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2017-05-16 at 5:10 AM UTC in LannyThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-16 at 5:06 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinHoly cow, I didn't know Freud eventually became a big fan of Schopenhauer!
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Death_drive#Philosophy
Neo-Schopenhauerians of the world unite! We need to create a resurgence of his works.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-16 at 5:01 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by RisiR † Hah! Lil Dargo…. there's more to life than having sex. So, so, so much more and it's all fucking me right in the fucking face.
5 years ago. Fuck… 5. Years. Ago. I thought I have testicular cancer which turned out to not be the case. I was semi-homeless, deeeep into Benzos etc. had absolutely nothing. I thought I fought my way out of the hole but no… no. I just can't be happy.
Rock bottom again. And now there is a person I have to reject or destroy and I can't deal with that at all.
You've probably considered this before, but are you like me?
Afraid of intimacy, that you just can't function in relationships, and will only end up hurting the other person, that you aren't worthy of it, or they deserve someone better?
I agree with Phoenix, you've probably been in an incredibly self-destructive, self-sabotaging, cycle, like I have. For whatever reason, regardless, you need to break out of it.
I've wondered for some time whether Thanatos/the death drive, could be a genuine phenomenon for some: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Death_driveThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-16 at 4:56 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by RisiR † I kinda feel like I understand depression but now I got hit by sadness I can barely comprehend.
Oh my god, why?
Aw... RiRi, dude...
That's really sad. Don't be so sure you'll ruin her life; depressed ass mofos love to self-sabotage like this. She might be able to help you, and you might be able to help her. It could be great. It could be not so great. But if you don't take any chances you're just going to end up more miserable and the next time opportunity strikes you're going to feel like it's an even worse idea. Gotta break outta that cycle eventually. You seem like really awesome guy. Don't give up on yourself. 💖
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2017-05-16 at 4:55 AM UTC in who's stupiderIt goes in cycles. Don't worry, he will be a stupid faggot again by next week.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-16 at 4:47 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by RisiR † I kinda feel like I understand depression but now I got hit by sadness I can barely comprehend.
Oh my god, why?
I would have thought you of all people would understand it by now.
Have you read these? I know it seems retarded to recommend a cartoon, and the art style is that way on purpose, but put aside your biases and give it a serious read, at the end it will probably make sense. It's actually from a webcomic that used to be pretty famous, and these in particular were popular, even described by professional psychologists as the most accurate depiction of what severe depression was at its core they had ever seen.
www.hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2011/10/adventures-in-depression.html
www.hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2013/05/depression-part-two.htmlThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-16 at 4:19 AM UTC in Fucking chirping birds motherfucker!Can you imagine if one of these birds, or even multiple, suddenly crashed through RisiR's 50K windows and he finally snapped.
Just imagine that happening, then him collapsing to the fetal position, possibly with tears streaming down his face and soaked in sweat, or in a quasi-autistic knee hugging position where he rocks back and forth, repeating over and over again in a fluctuating voice, sometimes loud, sometimes low and muttering, but always profoundly disturbed and distressed, "The birds…the birds…THE BIIIIIRDS!!!"
Then his siblings finally call an ambulance when they accept he's not snapping out of it and he spends the rest of his life in a padded cell and straight jacket muttering it over and over.
And just to fuck with him they put pictures of those birds all over his cell and continuously play the famous film repeatedly for entertainment/recreation time. As a final touch there's even something akin to those toys they put above the cradles of babies, except it's just this highly realistic and incredibly menacing raven that continuously flies around in circles.
This would be a great poster to hang in there. Or just imagine sneaking into/outside of his house right now and pasting this outside the perfect window, or even in his own room:
Then one day, something awakens inside of him, the fundamental immense driving force that had led him to read the great works of philosophy, his Schopenhauer and Nietzsche, one desperate attempt at finding meaning, an answer, strong enough to finally break through. "When will this madness end, when will I regain my sanity?!" RisiR desperately screams at it one day, as loudly as he can, the full force of furious years of pent up passion and madness pouring out at one last attempt to gain some reprieve, an answer for this meaningless suffering, an end to it, with the force of an immense strike of lighting, the sound bellowing as the deepest thunder whose reverberations shake the entire ward to their core, awakening everyone, a moment of absolute silence where they all listen for what comes next, an innate understanding of them, having known of poor RisiR's state of madness all these years, the importance of the first novel thing he had spoken since becoming trapped in the cycle of madness.
