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2023-04-19 at 2:59 PM UTC in Change of plans
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2023-04-19 at 2:54 PM UTC in Change of plans
Originally posted by Michael Myers I have the germophobic kind of OCD where it's pretty much a lot like germophobia so I can say "I'm a germophobe" rather than having to explain to others over and over again what OCD is. Those high school stories were kinda funny though. I have to say that my OCD was a lot worse when I was in high school. I'd say 90% of it is gone now. Not necessarily because of myself; a tragedy struck in the family and that made me see the world differently and also made me focus less on my OCD. So I don't owe it to myself but rather to the one not roaming this earth any longer. This tragedy is actually what made me catch feelings for the girl I always keep talking about here because she experienced it a year after me which I heard from my mother. From thinking about her because I wanted to talk to her about it to being fully "in love" with her even though I had never seen her except once and never even speaking to her. And then I got rejected years later. I don't think I'll forgive myself for making that grave mistake.
Do you have Discord? I have hypnosis that can help for afflictions of the heart. -
2023-04-19 at 2:40 PM UTC in Change of plans
Originally posted by Michael Myers Since I suffer from OCD I am also mentally ill. No I am not on any meds or in therapy.
I used to have that, would count the outlines of objects and curbs on paths. Idk why it started but ik I had it as a child, I didn't want food to touch on my plate. My desk is always neat and it would bug me in highschool when people would move things on my desk on purpose to annoy me, when that happened I stabbed their hand with a pencil. One guy put his hand on my desk when he was leaning back in his chair, I pulled my desk away so he fell.
Where was I going with this... So I mostly got rid of it by seeing the OCD as a ghost-like entity that wanted me to waste my time, this gave it characteristics so I could separate it from my mind, that way I wasn't fighting myself. Then I told it to go away. I also have a lime green calcite crystal ball which is said to cure OCD and work at a distance. -
2023-04-19 at 1:48 PM UTC in Change of plansI bet that simp slur started in America, it would make sense for them to see being civilised as a bad thing.
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2023-04-19 at 1:40 PM UTC in Change of plansAnd remember Mic Americans are prone to being rude so don't always listen to them.
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2023-04-19 at 1:37 PM UTC in Change of plans
Originally posted by Michael Myers On the incel forum I said I watched a woman fall the other day and I asked her if she was okay. They told me I was a simp and they'd use it against me whenever I would call them a simp for down bad, as the cool kids these days say.
Some men see women as people and others don't. There's people who will stand up for strangers male or female and if you're one of those you're fine. Like my dad who stopped a bunch of youths from attacking a Japanese man. He ended up giving my dad his belt as thanks. Is it simping if you give an elderly lady your seat? -
2023-04-19 at 1:30 PM UTC in Change of plans
Originally posted by Jiggaboo_Johnson Yeah…that "sense of humor" thing just totally gets by you doesn't it…
Michael is a cool guy and I'm sure he understood I was pulling his plonker
Sounds damage control and it's painful to watch you being so fragile. You should try to be more like Sudo and Wariat, the adults here. -
2023-04-19 at 1:28 PM UTC in Change of plans
Originally posted by Michael Myers I still think, however, that being unable to control my laughter and smiles is problematic, even if it's in situations where you are allowed to do it.
Is it because of meds? You can get Botox in your smile lines if your face is too expressive, that's the only case when it's recommended. -
2023-04-19 at 1:05 PM UTC in Change of plansIt's gross accusing guys of simping just for being civil, says a lot about who you are. Wariat's been decent and civil w me and hasn't tried anything so he's more adult than you.
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2023-04-19 at 12:51 PM UTC in Change of plansIs that what you do Jig? Only act civil when you think you have a chance then throw your rattle out of the pram when you get a no and start hounding someone? Move on.
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2023-04-19 at 12:49 PM UTC in Change of plans
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2023-04-19 at 12:42 PM UTC in Change of plans
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2023-04-19 at 12:35 PM UTC in Change of plansWhen I had Cam come to my hotel last year I just wanted cuddles.
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2023-04-19 at 12:34 PM UTC in Change of plansIg I don't need sex. I crave cuddles more than anything.
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2023-04-19 at 12:33 PM UTC in Change of plansI have one of those LDR vibrators but it was more a mental connection with him.
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2023-04-19 at 12:30 PM UTC in Change of plansMik's the only person that could make me cum and that was online play.
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2023-04-19 at 12:23 PM UTC in Change of plansIt feels unhealthy tbh, I haven't had sex in over a year and could do bcus my FL inbox is overflowing but I'm not bothered enough.
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2023-04-19 at 12:18 PM UTC in Change of plansI've actually never been in a real relationship. W my ex gf it lasted two weeks, I ended it then she wanted to be incestuous sisters after we broke up. It was online and irl and she's still in my life now. It's not that people aren't attracted to me, they are, there's just something wrong with me and I don't know why I'm this reclusive. I had a fwb for two years. I do have sexual urges but it's like my reclusive nature is stronger so I don't seek it out. I don't even try to make friends.
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2023-04-19 at 11:31 AM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..I'm texting someone normally, wouldn't have been able to do that last week. I haven't cried for days or really thought about him. Is it normal to suppress things this fast?
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2023-04-19 at 11:29 AM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..I felt abandoned and resented him for months and was hell bent on revenge, 0 feelings. When he probably died and I only feel sad for a week then block all memory. That's not meant to happen when someone dies.
Ig I'm disoriented from the switching feelings. How can I just go from 0 feelings/hatred, then realise I'm meant to feel grief, then I have to block all memories?
