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2016-10-13 at 6:20 AM UTC in buying some weights^^^ Not true, the whole functional training idea is largely a myth. A proper strength training program develops strength that's perfectly applicable to a variety of situations. Think about how the muscles function.
What's more functional than learning to pickup heavy shit off the floor with proper form? (deadlifts)
A progressive overload system, which weight training allows to a very fine extent, is far more efficient. How are you going to do many of the exercises without weights? You could rig something up, but it would likely be unstable and greatly limit the amount you could use. -
2016-10-13 at 6:03 AM UTC in Malice appreciation thread
Malice if I remember correctly you said you're done with sex altogether. Do you still masturbate? What happens when you randomly get a boner? Do you bat it off to get rid of it, or don't find anything sexual enough to orgasm, so just let it go down on its own?
Do you have wet dreams?
Also, do you still work out?
Unfortunately I haven't fully erased sexual desire. I am considering this procedure to also target a region in the brain that, IIRC, is mainly dedicated to sex drive/desire:Imagine going so far as a to lesion or completely remove the right amygdala. (Fight/fight, fear response, processing of negative emotion), remove certain sections (measured in cubic cm), or the removal of the whole being the most extreme option. A strong and clear link having been repeatedly been found with autism spectrum disorders, enlarged and overactive.
http://www.google.com/search?q=gamma...rgery+amygdala
Hehehe, oh the wonderful world of medical tourism. How lovely it is that it's been available for quite some time, with reports from people receiving it specifically for anxiety disorders.
Actually eliminate, or at least greatly reduce, the ability to experience the emotion of fear. I came to the realization during the trial of suffering in my life (post mental-breakdown about 2-1/2 years ago until present) that it had really been the principle and most destructive force in my life.
This would be a good starting point, and it's actually non-invasive. Relatively affordable as well. Not exactly speculative or risky. And what fascinating literature there is. Can't say a version of me quite literally incapable of experiencing fear shouldn't be extremely worrying for others, though.
http://www.google.com/search?q=gamma+knife+surgery+amygdala
So far I've reached the point where I genuinely, I do not lie or delude myself, develop inaccurate perceptions due to wanting reality to be different, do not develop sexual desires or thoughts throughout the day, except on a day when I may masturbate, which always leaves me disappointed and regretful (mildly so, more as, "I should learn this lesson permanently and stop breaking the continuation of my training"), masturbation only occurring about once a week or so to reset the cycle, and as little as twice a month, taking up little time. I also don't develop erections throughout the day or even wake up to them, now have I viewed pornography in a long period of time, now finding it repulsive and moronic (The penis is inserted into the vagina and goes back and forth.). I also do not develop crushes, although I am removed from mainstream society to an incredible extent; to give examples, I don't know what songs are popular, ever hear the radio, watch television (only downloading/streaming the most critically acclaimed media, the best of the best, and standard material aimed at the commoners being genuinely mentally painful due to my need for intellectual stimulation), know anything about fashion (trends) etc. The world of the common man does not interest me in the slightest other than for charting the general path of society, fundamental factors than can affect outcomes. I don't even look at women when outside, any sexual desire drops to zero in person.
Unclouded by sexual desire I can attain a state where my mind can be fully devoted to what I desire. A permanent state of the wise man.
No wet dreams either. I stopped working out close to two years ago, but fortunately I seem to retain muscle mass and strength well, so with supplementation and a perfected routine and technique I could, and have, quickly return to my previous level, then surpass it with steroids.I recall malice once declaring that the cat fucker moniker was a 'troll.' It's anyone's guess I suppose.
The micro-penis thread was a troll too. People certainly fell for my troll threads easily. I had some of the longest threads on Zoklet, other than TRTs. -
2016-10-13 at 5:44 AM UTC in buying some weights
I'm not quite sure that's the case. Gym memberships cost about $60-$70 a month here and im a student right now so getting there and back takes time. I could get weights and shit for maybe $300-600, which is the price of a gym membership for 6 months to a year.
Where do you live? A 2 year Costco gym membership to 24 hour fitness is really cheap, works out to around $15/month. Their gyms can be pretty acceptable for strength training, usually have everything you need around here. -
2016-10-12 at 12:02 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionImagine if they had been carrying a coffin on foot and you had run up to them and knocked it over, then the corpse rolled out.
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2016-10-12 at 9:30 AM UTC in Malice appreciation thread
This thread needs at least one sexy cat.
I came across this. I wasn't searching for zoophilia:
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2016-10-12 at 9:28 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionOh, and I've trying NSI-189 at 20mg 4x day. I saw more data suggesting that more doses throughout the day seem to improve the results, 40mg 2x having likely been chosen as the standard due to having a more optimal ratio of dose and benefits along with less doses making adherence more likely. Allows for more even dispersion throughout the day.
