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2018-12-15 at 1:38 PM UTC in Some O.G. Totseans - Chime up if you know what they up to or if you happen to be them with a new usernameMakes me sad that I never posted pictures, but I was way too self conscious, ironically, I WISH I still looked that fucking good. Rofl.
I never felt particularly paranoid over the years about what I posted. Maybe I should've been, but I always figured it would be extremely difficult for any authority entity to prove any of the things discussed on the forums. And most of the things I discussed early on were about personal drug use. If I'd been posting regular, detailed info from 2006-2017 it might be different, but I've always been fairly careful about stuff I've leaked. Only 3 or 4 users know my PI in all these years, and I've been petty selective about them. That coupled with the fact that I've helped out financially and otherwise a good deal of peeps, and sent gifts and samples to a fair number more. In short- I'm a decent dude, and you'd have to be a grade A faggot to try to fuck me over.
Talking to 4J the other day, I started looking over the archives and it occurred to me that all these meet ups and disparate stories might be really interesting condensed into a sort of documentary. A time capsule of the internet in its golden years. And in light of the culture that's taken root in the internet at large, it all becomes relevant again. With. Free speech in jeopardy, perhaps small isolated pockets of discussion on the dark web becomes the new title, etc. idk...but it's interesting to ponder. -
2018-12-15 at 1:23 PM UTC in Some O.G. Totseans - Chime up if you know what they up to or if you happen to be them with a new usernameI guess I've been here since 2003 or 2004. Just since I barely had a personality IRL, I didn't have much of one in the forums either. Mostly lurking and hanging around BLTC. I only remember Rizzo and Hazey from when Meta was modding. That's about it. Meta banned them (probably for good reason lol), and I started some kind of stupid internet protest in he vein of a middle school walkout to try to have them "freed" from internet jail.
Dose me.
The list of people I posted in TRT the other day.
Fractals
Gg4
I wish I would've known zoklet was going to close so I could've gone through my PMs and archived stuff. At the time, I was getting regular pussy for the first time ever and going to community college, so I kinda forgot about the forums. By the time I went back, everything was already shit down.
I'm usually so good at remembering names. But there was one guy in particular that I kept in touch with for 8 or so years. He was in culinary school and worked as a cook, but he was also really bad into shooting oxy and stuff. Ended up doing 3 1/2 years, and I spoke to him when he got out. About a year after that, his Facebook or whatever had pictures of him fishing on the beach with his kids, having a barbecue, steering a sailboat... Christmas morning with all his dad gifts. It was nice to see, especially since the number of people I know irl who've actually managed to get clean is like...1. -
2018-12-15 at 1:07 PM UTC in Some O.G. Totseans - Chime up if you know what they up to or if you happen to be them with a new username
Originally posted by gadzooks Yeah, I suppose the exclusivity is kind of a benefit. We get a certain degree of privacy and healthy seclusion.
I can't imagine posting somewhere like (at least on a regular basis) 4chan or Reddit, where by the time you type your post, 50 other replies to the same post you're replying to have been posted.
Originally posted by Rizzo in a box have you never had a heroin addicted girlfriend? my last serious girlfriend (its been a few years) I basically got addicted to heroin and had a total junkie relationship with. it was great and terrible, but mostly terrible (and great). got introduced to her through a friend that I was selling acid to while I was homeless (the acid I was supposed to send to a &t user in aus), he fucking warned us at the beginning: "don't cheat on him," and "don't get her addicted to heroin". took us like two years before his warnings really made sense but the damage was done. wonder how things would have turned out if we weren't both total shitheads, in a better world we would be happy together instead of completely fucked up individually. I think that I'm in a bad place sometimes and then someone shows me her social media - no mercy for traitors, but damn, she's not doing too good.
Bonnie and Clyde is great but remember - there is no honor among thieves.
lol I was gonna say....it's not all it's cracked up to be, stupid 15 year old me saw something romantic and tragically beautiful in junkie drama like Requiem.... but when you live it yourself, you kind of just want to throw yourself in front of a train. -
2018-12-12 at 5:57 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by Ghost Vaping nic salts sub ohm kinda feels like doing a hit of crack cocaine
Lol maybe that explains it. I don't even smoke anymore, but I was like "shit...free vape" and bought a pack of pods. Got me all dizzy like the first time you smoke.
Originally posted by Cro Mango You can vap3nnic salts with a breeze too.
But anyone bitching about that is missing the point. Juuls are just straight up ridiculously convenient to keep and use. I even have some THC juul pods for when I don't want to carry my vape.
It really is. One of the THC pods can last me like 2 weeks. -
2018-12-12 at 4:56 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by GGG Nigga why. That shit is weak as fuck. Get a breeze or something. It hits a lot harder for a fraction of the price. I haven't even spent 75 on nic in the last month. 30 for the month.