And he swears, that despite his madness, with absolute certainty, knowing that it will never be confirmed or believed, that he will live with this knowledge alone in his mind until the day he dies, there was a response:
To quoth the raven, "Nevermore".
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2017-05-16 at 3:36 AM UTC in The FitnessGram™ Pacer Test is a multistage aerobic capacity test...
You can run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Sooner or later God'll cut you down
Sooner or later God'll cut you down
Go tell that long tongue liar
Go and tell that midnight rider
Tell the rambler,
The gambler,
The back biter
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut 'em down
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut 'em down
Well my goodness gracious let me tell you the news
My head's been wet with the midnight dew
I've been down on bended knee talkin' to the man from Galilee
He spoke to me in the voice so sweet
I thought I heard the shuffle of the angel's feet
He called my name and my heart stood still
When he said, "John go do My will!"
Go tell that long tongue liar
Go and tell that midnight rider
Tell the rambler,
The gambler,
The back biter
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut 'em down
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut 'em down
You can run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Sooner or later God'll cut you down
Sooner or later God'll cut you down
Well you may throw your rock and hide your hand
Workin' in the dark against your fellow man
But as sure as God made black and white
What's done in the dark will be brought to the light
You can run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Sooner or later God'll cut you down
Sooner or later God'll cut you down
Go tell that long tongue liar
Go and tell that midnight rider
Tell the rambler,
The gambler,
The back biter
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut you down
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut you down
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2017-05-16 at 3:25 AM UTC in The FitnessGram™ Pacer Test is a multistage aerobic capacity test...
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2017-05-16 at 3:17 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshin
Originally posted by RisiR † What other options do I have? I really don't want to ruin her life and that's what's going to happen when we stay together but I really don't want to reject this girl att all. It will mess her up, too.
You can calm down, have a drink and go to bed. You won't ruin her life by staying with her. Not unless she's a weak piece of shit without a mind of her own. Take things slow and see how the relationship develops. It can't hurt to try. In fact, it'd probably be good for you to have someone else in your life for a change.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-16 at 2:20 AM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinhappy 420The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-16 at 2:14 AM UTC in Mash, why did you stop taking your meds?
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2017-05-16 at 2:06 AM UTC in Fucking chirping birds motherfucker!Last April my wife and i spent a week in this same neighborhood and I was didn't sleep at all.
I wanted to NUKE the whole fucking island by the time I got home.
I got a vid from 3 in the morning somewhere and its just as loud as the youtube vid I posted.
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2017-05-15 at 6:48 PM UTC in Quantum Gridsor you was just looking in the wrong place
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2017-05-15 at 6:13 PM UTC in What's your profession?It's worthy to note that running from niggers is the exact equivelant to being a bottom bitch in a homosexual relationship.
No need to take action.
No responsibility.
No decision making.
A timid and unengaging position altogether.
Now, running across the COUNTRY from niggers? That's essentially being the solo bottom in a record breaking male ground and pound bukkake session.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-15 at 6:07 PM UTC in What's your profession?
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2017-05-15 at 5:35 PM UTC in teh retraded thred herppppp slober fuk glum editshinThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-15 at 5:09 PM UTC in Illumination or gnosisdo you only have enough money to buy one?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-15 at 2:36 PM UTC in Fucking chirping birds motherfucker!The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-15 at 2:35 PM UTC in Fucking chirping birds motherfucker!
Originally posted by RisiR † No, I live in(on?) the third floor and my cats are cute little sissy pussies. Only 3 of them used to hunt but one is too old now and the other two are too well fed to be real serial killers.
Some time ago I was sitting on my balcony and heard a baby bird chirp like a mofo. It fell out of its nest behind a stack of wood…. Yea, I also saw my cat approaching so I ran down the stairs like a madman(and a fat man…) only to be greeted by silence and my cat sitting in the grass licking her paws. It was pretty sad to be honest. I would have raised the bird and trained him to kill the nigger bird that don't shut up at night.
Fun fact: I got shat on by a bird a couple hours ago.
Instead of fighting the nigger birds tale your cue from Jill and move.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
