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2016-05-10 at 11:02 AM UTC in I still desire to interact with you people“Loneliness does not come from having no people around you, but from being unable to communicate the things that seem important to you.†― C.G. Jung
How common are these people among those that happen to be within reach of your geographical region? Are they enough, of a quality, sufficient to satisfy you.
This was your community. And it's for the same reason I remain here, to alleviate some of the pain that is man's heart. -
2016-05-10 at 10:09 AM UTC in Is there any reason I shouldn't kill myself?
http://plato.stanford.edu/entries/camus/
I think Camus' argument for embracing the absurdity of life is a possible reason for choosing to continue to live, but that suicide is just as valid a choice.
If we are condemned to a life without meaning that ultimately ends in the finality of death, what difference does it make if the time to the end is immediate or X years? Any sense of joy and liberation you derive from any acts carried by the foundational belief that implies a true consequence to fear or the multiple subsequent feeling , if you can overcome the most powerful emotional force endowed to use by eons of evolution, the will to live and subsequent fear and fight against death that comes with it, which must be sustained over a lifetime instead of the shorter period from the decision to end your life until the initiation of the act, along with the myriad of other biological endowments and limitations, is ultimately without meaning.
If you devote your time to raising the utility of others, diminishing their suffering, realize that they face the same fundamental absurdity and finality of death that you do.
Where was the embrace of and protection you received from absurdism when your father died?
There was no need for any of this and promoting the continuation of life is a cruel act. The kindest act you could engage in is to refuse to participation in procreation and one day help bring about the peaceful and irrevocable of as much life as is within your reach. Ideally the universe, but at least the Earth. -
2016-05-10 at 8:15 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionFor a week I had a terrible period of OCD and possibly depression as well. I just spent absurd amounts of time trying to solve problems, like a challenge I feel I need to triumph over. I also stopped taking care of myself, neglected some things. I think I went 4 days of just of just eating one fruit chip bag a day (actually pretty healthy composition) and drinking alcohol, then when I ran out I ate nothing for 3 days, drank more alcohol and ran out on the last. At some point I finished one things and moved on to another. I recall once I spent an absurd 15 hours in the bathroom, where I preferred to work with the door close. Almost as if it put me in a trance like state. I'm not sure how much of that period I didn't sleep in a bed. I remember staying up two days in a row at least twice. Falling asleep with my knees up and back against the wall, once took etizolam and woke up on the floor next to the chair, multiple other times just passing out on the floor, likely sleeping insufficient amounts.
Dear god, help me. -
2016-05-09 at 3:14 PM UTC in So I tried to stop a mugging...
Lanny, you must feel like an incredible loser. Next time just run away around any possible dangerous situation.
Actually, a deficit in reading/understanding social situations is a key part of being on the autism spectrum. You confused two people who were just playing around for a serious situation and then rushed in from an overactive response to negative emotion. -
2016-05-09 at 3:11 PM UTC in WiFi adapters#!#Awus + yagi antenna: http://store.rokland.com/
+ wifislax: Has a graphical gui, you can use a program to make a live cd on a USB or something and then load it easily, play around with it, research features, what they do and mean. -
2016-05-09 at 3:03 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
You have always seemed to put forth a lot of effort for someone who is seriously depressed. I know you don't know who I am (I don't think) but I always tend to read your posts especially the nootropic research as I've been experimenting with them myself for about a year or so. Do you feel even slightly that your depression was self imposed? I mean sure the NSI could have just hit the spot and corrected whatever it was that was psychologically wrong with you but honestly that seems highly unlikely(though without a doubt possible)…
I haven't really put in a lot of effort since my mental breakdown 2 years ago. Obsessive effort, strong OCD characteristics, are common among aspies. I just fell apart and lost the ability to function. I later realized I was severely depressed before that, for about 3 years, and the worst of all this started when I decided I didn't want human relationships anymore, to detach myself, repress my emotions; it was the social isolation that was the worst idea and by far did the most damage. But I'm hiki, so it's not like I don't have plenty of time to read, and I also have this rationalist/hyper-systemizing mental architecture, autistic memory, and information and habits I've built over a lifetime.
Yes, my depression was self-imposed to a large extent. I did so many wrongs, based on the research I literally did the exact opposite to achieve happiness, point by point.
At this point I sometimes wonder if I'm just punishing myself. If I feel I deserve it for the things I've done and who I am. -
2016-05-07 at 5:19 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
Please God, give me the courage to lay my head on the rail. I don't want anymore.
I don't feel suicidal anymore. Compared to how depressed I was before, NSI-189, then Nardil, made a huge difference. -
2016-05-07 at 5:13 AM UTC in I like overcast/clouds/rain better than sunny weather.Sensory sensitivity from autism. Have to wear sunglasses outside or I'm constantly high uncomfortable with out them in full sunlight. I like the way things look on overcast days, but then again I crave the warmth, antidepressant, and other health/psyhological effects, of sunlight, even the full clarifying brightness.
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2016-05-07 at 5:06 AM UTC in So I tried to stop a mugging...Lanny, you must feel like an incredible loser. Next time just run away around any possible dangerous situation.
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2016-05-07 at 5:05 AM UTC in From now on I will cuck every Bill Krozby post and you should do the same
whats the dead with the cuck'd anyways? am i supposed to click it when that person gets cucked, or when that person cucks someone else?
When a person get's cucked, someone cucks them. -
2016-05-06 at 1:48 AM UTC in How many episodes of jerry springer have you watched?
