2023-12-04 at 10:01 PM UTC
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Honestly respect to Lanny
Why don't you all go get lost in the Amazon and stream it so I can watch you getting picked off.
That sounds like excessive paranoia, like you're not thinking clearly about the liklihood of those things happening. Now that you've brought it I'm wondering how I deal with it. I guess I'm open about emotions but I almost expect people to try to use what I say against me and it doesn't hurt. I don't tell people things they can hurt me with but still vent. There are a few people I trust with different things and am not sure why. Maybe it's easy to tell when people have strong principles.
2023-12-04 at 12:36 AM UTC
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Is this just a wild idea?
It's messed up but I'm slightly happy that I'm still me, there's some of my early identity left.
2023-12-04 at 12:32 AM UTC
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Is this just a wild idea?
I'm wondering if it's the book that caused me to think like this.
2023-12-04 at 12:30 AM UTC
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Is this just a wild idea?
An eerie thought just hit me. I related to this fictional character when I was 13 and adopted their name as an alias for 7 years. In the book they planned to maim them and it's almost the same inner monologue.
I am making great progress today. So far I went out to buy sugary things, watched the wheel of time, made a burger, Akira trapped me every time I went to check on her. I read a few articles in a DBT app and recorded my mood. Signed up to Gaia, did mindfulness for five minutes, a DBT worksheet, listened to meditation music and made a list of things for my manifestation mood board. So I haven't done much and now the real battle begins because I'm usually productive at night being nocturnal and have a lot to do but somehow Akira makes me sleep now. Apparently cats can make you sleepier.
For that you deserve a little dose of ericksonian hypnosis.
I ordered the thick option but still don't know if I'll like the texture or where it sits on my neck. If the sleeves are long enough to cover my hands.
Excited about my new grey sweatshirt on the way but also wary because it may not feel nice. The ones I have are all men's ones and have a heavy weight which I like. I'm not sure what fabric it is. One of them was my dad's and I don't like it as much.
2023-12-03 at 3:13 PM UTC
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Thinking about therapy
I can't tell if riptotse really lacks this much critical thinking or if this is his way of trolling, to give everyone bad advice. He shouldn't be here.
I feel like I need to do something therapeutic today like working through DBT sheets. I need sugary things to start the day so have to go out. I plan to have a productive day despite the chaos.
The heart thing covered up a freckle on my hand that I later burnt off.
