hours. I wish it were 1/4 the cost, though.
Anybody else have success stories? Warnings? -
2017-12-05 at 3:41 AM UTC in Still aliveHey guys. Sorry for those of you who've tried to contact me these past few months (especially you, §m£ÂgØL). I've been getting my head straight, but I've been thinking about you guys and my eventual return. I'm still around, and I'm glad to see you all are too.
