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2017-05-06 at 1:47 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinTrue dat, I just look back on it now, all of 2015 as someone who wasn't me, even most my memories are kind of in 3rd person. Probably cos I don't have many actual memories of the things which took place, good ol' benzos. It's scary just how reckless you become with your own lifeThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-06 at 4:43 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
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2017-05-06 at 3:30 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinI wonder what you would look like if you had all your pubes transferred to your moustache and beard areaThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-05 at 11:39 PM UTC in What is your greatest talent?
Originally posted by Darth Beaver I'm pretty good with woodworking.
I have some wood you can work
Originally posted by Darth Beaver I can shoot you in the head at 300 meters with an M 16 using iron sights.
bullshit
Originally posted by Darth Beaver I should have been killed more times than I care to recall.
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2017-05-05 at 10:54 PM UTC in What is your greatest talent?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-05 at 8:02 PM UTC in Hawkwind - In Search Of Space - FULL ALBUMThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-05 at 7:53 PM UTC in infractions u got beforeApparently one of my accounts got banned from YouTube because I got insanely fucked up and made a series of videos showing how to inject drugs anally
I didn't even know they existed until I got a bunch of messages from YouTube staff
The longest surviving one got 6,000 views lelThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-05 at 7:51 PM UTC in New Fren For Choomeezguys, it's a thread about cats. What could there possibly be to argue about?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-05 at 7:30 PM UTC in trianglism bannerThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-05 at 7:21 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
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2017-05-05 at 7:09 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinR†S†RThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-05 at 6:45 PM UTC in What is your greatest talent?Finding a way to fuxk things up whenever things are going good for me. :) I'm an expert.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-05 at 6:43 PM UTC in I'm back.Fresh 2 def nigga see me in a coffinThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-05 at 6:30 PM UTC in What is your greatest talent?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-05 at 4:01 PM UTC in New Fren For ChoomeezThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-05 at 2:57 PM UTC in old experimentThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-05 at 7:58 AM UTC in New Fren For ChoomeezI think its good for pets to have a playmate other than their owner if they can.
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2017-05-05 at 6:57 AM UTC in Destroy Alec Baldwin..True story, when john carpenter was casting for "vampires" and called a casting agency he said "send me a baldwin" and they were like "which one?" and he got really pissy and was like "I don't care just send me a baldwin!"
so they got Daniel BaldwinThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-05 at 5:06 AM UTC in Destroy Alec Baldwin..Keep calling him Alex Baldwin
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2017-05-04 at 9:41 PM UTC in Just got out of the ERYou're not so alone as you think you are - I've been there, too. At one point I was mixing large doses of Klonopin with what must have been liters of vodka, at my peak. More nights than I can count, I went to sleep neither knowing nor caring if I'd even wake up. Because my clonazepam was prescribed, it was inevitable that my supply would be gone weeks before a refill could be authorized. One week passed, after running out, and withdrawal set in. Immediately after the first seizure, I was blessed with an unusual but serendipitous affability. This pleasant state of mind persisted even after leaving the ER. Twelve hours later, another seizure put me right back in. At first, they wanted to discharge me with a script for more benzos, to interrupt my withdrawal until I could get more prescribed. Upon the insistence of their psychiatrist, however, I was admitted to the neurology unit. There I spent three days (my birthday was one of them), confined to a boulder they called my bed, on a cocktail of IV anticonvulsants that made me dry heave every hour.
I was and am still of the opinion that this arrangement was wrought by profit-seeking leeches, sucking dry the teat of my HMO coverage, but I had agreed to stay because it comforted my mother. When I left, they told me I'd have to take Depakote or that I'd have another seizure. It sapped me of all feeling except for rage. I wanted to lash out at everyone: the doctors, my family, and even my fucking cat. My hair started falling out and it clogged my drain; I had piss-colored, hairy water all over my bathtub for weeks. I started getting acne everywhere: my neck, my ears, and all over my back. Diarrhea became an hourly occurrence. I would lose blocks of memory and would often have to rely on family to recount many of my actions.
All I could do was ruminate. Every second of every day I spent pitying myself for the unfairness of my situation. To say I was worth anything to anybody would be a farce. And the worst of it is how it's affected my parents. Watching me seize, almost losing their son, who are the most loving and supportive people I know in this world. Every day, they root for me, after all that I've put them through. I will never, ever be relieved of the guilt that I feel for having done this to them. They are the reason I'm trying to keep my body clean now.
Please, OP, be grateful that you haven't hurt anybody like that, and please, for your sake, reach out to people. Malice, I've known you for years now and I know it's just a message board, but I can tell very clearly that you have a lot to offer in a friendship.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
