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2017-07-07 at 12:14 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSDamn, I just realize that these are the kind of posts people describe as "sperging out". Well, fuck them.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-04 at 7:33 AM UTC in are any of you psychologically still in a certain decade or time period?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-06 at 11:47 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSI'm thinking about titling my memoir "Shitposting the Years Away".
Originally posted by Captain Falcon
You should have read about the old guy she's taking care of, it's incredible how fucked up, lazy, dysfunctional, and disgusting he is. I swear, he could be a character in 120 Days in Sodom or something. Jesus christ, this is a great example of why assisted suicide should be legal. Just give him a peaceful exit, he probably doesn't really want to live anyway and won't tell anyone about it, lost the will to live a long time ago and became passively suicidal.
Put my ear muffs on and clocked myself at 700 words per minute. I wasn't even at full speed reading rate, but taking in every word, a high comprehension rate. Would have been faster with my ear plugs as well.
Really curious about what I could reach once I get around to picking up the wraparound sunglasses I bought and modifying them into the type used my competitive memorizers, but probably with larger holes: http://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2011/02/20/magazine/mind-secrets.html
They use ear muffs and plugs as well, as do I.
Everyone should give it a try for reading, at least muffs + plugs, instead of trying to multitask, adding "noise" and introducing an array of negative neurological factors from reading or having the TV on or something. It isn't a problem if you don't have ADD or willpower issues and genuinely enjoy/have an interest in what you're reading.
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2017-07-06 at 10:12 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSLiterally just spent 21 hours masturbating. Beat that motherfuckers. Do I have the site record? I wasn't even on drugs! (Well, except for Nardil.)
Reason? Mainly complete inorgasmia from Nardil. I noticed it before. I don't need to do it often at all, normally I literally do not have thoughts of sex throughout the day, develop erections, watch porn, or even feel sexual attraction IRL. I only do it when it's been long enough that sex drive arises, which is pretty minor, because I see it as a mild nuisance and it's easier to just take a few minutes to do it than attempting to subdue it via willpower or Buddhist techniques I'm unaware of.
IIRC last time I may have taken 5 hours of so at most because I was on modafinil and fell into this dilemma: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wait/walk_dilemma
There may have been an instance or two before that, although I did eventually manage to come during one or the singular instance. That was a lot of semen.
After the modafinil instance stupidity, the drug can trigger getting trapped in a cycle like this, as can (Other? Not sure if it's classified as one.) stimulants. A sort of OCD evocation or exacerbation, along or alternatively with the increase of attention span, motivation, cognitive endurance and energy (I think that's all.) After that incident I decided to set some simple rules. If it's taking longer than 5 minutes and you repeatedly experience a loss of erection or interest, it's not going to happen and you should stop. Along with, and I think this was a previous rule from a long time ago, although I may have set it due to the effect on pleasure when masturbating used to be considerably more enjoyable, seeing it as a waste, not doing so in a half assed manner, if I'm not sure I really want to, don't feel that strong of an urge.
Anyway, why did this latest incident occur from 3AM Tuesday to Midnight Thursday, with very short breaks? Well, I wanted to drain my balls, for one, and didn't seem willing to give up. Amazingly, I didn't seem to give it much thought beyond that and wasn't keeping track of time. I suppose at some point it had just been so long and my sleep cycle would have been so messed up that I decided to keep going. It's not as if I have any obligations, anything important to do.
Amazingly, other than the difficulty with keeping erections and the lack of lube (Used coconut oil, which I had to keep reapplying, and later added in sunscreen. The oil made a fucking mess, but I needed to change my sheets anyway.) (I really need to buy more, something thick and long lasting this time, like anal lube), it was actually enjoyable and fun! Amazingly, I didn't lose my ability to experience pleasure after all that time, so it was just never ending, as long as I could get it up. At least it was an interesting experience, of indulging in pleasure and fantasy for such an extended period. Toward the end I was on the verge of falling asleep, having to repeatedly battle it, and it really fucked with my visualization ability because every time I would close my eyes I'd go into the pre-sleep mildly dreamlike state where these visualizations, like minor weak dreams, start coming out and you begin drifting to sleep, along with my visuals being distorted and the quality diminished.
This was terribly dysfunctional and a ridiculous/moronic waste of time. Only time I can really remember doing something like this. Well, I learned my lesson.
Oh, and I was genuinely afraid of what might occur if I did actually manage to orgam/ejaculate after all that time. Hopefully I'll just have a wet dream if the inorgasmia doesn't subside soon, having perpetual blue balls would suck, I can't remember the last time I experienced that. Prostate stimulation doesn't work for me, so that isn't an option, although I did notice I had leaked a bit of seminal fluid after defecating on Tuesday.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-06 at 10:11 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSThe weather is lovely today. The bay is rated as having the best overall weather in the country (possibly the world?). It feels great outside. Amazing how much mood colors your perception of the world, something to be overcome. Stop passing judgment and simply perceive...
