Sometimes my nose feels smaller when I touch my face it's so weird. Or I rub my eye and it doesn't feel like it always has. It feels like I have a different face.
Can't even take a smart drug because I have to sleep tonight
I need to get it together, feel like I've gone to Wonderland when I should be studying for these exams next week. There's just been too many things on my mind and I'm dissociating. Something isn't right when a few days go past without me even thinking of my responsibilities, like forgotten them completely. When you forget what your life is about.
Note you're meant to brush your teeth vertically not horizontally.
Sensodyne Pro enamel whitening toothpaste and also a Sensodyne medium toothbrush and Swirl fluoride mouthwash.
That isn't real Turkish delight it's gross. I've had it in Turkey and the closest match I've found was on Selfridges.
I googled evilzone and this came up in the first page, wonder if it was a marketing attempt.
The Ash tree had fallen. I was sitting in a library when a guy approached me being inappropriate so I was nasty to him and he reported me. It was like highschool except I was in real danger this time so I had to burn everything that was me. It was hard to let go of some things. My grey schoolbag and all the disturbed drawings, birthday cards from my mum. A voice told me not to see the psychologist.
I've been having palpitations and literally feel like ripping my heart out of my chest most nights.
Acc nvm it is all true, just remembered throwing her clothes in a field and the blood-stained letter
Feel like throwing up. I'm going to the sinny
I know my brain has shrank from the drinking because my hearing isn't the same, it will take a week to recover and my maths skills will be impacted until then. So I'm done drinking now until after the exams.
That's all that's been going on I think. I'm meant to talk with my GP again but didn't this week, I may be seeing my old psychologist. I have exams in two weeks so I'm just focusing on that then there's something else I will have to catch up on since I've put it on hold for the exams. Then I will be free to fly away.
I've been suppressing memories with the help of hypnosis, getting high most days and surrounding myself with kawaii things. I feel like I don't actually need meds anymore. I've been more active in a society but it's giving me anxiety because I know I'm too extra, I would just pop in once every few months. I can't let people get too close.
Today I will be hanging out with my sister and I don't think we've ever done this in our adult lives. She has an Irish accent now which creeps me out because it's like she's not the person I grew up with anymore.
I tried to take a break from this place but noticed the past week that my anxiety flared up even though I got more valium. Ig I feel less anxious in a mental community.
Some people irl are trying to organising a Scooby Doo rpg system so there's that to look forward to. I have been heavy drinking for four days and am finally starting to feel it.