I've heard from a few people that the juul pods use nicotine salt something or other that satisfies nicotine cravings more like a cigarette. I found a juul in an uber a few months ago. Shits a cool size. But the pods are stupid expensive,
Ayo weese you know you can refill the pods right? -
2018-12-12 at 4:20 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by DietPiano Yeah, I asked lanny to let me tstm a couple times cause my laptop was seized.
Mdmda lsd dmt opce, 3meo pcp, 3ho pcp, T-PAIN, 2 bags mr baggie (sploo brand spice), and my old scripts of zenzedi, xanax, and viagra. Small qty's all.
There are 5 counts (I don't know which ones exactly are counted), so it seems as though the rc's are not necessarily getting hurting me, which is interesting because some of those may not have ever been involved in a legal case for user level in the US. I think it's peculiarities with my scripts for xanax and viagra that are being tagged for count 4 & 5.
That's actually not too bad. Any lawyer worth half a shit could argue all that stuff is for personal use, and the scale necessary for the delicate nature of RC dosages. Count on probably doing some anti drug classes, etc, -
2018-12-12 at 5:33 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by GGG Oh shit nigga. I wish you luck.
Which drugs were you charged with? Did they get any mixups? I remember bradleyb got charged for methamphetamine with some rc he was selling. I don't remember if it stuck but I don't think it did, though he got hit with other shit.
Speaking of Bradley bee, is he still around? I was just going through my list of stand-up comedy ideas, and one of my best "bits" came from him.
It's occurred to me that stand-up comedians are kind of "my people" . Wish I would've known that earlier. I get jealous of the kid of friendships that people like Bill burr, Joe rogan, Joey diaz, Bert kreischer, Bobby lee, Tom segura, etc...seen to have. comedians are generally slightly above average intelligence, introverted, drug using, cynics who care a lot about people close to them. I've considered trying stand up somewhere. Id like a group of friends like that.. You all do coke together in some weird brothel built in what looks to be an old roller disco, and then some guy pulls a gun because one of the chicks has a dick and when everyone laughs at him, he starts getting violent, so you hitch a ride and decide to sleep in the parking lot at the venue. And one of the guys is really starting to edge into alcoholism so they stage an intervention and say if you don't get your sh It together, were going to have to stop texting you when we go to the bathroom to do coke.
*sigh*
Must be nice having friends -
2018-12-12 at 5:25 AM UTC in What keeps YOU from getting on that bus?
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2018-12-12 at 4:42 AM UTC in What keeps YOU from getting on that bus?Kind of what mq said....I remember a time when my brain chemistry was "right" and I was active and articulate and inspired, creative, spontaneous. I keep thinking that maybe when I get my shut together, I'll be okay again. I also acknowledge that I've barely given life a shot. I know I'm capable of finishing school. I know I'm capable of running a business. I know I have more than average empathy for people, and I genuinely like helping people. I know at the very least I'm above average intelligence wise. For all his rhetoric, malice refused to engage with life and people around him, and take the steps needed to live a fulfilling life. Then again his brain chemistry was kinda fucked too.
Idk. There's a Remington 870 and a box of #4 shot shells in my closet. There's that lingering feeling that I might be okay again, and that if I dont wait long enough, I might miss out. But if there comes a day where I'm fairly certain that's no longer the case, I'll rent a car, pack up my stuff, find a quiet spot somewhere with a view, wrap a towel and a tarp around my head and duct tape it there (since it seems so selfish to leave that gross mess for someone to have to clean up), and punch my ticket. And it won't be a sad thing. It'll just mean I'm too tired to do this anymore. But mostly I think people who are this depressed just don't have the energy to Do the things that will actually make you happy.
As shortlived as it was, just spending nights in bed with the girl I was with, and talking about kids and life and being a weird introverted kid...did wonders for my headspace. It's so easy to feel disconnected and inhuman and unhappy when you're disconnected and out of touch with everything around you. I've come to understand that happiness isn't something you just stumble into. It's lazy and selfish and natural to feel this way. But health and happiness is something you have to actively work towards and I think that's what Malice just couldn't wrap his head around. He was so furious at the injustice of life, like an incel furious at the world at large. But the truth was, he didn't try. I tried to connect with him. Others did too. It was too much effort for him. -
2018-12-12 at 4:20 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by DietPiano awee, thanks my nigga!