I was having a short meditation session with the sun on by bare back while Little Guy ate, felt the urge to get into psychedelics one day again, once I feel I've recovered enough, am psychologically stable enough. I can get into the right state surprisingly fast, despite actually not having spent much time purposefully in meditative states. I have an idea as to why this is. It certainly wasn't always like this at all.
Imagine being on LSD, out in nature, and becoming the wind, like Guru Laghima (you've probably never heard of him). The experience must be incredible. A cry of exhilaration and exuberance leading to an explosive ecstatic transition into ego death and universal unity is how I imagine it.
Definitely want to study Buddhist meditation techniques to utilize in combination with this. Get deep into it, particularly the non-mystical original teachings/interpretation. The potential would be vast and enormous.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-06 at 10:02 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSI'm thinking about using my newfound sexual prowess/powers to become a sex legend in the bay area, using a viagra spray to rapidly achieve and maintain rock hard erections. My plan is to start of small, relying on word of mouth, particularly at college, possibly targeting the girls optimal for this, then move on from there, possibly locating and joining/participating in sex clubs, networking with swingers and other sex centered individual arrangements, as long as there isn't a serious risk of STDs (Stick to middle class or higher educated whites and east-asians, don't go full homo, avoid super-sluts and nutjobs).
Then I'll launch a extensively planned and detailed marketing campaign online, utilizing certain subreddits to attract or seduce the highest quality women I can find, and finally creating the harem I deserve, living the anime protagonist dream IRL. I damn well deserve it after 27 years of complete celibacy and isolation, never so much as having held hands or gone on a date (By choice). If there's anyone who should be given the blessing of other men, not elicit jealousy, insults, or attempted sabotage toward, it's me. I've had such a joyless life filled with suffering. Do you know how terrible it is to be a*utistic? You've observed me for years, can you imagine what a horror it would be to be me?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-06 at 8:10 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSI woke up feeling unusually good today. I'm happy as a clam right now and have good energy levels, enthusiasm, an anti-anhedonic effect, lack anxiety, cognition; possibly other things traits I missed. I wonder if it's because I took all (Or at least 3/4, I wasn't sure if I had taken one earlier) my Nardil at once around midnight to make up for having missed it throughout the day.
I saw the "pulsing" strategy mentioned a while ago, where you only take your pills every other day, doubling the daily dosage on those days. Seems to work pretty well for people, and it does have a long half life, although there are acute effects I was worried about missing, primarily the effect of its main metabolite PEH, which I found some good information of in a patent detailing the % increase of GABA-T inhibition and GABA levels by periods of 3 hours. It's possible that long-term use could modulate this. Maybe it isn't as big a deal as I thought, I didn't feel depressed or anxious yesterday.
The masturbation marathon could definitely have an effect.
Tried fapping again when I woke up and couldn't do it. Apparently my ability to get an erection is so weak, likely due to my T levels being the lowest they've ever been (and they were already abnormally low before), that I can't even get a full erection or stay hard if I'm on my back, I have to be on my side. Pretty sad at my age. Fortunately nothing was seriously inflamed or damage, just some discomfort in the area below the head covered by foreskin with it's not retracted, pulling down too much was too uncomfortable, but it didn't really matter. The standard up down dry method was also ineffective. Only the lubricated hand humping method worked, which didn't cause discomfort.
Inorgasmia actually isn't that bad, it may even be enjoyable. Normally people have problems with premature ejaculation, because, like the vast majority of animals, we didn't actually evolve to last that long. Why would we? Well, bonding is one potential reason, but healthy individuals, hunter gatherers having the highest potential to be close to optimal (without drugs), could simply replace that with a greater frequency of sex, which would also increase the chance of pregnancy. Interestingly a study demonstrated that the average length of penetration is only 3-5 minutes (We should all know men tend to be goddamn fucking liars about these matters, or utterly deluded, with inaccurate self-perceptions), and their wives/partners reported the estimated length of it as being twice as long as it actually was (The power and importance of perception). Of course, there's always variation, some people are naturally long lasting (Although it could be a product of a disorder, a disease of modern civilization), and others train for it.
I generally found orgasms to be a nuisance (Although with my perfected masturbatory technique, pre-mental breakdown, I was able to last long and it felt great, great orgasms every time) because I found the act of masturbating to be far more enjoyable, at least in the cumulative, than the short fleeting burst of intense pleasure that an orgasm brought, bringing the experience to an end. This time, as an attempt at a substitute, I simply adjusted my fantasy to reach the climax in alignment with peak physical pleasure and to orgasm in the fantasy at the same time I intended to end the act, maximizing the power of visualization and mental auditory quality, the general fidelity of the experience. It was a surprisingly good and satisfying substitute.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-06 at 7:43 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by Captain Falcon Because grool.
Your nutsack/dick is kind of gross because it's musty and/or sweaty and associated with piss/cum.
But if you're itching anything past the big pussy lips, you're touching a mixture of grool, piss and blood depending on the time of mo the. And you can get fucked if you do that shit.