My dad used to watch that shit because he was a NEET before it was cool, so I probably caught a handful of episodes over a couple of summers. I remember some ugly fat chick flashing the crowd which was popular with the audience and left an impression on me.
My god, I wonder how this effects our relationship, our affinity toward each other, the dynamics. He sounds like an unrefined NEET, though. -
2016-05-06 at 1:35 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
Hydro:
Drove over got the IV catheter and stopped and got distilled water and threw some salt in, shook it up and IVed her fluids at my friends house.
Hydro:
Now I don't know what to do about this- it look nacrotic. Anyone got any advice on treating venomous shit like this? I thinks she's got over the first hurdle, now it's just figuring out how to go about treating this shit.
Hydro
Just because I operate in a backyard doesn't mean I am untrained or ineducated,
There are the parts that would have me worried if I was your dog
Perfectly fine if you sterilize it. Even if you don't, it still may be. Think of junkies. Animals generally have far stronger immune systems than first world humans due to our mass usage of sanitation.
Typo. Necrotic. Although it is a standard part of venom and certain infections. Tissue dying isn't necessarily life threatening unless it's on a mass scale or spreads.
Ineducated=typo. Do you know how farms castrate animals? At least the smaller farms (I don't know how things may have changed), mass ones have everything assembly lined due to their massive capital base. Most procedures are fine without a clean room, particularly for animals (once again, immune system strength).I don't see why that means you have to ignore the fact that paragraphs exist. Enter is like the second biggest key on your screen, typing 5 more keystrokes in a wall of text isn't exactly going to grind your posting to a halt.
I have a hard time believing people who do 8 to 10 years of higher education would think "ineducated" is a word but if there are such people I certainly wouldn't choose them to be my doctor. It's not to say you couldn't conceivably be a good doctor with poor language skills but it does seem like a fairly reliable proxy.
Again, this is not giving me a lot of confidence that your dog is going to be A-OK, but then I guess I'm not the one you're trying to convince.
​Hydro uses her phone. Doesn't excuse not using paragraphs (Well, it shouldn't. I don't know what would prevent it.)
Phone + walls of text/an enormous amount of characters (I put one of her emails though one one time, it was like 2K words) = greater likelihood for typos to be missed. Besides, we all goof once in a while, at different rates. It's like your vs you're, of course most intelligent people know the difference.
True. -
2016-05-04 at 12:57 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
Did you get my mail?
Roger that.Yea PoC, what happened? Do you have AIDS or what?
He's been sick a lot in the past, mostly gastrointestinal problems that became severe for a prolonged period as a result of a new cannabinoid he was using, PB-22 IIRC. Who knows what else might be wrong with him. The chronic pain combined with the severe depression, suicidal ideation, and multiple other neuro/biological disorders and life circumstances only serve to continually push him towards suicide.
I wish I was in his region at some time so that at an opportune moment I could yell at him, from out of sight, "Dead man walking on the Green Mile!" -
2016-05-03 at 11:24 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
No Mal, I haven't tried NSI yet. I'm not really in a position where I can try stuff like that. Especially since you can mess up with the substance if you discontinue it. I seem to remember that you mentioned something about that. Some kind of blockage.
If I order from Strangelove, can I tell him your username as the one who recommended him to me?
Yes, tell him bukujutsu referred you. -
2016-05-02 at 8:06 AM UTC in Lanny, I have a requestI am one with the internet, all is seen: http://niggasin.space/forum/half-baked/21470-itt-give-me-a-boner?p=21591#post21591
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2016-05-02 at 7:39 AM UTC in Sexual Boredom
…Or maybe I'm just jelly about the parents knowing and not giving a shit.
Sophie is intelligent, well read, and educated with a professional career. If you think about it, someone like him is far less likely to be a threat that the typical, even the vast majority, of boys her age. The main reason it's perceived otherwise is due to modern cultural biases, which only make it worse by creating a selection effect whereas those who choose to supersede cultural norms are more likely to have negative traits increasing their chance of being a risk, though still far lower common perceptions.
The capturing of resources, guidance, and genetic material provided by a good man should normally be something to be celebrated. The vast majority will eventually, or under ideal circumstances would want to, become married/form a long-term stable relationship. If it's acquired at a younger age, where is the harm of that? Or even if this isn't the goal, it isn't expected to last until that point, there are still the benefits named above, if she is going to be in a relationship it will be a superior experience, a learning experience, than that which would be achieved via a male that approximates her age.
Hebephilia, which was practiced far more common and accepted, particularly with a high class male, is the logical choice for parents. Prove me wrong. -
2016-05-02 at 3:22 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
Dying in the hospital, YOLO
No more pain, no more desires, no more struggling every day to maintain and empty, unsatisfying, and ultimately futile life. You're lucky enough to sleep and never wake up again.Subdue the natural primal, evolutionary/biological, fear of death that has evolved to be one of our strongest, the will to live one of our strongest drives; man is something that shall be overcome. -
2016-05-02 at 3:19 AM UTC in I hate MOON PERSONs, specifically the type of person who posts on reddit.
Agreed, reddit is cancer outside of a few good subs
There are many good subs for an enormous variety of interests. People base their perceptions on the most popular subs, which of course are going to have among the lowest quality of people. -
2016-05-01 at 9:44 PM UTC in Where can I stash some reserve drugs that I wanna save for later?
rocklin posted that on rdfrn, I remember asking him why he'd ever want to hide an immigrant in a record player
I could imagine Rockling secretly being/having been a human trafficker. -
2016-05-01 at 9:28 PM UTC in PSA REGARDING THE TREATMENT OF THE MENTALLY DISADVANTAGED
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