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2015-07-29 at 2:10 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
I fucking hate AT&T so much, I haven't felt this mad in years. I would pay double my annual phone bill to get the chance the fucking murder any cunt who works those subhuman shits.
Would any of them happen to have something like a dual screen (one very HD) dual Titan X PC setup? -
2015-07-28 at 6:40 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionMy heart belongs to heroin.
That would be a good shirt for a lot of people here. -
2015-07-28 at 12:14 PM UTC in I'm ghey
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2015-07-28 at 11:51 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionSploo, do you remember taking a test for Asperger's and one/some of the questions being about digging holes?
Low requirements: http://www.mediafire.com/download/1z...m+By+Lydon.rar
Then you can move on to this or Terraria if you want more, which also have low hardware requirements: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/SteamWorld_Dig
Currently playing that game, wish Motherload had been much longer, but this satisfies my desire for more and is better.
If you're looking for something to play/keep you distracted/fill the hours of your bleak and empty life. I'd like to know how enjoyable/addictive you find it, which could highly correlate with an autistic mental framework. -
2015-07-28 at 8:57 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionMotto of Semiazas and probably most of BLTC:
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2015-07-28 at 7:45 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionI am an archetypal misogynist. Of course not all women are the same and I haven't met them all, it would be foolish to say I hate all women simply for being women, but I do hate the general archetype of women, what they evolved to be. Ayn Rand was a woman.
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2015-07-28 at 6:46 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionUnder? Do you mean this? http://www.amazon.com/Under-Bell-Jar-Juliane-Hanka/dp/3640110498
This stack, done 2 or 3 times: 2-fma, pyrazolam, NSI-189, intranasal P-21, sodium valproate
Followed by Nardil, properly stored to prevent hydrazine reacting with oxygen, placed in enteric capsules to reduce side effects and increase efficacy. This is the best depression and anxiety, along with related issues, regimen my years of reading has led me to. Only thing left to do is drag myself to the point of actually doing it. I'll need to contact someone first after a long time. -
2015-07-28 at 4:39 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
I've been thinking "it'd be cool if someone just came and took me out" like take the pressure of making the decision of dying out of my hands.
Weed Smoker called it being passively suicidal. My death fantasies are pretty depressing and often center around isolation.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bell_jar
"An example of a classroom science experiment involving a bell jar is to place a ringing alarm clock under the bell jar. As the air is pumped out of the sealed bell jar, the noise of the alarm clock fades, thus demonstrating that the propagation of sound is mediated by the air. In the absence of their medium, the sound waves cannot travel." -
2015-07-28 at 4:36 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionHave you ever wanted to hire maid or cleaning service just to give everything a reset after falling behind on cleaning/maintenance so much?
It probably wouldn't even be expensive if you just hired (a) Mexican immigrant(s) off Craigslist or something. -
2015-07-27 at 1:26 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionOf course I have, I think I mentioned it a lot in the retarded thread on Zoklet last year. I was seriously considering having myself cryogenically frozen upon death to hopefully have a second chance, possibly funding it via life insurance, my death made to look like a murder or accident. Fortunately I've never felt I was on the verge of killing myself, just having regular death fantasies and ruminating on the concept, not being able to imagine continuing like this for years.
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2015-07-27 at 8:57 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionTry more, 1g is a relatively low dose for many.
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2015-07-27 at 4:58 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionI'm not sure if even opiates could touch the kind of pain that I feel. I should give them a try, though, I have no experience with that class of drugs and may respond well to them.
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2015-07-27 at 2:34 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionMay be at the start of another breakdown. Woke up after falling asleep for an hour with a sense of mild-moderate panic, mild-moderate probably only because I've lost my emotions, the ability to feel, to such a great extent. Rocking myself and repeating the phrase "I'm afraid." in my mind. Because I've become so depressed and have lost the ability to function to such a great extent and it only seems to be getting worse, because I can't find and meaning and purpose in life, any sense of happiness and fulfillment, literally anything I want to do, and have such severe anhedonia I barely feel any pleasure in life. You probably won't be able to grasp the full extent of what it's really like, what it does to you to have essentially put yourself in solitary confinement for over ten years because you can't accept what people and life are, and just can't feel any sense of connection to other people, and even if you tried your brain is atypical, your fundamental ability to empathize (autism spectrum) has been demonstrated to undeniably be dysfunctional, and it's been so long you've developed such an immense resistance, it's literally altered your neurological development to a great extent having gone into seclusion so early in life, to such a great extent, and for such a prolonged period, that it could take years of constant serious effort to gain any semblance of normality, like rehabilitation for severe PTSD and other disorders, having come back from being a prisoner of war. It's repeatedly been demonstrated to be one of the most inhumane and harmful forms of punishment over the long term, everyone breaks eventually.
I wasn't exaggerating when I said I was considering having myself hospitalized when I was in the pit of depression last year, just calling 911 and telling them the situation so something would finally change. -
2015-07-26 at 5:08 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
Buy a CC dump with BTC use TOR to order the most expensive gaming PC, charge to CC, and send it to a drop house or something.
No, I mean physically stealing it, but not in a crude manner, strategically. -
2015-07-26 at 3:16 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionLanny, if your goal was to steal the best no budget gaming PC, how would you do it/where would you look? Do you have any enemies IRL you hate, any trust fund/rich kids with daddy money who can afford whatever they want and don't deserve it or arrogant techies/entrepreneurs, who you'd love to see get their prized possession stolen?
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2015-07-26 at 2:14 PM UTC in Psychomanthis should move to the united statesClearly there are other factors that influence the outcomes of the US other than capitalism, junior autist.
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2015-07-26 at 2:12 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionIt's really very easy to have enough money left for things like this even on a very low income. Extremely cheap diet, in part from shopping around, buying large amounts at steep discount when available. Entertainment mainly from PC and internet, which can be stolen easily. Housing, modifying a vehicle can be a very interesting option, particularly with these kinds of home batteries: http://www.teslamotors.com/powerwall
My ideal would be a double decker bus with the ability to expand, with as many parts stolen or cheaply acquired as possible. I've read that you can get large school buses very cheap at school auctions, which would serve as the base. Then the inside would be like this [__ __], where you could have the two have halves slide out with another layer above and beneath them. I wonder if you could modify a charger for those home batteries so that you could charge it at an electric vehicle station quickly and for free. There would also be to pay someone, or steal, water or electricity, which could be very simple.
For side income, look at prices for Vyvanse, which is easier to acquire due to lower abuse potential, on darknet markets. Selling your prescriptions would be an easy way to significantly pad your income.
When you don't care about people and the things most care about, going out, girlfriend, house, wife, kids, fancy cars, it really frees up enormous potential that would largely be wasted. -
2015-07-26 at 8:36 AM UTC in My life as of 7/26/15
Why the hell am I a hopeless romantic out of all people
You need to let parts of yourself die. Give up your false hope, then you will find a sort of freedom, an inner numbness to dull and avoid/prevent pain.
There's a name for what afflicts those like us: Cancer of the soul. -
2015-07-26 at 8:18 AM UTC in ATTN: Amerifags.
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2015-07-26 at 7:41 AM UTC in ATTN: Amerifags.Sweden taxing itself into oblivion
http://swedenreport.org/2015/04/03/s...into-oblivion/
https://www.reddit.com/r/SwedenYes/top/
Contrary to the standard Nordic fetishism Sweden will actually be the poster child for the failure of leftist policy, particularly multiculturalism/unbridled immigration when combined with social democracy, a strong welfare state, and culture dominated by the left. I would love to see a leftists try to respond to this. My prediction: That's racist!