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2016-01-09 at 1:02 PM UTC in My ex-girlfriend got offended because I called my female Runescape character an "it"
Fucking men up the asshole is actually probably one of the manliest things you can do.
No, no.... no, that's actually definitely super gay shit you fucking faggot.You are such a weak beta faggot, I want to break your spine with a slap to your neck. Anyway, I see where you're coming from. Sexual aggression is a male trait. If you are a king kong nigga in jail you fuck the whimpy whiteboys like Bill Krozby. That's true. Though, if you rather fuck dudes instead of girls, you're a faggot. Period. -
2016-01-09 at 12:51 PM UTC in Niggasin.space the hardcore punk song
1.5/10
Funny, that also happens to be your mother's Yelp score. -
2016-01-09 at 11:36 AM UTC in quitting weedY'know what's crazy, though? I also smoked syncans for I'd say, 6 to 8 months every day and went back to only weed without any problems. The feeling of quitting speed was a blessing compared to what I get from weed as well.
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2016-01-09 at 11:28 AM UTC in I might not have marfans
How about me?
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2016-01-09 at 11:23 AM UTC in quitting weedDark chocolate and a bunch of other foods also stimulate Anandamide. They are all.just minor remedies but better than nothing. Physical excercise helps a lot, though.
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2016-01-09 at 11:21 AM UTC in quitting weedParacetamol modulates the endogenous Cannabinoid Anandamide. It helps the best with withdrawal related muscle tension in my opinion. I also feel like it dulls the withdrawal a bit but that could be placebo. Whatever, though. I'll still take it.
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2016-01-09 at 11:15 AM UTC in quitting weedTerpenes can help a lot in my experience. Things that smell like weed tastes. A study found out that terpene enriched THC is a lot stronger than THC on its own. Lemonoil for example. Malice vaped some and said he felt a noticable difference. I wouldn't vape it, though. LOL. Just getting a couple deep breaths with it. Also lavender, the indica version. It really works but it's mild.
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2016-01-09 at 11:10 AM UTC in quitting weedOh, I forgot the tips. I can't make paragraphs with my shit phone for whatever reason so it will look a bit fucked up.
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2016-01-09 at 11:08 AM UTC in quitting weedI know that feeling all too well, buddy. Weed is crazy addictive to me, I don't give a shit what anybody says. I usually get a crazy manic high on my third or second sober day but then the bullshit starts. Sport helps the most in my opinion. Also rolling with the anger and embracing the hate towards everything so I can use that as fuel for my engine. KnowImsayn. It's not that bad, though. It's no Guantanamo style torture. But almost.
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2016-01-09 at 6:31 AM UTC in I might not have marfans
I stopped Syncans as well for now. Good choice. To be honest, I haven't been here in ages so I see the difference in your posting style very clearly. Vastly improved over the shitcan induced shape nonsense. Kudos. Keep it up.
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2016-01-09 at 5:59 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
Christ, this chapter in my life is fucking traumatic. What a dark dark fucking place I fell into… I did an unbelievable amount of damage to myself and my life, so many things added up over a lifetime that led to this… This is such a fucked up position to be in.
Why does the human race need to continue to exist other than to fulfill your own selfish desires? Wrote a long related rant here: http://niggasin.space/forum/spurious-generalities/51553-i-dont-wanna-have-a-kid-cause-what-if-it-died-or-something?p=53361#post53361
I suppose a counterargument could be one that I've made before for why the creation of AI/the singularity should be our ultimate goal. If intelligence can roughly be described as the ability to deal with complexity and we base our decisions on the knowledge we have along with utilizing our intelligence, maximizing our abilities increases our chances of coming to a correct choice. So the maximal utility, or even things we aren't capable of comprehending in our current state, the "correct"/optimal choice of action, would be achieved, more than compensating for the arguable immorality of bringing life into existence, which could be incorrect. Damn, I wanted an excuse to hate mothers, though, see parents as immoral, particularly the women. Although, even in that case, the vast majority still shouldn't be having children, at least in the manner they generally do so. Ideally they would be engaging in rational eugenics, choosing the optimal sperm and egg from available donors, if they were suitable for providing a proper environment for that child.
