2023-12-03 at 10:44 AM UTC
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Thinking about therapy
It was telling me to slay the monsters instead of forgiving or accepting things, to not wish people well.
2023-12-03 at 10:38 AM UTC
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Thinking about therapy
Now that I think about it I was hypnotised to take inspiration from Greek mythology when dealing with foes, and autists can take hypnotic suggestions literally.
2023-12-03 at 10:35 AM UTC
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Thinking about therapy
Wanting to maim my sister's fiance just seems like channeling my inner goddess and it could save lives because he speeds on the daily and will crash eventually.
2023-12-03 at 10:30 AM UTC
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Thinking about therapy
I don't think it's extreme for me to seek revenge to such an extent, that's what gods and goddesses were like in myth.
2023-12-03 at 10:27 AM UTC
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Thinking about therapy
I can't imagine what I'd be like without hypnosis. I don't heal from things on my own hypnosis does everything. I think I'm addicted to it.
I've been thinking about this some more because it's a grey area. Thinking of Kate Middleton specifically. I think it's okay for short skirts to be against the rules because some girls look bad in them, like she would because she's old.
2023-12-03 at 9 AM UTC
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They're often ugly women though so I do come out feeling a little better about myself. It makes me think about their issues and that I don't have it so bad.
Not long enough to be bullied or short enough to be told off.
I kept mine just above the knee. Didn't want to roll it up and lose its shape. Tie was always six stripes long. It's all coming back to me now.
The girls uniform rules weren't enforced, not a single one of us wore the ugly woolen socks or had skirts below the knee.
I wore trousers in one day and was called into an office, they said people would think I was pregnant.
Pleated skirts would have been ugly though.
The only thing I didn't like, was that while the skirts looked good, they were structured so it was hard to run in them. Girls couldn't play gaelic at breaks like the guys did.
In my school I didn't feel like girls had to cover up because of males being distracted by them, it seemed more like it was to be respectful and for self-esteem, to dress like we were already in a white-collar workplace. Uniforms were the same from the waist up. Skirts had to be below the knee but not one of us followed that rule. There's this school in Belfast where girls have to wear ankle-length skirts and that makes me uncomfortable, it feels like it is sexualising them then. Making girls legs taboo makes it worse, don't want to go back to times when ankle flashing is a distraction for men. That's unhealthy.
I was jealous of my friends, the girls could wear hoodies and trousers in their school but it was still a uniform. It didn't look right wearing hoodies with ties.
We have uniforms in N.I and the girls wear ties. I'm not sure why as they don't in the workplace. In 6th form there were different rules, you could only dye your hair natural colours then. I remember someone coming in to teach us about workplace makeup.
I only remember feeling turned on enough to affect my focus once in high school. It was in the 6th form study room, I would read my fiction books there undetected or get a pass to go to the library to read them. But it was intense, idk how guys go through that throughout the day.
2023-12-02 at 8:17 PM UTC
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Thinking about therapy
Clothes shopping is hard enough with all the options.
2023-12-02 at 8:17 PM UTC
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Thinking about therapy
I need to sort out identity issues, find out if I really have DDNOS and if it's possible for me to have one identity in the future despite the past.
2023-12-02 at 8:01 PM UTC
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Thinking about therapy
I used to see a psychologist in the past but didn't open up. Last February I saw a counselor but stopped going because I thought I was coming across as psycho. I'd just talk about crazy things in a calm tone. I don't think I'm capable of of being vulnerable and maybe something psycho protects me. At this point I can only see small things being helped like false beliefs I've adopted. But I know there are different kinds of therapies that I don't know of yet and hypnosis has helped me. Since I can't see myself completely objectively I was wondering if anyone has ideas.
