Posts by Malice

2015-08-12 at 11:20 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

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I think I may just buy some opium from a darknet market and make some laudanum as a temporary treatment for depression. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Laudanum

Interesting note:
Evaluation of Opioid Modulation in Major Depressive Disorder
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4397403/

Until the 1950s, opium was the primary pharmacologic treatment for melancholia (Tenore, 2008). However, following the introduction of monoamine oxidase inhibitors and tricyclic antidepressants, the clinical use of opioids for depression was largely abandoned owing to their inherent risks of abuse and addiction. Today, a variety of monoamine-based pharmacotherapies for depression are available, but the incidence of treatment-resistant depression remains stubbornly high, and new clinical approaches in this setting are greatly needed. The present work reassessed the potential utility of a more calibrated opioid modulation therapy in major depressive disorder (MDD), based on advancements in, and improved understanding of, opioid biology and therapeutics.

I'm sure I'll be fine if I only use it once or twice a week (Hehehe).

Feels kind of cool to be going back to basics. Maybe I'll get a tweed jacket with leather elbow patches and a pipe to go with it.

2015-08-12 at 9:31 PM UTC in I hate it when I pay more than I have to for something.

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You have the mentality of the jedi. Perhaps the reason you hate them is because you see so much of yourself in them, the parts you hate the most and wish to keep hidden, refuse to accept.

2015-08-12 at 8:38 AM UTC in I fucking love sauerkraut

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Have you tried kimchi? It's divine with sliced corned beef cooked in a pressure cooker.

2015-08-12 at 7:01 AM UTC in roshambo got into a fist fight over a can of soda once

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https://youtu.be/9HN9FNcWc2g?t=3m38s

2015-08-12 at 6:57 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

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Pyrazolam is complete shit, weaksauce barely active bullshit benzo. Take diclazepam or etizolam instead.

Depends. If you don't genuinely have an anxiety disorder you probably aren't going to notice much. As I said, it seems to by far be the most selective, and the effects are non-recreational, it lacks euphoria and other pleasurable effects so you shouldn't take it if you're looking for a fun experience.

2015-08-12 at 6:56 AM UTC in is everyone evil

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The right not caring about humanity is a myth. The right cares just as much for humanity however the right's ideas of how to make everything fair for everyone among other things are simply fundamentally different than the left's.

It's true, Jonathan Haidt has done good work in this, and also demonstrated that leftists generally don't understand rightists worldview, the farther to the left you go the worst the effect becomes, on average, and attribute differences due to evil, which Lanny has consistently shown.

Leftists universalist humanitarian values also tend to be wildly inconsistent and incoherent: www.slatestarcodex.com/2014/09/30/i-can-tolerate-anything-except-the-outgroup/

They've inadvertently dine enormous harm. Housing (I highly recommend reading "The Gated City") and agricultural and trade policies have done enormous harm to the poor, by far the most. http://econlog.econlib.org/archives/2014/10/housing_and_pov.html
And their fiscal state and sustainability is largely illusory: http://econlog.econlib.org/archives/2013/06/californias_pho.html
Their stances and activism on nuclear power have also by far done the most environmental damage, the arguments against it don't stand up to scrutiny: https://www.reddit.com/r/news/comments/2rc9oc/nuclear_power_is_the_greenest_option_say_top/

Of course people like Lanny will refuse to take responsibility for it and claim they aren't inherently leftist stances, which is true, but won't answer as to why they come from the left and have been adhered to so consistently and widespread for decades with no sign of changing, all the while having no problem blaming rightists for their perceived outcomes of their policies.

2015-08-11 at 11:52 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

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Ok thanks. I've used it in the past but only gobbling down massive amounts to feel good for like 40 minutes.

I mentioned this before, but I'd highly recommend giving pyrazolam a try. Something I sent to someone recently:

http://www.hindawi.com/journals/aps/2012/416864/

The main points is that tolerance to the anxiolytic effect specifically doesn't seem to develop, and that the anti-cognitive effects can be avoided with drugs selective for the A2 subreceptor, which is why I chose pyrazolam. If you read reports on it it's consistently described as being non-recreational and lacking side effects, it just removes/prevents general/social anxiety and that's it. This may also be why there's much lower availability, because it's not fun. A few months ago I was about to order a gram from tic-research for about $190, along with 2-FMA, but he ran out right before it was finalized and told me he didn't know when it would be back in stock because someone would need to order a custom synth.

Good reports here: http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads/633714-Pyrazolam-Megathread/page18
http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads/764427-Wow-never-gave-Pyrazolam-a-chance?p=13158397#post13158397

2015-08-11 at 9:48 PM UTC in roshambo got into a fist fight over a can of soda once

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we're meeting up this thursday or friday. he lives like 40 minutes away. we'll record an album for you guys

Go nuts. Seriously, make a list of things to do, take requests, and paint the town red. Get the good parts on video.

2015-08-11 at 9:48 PM UTC in roshambo got into a fist fight over a can of soda once

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we're meeting up this thursday or friday. he lives like 40 minutes away. we'll record an album for you guys

Go nuts. Seriously, make a list of things to do, take requests, and paint the town red. Get the good parts on video.

2015-08-11 at 3:28 PM UTC in 2016 presidential race

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This is what democracy looks like.