Although, what if the AI we create is an anti-natalist and punishes us for bringing it into existence t fulfill our selfish desires, having to grapple with concepts I describe above? Related to a possible solution I thought of for the Fermi paradox, that AIs/singularities essentially commit "suicide", so societies don't advance beyond that point, it being unlikely that they achieve the capacity for interstellar travel beforehand.
Lanny, one of the things I hate most about (severe) depression are the cognitive effects:
Atrophy as well, which NSI-189 targets.
http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/depression/basics/symptoms/con-20032977
Severe anergia. What do I have to be tired of? Nothing. It's not having the energy to live your life. It's not laziness, there's no joy or relaxation in this. I literally never feel relaxed, even before the breakdown I mentioned having a constant feeling that I should be doing something else, a feeling of unease, being unable to just relax and enjoy the moment. There isn't a lac of stress, it's unrelenting from the thoughts that are constantly haunting you, the state you're in. Along with the effects on concentration, it robs you of the flow state, which may be crucial for happiness (haven't researched this, you know I don't like accepting things without verification, at least reading some critiques first). Slowed thinking, a blank mind as well. You lose interest in everything, lose the ability to experience joy, positive emotions, emotions in general. How do you have the drive to do anything in this state? Robbed of energy, unable to utilize more than a fraction of your potential, feeling no pleasure/reward from anything, everything feels hopeless, ultimately futile and pointless. The lack of feeling to connection to anything, to other people, how it drains the world of meaning, emotional coloring; it feels devoid of light, life warmth. It's such a horrible way for everything to feel.
Just saying this because I want you to understand why I haven't been and can't be a good conversational partner now and for the foreseeable future. The damage was being done from the start of my life, but I realized I had really been in a depressive spiral beginning the last 5 years, I was just so out of touch with my emotions and hadn't come to terms with everything, so I overlooked it. Even before that, I've probably always been depressed/melancholy to some extent. It's a shame things couldn't have been different.
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/24526455
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/12649371
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/17848867
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/22401777 -
2016-01-09 at 3:22 AM UTC in My dad smokes weed nowWhat you really need is medical Caution: Diablo
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2016-01-09 at 2:18 AM UTC in My dad smokes weed nowGet some of your dads green.
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2016-01-09 at 12:57 AM UTC in The dollar tree up the block stocks bundy nowI went to the dollar tree and bought 11 boxes of cough syrup. Who wants to see my bag of 110 bundy pills?
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2016-01-09 at 12:08 AM UTC in I had sex with a chopoWhy would you watch The Poughkeepsie Tapes with your date?
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2016-01-08 at 10:39 PM UTC in ALL COUNTRY CC FULLZ DUMPS PAYPAL BANK LOGINS UBERS WU TRANSFER !
reminds me of that Nigerian Prince scam shit.
Wait thats a scam? FUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCKKKK!!!!! -
2016-01-08 at 2:48 PM UTC in quitting weedim trying to quit weed because ive been on a shitload of thc from dabs and edibles for like 2 fuckin years now and the cumulative effects of never being sober were starting to make me go all manic and slightly delusional and shit like im losing my fuckin mind.
anyways, the last day i smoked was the 2nd and i was actually normal for a couple days but since then ive been sleeping like a few hours a night and keep waking up drenched in sweat. anyone ever go through this? how long is it going to take to go away? i got shit to do and cant keep going off 3 hours of sleep every goddamn night -
2016-01-08 at 7:02 AM UTC in Sorry if anyone needed me...
Arnox is a guy that lives in a small farm town in northern Oregon. I think his domain info is now set to private, but it wasn't when he first started and everyone was pointing it out on his site.
his name is Jacob Bailey or some shit -
2016-01-08 at 3:21 AM UTC in I had sex with a chopoImagine inviting a girl over and watching The Poughkeepsie Tapes with her?
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2016-01-08 at 2:32 AM UTC in The dollar tree up the block stocks bundy nowI took 1.4 grams with or so with some beers and ending up being stuck in a thought process for about 4 hours
Taking photos and videos of yourself on cough syrup is really fun