Revolting. It shouldn't be. I was my genito-anal region at least 3 times in the shower. Once with soap, then with a worn (not from dishes) non-scratch scotch-brite pad and soap, and finally with soap again. Once out of the shower and dry I apply a layer of clear gel deodorant to prevent sweating, sweating being excessive and unnecessary due to the modern clothes we wear, which is out of alignment with our evolution (hunter gatherer style covers, breeze, and physical activity that replaces old sweat with new, removes some oils, dirt, dead skin, and debris), along with it possibly having evolved a pheromone producing function. I then apply a layer of mineral/baby oil as a moisturizer, the constitution being closer to our skin's natural oils and longer lasting; along with the possibility that the bacteria that evolved to consume our naturally produced oils, whose waste products produce odor, not being able to consume them.
There is an idea of a Malice, some kind of abstraction, but there is no real me, only an entity, something illusory, and though I can hide my cold gaze and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable: I simply am not there.
Next I will detail my perfected foot hygiene technique (Including how to properly keep shoes clean), which prevents any odor at all from an area normally considered among the most repulsive. I could literally hike all day in hot weather and not produce any odor at all, and have (I checked).The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-05 at 5:03 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-05 at 4:04 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by hydromorphone He said sometime not too long ago you said you'd ruin his *insert life/career something like that here*.
Just don't pick on 1337. He's ma' nigga too, ya know.
I never fucking said that. I have my a*utism memory power, everyone has noticed I remember nearly everything, particularly what I post.
He must have misinterpreted what I said or confused a post I directed at someone else.
The only relevant thing I can think of was some conversation that partially took place in PMs. It was about some of his life issues and me heavily criticizing him for his incredibly selfish plans after what had recently occurred, the problems he has in life. I never said a thing about ruining his life or career, I don't have any reason to. He can be very overly sensitive at times and angry, I actually remember him admitting that he likes to go online just to get pissed off at people and argue or fuck with them, something along those lines, so he could definitely have developed that idea because he thinks I don't like him.
That nigga has serious problems, this just could just be some paranoid fantasy he's concocted in his mind. He did recently admit he's fallen back into opioid addiction, so who knows what's going on in his life and mind. It always ends up with him seriously fucked up in multiple ways.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-04 at 11:17 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSHow much time do you spend indoors tweaking and doing nothing but making an insane amount of worthless shitposts and spam, bitching about being banned, which you fully deserve?
Fucking incredible how oblivious and deluded you are.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-04 at 11:15 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSI wonder how many times sploo has charged head first into a wall or his refrigerator. It just seems like the kind of thing he would do occasionally.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-04 at 11:06 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSScron, I swear to god, you of all people acting elitist and considering yourself superior.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-05 at 2:58 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSSounds like people are doing car stunts relatively close by, there's probably racing as well.
I'll be damned if I'm ever walking outside to see it. I don't give a shit about cars, they're boring as hell. It's also dangerous because there are bound to be groups of niggers and gang members watching, and all it takes is a car losing control, such as when doing donuts or whatever they're doing, and plowing into the crowd for people to get crippled or killed.
By god, I really do sound like an old man.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-05 at 2:28 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSWhat about people with the absurd multitude of disorders you possess?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-05 at 2:07 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSI wonder what drugs banned in the olympics have the strongest effect on endurance. Main thing I would want it for is if I decide to go a rally where antifa shows up en masse. Milo stated a while ago that he was planning to return and hold a free speech week at UC Berkeley, which would be an absolute shitstorm.
I'd love to try something that increases red blood cells or blood oxygenation, an increase in ATP. I never researched exercise physiology, so I'm unaware of all the aspects that are involved in muscular energy production and endurance. This would be necessary for understanding all the MOAs, the most effective or promising, that can be addressed.
Anyone have any information? You could end up seeing a hilarious video of me sperging out and getting beat up by antifa. I promise I'll let out a prolonged goku style scream while I'm powering up to fight, as loud and as long as I can.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-05 at 1:55 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSI didn't believe his claim of 5 times in a single day, but I could see it happening from fireworks landing on it. §m£ÂgØL doesn't seem like the type to maintain a healthy lawn (I wouldn't either, they're a ridiculous waste of water and space).The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-05 at 12:29 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-05 at 5:01 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSDamn nigger, someone went all fucking out nearby. I had a pretty nice view right from my door.
At first I thought it was a small scale professional fireworks show at a nearby park. I think it's literally being going on for over 20 minutes straight by now, possibly getting close to 30.
Fucking redonkulous. I wonder how much those cost. They must some well off niggers or have good connections.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-05 at 4:06 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by Needledick_Needledick_Needledick
lol my cats outside right now with all the fireworks, probably hiding.
Damn, sundown. Things are bound to get cray cray at some point. Well, Ash seems to be pretty chill, she's just chilling out napping on a small stack of papers she likes to rest on, for some reason. I have my ear muffs + plugs.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!