I asked lanney a couple times to let me tstm bc uhh
it's uhh, I mean I've gone into a lot of detail, but it probably isn't the best idea for me to keep doing so. They took a lot of fucking things
i had to buy a new laptop
i hd a gemeni 20 and capsules which dont mk me look particulary more upward bbbouwnd
Let's talk about golf
If it's first time and you're in canada, unless you go to court with a sweater with a piece of mistletoe hanging that says "GIVE It a KISS", an arrow pointing down and your dick sticking out of your pants, adorned in a bow, you'll likely get a few hundred dollars fine, 2 or 3 years of probation and maybe some kind of drug education class.
Golf has too much fucking walking. The carts are cool, but they frown upon open containers in the golf cart. -
2018-12-12 at 3:46 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by DietPiano I use to have the pharmacy special order me the Greenstone bars bc they are the Pfizer authorized generic version of Xanax. Sandoz were pretty good too, but they weren't scored on each side. After a while all I would get were the Actavis, or whatever the yellow ones are. They're all basically the same, I mean people who swear that one is terribly different then the other are neurotic fucks who post on prescription forums all day talking about how Lexapro gives them a weird rash every other Tuesday.
The only exception is that I had those Mexican made Dava Green bars which were scored into thirds, which is retarded, and those didn't work for crap on me, even though Generation Zanax claims the "Green Hulks" are like the strongest. I refused those.
I think a lot about like highly educated people in the pharma industry who make presentations to push doctors to prescribe drugs like Adderall and Xanax, knowing that each of these drugs have probably like a 50% incidence of abuse among users. Maybe more. IMO it's fucking retarded to prescribe d and/or l-amph to kids (as young as 6) because they don't care about school. Also prescribing Xanax to people with general/social anxiety (especially bars) is retarded and damning to the individual. Only for panic attacks does it make medical sense.
By all means, bar/speed out all you want, but prescribing the aforementioned in the name of "treating mental illness" is bullshit and makes a mockery of the medical and psychiatric community. This is coming coming from a guy who had 8mg Xanax/day & 30mg Zenzedi/ potentially 40-90mg Adderall IR/day script (I refused to higher on Adderall bc I hated taking it for daily use. It utterly fucked my entire body even on low doses).
Yeah everyone around here would only buy the yellows and "hulks". And my connect admitted to me that he was pressing the greens (which aside from the hardness of the filler and the fact that one pull would put a 350 lb grown man in a 4 hour coma...were almost indistinguishable from the realsies) and ended up offering them to me for $1 each -
2018-12-12 at 3:39 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by DietPiano Got raided. We may be heading into new legal territory regarding WEEJDSRCH CMCHIHCALLLS. I'm gauging that it's unlikely that users will be charged for gray area ones at the moment.
I have 5 counts, 3 were added recently after chem analysis. It's probably not gonna be terrible, maybe just probe, but they may or may not be trying to nix the deal w/ the add'l counts. I can push it off till after the holidays, but then a sentence could potentially prevent me from going to school, so I'm going to have it filed now so I get on with my life.
Ugh. Ouch. As quick as my money is going, the one thing that gives me comfort is that out of the 7 persons in my extended network, 5 got raided in the same week, and one for picked up being stupid and on a probation violation. I pretty much cut anchor, backed up texts and contacts to an encrypted microsd, changed numbers and changed hotels. Some of the offers made to me by the upper end of the logistical management were tempting, but shit just isn't enjoyable anymore. Benefit doesn't outweigh the time and stress and incidental bullshit.
What are the lying bastards claiming you did/had? If u need a character witness i gotchu. Fat Rambo will write you hella references. -
2018-12-11 at 6:50 PM UTC in My daughter just died
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2018-12-11 at 6:48 PM UTC in My guy hooks me up with $50 quads of high grades...YALL NIGGAS EVER EAT A THREE MEAT SAUSAGE?
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2018-12-11 at 6:47 PM UTC in TFW You Realize EVERYONE On Here is an Alt (Solipsism-maxxing)
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2018-12-11 at 5:28 PM UTC in So with all this opiod crisis bullshit...Fentanyl Wasn't awful IMO. Or maybe my drug addled brain just was grasping at whatever I could do that wasn't my DOC.
That said, I'd say there's some truth to both arguments ( fentanyl vs. crisis in general). I've talked to some of my suppliers back in the day, and he way they tell it, while heroin used to be a mostly east coast thing, the cartels wouldn't look a gift horse in the mouth, and the popularity and overzealous prescription of hydrocodone and eventually oxycodone really tilled the fields for a fantastic new crop of junkies. After 9/11, law enforcement was on high alert for any shifty looking brown folk, so instead of just moving drugs from the hood into the fringes of the suburbs, they actually set up shop there. In Denver and Oklahoma City, Austin, Portland, Lincoln and Seattle, they began buying property....in some cases paying passable, healthy junkies that they already knew, to be the homeowner of record in these new cities. These became their suburban hubs. Cheap, potent tar even started edging out ECP in some of its own markets. People who would otherwise have passed on needle drugs, opted to experiment with smoking the stuff. When Purdue changed their oxy formulation and demand was suddenly skyrocketing, their were millions of unknowing addicts suddenly in the crosshairs. Many people who started finishing their scripts early began buying from friends, and eventually from the people those friends bought from. So part of the stigma of buying "street drugs" was diminished. Mexican heroin was a fraction of the price, far more effective. Before "black tar heroin" became a household name, I even saw it marketed as other things. The first 3 or 4 times I did it, I was told it was "opium" (although it did taste very different. Maybe it was - who knows?).
