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2018-09-10 at 4:01 PM UTC in Light Emitting Boobs are now a thing (pretty hot(cyberpunk af))The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-09-10 at 2:52 PM UTC in Now I can't go to town... Great
Originally posted by RisiR † What are they going to do about it?
When I was completely Benzed out I'd be very honest. Like, "Complete shit. My brother tried to kill himself and I'm just out of rehab and already relapsed so I'm thinking about doing the same, you?" Hahaha. That's a great way to freak people out at a random meeting in a grocery store.
Nice. Sorry about your brother though
I've only done it once when I was in a very bad mood. I was clearly upset, and they asked "how are you today?"
"Considering suicide, thanks for asking."
He did that weird nervous laugh that people do when they believe what you said but want you to think they thought it was a joke
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2018-09-10 at 1:18 PM UTC in Chimpout on the tennis courtShe behaved terribly and completely stole the spotlight from her much younger and rising opponent.
I guess she couldn't really use racist-card so she used the next best thing: sexism.
If this is how Williams is raising her dgt than she's going to be as entitled and whiny as her mommy.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-09-10 at 12:45 PM UTC in Random ThoughtsAre you looking for the schizophrenia thread?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-09-10 at 12:14 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attentionim going to rip out plants on the street and eat them and steal people's chairs and tables and smoke them with forest firesThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-09-10 at 11:53 AM UTC in Schizphrenia official threadIt can't be the official thread if it's misspelled in the thread title
But really, I know exactly how you feel. Really. I spent almost four years of my life hiding from people I thought were after me for things I'd posted online and done IRL while amassing an arsenal of weapons, ammo, medications, and survival gear. I had over $10,000 worth of it at one point. I spent a shitload of money on firearm training, had a gun club membership, and went to the range for hours three times a week.
Sometime in 2015, I said "fuck it. If there really is someone after me, let them come after me. We all die eventually anyway."
And from then on I was seemingly able to look at my condition from an objective point of view and realize that I was being ridiculous. Almost all of the things I had taken as "signs" were nothing more than coincidence, or people going about their business who happened to see me and look my way. Sometimes it was a hallucination, but now, somehow, I could tell the difference. Once in a while, i still find myself caught up in some delusion that somebody is after me, but I "snap out of it" much faster than I used to. It was like a switch had been flipped.
I thought it was the drugs at first, so I stopped taking them. I stayed mostly clean for three years, only taking Crouton and the occasional benzedrex. It's only recently that I've started on that shit again. Didn't seem to make much difference. Though the intensity of the paranoia was diminished, it was still there.
In July 2015, after getting extremely fucked up and telling everyone that was staying with me at the time that I was going to kill myself, I had some sort of "moment of clarity" and had myself committed (although they wrote "involuntary" on the paperwork)
I was diagnosed with depressive psychosis, but the "medicine" they gave me for it made it twice as bad, and I could barely get out of bed most days because it sapped every bit of motivation out of me while making me shake like a Parkinson's patient if I tried to sit still, something that still hasn't completely gone away. I tried to stop taking it but it resulted in a terrifying psychosis that was far worse than the original symptoms and ended up committed again, but I convinced them that it was the medication that had done it, and they tapered me off of it.
Then I find out schizophrenia (and mental illness in general) has a much higher rate of incidence among Native Americans than the general American population.
I've mostly accepted the fact that I've got some mental illness somewhere between OCD and schizophrenia, and that I will most likely be unable to tell the difference between fantasy and reality 20-30 years from now. Just look at a certain other poster here.
All that said, I still believe that there was a point in time that I was being watched, but I was involved in medium-level criminal activities at that point, it was probably just people making sure I was doing what I said I was going to do.
As of now, most of the weapons and such have been sold or confiscated, but I still have a lot of the survival gear, and feel like I could hold my own for quite a while if some sort of disaster or apocalypse were to happen.
I'm still very paranoid, and won't let anyone get close to me, but it's still much better than it used to be. I think I've hit the "ceiling of improvement" for my current situation and will have to change it to improve further.
