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2017-05-16 at 5:18 AM UTC
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2017-05-16 at 5:35 AM UTCGenuinely considering buying a ball like that as a therapeutic device. About to try my pillow (pretty hefty, actually).
Also, I had someone with Asperger's contact me a few days ago who was seriously suicidal. Gave him two long responses, although I didn't tell him what method to use, but hopefully he'll make it out of it.
There was actually a time before that when someone wanted to know about my "cryogenic suicide" method because they were seriously considering.
Preeeetty awkward and unnerving to deal with.
This is a thing, though, and it's surprisingly popular: https://www.reddit.com/r/SanctionedSuicide/ -
2017-05-16 at 5:50 AM UTCi wrote the most profound thing ever https://niggasin.space/thread/11873
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2017-05-16 at 7:04 AM UTCOh, nearly forgot, I think I'm going to take the risk, play with fire, and order flubromazolam. It's the most potent benzo I know of, with a ridiculously long half life. Exactly what I need, akin to Lanny's chronic alcohol deficiency.
Extremely cost-effective, particularly with how much nardil should potentiate it.
It's incredibly hard to die off benzos alone, so if I just end up in a daze with the fast forward button for life being continuously pressed down, or pass out for days, that would probably be fucking great. I'd probably wake up feeling way better than I had before.
Not worried about blacking out and doing something stupid, I'm pretty sure I'm not susceptible to that. Well, there is the risk that the extreme loss of inhibition could trigger suicidal behavior in me since I won't be capable of feeling much, if any, fear or apprehension. I guess I could see myself doing something reckless in that state and ending up hospitalized, worst case scenario suicide by cop if I wander outside. I mean, of course it's a drug induced state that profoundly modulates various aspects of yourself, regardless of how rational you may feel prior to taking it.
Umm, I guess at the very least I'll be extremely careful and start off my dosage very low. Volumetric dosing is pretty damn simple, I already have the items required.
Things were a hell of a lot easier when I was going through absurd amounts of etizolam powder. I'd rather wait out this period, until the Nardil fully kicks in (not guaranteed to work, I'll pretty much be fucked if it doesn't), in that state than deal with feeling like this. Benzos are by far the #1 drug that have had the greatest therapeutic benefit in me and made me feel closer to normal.
Hell, it would even make going outside and volunteering, trying to reintegrate into society, easier because I just wouldn't give a fuck. -
2017-05-16 at 7:07 AM UTCfuck I can't keep doing this, existence is reaching singularity. I wanted to sleep, I wasn't gonna get high tonight but I am not in control of my own destiny, humans are.
lol my mom just had a psychotic freakout telling me to stop making noise and then I went in the kitchen and there was a cat toy in the middle of the floor its completely pitch black I stepped on it and broke it (a plastic ball) and it make this REALLY loud noise. She think's im flipping out on meth and breaking stuff cuz im angry.
lolololol.
I think the universe just broke in half. Zaint Zattex eve.
I gain understanding by the minute. I was gonna pretend to sleep and pull the chute but the course of reality has been altered.
I just had cybersex with my girlfriend for an hour lol im not even high, this is amazing.
The singularity is great.
Trianglism is obsolete
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2017-05-16 at 7:14 AM UTCThere's a really nice storm going on. Has been for a while. Really comfy thunder
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2017-05-16 at 7:15 AM UTCYes, embrace the storm.
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2017-05-16 at 7:20 AM UTC
Originally posted by SCronaldo_J_Trump lol my mom just had a psychotic freakout telling me to stop making noise and then I went in the kitchen and there was a cat toy in the middle of the floor its completely pitch black I stepped on it and broke it (a plastic ball) and it make this REALLY loud noise. She think's im flipping out on meth and breaking stuff cuz im angry.
I almost feel sorry for your mother, but then I remember she raised you. -
2017-05-16 at 7:21 AM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-16 at 7:25 AM UTC
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2017-05-16 at 7:26 AM UTC
Originally posted by Dargo I almost feel sorry for your mother, but then I remember she raised you.
I don't understand her problem, she is in perpetual conflict all the time. I am trying to be respectful and going to extremes to minimize disturbance, I WASN'T EVEN DOING METH! I was just about to go to bed I just came hard for the first time in a week.
My existence pisses her off, but she is the one that created me, it's beyond all control. I am a success, going to work, I have a girlfriend, I'm happy.
Times like this I think of the wise words of my father
SUCKS TO BE YOU!!!!!
Originally posted by DocFoster I just went out to smoke some cigarettes in the rain, under an awning. Comfy imports
I just finished off a camel import myself, real smooth as that line of meth I did earlier wears off. I have a really bad headache.... I wonder if redosing will fix it lol but I suspect its caused by not sleeping in days and other factors.
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2017-05-16 at 7:29 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Oh, nearly forgot, I think I'm going to take the risk, play with fire, and order flubromazolam. It's the most potent benzo I know of, with a ridiculously long half life. Exactly what I need, akin to Lanny's chronic alcohol deficiency.
Extremely cost-effective, particularly with how much nardil should potentiate it.
It's incredibly hard to die off benzos alone, so if I just end up in a daze with the fast forward button for life being continuously pressed down, or pass out for days, that would probably be fucking great. I'd probably wake up feeling way better than I had before.
Not worried about blacking out and doing something stupid, I'm pretty sure I'm not susceptible to that. Well, there is the risk that the extreme loss of inhibition could trigger suicidal behavior in me since I won't be capable of feeling much, if any, fear or apprehension. I guess I could see myself doing something reckless in that state and ending up hospitalized, worst case scenario suicide by cop if I wander outside. I mean, of course it's a drug induced state that profoundly modulates various aspects of yourself, regardless of how rational you may feel prior to taking it.
