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2019-10-29 at 12:35 AM UTC in The R'tarded thread: The Shitfucking Edidtion 💩🖕Basically it's get any job at all and go outside to social events. I guess I knew this already, and I'm also the laziest person in the world. Either I will make something of myself and start working out and become Chad, or I'll live a shitty life of being a homeless holding up signs for crackmony. The first one sounds better. Whenever I'm sober for 2 days I start whining about how badly I've cucked away many years, around a week sober I start having motivation to do things besides lay down. Drugs have been the #1 causative factor of my failure but being sober is a different kind of hell. Once you ramp up your dopamine production to 500%, even being at the regular 100% never feels like enough. It's a permanent anhedonia. The substance abuse causes my depression and the depression causes my substance abuse and its an endless cycle of failure. Knowing these things and enacting them is a whole different set of skills that I have not yet mastered.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-10-28 at 8:21 PM UTC in Trump's reaction as he was boo'd at a World Series game.Again, if we could take this discussion to a middle ground like I suggested I think we can all learn from each other and come together.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-10-27 at 1:28 AM UTC in There was an explosion in my town just nowThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-10-26 at 11:43 PM UTC in The longest thread on the internet! Free custom LOLcats inside! Ask within!
Originally posted by CASPER what a breath of fresh air. Mmmmmm.
https://imgur.com/WQBJFtz
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2019-10-26 at 7:17 AM UTC in Unban wallhungGoodnight. Sweet dreams, sleep well.
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2019-10-26 at 6:54 AM UTC in Poast Asks Lanny The Big Questions
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2019-10-26 at 4:41 AM UTC in my gay porn related to the policeMy gay porn related to ur mom:
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2019-10-25 at 6:29 PM UTC in The R'tarded thread: The Shitfucking Edidtion 💩🖕I feel good today too. Hung out with my mom and sister some more last night, washed my comforter and linens which were overdue. Got some new CBD oil which was long overdue. Havent smoked any weed in like 2 weeks which I've definitely noticed i dont feel quite as overall just groggy and lazy all day. Have a nice little night planned for after work today.
Decided on my costume for the dance party on Halloween next week. It's really boring I'm gonna go with my sister and I'm gonna be shaggy and she's gonna be scooby doo. If Shannon decides to come she will have to choose between Daphne or Velma.
Cleaned my apartment but not my bathroom or bedroom (I will tackle those soon). And yeah. Circular circular all good things. :) -
2019-10-24 at 9:11 AM UTC in Poast Asks Lanny The Big QuestionsThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-10-22 at 5:43 AM UTC in My goalMy goal is to throw out those frozen dinners in my freezer cuz they suck and i am not going to eat them. It will help because I will have more room in the freezer.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-10-21 at 6:17 PM UTC in The R'tarded thread: The Shitfucking Edidtion 💩🖕The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-10-21 at 2:38 PM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)
Originally posted by CASPER It doesnt sound like many of you are practicing recovery.
As your collective father, i am disappoint.
I met my father and brother at an AA meeting last Thursday for the first time ever. My brother was stoked and my father was too busy rambling about God to take much interest at first but he wants us to schedule a more private meeting. Not sure if I'm doing the right thing or not.
Also in the past month I've drank exactly one canned margarita and smoked weed twice so I'm not doing too bad. -
2019-10-21 at 10:38 AM UTC in Bad body, bad legs, no ass, great boobs, ok faceSounds like he's assessing a veteran after an IED
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2019-10-16 at 3:06 AM UTC in Birthing an assbaby on the toilet rnTechnically, that assbaby is now a US citizen.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-10-15 at 10:09 PM UTC in I have renounced my degenerate, western, tranny ways.And converted to Islam.
I'm growing my beard out and have been going to the local mosque every Friday. Sudo inspired me, and when I read the words of the prophet Mohammed (PBUH) I knew that I had made many mistakes. I will do right by God and live a good life, and hopefully be able to make amends for the transgressions the jedis deceived me into committing, inshallah.
الله أكبرThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-10-15 at 5:10 PM UTC in How many scars do you have?I only broke one bone it was my collarbone when I was tackling this 5th grader when I was a 3rd grader. It didnt hurt but when I started to get up I could feel the bone moving and I was like AHHHHHHHH!! and layed back down. Then Gretchen my crush totally came over and started trying to help me and I took advantage of it and kissed her on the cheek. Then somehow my dad just happened to be driving by and saw me and helped me get into his car and I had to lay all crumpled up in this weird position in order to make my bone not hurt and he drove me to the hospital and i got a sling and didnt have to go to school for a few days and I remember sitting at home pretending I was in such misery and totally helpless and made my mom cook me pizza rolls and bring them to me like I was a King. Haha.
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2019-10-15 at 2:46 AM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)CASPER gont, I needed that, thank you
I've been doing meth everyday now for I don't even know, what a week straight by now? Maybe more? And before that it's been off and on basically since I started college, so like 2 months or more even though it's sent me to the ER, made me feel like I can't visualize things in my head much, and feeling like it is definitely pushing me over that extremely thin and incredibly close line I walk with schizophrenia that I haven't been giving the respect it deserves.
I sit here on the end of a week long bender, not getting any of my school work done ever since I started this crap with the intention of it HELPING me study harder and longer, and I hear cops with drug dogs outside my windows, people talking about me on the street all week (some of them probably actually were because I'm high on meth :crazyfaceemoji:), and right now this piercingly high pitched ringing coming through my earbuds as intermittent radio chatter from the authorities. I pray to God the voices go away when I'm sober, because they were sticking around to some effect the last time I quit using it until they started to reside with lots of effort and time until I picked up the glass dick again for no good fucking reason.
Uncomfortably waiting to see how many more crazy people pills I need to take so I can go to bed and try again tomorrow. I've only gone through give or take half a gram this week and I already feel shot, and somehow lost muscle and seemed to have gained fat, which is impossible but it happened.
I've come to accept finally that I have straight up brain damage, which is sexy, and pain that gets better and worse but never goes away, which is hawt, and I have to learn how to deal with those things because I have no other choice besides killing myself, and those are the only two options I have forever, so I better master the art of being with my pain in the moment and doing the best I can in spite of it.
I'm feeling a little better now; my head's killing me like none other, but at least the new neighbors seem to be winding the party down somewhat. Might even get a little reading done after a couple more serries. I'm grateful to live in a country where I get to work in the field of thought that interests me, where I'm not forced to be an accountant or something equally boring that I don't care about and neither does anyone else. I wish I didn't ruin my life, but I did, and in a way I saved it because if I didn't go down the path I did, I never would have had that breakthrough, nor self actualization, nor recovery and met the people I met and made the decision to go get what I want out of life, which is the ultimate work in progress.
My chest hurts like fucking hell now, that always happens on meth. My counselor (who's rich and famous and wears gucci) said they told her if she didn't quit doing meth and barfing she was a gonna get a hole in her esophagus and die. I haven't gone to hardly any meetings since I got out of IOP, and I obviously need to go again based on how bad I relapsed. Things I can start doing tomorrow are mindfulness, meditations, and meth.
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2019-10-15 at 12:05 AM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)feels
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2019-10-14 at 10:48 AM UTC in What do you call a dumb, fat, ugly nigger retarded black skinned coon?
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2019-10-13 at 1:53 PM UTC in The R'tarded thread: The Shitfucking Edidtion 💩🖕fucking lol at the pterodactyl looking/honking directly into the camera in the second shot