I know I'm going to regret posting this, but there it is
TL;DR: I'm slowly losing my mind but at least I'm aware of itThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-09-10 at 10:39 AM UTC in Chimpout on the tennis court
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2018-09-10 at 9:08 AM UTC in Chimpout on the tennis courtThe funniest thing about it is they didn't even bother drawing her face, they literally just copy-pasted it from one of those old RESIST! comicsThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-09-10 at 8:02 AM UTC in Chimpout on the tennis court
Am I an awful person for laughing at this?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-09-10 at 4:49 AM UTC in Schizphrenia official threadGod talked to me through farts when I was in jail. I'd be laying in my bunk, thinking things, and a high pitch fart would be a "yes" and a low pitch fart would be a "no". I also do this with the sound of the house settling (walls creaking, pipes making noises, that kind of thing), the small movements of my pillow under my head as I try to fall asleep, etc.
I have semi-fluent conversations with myself through stuff people say on TV or around me in real life.
But I'm not crazy.
You're crazy.
The whole world is crazy.
I took this screenshot:
In E.Y.E: Divine Cybermancy. Cybermancy would be "divination through technology" in magic nomenclature. The game's name basically means "See the Divine Technological Divination".
I took this screenshot on "5 Mar, 2012 @ 9:43am" according to steam.
The same day, Benjamin Netanyahu gave this speech:
Where he calls Iran a "nuclear duck".
I was on bundy at the time. I didn't know about this speech until a few days later, when Jon Stewart joked about it on the Daily Show. Is this schizophrenia? Is this "just a coincidence"? Or is it a coincidence in the same way that dropping an apple coincides with its precipitous descent towards the ground?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-09-10 at 1:58 AM UTC in petition to merge this forum with the political forumDENIED!
to the mongolvoid with youThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-09-10 at 1:22 AM UTC in Chimpout on the tennis courtThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-09-10 at 1:06 AM UTC in I come from 100 years in the futureFinny just 100% confirmed his homosexualityThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-09-10 at 12:31 AM UTC in I think I should start my own yt channelWhat do you think?
I could spaz out and smoke meth and rant about the jedis and shit.
I could wear that wig and glasses I did a way back it could be my sig look.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-09-09 at 8:01 PM UTC in Chimpout on the tennis court
Originally posted by Bologna Nacho And Kaperkunt thanks you retard.
I have been wearing them for decades. And Kapernick should be able to kneel in protest. that also was what people fought in wars for.
Though, I think he should grab the American Flag and hold it while doing it. saying "This isn't about America anymore.. its about a corrupt system in place'
but he does it his own way. I have my own problems to deal with. I can't believe you're all a bunch of sheep so concerned over this Nike deal. If someone offered you a bunch of fucking money because that company see's a way to push product.. fucking let them. It's standard corporate Bullshit. how about "burn a pair of nikes" because some poor kid in India or China makes them for 20-50 cents an hour.. and puts out like 3-4 pairs in an hour really making it a few cent's per pair.
I didn't burn them for that purpose and, they're made pretty well.. so I'm gonna keep buying the fucking things. What makes Converse or Addias any fucking different?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-09-09 at 6:26 PM UTC in I just wanna hang out with RisiR and mQYou kinda look like one of those dads that is cool for whatever. You try and relive your youth vicariously through your son/daughter by hanging out with them and their friends and even offer beer or whatever. You have perhaps gotten disturbingly close to one of their (girl) friends and tried to use the same lines that was popular in the 80s. DON'T YOU?
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2018-09-09 at 5:50 PM UTC in zomgg net neutralityFuck you.
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2018-09-09 at 5:06 PM UTC in RIP Mac MillerMay he rest his neck.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-09-09 at 4:55 PM UTC in I just wanna hang out with RisiR and mQThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-09-09 at 4:43 PM UTC in Racism is gayRis ♥️
Real recognize real .. 🙂The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