Umm, I guess at the very least I'll be extremely careful and start off my dosage very low. Volumetric dosing is pretty damn simple, I already have the items required.
Things were a hell of a lot easier when I was going through absurd amounts of etizolam powder. I'd rather wait out this period, until the Nardil fully kicks in (not guaranteed to work, I'll pretty much be fucked if it doesn't), in that state than deal with feeling like this. Benzos are by far the #1 drug that have had the greatest therapeutic benefit in me and made me feel closer to normal.
Hell, it would even make going outside and volunteering, trying to reintegrate into society, easier because I just wouldn't give a fuck.
Do you have a source for flubro? I looked through rcsources but all the north american vendors don't seem to be carrying it. -
2017-05-16 at 7:30 AM UTCYeah, I bet it really does suck to be her. I mean, she has to look her biggest mistake in the eye every day and be constantly reminded of all her worst shortcomings as a parent.
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2017-05-16 at 7:35 AM UTC
Originally posted by Dargo Yeah, I bet it really does suck to be her. I mean, she has to look her biggest mistake in the eye every day and be constantly reminded of all her worst shortcomings as a parent.
Yeah and her biggest mistake and only child is outperforming her by leaps and bounds while abusing more drugs than she has ever done at her rock bottom.
She cannot handle the singularity.
Papa scronaldo is a much more advanced being, he doesn't have these kinds of breakdowns he just drinks his beer and watches TV. -
2017-05-16 at 7:53 AM UTCI sense police. My rattox alarm just went off, she's planning a raid.
Holy fuck im being gangstalked. They got me fucking cornered, I cannot escape, all avenues have been blocked.
If I jump off the balcony and keep running I expose myself, I can't leave, its too much of a risk.
Staying here is also a risk as they can show up quietly without even knocking she just has to call them on the phone and say there are illegal methamphetamine activities going on above me send help, DO NOT MAKE ANY NOISES they dont even have to turn the police lights on, just use the phone, its a sneak attack.
I'm cornered. Flushing the bag is not an option... I can't hide it anywhere in the house she will change the locks and force me to break in to retrieve it. I cannot hide it, I can't go outside to hide out, not now.
I need some way to surgically implant a baggie of meth into my body for easy retrieval. I cant just stuff it up my ass because if I get busted thats the first place they are gonna look.
Swallowing might kill me but I will just wrap it a lot in plastic and foil quickly if I hear a loud bang or jackboots coming up the stairs.
On zaint zattex eve no less. I should have known.. Just when my guard was down they swoop in.
You fuckers tipped them off.. You rattoxes. I was not even doing meth.
I was going to bed.
Fucking rattox raid.
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2017-05-16 at 8:10 AM UTC
Originally posted by SCronaldo_J_Trump I sense police.
Come and get me.
The a knife to the end of a broom, and spear charge anyone who enters. Unscrew the cover on an electrical outlet a d the outlet itself to put it behind by the wires.
The resources to deploy a team with thermal imaging to bust some random jonnie doing meth st a computer.
You'll be fine champ. Spear rush the dirty pig dogs -
2017-05-16 at 9:14 AM UTCI care much more about intelligence and attitude than looks when it comes to women, so I didn't think I was capable of love at first sight.
But I was in the store today and saw the most beautiful woman I've ever seen in my life. My age, blonde, possibly eastern european. I saw her look me over as I walked by, and she said hi. I said "hey" and walked on by, because it took my brain a few seconds to realize what I'd just seen. I stopped, and started to walk back over, but I thought, "damn, I'm not mentally or financially in a good enough position for that," so I just walked away. My God she was beautiful. The kind of beautiful that, when you see, you don't even think about sex, you just want to sit there and stare.
After looking through Google images for a couple minutes this is the closest I could find to what she looked like.
Soon, gonts, soon.
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2017-05-16 at 9:15 AM UTCAlso how the fuck do people get banned from this place? Even fucking 4Chan is easier to get banned from.
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2017-05-16 at 9:39 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Oh, nearly forgot, I think I'm going to take the risk, play with fire, and order flubromazolam. It's the most potent benzo I know of, with a ridiculously long half life. Exactly what I need, akin to Lanny's chronic alcohol deficiency.
Extremely cost-effective, particularly with how much nardil should potentiate it.
It's incredibly hard to die off benzos alone, so if I just end up in a daze with the fast forward button for life being continuously pressed down, or pass out for days, that would probably be fucking great. I'd probably wake up feeling way better than I had before.
Not worried about blacking out and doing something stupid, I'm pretty sure I'm not susceptible to that. Well, there is the risk that the extreme loss of inhibition could trigger suicidal behavior in me since I won't be capable of feeling much, if any, fear or apprehension.
Man flubro is fucking good, I almost killed myself on it a couple times, ended up in a psych ward, arrested yada yada yada.
2 of those little bastards would have me almost blacking out. Then I'd eat the other 98. "Did I just take a couple more? I can't remember, best take take a few more just in case *swallows pills* wait, did I do that or just think about doing it? Should probably take a couple more to be on the safe side" repeat until bag empty -
2017-05-16 at 9:52 AM UTCA simple solution would have been to just log your usage. It could be something as simple as some day planner divided hourly and making simple tally marks for every dose you take.
A smartphone app would make this super easy and convenient.
Of course, when you’re in a certain state of mind you simply do not care and begin engaging in incredibly self-destructive behaviours. Thanatos.
