2024-02-28 at 3:14 AM UTC
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I'm going to be with my dad.
This world isn't for someone like me.
Wondering if I should dye my hair blonde since I haven't had it since I was 20.
It's unfair that the only relief I get from chronic fatigue is when I take heart attack drugs and I'm going to die from something lame like a desire to clean the bathroom making me take the fatal bump. I've had two productive days and feel like I'm going to flatline now.
Salmon with wheaten bread
Naked smoothie
Blueberries
Panini with coleslaw
Full English breakfast
Weetabix or Frosties
Blue Square bar
Sausage roll
Apple pie
It just occurred to me that I don't have to kill them if I can blackmail them, so I don't have to be picky. All that's stopping me now is I don't want to give someone PTSD because I know what that feels like and I'm not having a midlife crisis yet.
2024-02-25 at 11:10 PM UTC
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Ring in the sky
It's not the streetlamp or my phone.
2024-02-25 at 10:25 PM UTC
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Is it bad to feed ducks bread?
I heard it is bad for them.
Pressured. To function like a person with normal energy levels I have to take shit that's bad for my heart and I can't do that everyday.
I've accepted my fate will be not having children, dying young or becoming rich, being forever alone or taking a cuddle hostage (I need to be picky about that because I would have to kill them if it didn't work out).
I don't get the natural selection jibes either when it's stupid people who reproduce the most.
I don't see the point in being obsessed with gene survival when your genes are already out there but just diluted, and they're going to be diluted again, mixed with your enemies.
It makes sense. You wouldn't want to live with someone not knowing if they have a firearm in the house. Then there's domestic homicide worries.
Still have the migraine from yesterday but it seems worse. I dreamt I got a professional photoshoot done because I was sad about not going to prom and still thinking of that lime green ballgown. Now I'm awake I'm thinking maybe that's not such a bad idea. I don't even know what lime green looks like on my skintone and am getting a vampire facial soon along with PRP for hair growth. Why don't I give myself a photoshoot? I've never worn a ballgown.
2024-02-25 at 1:44 PM UTC
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Tracking Down Sophie
I'll be keeping an eye on houses up for sale/rent so don't think of going anywhere.