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2016-10-12 at 9:26 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionImagine walking around wearing a sweet gaming computer on your back with a power source and VR headset in passthrough mode. What would perfect it would be a shirt that states: Fuck the 3D world
Damn, I should have saved all my shirt ideas. Well, I can always just search for "shirt" by me. -
2016-10-12 at 7:42 AM UTC in Anyone here done anything fun lately?mq, is there a picture of you in a similar pose with a creepy open mouth smile? I have a possible vague memory of it. Post that one.
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2016-10-12 at 7:11 AM UTC in crib leg bag 2017What the hell is a crib leg bag anyway?
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2016-10-12 at 12:14 AM UTC in Anyone here spar?You were probably using too much if you were also experiencing that much sedation.
It does greatly increase sleep quality for many people, making it very good for recovery, so using it before bed would still be very beneficial. -
2016-10-11 at 10:26 PM UTC in Anyone here spar?What dose did you take? Even 500mg can be too much for many people, it's not necessarily uncommon. Some can be extremely sensitive. It also potentiates alcohol greatly and shouldn't be taken with any in your system (at the very least you should keep in mind that a much smaller amount will be needed), the effects can last a long time. This would explain the effects you had, it does sound like you took too much.
It's also very acidic and can cause stomach discomfort in some. Taking it after a meal helps with this and may also increase the bioavailability based on my experience.
Rather than using one large dose like many recommend, which can use amounts way too high for many, starting out with 250mg 3x a day, preferably after meals, can build up to an incredibly powerful effect. It's actually prescribed for multiple conditions in Eastern Europe, and this information came straight from a translation of the instructions that come with it. I tried this regimen myself and it works. Even though I was taking doses far smaller than those generally used by people who take the common one large dose, generally 1+ grams, they eventually became so strong that just two doses a day of 250-300mg would elicit an effect far more powerful than those I received from a single dose of a a gram or two. -
2016-10-11 at 8:42 PM UTC in Anyone here spar?Bill Krozby, off topic, but I found a new pickup line for you to use. If you use a dating app, it would also be a good place to try it out:
"I'll keep you in the bedroom so long they'll put a picture of your face on the back of a milk carton."
That aside, phenibut is incredible. Well, response always varies because there's always genetic/physiological/neurological variation, but it's really a shame that more people don't try it. Just do a search for "phenibut report". It's a very distinct drug, the subjective effects are different from others.
www.liftmode.com
I've actually stated before that, for me, this would be the perfect drug for MMA. Confidence and aggression to a far greater extent than anything else. -
2016-10-11 at 8:11 PM UTC in Malice appreciation thread
Malice on the news:
Hahaha, he's actually a comedian!
https://www.youtube.com/user/bowservidstotally
His act was so good I genuinely thought he was genuine(ly mentally ill), although I suspected this towards the end. -
2016-10-11 at 8:02 PM UTC in Sometimes I get this sense of impending doom and can't sleepThe impending catastrophe that puts an end to all long-term goals and plans is death. So far no one has been able to escape it.
I wonder how many people have developed an understanding of what it means to be human that makes them fear what they are, the state they're in, what they were born into. -
2016-10-11 at 4:48 AM UTC in I guess I'm gonna vote for billaryI wonder how much productivity would be increased with fully legalized meth, a truly free market in it, and cultural shifts making knowledgeable responsible use widespread.
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2016-10-11 at 4:46 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionI was attempting to contain my stray thoughts, maintain a state of mindfulness (Be here now), and used the mantra: Purify me with the power of anime!
Normally I'm incredibly lethargic, but there's no cardio like a good song that gets me spazzing out. Much better sound quality on the blueray rip with the sound turned up. The animation quality is incredible, the dancing incredibly fluid. I hope Issei attains his dream of becoming the harem king. -
2016-10-11 at 3:51 AM UTC in A month ago, I made a thread on here.No you fucking can't.
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2016-10-10 at 10:48 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first editionSuccubi and harpies should be punished by having "Abandon all hope, ye who enter here" tattooed above their vaginas.
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2016-10-10 at 3:04 PM UTC in syncans are like 50 times more addictive than heroin
One time I was really high on syncans and found a picture of myself as a baby and started crying because I felt like I had let that little kid down cos he grew up into me
This is one of the most depressing posts I've ever read. I feel like reposting it somewhere. -
2016-10-10 at 3:02 PM UTC in Sometimes I get this sense of impending doom and can't sleepIt's clearly done wonders for your well being and mental health.