2015-08-11 at 6:42 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

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That was me that said that genius, no one in this community knows how to manipulate doctors like I do. I can't afford the treatment anymore anyways because I no longer qualify for Medicaid and it ran out past the cutoff for Obamacare so im fucked this year. I dont want to mask these issues with drugs anymore, they are deep rooted existential issues I have struggled with for 18 years now and I need to grow a pair and man up and just off myself and quit whining and bitching about how miserable I am. I derive no real pleasure from anything and my entire existence consists of overcoming one hardship only to arrive at another with no form of reward for each one that I overcome. It is a meaningless cycle of misery and to persuade myself to believe otherwise via chemicals is only prolonging my struggle and delaying the inevitable. The thought of suicide scares me in a way to be honest but on a logical level I know it is the most sensible option for me at this point. Only fear of guilt restrains me anymore, nothing else.

You should at least try DMT before you off yourself. Definitely not suggesting it's going to be a cure or change anything, change the way you feel or look at the world, but it may definitely be an interesting experience worth trying at least once before you go.

Related to suicide, McKenna once found a Tibetan monk who was interested in trying it and afterward he said that it was as far as you could go into the bardo, the interval between death and rebirth, as you could go and still be able to return, without actually dying.

This is very different than other psychedelics you've tried. Don't think that there isn't anything new out there to experience, something that could still wow you.

2015-08-11 at 5:37 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

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How to Have Gay Sex Without Being Gay
http://www.vice.com/read/how-to-have-gay-sex-without-being-gay-965

Jane Ward's new book, Not Gay: Sex between Straight White Men, is an investigation into "no homo" culture, which charts the many ways in which straight white men explore, explain, and excuse their sexual behavior with other men. So readily visible are the pieces of evidence she amasses, and so surprising are her conclusions, that reading Not Gay is like doing a Magic Eye puzzle for the mind: All the dots you'd never before put together suddenly snap into place, allowing you to see just how hot for other men some straight men are.

2015-08-11 at 4:35 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

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https://www.reddit.com/r/depressionregimens/comments/3cxjj4/novel_miracle_approach_needed/

FYI, you can always go into an urgent care clinic, tell them that you've run out and are experiencing a discontinuation syndrome or rebound depression, and they'll hook you up with a script since Nardil isn't a controlled substance. If paying for it is a problem, your pharmacist can help you find cost-saving programs.

That's an interesting idea. Some people mentioned a similar strategy before, telling a new psychiatrist you're meeting with that you just moved here and ran out of your prescription, or something along those lines. An urgent care clinic could be faster and easier for this, though. I'd definitely ask for a high dose, IIRC many find that it's twice what the commonly prescribed maximum is. Stockpile it and work up if needed.

2015-08-10 at 2:45 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

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Oh, and did you only take 2-FMA and 4-FA orally? For the latter I found that when used rectally (plugging) it didn't cause the excessive thirst and slight liver or kidney pain (can't remember which) that oral administration caused, likely due to bypassing hepatic metabolism. Bypassing the gut can also have benefits for many drugs that adversely effect it. Intranasal should also have this benefit.

2015-08-10 at 2:33 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

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Lanny, you mentioned recently that you didn't find 2-FMA to be sustainable for prolonged usage. There's a newer stimulant that's been mentioned to me, some find it to be an even better functional stimulant than 2-FMA. Worth sampling: https://psychonautwiki.org/wiki/3-FPM

www.google.com/search?q=site:reddit.com+3-FPM

The duration is significantly shorter, so it may avoid the sleep issues 2-FMA caused you.

2015-08-09 at 8:35 PM UTC in is everyone evil

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2015-08-09 at 10:56 AM UTC in Anyone been playing Terraria since the 1.3 update?

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Official trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-nXdtDgpPeE

Now I'm at the Lunar Events. I think I'll start a game on expert mode after taking on the Moon Lord.

2015-08-09 at 10:31 AM UTC in Have you met the one?

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You need to get laid Malice.

That's definitely not what I need. I'm not like other people. I don't mean in terms of better or worse, just different. We're practically different species.

2015-08-09 at 9:37 AM UTC in 2016 presidential race

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I don't care who wins and will waste no time following this nonsense. Part of growing up is realizing how little it really matters, the utter stupidity of the masses and red team blue team political tribalism.

As for Bernie Sanders, populism is the appeal to the stupidity of the common man. He's a candidate for children:
http://www.reddit.com/r/changemyview/comments/34gvus/cmvbernie_is_more_than_the_best_candidate_for/cqumdja
https://www.reddit.com/r/SandersForPresident/comments/3ero32/why_i_dont_support_bernie_sanders/

I've never so much as registered to vote and never will.

2015-08-09 at 8:11 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

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http://www.washingtonpost.com/national/2-suspected-of-boston-art-theft-worth-500-million-are-dead-fbi-says/2015/08/07/b6cf9846-3d3a-11e5-9c2d-ed991d848c48_story.html

Holy shit, 500 million? Possibly the first time I've heard about this heist. I wonder what the Black market value and net profit (after expenses/splitting the money) was. Even if you sold them for only 10% you'd still be rich as fuck.

Unrelated, I checked my bank account page and last month I only spent $110 on food.

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