In the fentanyl front, black market synthesis and availability on the dark web means that even mid level dealers have been able to whip up their own artisANAL batches of "China white". The people closer to the cartels have had some basic guidance as to know what to use, and in which doses, mix the fent into a solution to dose it volumetrically, and then mix thoroughly to avoid hotspots. Those without that input are often inattentive to the fact that different analogues have different potencies, and end up buying whatever is cheapest at the time, or whatever they can afford. For $300 you can grab 5 grams of acrylfentanyl, furanyl fentanyl or one of its other analogues. And with corn starch, microcellulose, Calcium tablets, quinine, mannitol, elmers glue, lidocaine or even OTC benzocaine gel, cheesecloth, a bench vise, and the kind of vacuum over you'd use to make weed "shatter", you can crank out 10-15 ounces of "high quality" heroin that they'll then turn around and sell for at least 1500- if not 1800-2000 retail.
In other words, the people who have access to this shit are becoming less and less informed.
Without some major changes, I don't see this going anywhere anytime soon. -
2018-12-11 at 5:09 PM UTC in So with all this opiod crisis bullshit...
Originally posted by Rizzo in a box legalize opium, no one will even care about heroin. would really like to just throw a little opium in a bowl of weed.
but that's basically free painkillers and cuts out billions and billions of dollars
I mean, you'd still have needle freak junkies shooting grams of skag into their eyeballs but a huge swath of opiate users would be well served by just having their own opium garden. no more withdrawals either, just go for a walk and make sure to smell the flowers.
The Sacklers just put out a $150,000 hit on you.
Originally posted by Rizzo in a box I think that one problem that you see when you get more and more powerful drugs is that that it can be pretty hit/miss on the specific results you wanted but it's going to be strong regardless. heroin is pretty nice but it is stronger and it really fucks with you, your hormones, your normal state of being, you get a prolactin hangover. maybe you didn't really need to be THAT high though. maybe just a little to make you feel more comfortable, make up for the lack of natural options get the endorphins flowing in the modern world.
fentanyl isn't even fun. it's fucking shitty, you get all the negative effects (itchy, dumb & drowsy, nauseous, etc) and barely any of the euphoria. sure, if you're an addict it's better than suicide or whatever - but this is NOT better living through chemistry. this is mass produced poison.
why can't I have my own garden with some opium, peyote, coca, tobacco, weed, whatever else? The natural forms are not necessarily "safe" in some absolute sense, but compared to these ridiculous synthetic drugs that are hundreds and thousands times more potent than anything found in nature…I dunno. Heroin use would drop like 60% if opium was legal to grow and use in small amounts.
of course you get problems like well then people could just make their own heroin…that's true, those people already can, and we also have general rules against doing potentially dangerous or toxic shit with chemicals regardless of the nature of the project. I think the few people making their own dope would pale in comparison to sad 19 year old junkies using needles suddenly harvesting a little neighborhood garden opium to put in their smoke session with friends.
I tried several times to grow Mother Geckos somniferum seeds to no avail. CA isn't very hospitable to those varieties for some reason. -
2018-12-11 at 4:56 PM UTC in My daughter just died
Originally posted by -SpectraL
With as anti PI and pro-anonymity as you are, I. Surprised you don't do 4chan.
I've never actually posted there, but had considered doing so, purely based on the fact that they seem to have much more IRL involvement in pop culture, media, politics. And the breadth of knowledge and discussion is actually pretty robust, even when it's diluted by 60% shitposting. -
2018-12-11 at 4:47 PM UTC in Is §m£ÂgØL the dumbest user on this site?Fix'd
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2018-12-11 at 4:08 PM UTC in TFW You Realize EVERYONE On Here is an Alt (Solipsism-maxxing)
Originally posted by -SpectraL Doesn't really matter. The whole site is a SG-fest anyways.
Spectral, are you ever happy? When the guys were doing dumb shit and drinking in the assembly, did you tell the security guard because that kind of stuff is against the rules? I've "known" you for over a decade now, and you strike me as desperately unhappy. You and DaGuru... "And".
